>tell myself over and over "i'm a man, give it up retard, this shit is pointless, you're making it all up, you're just a fucking normal man">finally start to believe it>immediately relapselmao
>>43491516same i gotta get off the internet
>>43491981its there
I wish I got the involuntary urge to cut myself. I have to put so much deliberate effort into cutting myself that im too tired and depressed to even make myself do it most times.
>>43491516I feel the exact same way, I tell myself I will always be a guy so its better to just make peace with it
>>43492924i wish i had the involuntary urge to act like a woman rather than trying to force it then cutting myself for being a faker later ^_^
>>43491516I told myself this for years after finding out what transition was. Dumbest fucking waste of time ever. I was thinking to myself the other day randomly as a man was absolutely plowing the shit out of me grabbing my breasts and calling me a good girl that wow I'm just a man that everyone assumes is some woman and that's infinitly better than being a man who's obsessed over becoming a woman.
>>43492962just admitting to being a deceiver lmao
>>43492962Glad you are living my dream it must be nice but I will never be a woman, what I feel can be overcome and I will be a normal guy eventually if I ignore the yearning long enough (not op btw)
op here, i meant relapsing into self harm, not into thinking i'm a woman. every time i start convincing myself that i'm not a woman i immediately start cutting again
>>43492990That's only happened a handful of times. Usually guys I date always know in advance that I used to be a boy.
>>43493006Gross and lame. Cutting yourself because you think it's what girls do and that it's the only thing feminine about yourself is flat out fucking retarded. Like why not just take hrt in private and chill out? Cutting is permanent damage why do that to your poor fucking body???I cry if I get a paper cut or a sunburn and immediately put scar cream all over my body. Your skin is all you own really, take care of your skin and be smooth and flawless
>>43493006We are opposites in a weird way because I am trying to convince myself im not a girl
>>43493026did we need a trashy fucking pussy pic to accompany your post?
>>43492993To add to this I have wanted to be a girl probably for as long as I can remember and to experience all that comes with it so its actually just harder to think about it because it just makes me feel awful but I relapse in a different way where I indulge this side of me
>>43492958Cutting yourself is acting like a woman, its a fembrained activity. Its why I feel ashamed that i have to force myself to cut instead of doing it involuntarily
>>43493026You arent helping anybody, you are just being a complete asshole. You are genuinely disgusting piece of shit for saying that stuff (aswell as posting attentionwhore pics of yourself on someones vent thread)
>>43493193no it isn't you fucking retarded moid
>>43493026i am doing a bad job of explaining myself. i used to cut myself all the time as a teen, after my egg cracked in my early 20s i stopped. i still have not actually transitioned for reasons you can probably guess. every few months i try to "talk myself out of" being trans, and whenever i start to succeed in thinking of myself as a man again, it makes me so miserable i start cutting again.
>>43493274Check yourself into a clinic. Cutting is so unbelievably bad for your mental and physical health. It's the worst thing you can possibly ever do. Don't ruin your chance to ever wear a bikini at the beach, don't deprive yourself of it.
>>43493819>It's the worst thing you can possibly ever doerrrrrrrm no? that's the holocaust actually? why do you hate jews
>>43493822>why do you hate jewsBecause they manipulate the economy and our entire social setting. They are so butt hurt that Germans tried to break free from their death grip on power that they've decided to kill all white people by flooding white countries with violent/dirty third world savages who will not and can never integrate with white clean/wholesome society. They have taken what once was homogeneous societies and turned them into dangerous ghettos like Stockholm, London, and New York, once proud safe white cities now crime and rape capitals of the world. They've also started wars to topple governments that don't have a Rothschild central banking system. What were the countries without a Rothschild bank you might ask?????? SyriaLibya IraqAfghanistan North Korea CubaIranVenezuela Let's see...... aren't those countries the ones that have been attacked by the goy slave state of america??? Aren't they the countries that have been vilified for decades for doing absolutely nothing?????Let's see they toppled Libya after Muammar Gaddafi tried to make his own gold backed bank and was trying to get other African nations in on it. They toppled Sadam's Iraq when he tried to get off the US dollar. They did the same in Syria. They just brought in a Rothschild bank in Venezuela after kidnapping their president. They can't touch North Korea now that they have a nuke so you don't hear much about them anymore huh? Funny that one. We all know about the debacle in Afghanistan. And the jews literally were the ones to did the first strike on fucking Iran. It's the clean break memo fulfilled, it's THE GREATER ISRAEL PROJECT and its anti human and anti peace. It's zionism
>>43493960Jews arent real
>>43492962>>43493026Of course you're still going to feel like a man when you have a dick, lol. That feeling vanishes the first time you feel a penis in your neopussy...
>>43494038Whatever, how about be honest about the pain, learning how to pee again, and the smell, and general recovery from the snip. Or even post a result that doesn't look like a nightmare or like it has absolutely no depth. No one ever does that when they claim here that they've had srs. In reality it's probably constantly in pain until death and you can't even hover pee like real women do or how even I can do when I pee in a public bathroom. The only positive to srs for me would be no more dysphoria and the ease of sex without needing anal, yeah I would love to feel my bfs cock inside me like a real woman but it seems like a literal "pipe" dream
>>43494060>how about be honest about the pain, learning how to pee again, and the smell, and general recovery from the snip. What's there to be honest about? It was all pretty easy for me.
>>43495091Nameless faceless liar on a screen No one is ever honest about their srs recovery except the fucking detransitioners I've literally spoken to. They all have terrible things to say about it.
>>43496484Main character syndrome, lol.
>>43498033Nope. I've literally gone deep cover in a mtf detrans group and spoke with that one troon Ritchie aka "I regret cutting my penis off" and I've spoken in detail with Benjamin Boyce who exclusively does podcasts with post-op detransitioners. Like these "guys" straight up live and act like men but they've had srs and have breast removal scars. Shit is fucking wild. They all say they regret srs
