I think I have manmoded the longest of anyone here. I started hrt at 17 and I've been on and off hrt since then and I still live present as a man at age 34. I live in daily intense mental anguish.
>>43478898>on and off hrt since then adisqualification
>>43478898why thono money for surgery?
>>43479373cowardice, laziness, executive dysfunction, unmedicated adhd, very traumatic childhood and adolescence, 6'2, broad shouldered, deep voice, extremely malebrained
>>43478898Have you not girlmoded at least once in public?
>>43479483No, the only women's clothes I have are binders
>>43478898>same age>started hrt 5.5y ago>stealthoid>living fulltime since 2023when you want it you make it happenyou had the chance of starting hrt at 17 and you still fucked up
>>43479492I don't understand how you could have started hrt at 17 and not even bought anything to try in private
>>43479558I have tried things in private, I've never done it in public. I used to have some girl clothes but they've been thrown away, it was pointless to have them
>>43479548what's your height though
>>43479568Do you have any LGBT venues nearby? You could be a gigahon there and no one would care
>>43479612what would be the point though
>>43479578way shorter than 6'2" but i also started hrt 10 years later compared to op
>>43479636anon height is far more important for passability than the age you started hrt
>>43479635So you do have one nearby? Is it a quieter type of place?
>>43479727I live near a major city in us so I'm sure theres places like that ,but why would I go to one
>>43479743So you can try girlmoding in a 'public' but safe place to see how it makes you feel
>>43479790It will just highlight how disgusting and unfeminine I am
>>43479819And people won't care and you can work on it
>>43479859Then I'd be locked to only being allowed to express myself that way among very accepting lgbt people. Regular people would be disgusted by me
>>43479680If you are really pretty height doesn't matter.
>>43479870You also unlock a new freedom in how you want to express yourself and to practice things you want to work on. And if it helps to relieve your daily mental anguish then its worth it
>>43478898>on and off hrtYou may aswell have never started. HRT takes time to start working and thats only if youre on a steady dose. grim
>>43479954I have fairly big tits, bigger than most mtfs I've seen so it seemed to have worked well enough>>43479919I'm tall and ugly>>43479942I'm self sabotaging and make endless excuses, it's just not going to happen. I'm a shit person
>>43480029It's just one option. You don't have to go right away and it's normal to feel scared about it, you don't have to beat yourself up over it
>>43480029Are you also fat?
>>43478898>I started hrt at 17 and I've been on and off hrt since then and I still live present as a man at age 34. I live in daily intense mental anguish.damn, i think you beat me, i started at 16 and am manmoding at 31
