I have finally managed to fully gaslight myself into being dysphoric. I'm not sure whether I feel anything similar to truetrans dysphoria, but I've managed to fully change my emotional response to me being a man into absolute despair. Me, being as stupid as I am, am now stuck with dysphoria which I know is fake, and also the realization that having dysphoria, no matter whether it's fake- or true dysphoria, doesn't automatically change my sense of self to be that of a woman. Now I'm stuck as a pseudo-dysphoric man and I hope my stupidity is at least a bit entertaining
>>43493416congrats?
>>43493512thank you ig
>>43493416many such cases
>>43493416how did you do it?
>>43493797Persistence mostly. It started with me just constantly asking myself whether I'm bothered by being a man. I wouldn't answer the question, just pose it.Then, after months of doing so, the constant checking started making me very anxious, because I was constantly making myself aware of something I couldn't give a clear answer to anymore. That being how I felt about being a man, as prior to doing any of this, I was completely impartial to it.Doing this for another couple of months finally was enough to directly tie the stress response I had to being a man
>>43493793Probably impossible to quantify
>>43494047You're surely not the only one who managed to do this
>>43493416You and me both OP. I knew all along it was nothing more than an elaborate form of self harm, which of course did nothing to dissuade me from doing it anyway
>>43494770Yeah. It being a form of self harm was something I was certain of from the very beginning. Still did it because I know I don't deserve anything else
>>43493416bump?
>>43493416this only lasts for a bit
>>43497819>this only lasts for a bitOk. This only lasts for a bit, and then what?
>>43497990You'll need a new cope
