>>43596528
has a man ever looked nice at you

>>43596528
what are you addicted to? i know its probably just pillz

>>43596528
i didn't get on hrt until i was 24 years old and a few months and i started passing consistently (with little failure) about ~20 months in it gets better

how tall are you

>>43596556
not op but i love lsd, molly, weed, ket
alcohol is not that good, 1 or 2 glasses is ok

>>43596549
Oh I frequent a lot of gay clubs and have a white twinkchad face, so I always get a lot of guys flirting especially with all the drugs. Been in a monogamous relationship with my bf for the past six months tho.
>>43596560
5'11
>>43596557
happy to hear, I doubt it tho. My face is extremely masculine.
>>43596556
Currently a buncha stuff I think... Definitely lots of cigs, probably alcohol too and amphetamine. Been doing a lot of Ket and Weed always too altho currently it just doesn't work as well anymore so I abstain also because I had some pretty major fallouts with all of this in combination the past few months.
My problem is I do all drugs together and lots of them at the same time. So I mostly just smoke and drink and do speed now when I'm out

>>43596641
post face anon

Wish i had cool friends that invited me to smoke weed or something like that :(

>>43597565
>post face anon
most people don't know or assume I'm a tranny and a junkie unless they know that side of me so that would be very stupid
>Wish i had cool friends that invited me to smoke weed or something like that :(
The only person who specifically invites me to hang out and smoke weed is my cisf bestie and I spend a day with her like once every few weeks.
Other than that, I'm just part of the circuit (a variety of gay/queer parties taking place all throughout the city every week non-stop from thursday night til monday morning).
While I did get into it initially through a friend, he's a father by now so mostly I just show up at these venues on my own. Then there are usually people whom I know or I just get fucked up, dance my ass off and yap bs with other tweaky fuckers for hours on end.
I have like maybe three people I would call friends but what feels like a thousand acquaintances / people who'd consider me a 'familiar face'.
So if you wanna get started with drugs, just go to LGBT nightclubs they are abundant there and you can literally strike up a conversation with everyone. It's kinda like therapy, but better for me personally since I KNOW that they are going through the exact same shit as I am and coping the exact same way so the mutual basis for understanding is much more aligned than with some normie shrink.

>>43597730
You have an easy life and can just be a normal gay.

>>43597730
thx for the helpful comment, may i ask where your from? I keep wanting to do stuff on my own that my cis friends will ofc never want to do, but im a very closeted person who is unfortunaly afraid of being judged by others, even tough i want to have new experiences even if i do it solo

>>43597774
I live in one the following cities: Berlin, Amsterdam, Paris
>>43597751
Functionally I still very much am. I had severely dysphoric episodes before I started HRT that we're accompanied by months of complete isolation only to be disrupted briefly by literal gay meth orgies in front of the dancefloor.
Stuff has been getting better, I stopped my promiscuity and am a little bit more in control of my appearance and consumption since I started estrogen.
But sometimes, when I'm really high and it's been 12+ hours and the music is blasting in my ears and my muscles are executing dance moves like a fucking steam engine, that little voice comes back, it's like
>Yup, I'm still here. You're still a tranny. You're doing a fine job keeping me quiet with all your outlandish faggotry, but you still wish you were a normie country gal from Texas - and you will never be.
and that scares me.
it's not a literal voice btw you get me just a thought popping up all of a sudden

>>43597774
Pro Tip: Look for places with a no-photo policy. You're safe to express however you want there.

>>43597897
>>43597943
thx again, you got a discord? You sound like a cool person to talk with from time to time

>>43598004
Sorry, I don't. But if you value this kind of talk, I cannot encourage you enough to go to offline LGBT events.
Not anime cons or computer clubs or stuff like that. Explore off the beaten path, listen, look around, you might see a crumpled up flyer or a little poster on a lamppost.
People like me are everywhere, we recognize each other and quietly acknowledge unless we are in one of our safe spaces - physically, face to face, that is. I don't like texting at all I can't feel connection through a screen.

>>43598130
I understand dw about it. But if im being honest i have no idea how i would even start looking for more niche lgbt events and stuff like that, plus im unfortunaly very shy when im around unfamiliar faces and am not the most alt person so i feel like i would stand out like a sore thumb, but again i could be entirely wrong.

>>43598161
It's not really alt in the online sense. I wouldn't worry about looks at all. Most of my people are just going to these kinda things in all black oversized tees, shorts and sneakers. What's most important is that you present comfortably, not wearing costumes. That's helps with being more outgoing ime.
As to where to find these events, music is always a good starting point. Record stores for example. You can always go to a record store where they carry electronic music and ask if they know of any events around (don't say rave, that's cringe it's a party).
Other than that I have had good success with weekly recurring events based around a hobby. Forced myself a lot to go there although I didn't feel like socializing, but sure enough the fags kinda congregate and then we got closer and closer each week.
Maybe what I would say is don't even look for specifically LGBT events. Look for the LGBT people talking about stuff other than LGBT.
As for how to get started socialising, well I still don't go out to socialize without having a beer on the way so idk really :/

>>43598315
Thank you, i will try to look around and see what i can find. Feeling kinda old lately at 27.

What kind of guys are you into btw? Me i love hairless twinks personally ngl, altough i have a thing for alt women as well (which i know isnt lgbt but whatever)

>>43598797
No problemo!
Well my bf is a buzzcut twunk and I'm slowly nudging him into a military kinda clothing style with boots and tight t shirts cause uhm, yes awooga sexo.
But I find a lot of guys attractive! Especially older ones too like in their 30s with a bit more body hair, but I'd rather have a relationship with someone my age desu.
One thing I do not care for is chub.

