>youtuber lmao kysyeah yeah i know but im good at it and it makes money and its a hell of a lot better than being a wagiei dont have that many videos up but the ones that i do have received far more momentum than i ever anticipated. i have people comparing me to youtubers with millions of subscribers. the problem is i'm a FUCKING TRANNY. obviously. but i dont tell my audience that because of course i dont that would mean i lose a significant portion of my audience. i honestly think i have a real future in this and coming out would probably kill that future. i don't use my face but i do use my voice and my original plan was to come out after i've voice trained for long enough but i never got around to it like the STUPID FUCKING IDIOT that i am and i don't think ANYBODY would be willing to watch a trans youtuber without a passing voice if they were making videos on things other than trans topics. it's so fucking humiliating and i genuinely am afraid that i'd do something drastic if the embarrassment got to me. simultaneously though if i keep up the manmode and put coming out off for long enough it might result in other issues. i obviously can't be closeted forever but coming out with a larger audience would be way more of a risk. my plan was going to be to just appeal specifically to trans people by making videos about shit like deltarune and whathaveyou but i wonder if my personality is...appealing to other trans people. most trans youtubers are very positive wholesome 100 r/mtf skirt go spinny types like melody nosurname and i am not like that at all. it's one thing to not have cis people like you but it's another thing to not have other trans people like you.i don't know why i'm posting this here all the responses i'm going to get are going to be dogshit but i just needed to vent so whatever
>>43626340wait a minute i think i know your channel
so what kinds of videos are you posting? even if it hyper autistic shit like minecraft and deltarune im sure you can get by fine just by not acting like an annoying egg_irl redditor and trying to appeal to 16yos.if u dont have a lot of vids up already its gonna easier to come out now that once youve got an established backlog.what kind of money are you making btw if youre comfortable asnwering? always been curious abt trying content creation but laziness and anxiety alwaysfuck me up.
just start voice training now
>>43626395doubtful, i've got a bit of attention but i'm still largely under the radar>>43626396video essays (CUE LAUGHTER AND MOCKERY FROM ALL ONLOOKERS)if you want a good frame of reference for how much money i am making, i made about 1,000 bucks off of a 45 or so minute video that got over 150k views. this then gets combined with stuff like patreon, youtube members, etc. as well as other videos posted. the more you upload the more money you make total
>>43626340heres the plan:>make videos>get money>get enough money to pay for surgeries>get surgeries>invest leftover money>never post again>live a stealth lifeits that easy, tard
>>43626431girl if youre making video essays theres like a 75% youre queer anyway atp ESPECIALLY if theyre about video games i really dont anyone is gonna give a fuck unless youre trying really hard to appeal to chuds or 16yos
>i have people comparing me to youtubers with millions of subscribersYeah well how many subscribers do you actually have?>keep uploading on current channel>stop using your voice, switch to tts>start a new channel with no connection>post alternative content there while voice training
>>43626340>>43626431Crunchybagels?
>>43626340You can be whatever kind of youtuber you want. Kiki Ash keeps getting more popular and she says tranny or calls something retarded all the time. My point is that you don't have to be skirt goes spinny type, just be cool. Let me subscribe to your channel, btw
>>43626515If that is OP, I just assumed you were trans anyways. It's really obvious, lmao. Liked your HRT vid, that was fun and the art was cute
>>43626481using TTS is an even worse idea than using a trannyvoice lol>>43626515no but looking at this guys content that was a good guess lol
>>43626340omg an actual tuber on 4tran... do you ever plan on making a video about /tttt/? (you'll come out eventually. we all have to at some point.)
>>43626547i explicitly do not want to be a "trans youtuber", i want to be a "youtuber who is trans". i do not want to make content about trans things because being trans is not my identity or my main interest. so no
>>43626556oh ok, well then why not just come out as a tranny quickly and move on? no one is telling you you NEED to make videos about trannies. no one would actually see you as a worse YouTuber if you did come out, and if they do you need new fans.
>>43626556>>43626569im saying just make the videos you want to make. announce that you're a tranny on like a community post or something and move on. Im actually glad you're not going the r/mtf route though. we have enough annoying agpers making those kind of videos, do not need another one.
