>be me two years ago>23 yo mtf, 5 years hrt. still cant pass consistently>one of my oldest friends is a self proclaimed “nondysphoric” repper. >as much as i try i cant imagine him really being a girl, realize its because of his brutish mannerisms and often rude attitude>realize that all that applies to me too>start acting kinder and putting a lot of thought into seeing good in everyone, being optimistic and soft spoken. stop saying cursewords >after a series of one night stands with chasers and theyfabs i get a cisbf and realize i need to be the most perfect girl in the world or else he’ll leave me>begin doing acts of service for my friends, inviting them over for dinner and keeping my house clean for when bf comes over>suddenly taking care of myself has a purpose, because if im acting like this i must look accordingly. cooking and cleaning begin feeling easier too, especially when my bf gives me a reason to do them or even helps me >make new friends and everyone starts saying that im a ray of sunshine and consistently send me hopefuel memes captioned “you”>get a new job and ive been stealth since then. ik it’s literally a sissy’s dream but being nice and demure is making me interiorize optimism and i feel a lot better with my life nowadays. even cissoids who clock me treat me well because im extroverted and kind and make them feel at ease. i used to think being a tranny doomed me for life but treating people nice makes 90% of them treat you nicely back, even people who usually hate trannies. obviously theres lunatics who’d kill me if they knew what i am but ive been lucky enough for now and ive still got plenty of life ahead to get surgeries and pass better.
>>43652331That's really based, nicemaxxing and friendlymoders are the best people. It's helpful to pass, and makes everyone happierI'm glad you're able to be stealth and have a bf, i hope things keep going well for youbtw What came of your repper friend?
>>43652376Thank u anon!!! <33And regarding my friend, the situation is still the same... it makes me really sad, and it's been almost five years now since the first time we talked about his gender. no matter what i've said or done has talked them into transitioning, or even taking hrt in secret. it's kind of opened my mind towards people who could maybe be happier as a girl but its simply too high a risk for such a small reward in the harsh world we live in . he's not depressed or heavily dysphoric and every once in a while when we talk about this he seems content. its sad but well, what can you do...
thats so sweet and i hope you and the bf stay together for a while
