>be 12 year old boy>somewhat weird and knew something was up>have unrestricted access to the internet>17 year old starts talking to me>ffw a year and we're together>gets me into ryona>we break up later because the age gap got weird>spend my formative years fantasizing about being brutalized>my body being cut up, bruised, beat>troon out at 16>the gore throughts subside>24 now>happy relationship>have a stable job>regained contact with the guy>the thoughts are back stronger than ever>the diy orchi looks so appealing nowi dont even know if i should look for help or something im just sort of ventingthinking if the trans thoughts are part of a fetish or not
>>43473093>happy relationship>regainrd contact with the guy This is the part I call cap on lol. If ur happy, why would u do that
>>43473190we play vrchat together and i stumbled upon him sort of by accidentwe are on good terms and my relationship is open
>>43473194Ah. Open relationship. You were cooked from the start
>>43473205it really did help my relationship so far though, i guess it works for some, don't write it off completelywe are both happy with each other and emotionally exclusive to each other
>>43473215You’re both bottoms most likely. That’s why
>>43473217we are two switches, so really good matchit doesn't even matter really
>>43473093>>we break up later because the age gap got weirdbrainworms