>>43626515the he/him in this persons bio is like a joke lmao anyone would have assumed she was trans at a glance if that wasnt there
>>43626569narcissismi try and separate myself from other video essayists by being more emotionally vulnerable and personal in what i create, which has actually worked out in my favor. i feel like i could never just "come out" i need to make some video like ceciocat did on Inside Mari because i want people to understand what being trans and what repping is actually likei know i just said i didn't want to make videos about trans stuff but the idea is that this would be the *only* video i make about trans stuff and then i move on
>>43626340there is an edm producer youtuber who i follow who came out as a tranny at the middle of it all and its fine. she even still has her old manmode videos up. its not as big of a deal as you make it out to be even if your channel has nothing to do with trans stuff
wait are you the dude who made the video about scott pilgrim being 23???? if its you i loved it and i related to that a lot
>>43626635nah its def you lol. i hope youre doing a bit better than it sounded like you were in that video. the type of shit youre posting is already about pretty queer-friendly fandoms and frankly i dont see annoying trans redditor culture taking over your comments if you were to do a big coming out video. also you have a pretty small catalog so just starting voice training now and continuing as normal migh tnot really matter that much
>>43626635>>43626676
>>43626617you're thinking way too hard about this I think. but idk I could be wrong. YouTubers tend to like structure which I I've always found admirable. but you have two options realistically: come out as trans (in whatever way you think is best) or don't. at the end of the day, it's YOUR choice. what do YOU think would be best?
>>43626714ownedyoure not gonna lose a significant portion of your audice if you came out or even just slowly changed your voice over time. id reckon most of your subs now only know u for that scott pilgrim vid so thats a grand total of 1 video to "know" you from. changing something now isnt gonna matter. whatvever u choose to do ill watch bc u made me cry with the last one and i like to torture myself lolsorry for fangirling
>>43626714>literally uses pfp from channel in picrel>this will get top in /LGBT/lmao, this has to be a larp. this is gonna get screenshotted ...
>>43626714>sis is making scott pilgrim videos and doesnt already know she is on this iceCis men dont like scott pilgrim
>>43626825im saying like no one is gonna gaf when were out here talking about homestuck and scott pilgrim like girl bfr
>>43626825my dad does....... wait
>>43626841lmao if this is real and you are, mad funny you're a 4tranner. btw psychogenicfugue, are you AGP or HSTS?
>>43626860The tranny gene strikes again
>>43626759every third fucking comment on that video is telling me to transition>have u tried hrt >Hey I saw a few clips of it in there but I’d love to hear more of your thoughts on I Saw The TV Glow because it really embodies these feelings perfectly for me. >I hope you transition girlie, it sounds like you need it. >i relate to this a lot as a trans person. before i cane out in 8th grade, i was a shell of who i was, completely disassociated and now able to make sense of reality. there is still time. i promise.>really good video !! a lot of really familiar thoughts and feelings here. have you ever thought about being a girl. it really does make things better, i promise.>i don't know who needs to hear this but if you're looking through the comments section of a video like this then i am here to be your sign: much like scott pilgrim, your life would be better if you transitioned >Ya ever thought about being a girl? thats a fun thing to try out at 23!! >hi as a trans woman this is one of the most trans not trans (I think) videos I’ve ever seen this is so fantastic love love love >damn, that sucks, have you considered taking estradiol? >I think I'm personally starting to get there and I hope you do too. But idk, I realized I'm a trans woman so maybe it's a bit different. Scott to Remona pipeline is my goal hahah > No for real, while I was reading the comics, I think during my first year of college, I related to Scott Pilgrim so much. And now I'm a woman with a good job and a good number of friends. Tada It will happen to you >"has anybody heard of Jane Remover?" she asked estrogenuinely > idk if you're trans but statistically you might wanna consider it (I sure was) >@psychogenicFugue are you trans?> You should look into transitioning if you haven't already i would add more but it goes over the comment text limit
>>43626825scott pilgrim is literally THE cis men thing wtf are you talking about. scott pilgrim is one of the poster childs for "shithead guy character that shithead guys in real life see as literally them and start seeing women as "their ramona flowers". that's why i feel so self-conscious about relating to him>>43626868self-loathing jeep
>>43626906>telling me to transitionit feels oddly cool to know that maybe an amazing video essayist at 23 is having the same trans-existential crisis I'm currently having as a filmmaker wannabe at 24. regardless if you transition or not, just know you're not alone. there are other bpdemons like you hahahahaha. so you may be a fucking tranny, but you won't be alone that's for sure buddy!