>>43596528
Where are you getting all that money to afford drugs?

>>43598882
you have good taste, twunks are literally so good!
How tall are you btw? Whats your bodytype?
Not a fan of chub/body hair personally

>>43598929
For years the first thing I did after entering the club was to look for a sugar daddy who I'd string along the whole night and bum everything off him. Worked remarkably well until it didn't and they gave me some pretty tangy stuff to snort which I couldn't handle.
I do buy my own shit sometimes but mostly it's still knowing a lot of bartenders, scene people in general and looking hot that gets me the expensive stuff for free. I will share too sometimes but I can get people connected and am quote 'a blast to be around, such an interesting person' so that's how I mostly repay.
Overall I'm coming up on 100-200 bucks a month maybe which I can manage through some small gigs and neetbux.

>>43599180
can you post some of the fits that you go with to clubs and stuff? Genuinly so curious

>>43599057
Thx <3
I'm 5'11 at 135lbs

>>43599248
you sound hot af with stats like that

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>>43599214
Depends and varies hugely but pic rel is kinda the vibe and look I'm going for mostly (not me obv). Minimalistic, queer, comfortable but not at all like drag queen.
>>43599349
I've been told so ig thx

>>43599360
is there really no way to contact you? You sound amazing so far lol
Love your fashion sense

>>43599400
desu I have a rule of not contacting people from here and too many people in my life rn anyways, so no

>>43599485
understandable.
Do you live alone? If so how do you pay for rent?
Are you in touch with your family at all?
Where are you originally from?

>>43599516
So one of the reptarded things I did when I was like 19 was cuddle up with some ivy league business school nepo guys, one of whom hired me as his personal assistant / secretary. I made quite good money but it was super stressful since he ran multiple companies. Burnt out from that and pissed the money away for partying / lifestyle but at least I could provide enough proof of income to get my own lease. At the moment I'm on neetbux and it's a cheap place (ghetto, but chill) so they cover rent quite comfortably. If that ever stops idk I might hit him up again or find something else idk idc.
My family is pretty dysfunctional. I'm from my country's equivalent of idk Arkansas basically only agriculture.
So I don't really know what to do when I visit them and I rarely contact them or they contact me. My father is about as disappointed as a father could be in his drug addicted fag 'son' and my mother worries a lot but I stress that I'm fine and in all honesty she couldn't help me anyways because I am actually mostly fine.

>>43599652
how are you on neetbux anon?
I gotta say, while that lifetsyle sounds immensily fun i fear that you are cutting your lifespan alot with drugs and potentially catching hiv or some shit like that, do you not worry about your future?
Do you have any sort of education?
Do you have any regrets in life?

>>43600271
Forgot to ask, how much neetbux do you earn?

>>43600271
>how are you on neetbux anon?
some unemployment benefits
>catching hiv
I have a bf (monogamous) and we're both tested clean. I don't sleep around anymore I just go to clubs to get high, dance, yap, socialize and listen to music.
>i fear that you are cutting your lifespan alot
I am probably. All the normies are gonna start families anyways, friends will become auxiliary. I don't want kids, never did.
I function day to day, do my chores pay my bills shower etc. Have always I think cause I started early with drugs when I was 15 so I had to learn a long time ago how to do it.
My goal in life is to collect as many unique experiences and to witness as much of this world's insanity as possible.
And I want to be nice. When I was 18 I read a lot of hermitic texts and one of them said to be a light amongst humans. I want to radiate excitement and tolerance and care and compassion, but also wit and cleverness.
That's what I work on every day, to become a bit nicer, to see and experience more things - I will never see and experience all the things (luckily!!) so I just take it one day at a time.
No real material end goal just on my own journey and one day it's gonna be over idk when but if I died tonight, I would be okay with that. I have made peace with death a long time ago.
>Do you have any sort of education?
Formal? No. I dropped out of university four times. I wanna go back maybe later this year but who knows... In general I don't see the point in it cause I can learn EXACTLY the things I want to learn from the internet and getting a job will always be easier through networking.
>Do you have any regrets in life?
Trying to be a cishet male during my teens didn't do me any good and it didn't work at all (I just considered myself asexual). I think I could've avoided becoming alcoholic at 15 if I came out at least as gay back then and didn't just wipe my mind.
Also: using synthetical cannabinoids. Can't sleep for more than two hours at a time since.

>>43600359
Currently about 1.5k dollares a month

Also to add to the regrets and just a PSA I want to make cause I know it's doing its rounds in the scene: stay away from mephedrone, mephy, m-kat, meow meow whatever name you know!
It's literal bath salts. Strangely addictive amalgamation of speed, coke and MDMA. Temporary psychosis and strokes WILL come. The question is not if but when and it's much much sooner than even with stuff like meth cause there it's mostly due to staying up too long whereas mephy seems to directly cause it.
Saw a lot of people having really bad times on it lately, also had a rodeo or two myself. That twelve hour comedown of jittery anxiety and heart palpitations is genuinely abhorrent. Taking a peak into hell kind of abhorrent.

>>43596641
>wahhh I don't pass I'm such a man ama
>bf
every time

other than drugs and partying, do you have any other hobbies?
Also, whats the best club in europe in your opinion?