>quit estrogen 6 months ago because i found it pointless to be a fucking castrated piece of shit proto-eunuch type man for the rest of my life in order to sorta look like but not really be a woman>began to become “normal” (schizo) again>act vehemently abrasive against troons, send anti-troon shit to my friends, be so against it that i go out of my way to avoid anything that pertains to troonism>lost 1-2 friends who i knew for years over the fact that i hated trannies so much and they saw me first hand harassing one>meanwhile>my mind is constantly filled with ideas and thoughts of going back. i impulsively find myself having the urge to do girl shit. i like the idea of having a girl voice and a body. i sometimes find myself thinking in a feminine manner. a constant fantasy of mine is to be a boymoder trapped in a room full of chasers where i am taken by all of them like a lamb surrounded by wolves>sometimes these manners slip out when im alone sending me to scream in a fit of contempt and rage>i desire to go back but i literally can’t without risking any of my stability or anything >everything in my life is now lifeless and i feel nothing but extreme amusement, emptiness, or unbridled rage>i find nothing enjoyable>nothing is ever good enoughi would still rather take this over being killed by a nigger in the street for being a bonafide literal drag queen. just tell me how to cure this so i dont have to deal with this i dont care if its giving my life to Christ and ascending to HTN with peptides.
>>43526153maybe u should go back on estrogen retardplus im not reading all that so sorry that happened or good for you
>>43526153there is no escape, everyone right now is depressed and upset because nobody has any money and everyone is isolated and hates eachother, having gender dysphoria is just a nice little cherry on top. start disassociating hard and use drugs to cope
>>43526185i am. when im not high or tripping im smoking. when im not doing either im drunk. if not that then im schizo. if i had just a little less self awareness at this point then id rather submit to these feelings which are probably but i don’t because trooning does not remove the fact that you’re male. i don’t need to act on this and ill do so until i break or something
step 1: get back on estrogenstep 2: get a boyfriendthat's it.sure, ywnbaw, but you know you'll feel better.stop treating estrogen as some metaphysical shit. it's a piece of tech.
give into the voice u should give in ,don’t u want it ?the voice in your head agrees, doesn’t it ? uu should listen to that cutesy little voice in your head
>>43526230>just go back on the drug that castrates you and be gay with a guy who totally validates you and isn’t just gonna dump you the moment he realizes that he wasted his energy on the biological female equivalent of ersatz and leave you once he actually wants to settle down and have children!>just be a fucking faggot and have Gay Sex and contract AIDS and die like Freddie Mercury!no thanks.
>>43526245>wants to be taken by 6 big black thugs>doesn’t like gay sex because he’ll get aids and die>??????i don’t know whether i want to kill you or or forcibly boyremove you
>>43526153>detroon>Tranny Derangement Syndromemany such cases>scared to retroon>life is deadyou're already dead, you have the option to alive yourselfretroon, ya retard
>>43526245get a bf retard, maybe a single dad or sumshit when you get too spooked about the children thinglove is pretty neat even for us men, let alone you estrogen-brained women, makes life worth living n shiet
>>43526153You must give an account at the end of it all, and he will ask you, was it better to live a worthless life or die trying to make life worth living?
>>43526230>step 2: get a boyfriendlike it's that easy ;_;
>>43526230this but get a girlfriend insteadunless you get stupid lucky with the moid personality rng then gg
>>43526153DNR -- see you back here in 5 years retard
>>43527276op will have an even more insane meltdown and it will be gloriousi just hope i will be around to witness it
>>43526153I used to be like you, my extreme edginess was just misplaced anger from my repressed tranny urges.I implore you to go back on HRT, the tranny thoughts will never disappear after pandora's box is opened.
>>43526153force yourself to fap to straight porn. try getting a gf once you feel like you're ready
>>43526153>Become a right wing drifter. Surround yourself with other transphobes. Become active in their community. Win accolades for the hateful shit you shovel upon the queer community. Then relapse one dark night. Full drag. Go down to a gay causing spot. Suck off multiple random dude. Get caught. All your hardworking to avoid the troon thoughts get destroyed in one night. Just one night. Take you pistol to your own skull soon after.Or I mean you could not be a that and just be yourself. Fucking moron.
