> Was just looking for an excuse why i hate myself and living> Just couldnt accept life usually kinda sucks for everyone so was looking for excuses> Confused unrelated depression, social anxiety and loneliness as potentially being caused by being trans> Just got mindfucked by being into force fem since forever> Hanging around tranny social media psyopped me into feeling like i relate to them when i dont actually> Wasted my life/youth being a shutin instead of satisfying my weird agp fantasies by being a femboy slut or some shit while i could> Was stupid enough to believe estrogen would prevent twinkdeath/give me back my youth> Thought not feeling like a real person was in any way caused by being a tranny instead of just my natural state as a subhuman piece of shit.> Thought any of this would somehow be better if i wasnt male/was female for no real reason> Just wanted to be prettyAnd now im just some weird guy stuck with severe gyno/small tits and have to deal with detransing.
>>43591731Sure...
>>43591731same except for me I never felt dysphoria and the MEF thoughts died down when life stopped fucking me as much
>>43591812Whats that supposed to mean
>>43591900Well i never felt dysphoria either i think (just another point as to why im not actually trans).Also unrelated and idk what exactly u mean but my MEF/forcefem fascination also died down once i started HRT lol.Before that i was already wavering when i more seriously considered being trans (i just started looking at porn/smut made by/for trannies half the time)
>>43591731Literally just describing a moody, clocky trans woman with depression.>psyopped2010s was over half a decade ago
>>43592189A real trans woman wouldn't constantly freak out over having to get top surgery and would just be happy with her tits.Also she'd be sure she would be better off as female instead of having no idea anymore and even only vaguely suspecting it to begin with.
>>43591731What are you going to do now?
>>43594117No idea lol. Especially since im not actually certain yet im not trans. (I just left all of that out of the post cuz i felt like shit and wanted to vent).Like all of the above is true, but also hrt has made me a lot happier with how i look i think. And eventho i can get super anxious about my breast growth and it potentially being a mistake, half the time i look at them in the mirror it also makes me really happy that my chest looks more female now and i sometimes think they look cute lol.Plan was to pause HRT for a bit and see how i feel off of it again. But i havent even done that yet lol.
>>43592188>my issues that are tooootally unrelated to gender went away on HRT
>>43594187I'm sorry, but your a woman. Stay on E and get your OCD under control
>>43591731okay tranny
>>43594193The kink issue was like the least important one tho. And like i wrote there it also kinda died down before then as well. Plus it might just be in part bc HRT nuked my sex drive.
>>43591731life doesnt suck for a lot of people though, thats cope, most people are having a great time.
>>43594485Ok well my deeper critisisim is of your assertion that "a trans woman wouldnt question, she would just know" because thats just untrue. Everyone questions and experiences uncertainty when comming to terms with themselves as trans, gay, these poeple are even questioning weather theyre bi lmfao. Its normal to have uncertainty especially when many forces of the world are pushing against something.That being said, you do you queen
>>43594207Idk, how would >>43592242 and not really having dysphoria (>>43592188) make sense then.Also would a woman also frequently freak the fuck out about whether she might dislike having breasts? Or keep thinking they look like they might just be a bit uncomfortable and annoying anytime she notices them on other people? Or would she occasionally feel like her own breast growth feels a bit weird? Or looks a bit weird?Like u might still be right but these are not irrational things to derive doubts from i feel like.
some day in like 100 years there will be sociological studies done about how disaffected young males became transgender to cope with declining socioeconomic prospects but its too soon to see how they trend will work out. in any case being a tranny is clearly a feature of our current era, so if you kinda see yourself as a victim of inescapable social forces its easier to cope with your "decisions"
>>43594502i dont know anyone having a good time. your coping
>>43594512I mean yeah i do say that sometimes. But ik its not realistic too. But it still feels like i question a lot more and a lot more important things than what most people who are actually trans would. Or at least enough to cast being trans into serious doubt (especially given the consequences of just staying on E (specifically having to get top surgery, cuz idc about infertility n stuff lol)).Also ive been questioning this shit and have been uncertain for almost a decade now (with about 6mo of that on HRT) and i still dont have a conclusion. Doesnt that also cast actually being trans into serious doubt?
>>43594547>in any case being a tranny is clearly a feature of our current era, so if you kinda see yourself as a victim of inescapable social forces its easier to cope with your "decisions"Idk about the first sentence but u might actually be onto sth here with the second one.
>>43591731Many such cases...>Wasted my life/youth being a shutin instead of satisfying my weird agp fantasies by being a femboy slut or some shit while i couldThis is actually genuinely a good thing though
>>43594732ig it might be a good thing. But from my pov i just missed out on a bunch of stuff that im too old for now. Plus just wishing i had let any of my faggotry out even just a bit instead of just being a complete shutin.
>>43595292You would have regretted it and been deeply ashamed of it. Plus, everyone would have known you were a tranny that later detrooned.
>>43594521YesYou clearly dont know enough womenThey hate having tits & they universally specifically think theirs look horrible
>>43595381I dont *quite* belive that but i kinda get what u mean. But even then i have a choice not to grow tits right now by stopping HRT.Which ig i should then take seriously then if women even dont really like having them?Also its less about them looking horrible (but that too) its more like whether i like having them at all, which is different.
>>43595305paradoxically i usually think i would be at a much smaller risk of detrooning if i had transitioned sooner.
>>43594641trannies have never had a culture like they do now, they never even had one at all. the internet has differentiated trannies and given them a place to mingle in a safe fashion. that culture makes it more real and makes it an "option" as opposed to just a medical condition that is being treated alone. nothing happens in a vacuum
>>43595778>trannies finally establish a culture>that culture is nothing but "take drugs when you're 10 or kill yourself">the medicalization is the same thing nowdeep
>>43591731sorta in your position lol >hated my body since forever >19 out of high school and dad paid for online uni lot of free time >worked out a lot and got a 7/10 masc fit body>lowkey didn't fix anything >thought what would I want? and thought a woman's body isn't too bad let's do that >do I even have dysphoria? who cares>go on diy like a month later >8 months go by, well fuck it lets come out, went horribly, dad was a nut case who terrorized me >well baka my chungus >year or so goes by I just decide to clear the air with friends and say i am a woman or whatever>might as well legally change my name and get the F marker >lowkey didn't feel good enough decided to get on peptides i am a transmaxxer i think? ion know
>>43592178Six seven
>>43591731This is what would happen to ke were i to indulge in hrt.
>>43591731every one of these things is literally methinking I wanted to troon was just driven by extreme self hate, bdd, and things I wasn’t allowed as a child that simply aren’t relevant anymore
>>43594187>hrt has made me a lot happier with how i look>it makes me really happy that my chest looks more femaleoh my god nona just keep taking the hrt
>>43601855OK but like those things are only sometimes and im not entirely certain yet. Plus all the other reasons im not trans i wrote here elsewhere.
