>be me, manmoder in grad school>years of hrt but it's done basically nothing for me even tho my levels are good>online tranny "friends" all mock me for being a doomer>tell me I need to go meet other queer people irl>eventually give in and go to my college's lgbt club>hope that maybe I can meet some other trannies>when I show up it's all cis LGBs and nontransitioning nonbinaries>people ask me my pronouns>don't want to say she/her when I look like a 6'1 man with a receded hairline>say he/him>tell everyone I'm a gay guy>still end up having a decent time>everyone is nice, there's a couple other guys who are into the same nerdy hobbies I am>come there week after week to hang out with them>feel kinda guilty that I lied to them about being gay (I'm exclusively attracted to women)>it's nice to have an irl friend group though, and I always have a good time>one week a guy I've become friends with from the club asks me if I wanna come play vidya at his apartment>say yes>we go back to his place and as soon as we get in the door he starts kissing me>kinda uncomfortable but don't want to say no because I don't want to out myself as a creepy straight autogynephile who's been pretending to be a harmless gay guy to invade queer spaces>I just kinda go along with it and let stuff escalate until he has sex with me>it hurts some but I just kinda dissociate and let it happen>afterwards I say I have to go>return to my place and just sit in bed staring at the wall until I'm able to fall asleep>don't show up next week or the week after that>get a text from one of the women in the club asking if I'm doing ok>can't tell them the truth because then they'd know I'm a perverted freak who lied to them to get them to be my friends>can't bear to go back>just leave them on read and never go back there again
>>43501694>I hate gay anal sex out of politeness
>>43501694Sorry that happened OP. I'm guessing they'd be sympathetic if you do ever want to go back and be more open about what your deal is. I would understand if you just want to chalk this one up as a loss too though. Maybe don't use this approach when introducing yourself in LGBT circles in the future though.
>>43501694Just go back and say you think you might be trans
you should probably stop taking hrt and drop out of school
>>43502208>>43502815I don't want to be seen as a weirdo fetish creep trying to skinwalk and rape the women.
>>43501694Yeah that did not happen AND you are the same manmoder who posted a made up story yesterday so kys
>>43503819you were raped lol
>>43506065Does it count as rape if you’ve created the situation through your own web of lies and being a retard? From the way OP told it the other guy thought he was just hooking up with another dtf homo.
>>43506215I have refused people it's fine lmaoOP shouldn't have felt so pressured to accept
>>43506215I mean... He never asked for consent and the invitation was not for that even if it was meant as that.
>>43506249Right but op kept their mouth shut in order to keep up the ruse of being a cis gay man. Which is like… so fucking stupid! Op could’ve still said “thank you I’m flattered, but I’m not into you that way” without blowing up their fag cover story. Honestly this whole thing feels like a dark and retarded B plot in an episode of Seinfeld or something. Like I could see George Costanza getting into this situation if he was repper or whatever
>>43506350I'd watch this show
>>43506255Are you OP, or is this conjecture? Look I really am sympathetic to OP’s situation, the whole thing is such a comedy of errors though that I can’t help also feeling extremely frustrated with them.
>>43506367Same lol
>>43501694oh my god just be a tranny
>>43503819you're a weirdo fetish creep like most men, but you're the one who got raped here anonI can't really advice you to transition, start by stopping porn, agp really isn't more than a fetish just don't let it turn into OCD
>>43506981Ah c’mon that’s not fair. Op seems more like an autistic dumbass than a predatory creep. Op was lonely and looking for community. They just went about it in an extremely stupid way, and got burnt as a result.
>>43507057I 100% empathise with OP and truly hope he can heal and get better. pretty much all amab are crazy perverts, that was my point. I didn't want to insult OP
