>be me, khhv ftm >lately been thinking too much about my sexuality and its relation to my own identity>find out I can't get attracted to any gender because of it, especially men >i can't get any thoughts about men in “that” light cause I remember I don't have a dick and it disgustes me, I wouldn't want to be another gayden among others>with girls it's self-explanatory, I idealize heterosexual relationships and that idealization breaks itself easily when I see how girls actually think of men and other women>solution: repress any sexual thought>get neurotic and apathetic (more than I already am) because of itmaybe this would be sorted out if I fell in loveI don't really need to be loved, I just need to love someone...
>>43611176khhv mtf...
>>43611225what did you mean by this anon
>>43611176How far in to medical transition are you?
>>43611274match made in heaven
Punching my wall due to the fact that I’ll never be able to have a KHHV FTM for myself — cisgay
>>43611277Not far because I'm in a third-world country and healthcare won't provide, sadly
>>43611329you better stop it before your knuckles eventually hurt, anon ..
>>43611407When you can eventually medically transition sex / labeling your orientation generally gets much easier
>>43611464I've heard about this and I really do hope it works that way for me, I wouldn't want to forever be this confused about myself
>>43611443Why wouldn’t you want to be a gayden though? I don’t see what’s so bad about it
>>43611689It's probably just the self-deprecating voice inside my head I got by browsing this place talking, it's hard to explain
>>43611176would
>>43611689Straightdens good because it makes normies more comfortable
>>43611735Hopefully one day you’ll be cured from such brainworms have be able to embrace gay love anon
This is how st4t was born
>>43612016Doubt if OP feels comfortable enough for any relationship right now
>>43612064Fair enough, he should just DIY
>>43612089Why DIY if he has T already? Why but when you can get it free
>>43611836Pray for me
>>43612089Getting DIY only seems possible in big cities
>>43611176Congratulations, OP. You're the first non-mtf to ever make a thread here. Let's give him a round of applause.
>>43611329there are many of us i assure you...
>>43612190OP is not medically transitioned (>>43611407)>>43612589I do not live in a big city, I am on diy hrt
>>43612589How so? You order it from the internet just like you would anyone else and surely you have a po box. I live in the smallest place ever
>>43611176Wow thanks for the fucking spoiler OP
>>43614365?
>>43614044Where, though?Here shipping takes forever and it's too expensive but I'll try check out any options
