>>43553004
Noone can ever truly know who they are or what their future will hold for them.
A more important question is are you happy? Do you *want* your future to include being trans? Don't do it for anyone else, even people saying you don't know what you're talking about. Because at the end of the day, the only person who can truly know, is YOU. So, if you want to be trans, be trans.

>>43553032
>A more important question is are you happy?
Any happiness I've felt since puberty felt like a compromise
>Do you *want* your future to include being trans?
I obviously don't want to be trans. I just wish I never would've ever been a man. I wish I were a woman.
Wishing this doesn't mean it's right for me though

>>43553073
>Any happiness I've felt since puberty felt like a compromise
Of course it has, and unfortunately, biologically, none of us will every truly be female. But does it make you happy nonetheless to inherit that archetype in society? Maybe you can't be female, but does it make you happy to be a woman nonetheless??

>>43553004
I realized im a straight cis male who just got confused
but I still take e bc it’s just what I’m used to now

>>43553202
Would you rather be a woman though?

>>43553286
I mean I think if i were born a woman I would be a lot happier but that doesn’t change the fact that I’m a man on the inside

>>43553154
Maybe, but what if not? What if I'm not made to inherit that archetype in society? I'm not referring to my body, but rather my mind. While I am miserable from being a man, maybe I'll be even more miserable living an existence defined by the constant reminder of what is forever out of reach?
These are partially rhetoric questions, but also my genuine and persistent worries

it is shrimple
do u wish to b fe male

>>43553470
No harm in trying, only one way to find out y'know?

>>43553518
I think so? I hope I do, but I can't tell whether my desires are actually real

>>43553004
Ever heard the phrase "gut feeling"?
Sometimes you don't "know" something on a thinking intellectual level.
Sometimes you "know" through feeling and understanding yourself and the world around you on a deeper level.

>>43553533
Forgot to mention it, but I'm asking all these questions while on hrt actually. I'm genuinely worried that I'm currently on hrt while having wrongfully come to the conclusion that I'm trans

>>43553564
I mean, worst case scenario you stop taking them :0

>:0

>>43553700
>:3c

>>43553674
Actual nightmare scenario

>>43553546
what if my gut feeling is that I’m a retarded fetishistic cis male and it was my intellectual side that rationalized taking hrt

>>43553754
Not really, but your catastrophizing over what would be very minor fact is fembrained

>>43553546
I'm on hrt purely because of a gut feeling, but I really struggle to trust it. After all, I simply fail to put into words why I'm doing any of this, and especially not the visceral urgency I feel
I'm op btw

Stop being a lil whiny bitch & take ur meds hoe I deserve all the estrogenized boymoderz I can eat I earned it

>>43553802
What do you mean "minor fact". Nothing about this is minor. Transitioning obviously has an immense effect on one's life, so how can it be just a "minor fact"?

>>43553848
shut up retard

>>43553848
Its ez u just shoot lovely sex hormones under ur skin then shove ovulation pills up ur ass to maximize ur bottom instincts
Throw on a skirt so I can stare at ur smoov legs & bam
Happy thoughts

>>43553861
These were genuine questions... Can you please elaborate why you think I'm catastrophizing it?

>>43553004
Happened to me but I don't think it's likely

>>43553796
What the fuck is wrong with being a retarded fetishistic cis male anyway, being a cute girl is an improvement so if you can tolerate HRT just keep doing it

It sounds like you think being a girl will make you happy, so stop fucking worrying about being heckin' valid and have a good fucking time, yeah? You only have one go around on this shitty fuckin life anyway

>>43553470
Is the part that you think might make you unhappy that you are afraid you really do want to be male, or that you won't be sufficiently female

Because if the latter, well

>>43554524
Both. I am afraid of both wanting to be a man and being too male

>>43553875
You won't get elaboration or explainers here. Everyone is either so deeply wrapped up in schizo/autist retardation and irony poisoning that they're terrified to type more than two sentences, for fear of being told "I aint readin allat"
or the long explanations are going to be so deeply irony poisoned that a literal woman will explain why men can smell a tranny from two mils away because the texture of her pubic hair or some stupid shit, thus she will never pass

