Tranners, should I relapse on cutting?
>>43580409if ur serious abt it dont but if u just do cat scratches for attention do as u please
omggggg cutting thread!!
>>43580409Cutting is based but it really depends on ur age. It gets less based the older you get
>>43580463anybody old enough to use this website is too old to be cutting themselves
>>4358057413 y.o.s use this website. I figured most of yall were secretly in hs. It would explain so much. Especially the low iq chuds
thinking this too but i rlly dont wanna go back in the ward its so scary
>>43580409I too am in this thread
I bought razors 2 days ago
No.
>>43580463is it over at 24 or can i take one more year before im 25
I can't stop you.
these days i just sort of scratch myself with my car keys, usually doesnt scar and you really have to put your arm into it which it nice. havent gone for the gold since i was a teen, wont be surprised if it happens again someday tho
>>43580713Im so happy that in my country they really cant put me in the ward for beign suicidal or anything like that.>>43580868I can never reach gold, that's hard. maybe iam a larper
>>43580794You can but i bet itll make you feel old
>>43580409NO please dont cut nona
>>43580409yea
>>43580409I don't think so especially since it seems like it deliberately clean from it
>>43580409No. Like two months ago I relapsed on cutting and cut up my face and now Im gonna look fucked forever.Even if its not your face same applies
>>43580996well how was the cut? it can be pretty hot if you say you got into a knife fight
>>43580996thats kinda dumb but i want to cut on my neck but not my face
>>43581050Idk one of them stuck pretty bad on my cheek. My roomie said it looks like I got into a fight but I dont think its deep enough for that.
>>43580996scars are cool asf, your face is fine
>>43580409Ive been debating the same thing lol
>>43580996>look fucked forever.yes I hate this. I will always be marked as mentally defective and its my own fault
>>43580409yall people are pussies u only doing cat sratches is pussy behavior go with tha blade and make it deep and not be scared like a PUSSY!!!!! PUSSY PUSSY PUSSY PUSSSYYYYY
>>43580612>13definitely too old to be cutting, its really only based when you doctors gives you the cut, it's based because the csa makes trannies, and chuds love circumcision.
>>43582987truth nuke
>>43583250liyterally styros nor beans dont evne hurt
i wonder if people clock my scars. theyre lengthwise on the outside of my dominant forearm and arent self inflicted buy are "self" harm even tho they could easily pass as a car crash or something. looks like i went through a window or wire fence. i literally forget they are there until i bend my arm inward since they face outward
>>43584384I think it depends how patterned they are. Any set of parallel scars will read as SH
>>43580409Please do not
>>43584052i cut to baby beans and yeah it really doesnt hurt lolwould cut deeper but the razors i use cant do worse unless i multiswipe which DOES hurt(﹏) curses....
>>43580717I knew u would be
>>43585681i suggest u to get two edged razor for cutting deeper i used to cut with sharper and itds good but hard to cut with deeper
Please take care of yourself
>>43580409No. Cutting, transgenderism, and suicide are manifestations of a destructive self loathing. This is why they are seen together so frequently. But none of them is a safety valve, it is a progressive death.
>>43580409hey mel
>>43580409No, don't cut. Unless I'm there to lick the woundsIn other words don't, unless you happen to be in the state of Nebraska and into a short autist
>>43580409what's the appeal of cutting yourself? why would it be something considered so pleasurable that returning to it would be considered "relapsing"?
>>43588375drugs are pleasurable but returning to them its called relapsing.
I hate seeing cutters because it makes me shut down when were gonna fuck and instead I gotta fuckin baby you and get the run down on if youre building up the pain tolerance to eventually kill yourself or dealing with shit you should be seeing a therapist for.>>43580717Cut it out. Joke not intended but funny how it works out I guess.
Do what you want, but be safe about it.
>>43586136mlem>>43588410no, we cut, regularly. if it makes you feel better suicide isn't in our cards for a long time so this is just >dealing with shit you should be seeing a therapist fortoo bad that costs money.
>>43588410That sounds like really nice in a fucked up way
>>43580409Cutting is low iq and signifies being easily influenced by online and media trends. I guarantee you would be self harming in a less retarded way like alcoholism if you never heard about cutting.
>>43588509"Self harming in a less retarded way like achohal" lmao??? Right let's rank self harm by what's the most retarded, and of course achohalism is the least retarded, shout out for all the men who come home and beat their wife and children after getting drunk every single day, because at least they aren't retarded
>>43588388that's the point im making. im asking why cutting feels pleasurable
>>43588375it releases endorphins. For me it doesnt even hurt anymore. it's just a nice warm feeling. >>43588410thats kinda the point. its like a big fat caution sign to keep people from getting close. Maybe more like a purity test. Like "this is how bad im screwed up, are you ok with that." therapists are pure evil. >>43588509before cutting I would bang my head on the wall which can cause real brain damage. Ive never even had a cut get infected tho, its basicly 100% safe.
>>43588446it has turned 3 hookups into me just holding them for a few hours and talking leaving not wanting to fuck this person because of autistic conflict of interest, I don't wanna be a reason for another scar.>>43588541So far the only person ive managed to get past this with was a furry I know who I love very much but shes got her own fucked up bizarre love triangle to deal wiith barring me.
