Like there have been a few YouTubers that make good content that I just don’t want to watch because I think the creator is rather uglyI recently watched the most recent shitty kickflips video and I didn’t want to watch it bc I thought the main actors were hard to look at(Californian white trans types) I’m happy I did it was a good little short film thingieSame with people irl in the rare case where I see someone I find ugly I just don’t wanna be around them and think about how I can modify myself to maximize my looksI get this doubly so when it’s fellow trans people idk I find myself caring a bit less about something if it involves someone I think Is uglyAm I a vain asshole? Do most people feel this way? Will I end up in tranny hell for this?
>>43626248well, are you ugly?
yes, youre an assholebut it is somewhat normal, i think. most people do it subconciously. the difference is they notice when theyre doing it and try to correct themselves.for me it happens when i see balding/fat/older men but its more an extistential dread than active disgust/hate.
>>43626264I think I am but no one has ever agreed with meMy family says I’m notMy ex said I was very cute looking and attractive(obvious bias but they are objectively attractive so maybe that means something)My friends say I look fine and a few have said I look pretty(weird how these are the compliments I get despite being a pre hrt male, maybe it’s cause I’m short and look like my mom)Idk no one has ever said I’m anywhere close to ugly despite me believing I am sometimes and I don’t get treated like I am(been told I’m charismatic and get along pretty well with people socially)So I’m probably not ugly? I don’t know
>>43626280well you're probably just projecting yourself onto those people if you think that.
>>43626270Subconsciously? So is it just me that sees someone ugly and thinks “wow that person is fucking ugly! Gross.” Welp I knew I wasn’t a good person. Whatever.
>>43626309What do you mean? Like projecting my insecurities? I don’t know, some of these people are pretty ugly. That said I think the majority of people aren’t ugly, not really. When I think stuff like this it’s usually more a genetic thing rather than oh this person doesn’t take care of themself.
>>43626248You are a vain asshole but I privately feel exactly the same way desu. I just don’t tell any one
>>43626414I’d be vain as can be if it means I can look and have the exact body I want. Something something vanity idk
>>43626422Oh and this whole thing extends to the disabled sadly. I would never ever verbalize these thoughts and I hate when people are mean to the special needs. I can’t honestly say I enjoy being in their presence though. Sometimes I pity them, feels like a waste of life. One chance at human existence and this is what you get.