>i sometimes find myself thinking in a feminine mannerCan you say more about this? What does it mean to think in a feminine way?
>>43526153Take ivermectin.
>>43526153you are coping with intellectualizing aka making logical structures to prevent you from living the life you want because logic is more important to you than happiness.like a teenager who says "sex is about procreation and gay sex cant reproduce therefore its not sex" just do what makes you want. everyone has a service to sell. if you want to bootlick christians who make up homophobic and transphobic talking points to get votes and appeal to reppers as members to their church then go on right ahead no one is stopping you.
>>43528549LOLreppers actually organize all their thoughts as good & masculine or bad & feminine
>>43528549not OP but i have residual shame whenever i find myself liking traditionally feminine or cute things or when i find myself wanting to be in the submissive role when with a man, its probably something like that
>>43526153you know i felt bad for you up until you whipped out the racismperhaps you deserve this fate after all fly away oh John 50, may you never pass a day,forever a pale imitation of a fae
>>43526153The autogynephilia is stored in the balls, so if you just simply chop your balls off, you’ll be able to live normally as a man.
>>43528597>everything bad in your life is caused by an EVIL ASS RAPE parasite that makes you gay i bet you also think that covid was able to be cured by hydroxycloroquine>>43528636>logic is more important to you than happinessif i kept on doing something even though i knew it was wrong then it’s a bad fucking habit, otherwise it’s just being willfully ignorant and cognitive dissonancedespite this, i still want to give in
>>43529413why do you think being trans is wrong?
>>43529413> i knew it was wrongyou have to unpack this. like what being trans means to you, why you want to be trans if you think its wrong, why you think its wrong, and so on
>>43529525>rape your body and your mind and your sexuality, lose your job, your friends, your family, irreversibly mutilate yourself and contract diseases from homosexual intercourse all because the internet and jews and democrats or whoever told you that your inadequacy and lack of masculinity and male socialization is not caused by autism but rather a totally not made up disease that says that you’re actually a girl on the inside and that you should castrate yourselfi wonder why the best part is that i will say this to myself yet it doesn’t stop me from wanting it
>>43529676I'm attracted to the same people I was attracted to pre-transition and my mind has more clarity than I had before, my dpdr depression and anxiety all got better, I'm in a relationship with a hetero man who doesn't have aids/hiv and transness isn't preventing me from having a job, and I can make friends somewhat easier than I could before and my family is indifferent to me transitioning, what's stopping you?you probably won't believe this, but transness is inherent, something in us was wired incorrectly either when we were gestating in the womb or during early childhood development
>>43529792>what's stopping youid rather not succumb to a fetish>transness is inherenttell that to john money, or magnus hirschfield, or any of the nazis who burned your degenerate books
>>43529834are you talking about david reimer? he was forced to transition and got dysphoria from it because his brain is wired cisand it's not a fetish, at least for most, asexual trans people exist and I personally have low libido and sexual pleasure
>>43529875yes im talking about David Reimerthe idea of gender is inherently rooted in jewish ideology and pedophiliai just want a cure i don’t want to retroon and be some weird AGP freak again
>>43529921if it's not inherent, why do you still want to transition?
>>43529952to be cuteand men men men men men men men men men
>>43529921>>43529969back in my day AGP meant trans women attracted to women and HSTS meant attraction to men, it's all bullshit because it was unfalsifiable anyway
I do this but I still take hrt which makes me doubt the fact I really hate being a tranny so it's another thing added on top of the cycle of insanity. My life is such a joke.
>>43529969You shouldn't have made this thread while you were having a manic episode. Once you've mellowed out and are able to be reasonable make another thread with a copy-pasted OP/link to this one.
>>43529413Well, can't harm to try. You believed in covid? geez dude
>>43526153>I don’t want to be a woman fuck trannies>but….want to act out porn and be desired Many such cases
>>43530383im not manic, i think im the furthest thing from it
>>43529875>he was forced to transition and got dysphoria from it because his brain is wired cis Being wired cis and realizing it after transitioning is unironically my biggest fear
>>43530714yes you are.you made this thread
>>43526153So you're a butch masculine man who has a fetish for women. You just like all the other males out there
>>43530733that's just the imposter syndrome, if you feel less dissocation at all and are also less clumsy* you're fine, as that's a sign your internal body map and your brain are becoming more connected*if you're mtf and are taking spiro it might make you more clumsy though
>>43530797nigger he was literally forced to troon out to prove gender is innate that is literally mutilation against someone’s will
>>43526185Speak for yourself you poor lazy bum
>>43530814I was talking about the second sentence where that anon was worried about regretting transition themselves??
