i keep constantly fantasizing about falling in love. i want to wake up next to a girl i love, i want to tell her how much she means to me, i want to make her breakfast, i want her to call me cute, i want to grow old together with her. it will never happen to me but i wish it did. why is it so hard to find anyone. the only girl i ever though i had a chance with turned out to be straight. why couldnt i have been aroace. life would have been so much easier.