i don't even remember that i'm gay most of the time. over the years i've managed to compartmentalize it extremely well inside my head, not unlike how bill clinton could have a somber phone call and then monica would suck his dick right after hanging up. basically once a week i jerk off (using only my thoughts, which helps), clean up, and then take a long shower to "sanitize" myself. i'm not even trying to cope or compensate for anything. years of being forced to worry about immediate risks (low weight, shelter, food/water) cemented my sexuality as insignificant. to me, seeing a cute guy in real life doesn't do much. it's like how when you're a kid and see some commercial about filing taxes on TV - you have a basic idea of what it's about, but don't pay attention since your subconscious mind knows it isn't important for now.
>>43627043Have you ever thought about the fact you could be assexual?
>>43627254i'm definitely not. i used to sell pictures to fags online years ago before it got boring, and while i'm still a virgin it's mainly because i don't go outside much anyway.the best way i can describe it is that for 99% of the time, i have no interest in sex at all. for the 1% of the time i do, it's really powerful. i think most normal people have a more smoothly distributed profile... sex probably is in the back of their minds all day, but it's not an issue and they know that
gay man comes to the realization that intimacy is utterly frivolous and isn't something that we should revolve our reality around (everyone is left in shock)
>>43627332>99% of the time, i have no interest in sex at allLike an assexual person...
