I don't think I will ever be able to mentally transition. I am currently on hrt, but I hate myself so much that I'm completely unable to think of myself as anything but a mentally ill cis man.I really wish I were a woman. There's nothing I wish for more. But I can't even let myself relieve any of my dysphoria (besides hrt), because I fully believe I deserve all of this pain. Seeing the slightest amount of facial hair makes me want to melt my face with acid. I rarely shaveSpeaking with my male voice makes me want to slit my throat open. I have never voice trained.Seeing my male body makes me wish someone would just bludgeon me into a fine red paste. I make no attempts at hiding my body. I know it's my responsibility to work on myself to manage my dysphoria, but I really don't know how I'll muster up the strength to do anything. I'm not only completely overwhelmed and exhausted by my own accursed existence, but I also am unable to believe that I deserve anything else. I just wish for my suffering to end, no matter how.I do not believe I am worth my weight in dirt
Same
>>43552778I'm very sorry
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>>43553009My condolences
>>43553654thanks ill prolly end up kms hope you make it
>>43553731I'll see you on the other side, but until then, have a nice life
>>43552761same
It's probably healthier to view yourself as a pretty boy (see femboy)
>>43552761i feel the same way after like 5 years. it got worse if anything. i shave though because i wouldn't be able to stand not shaving.
>>43558244The ride never ends
>>43558198not op but i am over 6 feet and fat, i have never been and will never be pretty
