I keep going in waves of wanting to do hrt and being a pretty angel vs. being a """man""" and having a loving familywhat part of my brain do I hit to stop this
>>43546160i used to be like that. have you ever had a gf?
>>43546171>have you ever had a gf? no
>>43546160hrtrep and have a family with a bi girl
>>43546213do this if you like girls >>43546255there are a lot more bi girls into hrtreppers than you'd realize
>>43546160Repping will destroy your body and mind. Just take hrt and present however you feel at that point in time. you look hot so people who are worth your time arent gonna care
>>43546255cccc said he'd rather fuck a black man than a cis woman. you're barking up the wrong tree
>>43546160You can do both. Find a cisf wife (there are in fact many who want someone like you) and be a father (female)
>>43546319>there are a lot more bi girls into hrtreppers than you'd realizeabdhdbsvi want to do that but it feels extremely unlikely to find someone as fricked in the head as me.>>43546436im almost 30 and in panic mode about dying alone. so ive been off of HRT for 4 months to regain sperm function, even though i dont have the money to bank it. eventually im going to hit a breaking point>>43546620>You can do both. Find a cisf wife (there are in fact many who want someone like you) and be a father (female)my long term fear is that they will eventually want a manly man and leave me :(
>>43546686Look, a lot of women also end up leaving manly menIt's just some shit you gotta deal with I guess
>>43546686Going off hrt isnt gonna make you not die alone its just gonna make you live in pain. If you want to not die alone you need to build relationships with people who love the person you are, not some other thing youre trying to be
>>43546686>my long term fear is that they will eventually want a manly man and leave me Probably. And she will take all your money and also turn your kids against you and demonize you to them. You might be able to bring a man into the relationship as a bull to satisfy the cravings of her that you can't satisfy, maybe if you have a good friendship with him they'll be cool with a three-way relationship and you can stay together like that, just don't let them be alone together too much.
>>43546695well thats sad to think about>>43546745>If you want to not die alone you need to build relationships with people who love the person you are, not some other thing youre trying to beWhy does it never feel like this though. i understand the sentiment but i seriously dont think anyone would like me if i was 100% honest about myself :/>>43546773that might sound fun but i 100% value a trusting, close relationship more than fun sex
>>43546791>i seriously dont think anyone would like me if i was 100% honest about myself :/Thats really sad and i love you and i hope that you realize this isnt true
>>43546811I want you to know that was an incredibly sweet thing to say and I'm sure some of us needed to read that tonight.
>>43546811ty nona <3
>>43546160this I don't really care for t but jerking off feels really good so I'm quitting hrt for like the fourth time lol fml
>>43546160That's just called being gender fluid OP. Transitioning is for people that have gender dysphoria.
>>43546908Just get on the tadalafil so you can crank off while on hrt
>>43546916Genuinely what is the difference between wanting to be something vs just jealousy
>>43547420They're the same, but jealousy in this context is worse because sometimes it makes you resent people for doing the thing you won't let yourself do
>>43546916It may still be wise to transition, if you're genderfluid. A feminine frame is easier to start from if you want to present as male or female.
>>43546791>i seriously dont think anyone would like me if i was 100% honest about myselfThere are women who like women, and there are even women who like *men.* Why do you think none would like *you?*