>>43526772it's a lot easier once you actually try>>43526838>this but get a girlfriend insteadvery very VERY few women are into agp males. meanwhile, most bifags would be perfectly fine with an agp.>>43526245you clearly need a boyfriend. you can sperg all you want, but you know it's true.>>43526255OP clearly needs a bf. Boyremoval probably too, but the love of a man is a must atp.
>>43530797>if you feel less dissocation at all and are also less clumsyThat's pretty much the issue unfortunately. I believe I feel more dissociated and clumsy ever since starting hrt
>>43531033that's probably something to contemplate then, perhaps even talk to a therapist but not necessarilysee if you're happier on hrt (taking into account an unsupportive environment/society) and if you ultimately prefer itif it helps, I actually felt more dissociated on hrt for the first year or so
>>43530683He probably took the clot shot, and that’s what turned him into a sissy. Many such cases!
>>43531088I'm definitely not happier on hrt, but I still feel immense dread at having to live my life as a man.Although, it's reassuring to know that you also didn't immediately feel better. I still have about 5 months until my one year mark
>>43526153Resignation is a virtue. Stop the evil-doing by not letting it out of your head. Find some other purpose. If some other purpose don't work, find another. Repeat until everybody walks the dinosaur
Man up and be a woman anon
>>43526153>>43531480you say that but you're on a board for trannies lmao
>>43531502no thanks>>43531088i tried therapy, all they told me is the classic“oh no… that’s pretty bad… have u considered being okay with these feelings?”fucking feds>>43531613i KNOW that’s the case don’t remind me>>43531480how about i become a grifter and snap once it becomes overwhelming like >>43528320 said. at least by then id probably have nothing to lose. whats 10 more years of repping? hrt does nothing anyways.
If I were still single, I'd chase you to turn you into my wife.If I were more degenerate than I already am, I'd take you next to my tranny wife to be forcefemmed. She'd help. You two would get along quite well since she's also chuddette but accepted her true nature.
>>43531935because if you have tranny thoughts you won't be able to hold it down forever, you'll either john 50 or rope, at least hrt repping can ease some of the burdenonce you get afflicted with tranny thoughts it never goes away fully and it makes surgery results better if you go that route
>>43526153You sound like a stupid mentally ill person going through psychosis right now.
>>43531613I got jebaited by the funny meme on the popular threads, I've advocated for removing /lgbg/ from it but no one cared>>43531935>how about i become a grifterExpect a heavy toll on your soul in exchange for money. A lot of people cry and complain all the way to the bank about how bad their lives are, and many can live very well like that. All I can say is, NOT doing things grant peace and regret, and DOING things grant tribulations and regret. Know what you want and act acordingly, the regret is an unavoidable constant. I picked peace. Good luck
>>43526153You're fucking retarded
>>43531977yknow what just take me please i don’t care anymore i just want it to be over im utterly miserable like this plzplzplz
>>43526153Vaxxed?
>>43526185Yeah pretty much just this.
>>43526153Find an abusive boyfriend that will put you out of your misery or beat you so hard you won't be able to think about the trans stuff over the pain.
>>43526200Same boat my friend we're on the last downward spiral. sanctioned-suicide.net might be worth looking into. Reality does not respect you and it never will. The world will always be your abuser. My discord is ffioneakaterminal000 if you want to talk more. It is possible to break through these feelings partially and disociate to a degree which helps but long term you need to be thinking about suicide.
>>43533771>sanctioned-suicide.netThank you for this.
>>43531977NTA, I wish this could happen to me so badly, you’re a good person anon
>>43533806God be with you my friend. We are fighting for our souls here and a lot of people are going to try to take them away from us.
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why the bump? there is nothing more to be said other than OP is a dumbass who needs to take hrt and get fucked like a normal person instead of a chud, goodbye sunshine