It's really not likely anon. It's so fucking unlikely, and if you're obsessing over it because of something like ocd you're already so far outside of the norm that there aren't any guides or examples for you on this. All over places like this you're going to find extremely weird guys who try to say, "Every man goes to sleep at night, weeping and tightly coiled under the weight of his tragic masculinity, wondering what life would be like if he were just a pretty girl." as if it's not the most deranged cope imaginable.
Ask yourself why more often, experiment a little, even if it's just a sock account on twitter or sumn. If it's not something causing you persistent anguish and suffering, take your time for now. Give it a year or so and try to push the boundaries of "manliness" to see if you're at all comfortable going that far, obviously only in places where it's safe to do so, and stop imagining your brain is like a smartwatch just waiting for the vile badthoughts to infect it's pathetic little circuits. You had the thought, it can't be faked or imposed on you. If you weren't somewhat interested it would have slid off your mind and sounded weird the first time it came up, but it stuck for some reason. It could just be a weird fixation, or a mild interest in transgressive expression. Either way coming to a place where you think you're having false desires implanted because of an impressionable and unstable personality isn't typical, you have a lot to think about, and other people can't think for you

>>43554507
nta but ^^ this is the correct framing.
people treating hrt as if it's some magical or metaphysical shit are really weird and making things worse for themselves and for others.
do you like the effects, all things considered? if yes, keep doing it. If not, then stop. that's it. that fucking simple.

>>43554637
real

>>43553710
How old r u vlushy I forgot to ask

>>43554637
This shit sucks

>>43553004
whats the worst that can happen if you do choose wrong? is there even a wrong choice? you can be whatever you want to. screw what people think, they havent endured what you have had to, so long as youre not hurting anyone

>>43554951
23
My disc is Skoolby
Dun be a stranger >:[

>>43555011
>whats the worst that can happen if you do choose wrong?
I'll have to be a man then

>>43555487
So the same worst outcome result if you don't make your choice

>>43553004
Stop thinking of transition as a binary yes/no decision and start thinking of it as many different small decisions
Taking HRT and doing nothing else is a decision, dressing fem is a decision, changing your name is a decision, voice training is a decision, surgery is a decision, and so on

>>43553004
You're a tranny, everyone in this thread is a tranny. It's me who's the only faketranny in the world.

>>43557927
I'd be completely devastated if any of these "small" decisions isn't right for me

>>43553470
The entire thread is p. relatable to me but this bit especially. Altho im also scared that maybe im just "not made" to have the body of a woman either (esp breasts) and that my mind will somehow rebel against it. Or that its doing so already and i just havent noticed. This kinda thinking makes me super anxious basically daily.

Despite the fact that every few days since like 4mo on E i also end up extremely happy about how i look more female now.

So yeah >>43553564 is also super relatable. Tho ive never even really been convinced that i am trans i think lol. Just various stages of more or less heavily suspecting it.

>>43553004
a lot of people with AGP mistake that for being trans and then delude themselves / get hugboxed by others into believing that they are trans when they aren't

>>43559381
How can I tell which one I am?

>>43553004
if you trooned out in a specific time period around 2015-2023 it's more likely that you wrongly think you are trans

>>43560316
Trooned late enough to be trutrans, trooned to late to be a youngshit

>>43553004
The very concept of "trans" is wrong, so yes, you are wrong. A man with a feminized brain is a faggot, that's all there is to it. Seeing the faggot and saying "you need fixing" is transgenderism.

>>43560344
If you are trooning out now in the current social climate you must be sure of what you want or you have no other options. A few years ago anyone who would listen was being encouraged to transition including nondysphoric fetishists, mild AGPs, gender nonconforming children... combined with the rise of online pharmacies and informed consent clinics it was a total free-for-all. Those people are happier detransitioning and living as their assigned sex. Transition is best for people who truly can't live any other way

>>43560536
I assure you there are still faketrans stragglers like myself. The social climate doesn’t stop me because of my intense self loathing and inclination toward self destruction

>>43560623
Yes but unlike the previous generation of rapehons, you are too self-aware and self-loathing to be much of a threat. Normal people can simply ignore you until you kill yourself

>>43560971
I’m not gonna kill myself I’m going to be a normal hon in a loving relationship with my husband, I’ll have a cat that sleeps on my chest after work and nobody will know that I’m secretly cis

>>43560536
I got on E recently and i can assure you that im not sure of what i want and i might actually just be a case of mild AGP or GNC instead.

>>43561093
That makes you trutrans obviously
>>43561256
if its not meant for you you will detransition once the delusion become unsustainable

>>43561669
>That makes you trutrans obviously
Just kidding you were right the first time kek
I can dream though

>>43561761
yeah okay you guys seriously need to stop with the takebacksies this is getting ridiculous

>>43561669
>if its not meant for you you will detransition once the delusion become unsustainable
Genuinely my biggest fear

>>43561669
>>43561794
Yeah same (im >>43561256). But sometimes i really wish it was for me, and might even think it might be, and other times im anxious its not and im making a horrible mistake.

It sucks i just wanna be sure im not making/have already made a massive mistake, i hate it.