I have a history of cutting myself and still want to cut myself as i REALLY enjoy it but was recently put on forced "recovery".I really want to start a collection of knives i like as i have a super cliche crazy girl fascination with them (which i obvi cant do right now because of previously mentioned forced recovery, i wouldnt be allowed to have knives).The reason i sh is cause of the euphoric rush and cause i like looking at blood and wounds and stuff. But separate from that im also a masochist and would probably ask any future gf to cut me in bed at some point (id want styros minimum), which could be an ick considering they would most likely know of my history of sh atp (from seeing the scars) and they wouldnt wanna do it cause they would feel like an enabler maybe? (idk and thats why im asking this board)Im aware sh scars can be a real buzzkill for most, so they'd probably ask me about them when they see them if im undressing for her, could i just tell her not to worry about it??I know im mentally not very desirable but is there at least a chance for me? or do i have to give up the stuff i love to be normal enough for dating the lesbian demographic?
>>43635749there are lots of women into blood and cutting. possibly even a higher proportion than men, though probably men are more likely to agree to doing it anyway.personally, i don't know if i could be in a relationship that didn't involve being cut and also cutting. hasn't been an issue for me yet, if anything it's gone quite well for me...and most people who like cutting either don't mind, or like self harm scarseven beyond that, you will probably have better luck with queers than with straights on all of this, like, obviouslyt. bi boymoder
>>43636125would it be a stretch with the average person who likes cutting to continue to sh while im dating them?
>>43636346just talk to them about it. personally i wouldn't mind but might ask you to cut down on how much you do it if your relationship to it is unhealthy. i don't think most would be much differentalso, just generally, this is a thing you should be open and honest if you want to have healthy relationships and still cut yourself, even though you're probably used to hiding it and lying about it
>>43636444>if your relationship to it is unhealthyoh well my psychiatrist actually told me yesterday i clearly dont show signs of addiction (she still clearly wants me to stop tho lmao) so yay (:youve been a great help, tysm nona <3
>>43636649im glad to hear that :) i'm very glad to be of help. you seem sweet, i hope things go well for you and you can find someone right for you. i don't know what "forced recovery" entails but i hope it is okay
>>43636708forced recovery is when they take your razors and constantly check on you/search your room to make sure you didnt find something sharp. it sucks. i cant wait till it blows over and i get to do what i want again
>>43636802who is the hell is "they"? where do you live where they do this to adults outside of the ward? that seriously sucks anon i hope you're out of it soon
>>43636836>who the hell is "they"?my parents :/im only 19 so i cant do anything about it. i was originally at my dad's house who was way more adamant but now im at my mom's which is a little more lax but still. altho i do get why their doing it even if i dont like it and they will probably stop once my psychiatrist deems me sane enough.
>>43636836also do you have a discord youd be willing to give out? its alright if no, was just hoping to get a friend since you also seem nice
>>43636943that's fucked up. i don't know what to say to that. does your psychiatrist approve of this blatant invasion of your privacy and autonomy? surely they would lie to your parents for you to prevent this. but then again i have always been lucky with medical professionals. i hope that you can get out of this situation soon>>43636974i'd prefer if you gave me your discord...bu i'm really glad you asked! if you don't want to post it publicly send an email with your discord to 2u.yu@proton.me. you can send the email from a throwaway
>>43637065email sent, should have worked
>>43635749no probably not>t.lesbian who is also into cutting
