>>43609004
In a true transhumanist society, the first thing I would do (after giving myself a cisf body) is overwrite all of my memories with an alternative life where I was born cisf and my parents in a tragic accident years ago

instead I'm forced to live with the knowledge that I'm actually an autistic man larping as a woman and my parents disowned me

the shame is unbearable. I cannot take this anymore

>>43609004
not even doing an nlog thing where ur like the only fembrained tranny anymore, it's about how ur the only one who knows how malebrained u r. newsflash we all know we're men here

>>43609064
Can someone who's not addicted to xanax respond to instead? Please?

>>43609103
tell me about your personality

or dont..

>>43609242
>>43609628
i don't really wanna talk about all the aspects of myself that I'm ashamed about but also paradoxically too attached to repress, especially to someone who came into my thread and started arguing with me like we have some kind of longstanding feud going on

>>43609703
im nta

>>43609004
personality dysphoria is a meme, "male and female personalities" are a product of gender stereotypes artificially reinforced by entrenched patriarchal and religious culture machines
literally just bee yourself

>>43609703
why even preclude with "none of the trannies on this board can relate" if you wanted actual engagement and not argumentation

>>43609004
get out of this board, I think that'll genuinely help. you won't get anything good out of seeing the kind of trans women that are here lol

they're all disgusting to be honest

>>43609720
alright
>constant stress and anxiety, literally can't get 8 hours of sleep even if I'm exhausted
>anhedonic and detached, really don't ever feel pleasure from anything, just pain instead
>virgin (I put a lot of effort in my appearance and people from passgen always say I pass, I'm just very ascetic and avoidant so I don't see the point)
>ascetic to the point of eating the same simple meals every day
>diagnosed autistic
>avoidant to the point where I have very very few close relationships (basically 1 or 2 people)
>mostly listen to 80s alternative music
>weird complex about appearing independent and competent at everything I do, which paradoxically causes constantly low self esteem
>(this extends to dressing well as well, I unironically spend lots of money on expensive clothes just to make me appear more impressive even though I know it's a load of crap)
>pretty much spend all of my free time on computer or exercising or reading
>work in STEM
>pretty unempathetic, but I care about other trannies atleast
>transitioned at 16 now 26
>extremely mild mannered and shy irl
>constantly anxious that non-autistic people look down on me (although I only have 2 close relationships, I'm loose friends with a few autistic cis women and men)

>>43609901
sorry I was writing my post and trying to give a balanced take on what my personality is like

I really wish I could relate to OP but I'm so moidbrain it's fucking ogre for my terminator hulk mind

>>43609910
i know but where else do I go?

>reddit
literal gockposting sissy hons
>tttt reddit
all cliquey zoomers that I honestly just feel miserable around because I can relate to them enough that I care about their opinions, but not enough that I agree with anything they say
>twitter
narcissist highbie cult of personality simulator + even more insane political derangement syndrome than 4chan (I'm a left leaning moderate, I don't like being considered racist for not actively instigating a maoist reovlution)
>bluesky
same as above
>discord
too cliquey

I just want my comfy anonymous image board of 2014 back :( this place is so bad now

>>43609933
i can relate to what you said about "terminator hulk mind" though...

>>43610011
If you unironically do want to become more fem brained, then just go outside. Your average young woman, I'm assuming you are young anyways, is out enjoying life.

If you must ween yourself off the internet gradually at least stick to stuff like pinterest, and SOME parts of plebbit and instagram (gotta be careful with your algorithms though since a lot there are a lot of male brained rabbit holes that you can get sucked into). Stuff like fashion subreddits or fashion microcelebs on instagram.

>I just want my comfy anonymous image board of 2014 back
image boards are terminally male brained

>>43610504
:/ I fucking hate being autistic

but yeah you're right, i'll have to figure it out

>>43610504
>>43610682
also I think I'm just doomed by virtue of my career, it's male dominated and it's genuinely something you have to study outside of normal working hours to continue making advancements with, which means that I'm forced to interact with male dominated spaces constantly

i want to die