>>43588559That's geniunely really nice though most people wouldn't go through the effort
>>43588530Notice how the alcoholic in your scenario has a house, wife, and children. Do you?
I really considered cutting as a teenager sometimes to the point I stood there with a knife in front of (the top of) my wrist but I never did. I now prefer to harm myself in other ways like self sabotaging, bad thought patterns and self isolation and vaping and thinking myself into such anxious spirals I think my friends hate me. Is this healthier than cutting or no?
>>43588559>just holding them for a few hours and talking leavingare you like asking them about them? obviously that would ruin the mood. DESU and active cutter is gonna do it regardless, you might as well get ur rocks off. what made th furry special?
>>43588615desu cutting in a hidden place is totally healthy, it just frowned upon by society. IDK why having you bf beat you senseless with a paddle or whip is ok, but drawing some lines on your skin is hopitilizable behavior.
>>43588615there was a year in our life, when we were healthy and competent, where we'd cut ourself as a way to dissuade other thoughts. it was perfect, it was precise, it was ideal. now it's, part of it.
>>43588639You do it along with the other habits too? Aw man
>>43588619She was very sweet. Bubbly personality aside from the cutting. Trauma bonding over shared life experiences. >are you like asking them about themWhen you notice something like that its hard to not ask. Especially if you can see scar tissue from repeated efforts.>>43588584See what above poster said, reaction to it varies. I'm glad you think so though.
>>43588650we're trying our best to get better ;~;Life is really really really really hard right now, buteven when it does get better, we'll still be a masochist, so cutting'll never stop
>>43588655idk a lot of people have seen mine and only 1 asked and I kinda hated her for it. She made me cry in public. I think u should just ignore it. although the feeling of a SO asking about it is sorta nice, its really gonna inspire a cathartic emotional breakdown
>>43588678Did she ask about them in public?? This is a very different setting to do it in. Rude confrontation to try and force an answer without you making a big reaction because of it being public.
>>43588541>it releases endorphins. For me it doesnt even hurt anymore. it's just a nice warm feeling.that's interesting. how deep would you have to go to get this warm feeling and how did you build the willpower/tolerance to do it?
>>43588690I was wearing shorts at work and she asked at lunch time. >>43588705idk I would never see yellow fat. maybe like a 1/4 inch. I only ever did thighs. I would still have rather never done it. they look horrible now, and its just an addiction I have to RESIST complicating my life further
>>43588721Yeah. Different scenario but you'd understand why they'd ask, its concerning. They're not trying to embarrass you there. We're wired to wanna help each other I think at least. Hope you can kick it nona.
>>43588676Nooo that sounded and was rude I'm sorry.....
>>43588676Would you be willing to swap out the cutting for impact play or does it not scratch that subdermal itch as good
>>43588805it would, fuck, we love impact play, but, we don't really have anyone who wants to hit us. We're 5'11" and pretty heavy, most people we interact with like that would rather be dommed <~>
>>43588817I'm 6'2 and heavy myself. I get to give girls and twinks punchies then cheer them on for being so strong and tough about it.
>>43588831would literally sell my soul to meet you, but we're in the PNW and like noone lives there
>>43588865Y'know I usually hear the opposite; but I guess thats all concentrated in like 2 cities in Oregon and Washington. I don't get many messages myself here its usually when I'm traveling.
>>43588889yeah we live like at least eight hours from those two <~>
>>43588730ive been clean for 7 years. I change in a locker room for work so there is nowhere to hide it.
>>43588909Sucks that its an unavoidable topic to broach if someone decides to pry. Good on you for avoiding it for so long.
>>43588615they dont want you to know this but cutting is one of the healthier coping mechanisms out there as long as you know what your doing.
im going to cut again its already something decided and i knew that even the moment when i said im never going to do it again even though i wasnt lying to who i said it to i did rlly feel that way when i said it but im going to do it again its already a part of me i feel like ive lost who i am not cutting and the empty parts of my arms are screaming at me to cut them they look so empty they feel wrong i need to cut but i cant hide it anymore im so scared
>>43590122please dont hurt yourself. i love you. giving you a warm hug
Same here whoever you are i truly hope you can take care of yourself and be safe
>>43590122once you start is hard to stop, everyday I think about it, its the same as smoking once you take even a single cigarette, sooner or later you'll comeback to it,so I think its far easier to just accept and keep doing it to your hearts content, just keep an eye for infections.>so empty they feel wrongYes when I check the empty parts of my arm or when a scar turns white and almost disappear I feel that is wrong.
>>43580409a post so weird that you should just go all the way
do wat u gotta do girlz
i bit the bullet and fucking self harmed for the first time earlier today in a public bathroom because a friend said "yeah yeah" to me dismissively when i tried to show her my new hoodieit was scratches on my arm with a mechanical pencil and honestly it felt really good in the moment. no blood or anything just about over 20 or 30 welts on my arm but now i look and think about them i feel really sad. i'm sorry i wish people would care about me as much as strongly as i cared about them
im so bad at cutting
>>43594760practice makes perfect