>>43626340I think the best thing you can do is to just voice train anyways and use your trained voice with little introduction, no context or explanation given. If you make as little of a deal as you want to present it as, I bet the majority of your audience will just not care. The ones who do can just be included into those who would have lost interest anyways. You don’t want to be a YouTuber who’s whole shtick is trans, so present as little of your transition to your audience. The times you could mention being trans is when it could add context of a different perspective to the topic of your video. Also, you you present your transition slowly and quietly, the part of the audience who might receive it negatively could get accustomed to and stop caring if one of their favorite video essayists is a trannyI really love Picrel
>>43626921>scott pilgrim is literally THE cis men thingMaybe like 20 years ago? It was certainly never lopular or known outside of queers in my highschool a decade ago, even with the movie. For sure not since that animated series
>>43626906hmm well it sounds like you give off tranny vibes, idk i cba watching any of your vids rn voice training takes a while to get good. like a while. so you should probably start voice training already if you haventyou can switch back and forth if you dont use your girl voice 24/7, which you could keep doing for videos if you felt necessary whats stopping you?t. 24 years old (youre 23?) and started hrt at 19!dont rep tho. repping is retarded and basically suicide
>>43626921jeep as in vroom vroom :D the fact you ignored means you're AGP.
>>43626340hi. i love your art. is there a way to see it still since u deleted ur reddit account
>>43626960i post my art on twitter but i've been in kind of a funk for the past month so i haven't drawn much
>>43626989Your avatar kind of looks like my friend from high school that slit his throat in the principles office after she discovered he was a cocaine dealer (he lived)
this thread is fascinating as a significantly smaller tuber, if you even wanna call me that. I admire that your guy's hard work and structure. I'm still learning how to edit and properly mix my audio lol.whatever you end up doing, I hope your videos are successful and you become an even bigger YouTuber. Just try not to post drama slop pls, we have enough of that on the Internet lol.
Okay well I didn't know what YouTuber you were but I recognize you from 4t4, wild that you'd just use the same screen name Get ur bag tho happy for ur success
ugh a lot of these annoy me too honestly but like the video is honestly pretty transcoded in hindsight so not much u can really do for nowi would still do voicetraining cause like i already said ur catalog is small and itd be better to do it earlier than later bc you wonot need to introduce it all of a sudden and can hopefully just do like normal.i think its fine to hate the whole "oh haha youre a early 20s burnout haha you must be trans" thing even if by chance it happens to apply to you - again as long as youre videos dont specifically remove around the topic besides amybe a coming out one id assume theyll be less frequent in the future
Reviewbra?
>>43626946yeah its all queers now or fujos drooling over todd/wallace (i am said fujos)
>>43626989whats ur twitter ._. ur art is a big inspiration for me
>>43626989I follow your twitter. This is likely real. Especially the art and some of your tweets. Just gonna say, I really fucking get it being seen as a douchy guy who malebrained tastes your whole life only to realize you have another dimension to you that both limits you and frees you and is the only way people should see you and wish you people can see you in that light, but they can't.It sucks and it doesn't get better. But pain is pretty based so you let it ride. Good luck fellow tranny.
>>43626989holy shit your art is rad as fuck
>>43627034she goes by reviewbitch now.
>>43626340What do you think the issue would be with staying closeted indefinitely?
>>43627080Vlush and PsychogenicFugue in the same thread in crazy. You were just in a thread a few days ago thirsting over smut and now you're here attention whoring for a small-time video essayist hahaha
>>43627087well, you see, i feel gender dysphoria when people perceive me as male.
>>43627102as you know, the best treatment for gender dysphoria is posting a transfem tips video
>>43627087sooo youre reccomending repping? lol???? u want them to look like this when theyre 40???
>>43627102then transition you retRdeventually, people are gonna figure out your trans regardless of what you tried to hide so either you can start voice training now and eventually switch all your content to your girl voice, or you can keep using your guy voice for your videos while voice training off screen and hide everything about yourself and definitely and continue to be seen as a man for all your videos. Your choice.
>>43627096ty for letting us know who they are, pity they're not on bsky.
>>43627102People would probably still perceive you as male if you came out though, especially if your voice doesn’t pass, so why bother? Forgive me if this comes across as a chudpost, I’m just curious about your mindset.>>43627137Repping ≠ boy/manmoding, the former incurs further testosterone poisoning and the latter helps reduce dysphoria even if it falls short of alleviating it fully.
