how much of being trans is affecting the behavior of your preferred sex, and how much is letting your true personality come through unrestricted? how can you tell the difference? because i can't tell, anytime i do something feminine i feel like a phony, no matter how much i enjoy it. is that normal at first?
>>43517965it's hard to accept youreself
>>43517965do what you want and like as long as you aren't hurting others or breaking laws.for me i think i am only nonbinary or gnc because performing womanhood (like voicetraining) is the same as performing manhood to me (this also requires voice faking), but i still hate masculinizing, feel better on hrt, and when i am just being myself it's seem as feminine or gay for a male.>i feel like a phony, no matter how much i enjoy itif you enjoy it then it's probably internalized transphobia to feel like an impostor. compare to being a man, do you feel phony or enjoy it? how is it different
>>43518236being a man makes me unbelievably miserable but doesnt feel like much of a performance, i've been a neet for a long time so i dont 100% remember but i think when i'm being myself people dont see me as feminine or gay, and changing my behavior to change their perception rubs me the wrong way somehow
>>43518236being trans is just internalized homophobiayou think you have to take hrt to justify acting fem or being gay
>>43518528is your dysphoria being a man more personal and physical then? or is it also social even though you are normal straight passing?
>>43518829no that makes no sense
>>43517965>i feel like a phony, no matter how much i enjoy it. is that normal at first?are you early in transition?imposter syndrome decreases with passability, the feedback from such
>>43518880you feel its more acceptable to act how you otherwise want (a fem gay guy) if you can pretend you are a woman since then you are not violating taboo by being gay its about inventing a new you where you can like men without being evil (you think being gay is evil, that's why you "transition)when trannies describe in detail what the signs were that let them know they were meant to be girls its always just stereotypes and homophobia, that's why they just say "dysphoria" and end the conversation there usually
>>43518859it could be all three or none at all, i'm really confused atp, maybe i'm not even dysphoric i could just be anxious
>>43519048why are you being mean to me did you rven read my message? >>43519325i feel that
>>43519024i have not transitioned (yet)
30:60. 10%, I 'unno.I've felt performative my whole life. Even now in this post I'm being performative. I'm thinking about how it'll come across to you and to others. I put an apostrophe at the start of a word like I was writing a book professionally.I don't think it's something that comes from transition, I think it's something we feel as intersex people. We've always known we don't fit so we're hyper aware of how people fit together. Personally I just try to enjoy life and let the reality gel with the performance as much as it may.
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