That same girl from work rode the bus with me again.She started harassing me about my self esteem again, saying that Im not a hon and that Im a in her words cute dorky transfemme. She said with the clothes I wear I look like a faggot that lives in a library, and she said its really cute how much I gush about my CRTV PC setup.I kept trying to defend my manmode, went down the list of masculine traits I have, and how its over because I don't pass.She demanded that I say I am a good girl, and she demanded that I say it while looking her directly in the eyes, and desu. I don't know if it was because I had a woman verbally harassing me into petplay self affirmation in public, or if it was the actual act of having to affirm myself in public but I got a massive adrenaline rush from saying it. She passed me a stuffed animal she apparently brought along for this after yesterday to hold after this.I noticed that after doing so my body language had collapsed massively inwards, and I had a pleasant fuzzy feeling under my ribcage and in my upper thighs.She pointed out that same body language and said that I might say that Im big, and I might be 6' tall but Im actually small inside.She then gave me a hug and I was too out of it for the rest of the bus ride to talk much. I feel like I was only so vulnerable to being pushed on this stuff so easily because Im in the middle of swapping meds so Im still vulnerable to sappy shit like feelings in the meantime.I don't know how to feel about not being completely locked down, and I really don't know how to feel about someone who I met so recently trying to fix my self esteem problems.
>>43473162this is the sort of behavior that would have forced me further into repressionif you're not comfortable with it by all means tell her to back off, your gender and transition are your business and at your pace
>>43473162larprandom events like this don't actually happen in the real world, the outside is just work and underwhelming planned social gatherings at venues
>>43473162If this isn't a larp, then you're a massive idiot
>>43473303Its not :/I dont really have the words to say how desperate for validation I am irl. Its been months since Ive had sex, and its been over a year since I was referred to as a woman. So having someone suddenly show up and start validating me...
>>43473162these larp posts are fun until you meet a girl like this in real life and realize she's just grooming you to top her and you'll get cast aside for having bottom dysphoria
>>43473162>transfemmeshe wants you dead
>>43473289my gf does stuff like this but we've already been dating for several months, I'm not sure if she would have been brave enough to do it the second time she saw me. She was pretty forward though, and has been with some of my friends as well.