>>43627102honestly, you're just thinking you're trans because you so badly want to be a woman due to either hypersexuality or hyperromanticism. there is no such thing as transexuality. its all just because certain people feel such a strong poll to the feminine form, that kissing and having sex with a woman never satisfies their soul. he must become one. I'd say stop consuming so much terminally online media and throw yourself into something that challenges your comfort zone. you're in a prison of your own thoughts. taking estrogen and "dysphoria" is a medical pysop. you're already smart and self-aware and clearly you're not a deluded schizo. don't fall for the trap, Anon. stay safe and sane. everyone here is just trying to groom you into their misery. leave. don't come back.
>>43627165go back to your containment board faggot
>>43627153you are a whore Vlush. you desire to be dominated. we all know why you are here. you that nebula elite jew neo-pussy.
>>43626340>i obviously can't be closeted foreverno, but you can be for a loooong time.I don't make videos in english and i boymode on camera. I make no secret of the fact that i'm queer/fag but, other than that, i continue to do my thing without discussing how i'm a tranny.I girlmode in the rest of the time and I'm post op.I suppose at one point it won't work anymore, but it's been working just fine for 8 years now.Good luck, though!
>>43627174said the hypersexual. try and disprove me you terminally online fuckos.
>>43627185you are fascinating.>>43626340anyway I love your art n videos, and I hope you find both yourself and a comfortable audience.
>>43626906I get the reddit shit is annoying but is it possible you find it more annoying becuase youre closeted so it feels like a callout? Maybe itd bother you less if you were out. Some of those comments aren't really what I was picturing I was thinking more like annoying frilly skirt blahaj hypersexual prog estrodoil :3 posting shit. Some of these just sound like chill people relating in a trans way. Some of these suck for sure tho the JR comment specifically pisses me off/
>>43627165>don't fall for the trap
>>43627102dysphoria gets relieved when you have sex. Trust me on this. Get some good dick (yes GOOD BIG DICK) and get railed. Moan and orgasm like a woman. Tape it. Send it .mov to your parents and post it on your twitter. If you like being called a filthy feminine failed male bottom, its working. The dysphoria is going away. Make sure on the tape, it captures you in utter squealing forfeited pleasure. And that it captures clearly that YOU are the one being penetrated. This has been proven time and time again to relieve dysphoria. The question now is: who will rail you? Most trans women do not need HRT or SRS: they just need a big fat fucking dick and to be violently held by a man.
>>43627219yeah i most of them are fine, i think i'm just being reflexively hostile because i still haven't rewired my brain from years of repping
>>43627251you're an idiot
>>43627251most agp shit ive ever read kys
>>43627251girl you feel better after sex because EVERYONE feels better after sex it wears off after like a few hours lol just admit youre a chaser and get over it
>>43627251i know this is just some stupid chaser fetish shit but i have specifically made it a point to not talk about sex because i hate how hypersexual the trans community and i want to be differentscrolling through pages upon pages of trans women posting insane fetish shit on TERF forum boards for hours when i was in high school was at least 80% of the reason i repressed
>>43627242don't say I didn't warn you! Remember these words: you will never have children. 99% of the world will be repulsed by you. You are to die alone in a weak estrogenized body. You will be weaker. Frailer. You will work in a food chain store checking items on a register. You will be a strange hybrid of a man and a woman. No-one will love you. No-one will understand you. No-one will ever feel your pain.Now, imagine this Anon: you're a man. Yes, you're man. Makes you cry realizing that yes: its okay, to be you. Strong and reliable. Firm and exacting. "That's my boy!", they say. What a better life?Repping is the only based solution because the masculinized male form is superior to the estrogenized woman body-structure. Men are just more physically and mentally adept. Its not too late to detransition ... to be a better human.
>>43627263you're a virgin!
>>43627279I'm not AGP, I'm just based. Clearly you've never tried this. I've done MANY times. It works 100% of the time. Sketch did this and he said it relieved his dysphoria. I know him personally.
>>43627283good dick LASTS years.
