>be me, 19 year old tranny>life is shit, there's like 3 people i have irl who give a fuck about me and two of them only like me out of bpd and the third doesnt even like me and only gives a fuck because he's dating the other two>genuine retard, have zero useful skills, dont even pass>start having severe hallucinations and delusions about 3 months ago>had a massive personality shift about a year ago>now going to the doctors in two hours to be checked if im schizo because im probably schizo>probably going to be a schizophrenic retard with no prospects for my future and no real skills with no reasons to liveanons should i go into a forest and kill myself so i stop making the lives of those around me worse. only those three people would miss me and theyd all get over it
>>43475170Make their lives worse so they can never truly forget you
>>43475186theyre good people they dont deserve that
>>43475198Then why present the option?
>>43475205I misread it… i thought you said make their lives worse anyway just wait and see if youre schizo or not desu you’re only 19 you the prime time of your life for clubbing and partying might as well do that to pass the time
>>43475217i do a ton of drugs to pass the time anyways im just sick of being broken and making people's lives worse
>>43475230you should stop doing drugs and be my gf
>>43475263im not big on sex :/
>>43475230I wish i could tell you what to do but im lowkey just as broken as you although most of what eats at me is parental issues and i don’t really use drugs for it
>>43475278it would help u feel better and wanted
>>43475287mine stems from parental issues i think to be honest i just cant get therapy because i get scared my therapist will kill themself like my last one
>>43475288every time i try i get so severely reminded i look like a man that i have a suicide attempt
>>43475297Fuck that sounds awesome I wish I could get therapists psychologists and other cogs in the system to kill themselves
>>43475297>>43475305these are OP btw sorry i forgot to readd it
>>43475310its not he directly blamed my issues in the note because they were so disturbing and i still havent gotten over it. i dont really open up to anyone now
>>43475297Im scared of therapy too i just don’t want people to know to much about me it’s scary honestly but maybe we can make it nona i hope you can find some semblance of peace and don’t have schizophrenia gl nona<3
>>43475323thank you anon, your comfort means a lot
>>43475305you need to associate being tenderly fucked with your feminine
>>43475330i really dont want to, sex makes me feel gross
>>43475412itll be good for you
>>43475464stable income and people who care about me would be good for me, you just want to date a tranny
>>43475479this is OP again i keep forgetting to do it sorry
>>43475322Holy fucking shit if real
>>43475521it wasnt even bc i was a bad person i just made him insanely depressed because of my mental health issues
>>43475263what>>43475288the>>43475330fuck>>43475464anon>>43475170nona, i know its hard right now, but im sure itll get better eventually. im getting tested for stpd right now. youre not alone in this <3
>>43475646thanks anon. its nice to not be alone
>>43475479i wanna marry a tranny>>43475646shut up pussy
>>43475927no one actually wants to marry trannies lolall of you will leave the moment a real woman comes your way
>>43475170if you are schitzo they will give you antipsychotics and then you won't really have the ability to care about anything, so it will be ok
>>43476023my bf got super drunk and he kept saying "I wanna marry you" drunkenly.
>>43475927why, we're disgusting>>43476023youre right anon>>43476070no it wont i wont be me then ill stop being me>>43476300lucky you but its not gunna be like that for me
>>43476704mmhmm ull be a little mind broken tranny barely able to comprehend the world.
>>43476753i dont want that i just want to be happy and have someone love me who doesnt just want me for the fact im a tranny. i want to be worth something more than just my disgusting body. i want to do something other than shut myself in my room and abuse xanax
theyre all yelling at me for being scared that ill be locked in a psych ward forever. i was right, i should just kill myself.
>Bawww, I've been handed the ability to have waking hallucinations and an infinite amount of artistic resources
>>43476780Why the fuck do you people always want someone to love you?It's so goddamn universal and I just don't care. I don't want anyone to love me. Shit's disgusting. I'll take friendship at best.
>>43476923You literally cannot afford a psych ward.
>>43475170I don't like what is implied by the original image :(
>>43475170Poor OP. Luckily, you don't need skills in today's economy. You just need to be able to show up.I have some skills, but I don't like thinking while at work, so I became a janitor seven years ago. I've stuck at it, and not I work for the public school district, in a union position, with good benefits and guaranteed pay raises every year. Plus I see people every day I could build rapport with if I wanted to. (I usually don't.)Your whole life is ahead of you, and taking medication every day is no biggie. Literally give it five years, become a regular at some bar or hobby shop, and you'll be alright.
>>43475170yeah sure go ahead