Born male. Ever since I was like idk 20 maybe earlier, honestly 17 maybe, first time i was flat out told "you might be trans", it kinda clicked with me and made sense of my mental state. I'm very much a sub and always wanted to be the girl in any relationship, i always envied how women got treated in public, i hate violence and phisical labour, like cute things, love animals... I live with my parents because I'm pretty much broke, always put off transitioning to when I move out, never mentioned this shit to anybody (put off serious relationships too because I would hate to drop this bombshell onto someone 3 years in) Well I'm 26 now and I've been absentmindedly going through the motions, going to work and back every day just watching the time go by, sometimes when a female coworker would talk I would get that envy of how they get interacted with, but most of the time I managed not to think about this. Every few months I would stumble upon something trans related and I would binge watch trans youtubers talking about voice feminization and wish I started then go to bed and forget about it in a day or so. I recently looked up bottom surgery and my honest thoughs were it's not worth it, but the more i think about it the more i realise yeah im fine with having a Dick actually, matter of fact i don't even hate my body that much just with people would stop treating me differently for it... maybe im fixed and not trans after all? Just incredibly effeminine wimpy no good piece of shit borderline gay?Am I coping purely because I missed my Window and transitioning now would be pointless Anyway, or is this something that's common?