>>43627335why are you even replying to this retard hes clearly masturbating to every reply you give him>i couldn't do a single push-up pre hrtlol
>>43627292call anything you disagree with a "fetish."hypersexual trannies are a problem and I am not for being hypersexual but most of you tenderqueers who post gay and lame ass video-essays never had any dick and it shows! you can't transition unless you've had some sexual experience and if not, you're faketrans. I'm not saying be hypersexual AGP troon, but being a virgin just means you're an asocial and poorly socialized male who has gripped to the fantastical woman as an early life crisis.If Ramona Flowers and chronically online female avatars are your trans awakening, you're just a mentally ill male virgin who is making trans women unsafe by putting your "fetish" into our community. stop the attention whoring, you're a faketrans bitchboy.
>>43627335>bloodline cursedmmm, is that where the trans thoughts are coming from? transtrender identified ... self-hatred and projecting on a group of people via your own personal BS>estrogenized body isn't as le bad as being a weak malelmfaaaaooooooo estrogenized bodies are WEAKER and you're gonna feel it. get rekt tard.>my gay softcore video essays will save memmm no. no they won't. it'll dry up. what's Nerdwriter doing now? He "transitioned" his work into an actual job. Or if Nerdwriter is still working 95% of video essayists do it. dude, you're a micro-celebrity, the money dries up, cut it out>boohoo no-one loves me and everyone is repulsed by meyes. YES. this is the casenot reading all them faggoty ass exclamation marks lil bro. listen, idk, gender dysphoria is fake, you got duped and you're burning your wallet to be faketrans. are you crying?
>>43627379oh yeah gayboy ... lmfffaooooo THAT MEANS YOU'RE GAY. hello gay male!
>>43627397the tenderqueer le feelings TV glow faketrans "psychogenicfugue" said that HE tried to fuck a woman but when he had to top, he felt nothing ... in high school. bro, you're just a gay man. stop trying to be a woman. that ish weird bro. leave us alone, we're good! Real trans people are here.
>>43626340do a coming out video. keep this thread. screencap and talk about it. take the hate. be the first trans video essayist that isn't some r/mtf faggot. so many people rep and never figure out who they are because they have AbigailThorneHon and other "trannies" muck up the water. yes, maybe 1 random trans person who will see your video will now decide to not rep realizing that, "yes, I'm not alone." you don't have to make it gooey. you don't have to make it like that Inside Mari video. just do it, be geniune, be you ...or, as other posters say: don't. get your money up and leave and live a life off this board. safe travels, Nona.
definitely do not talk about this thread or about this board at all when you eventually come out, and ignore anyone who talks about this thread
I liked your scott pilgrim video
>>43626340literally just don't come out, just gradually change your voice and eventually private old videos
I just watched your Scott Pilgrim video after hearing about it in this thread. I'm the same age as you and relate deeply to a lot of what you said. I've had too many moments throughout my life where in hindsight I ruined it, and false memories, therapists, and drugs never helped. You have gained a subscriber. I hope we both make it.
>>43628048thank you
>>43626340tbqh I would just stay in the closet unless you were seriously planning on a face reveal and facefagging. You will open yourself to kiwifarms harassment, and extra pressure as a public facing tranner. Tbqh if you can get enough to get your surgeries of of just vocally repping I think you should do that. Anyways best of luck to you!
>>43628123is KF really a problem as long as u ignore it and dont lurk in your own hate thread? unless she has some serious skeletons in her closet its nbd no?
Just don't "come out", leave your tranny delusions out of your work and you will get far more attention and a more respectable audience.
>>43628025>private old videosno, just keep them up
>>43626714yeah ok your content is already really tranny coded so whatever, doesn't really matter either way
>>43626340u literally used to be very active on 4tran4 under the same name as ur yt channel like whats even the point of trying to hide anything
>>43626340yt is all about niches-- people will see it regardless of whether it appeals to your current audience. if you allow shame to guide what you do, itll be others steering you. so at least do what you want first before thinking about unknown fags
>>43626340repress if you want to maintain your income and not get shit talked here daily when people inevitably find out who you are
>>43626340honestly if i were you i'd just shut up and never mention it to anyone, your viewers don't need to know anything. being a tranny publicly has no benefits.but you literally use the same username you had on 4tran4 and post this shit, you were basically begging to get recognized lmao. that's clearly what you want to do, so might as well get it over it, post the damn inside mari video or whatever tranny video essayists do :>but PLEASE do proper voice training before using it in your videos lol
