Another day, another new connection torpedoed because of my avoidant personality disorder.To everyone I've wronged, I'm sorry I'm like this.
>>43480576i can help you practice
>>43480576sameI wish I knew how to not be like this
>>43480595not when I ghost you because I'm afraid of being exposed for the fucked up, inadequate weirdo I am!
>>43480633i would understand and not hold it against you
i am 29 years old and have never had a job and i dont leave my house and im afraid of everybody
>>43480659what exactly would practicing entail, anyway
>>43480595>saviour complexyou can’t save everyone
>>43480576yeah living like this is hell i cant see any way out other than suicide
>>43480576i wish everyday my avpd friend came back, i'm sorry you guys deal with this.
>>43480576I like rejecting all connections actually. its good to be alone
>>43480576thats crazy i also just ghosted someone because i couldnt handle the pressure of talking to them and the possibility of them not liking me haha
>>43480685hello me
>>43480576I have avpd. Just start grinding social skills on normies and pivot ro cluster B. It sounds crazy but no one likes you anyway, so be the energy vampire you were born to be.
>>43480753keep reaching out to them.
>>43480959they deleted all their accounts, i never had their number. i wish i could.
>>43480992me omw to remove all my friends and make an alt account for the 10th time
>>43481185>doesnt already have the alt account ready to go and joined into all your favorite servers
help I keep running away from anyone I ever show interest in because the possibility that they're interested back in my is terrifying
>>43480749this. i got raped as a kid and that kind of ruined my ability to function. now im this fake person that has spent the past 10 years sitting in a room on the computer, all of high school, plus a half decade since. ive never worked, never done shit. but against all instincts i decided to add the most beautiful girl id ever seen from passgen and she added me back. we hit it off and have grown as close as two people can over the internet, as she is in a similar (though less severe) position of solitude. she wants me to travel to her country to be with her and want this with every part of my soul but i cant take care of my basic tasks of living and am high every waking moment. even if i worked up all the nerve on earth and didnt have a breakdown on my first flight (it'd be international), id become an immense burden on her. or, sooner or later, she will get tired of waiting for me and will grow to hate me for having her waste her time. i have never felt so corned, it really feels like there is only one way to make all of this right. to end with my relationship still positive and happy. part of me is so sad we will never get to be together because I AM SO SICK OF BEING ALONE but i just cant pull myself together enough for this and cannot handle losing the only person ive ever felt comfortable with. i hope she will understand
>>43482247have her come to you and then force you to come back with her. If she ends up hating you she will find out then. Also make sure she is ok with you being like this because being in a relationship isnt gonna fix it. >t. avoidant and ruining a 9 year relationship with my mental illness
>>43480576its okay anons, theres so much fun to be had in the world, you're just not having it because you're stuck in your room, and always will behope i could help
>>43482323what if I could bring the fun to my room?
>>43482323shut up please shut the fuck up
