Did male socialization permanently stunt your emotions? Do you think you will ever experience love towards someone? Does it affect other things in life like your creative output, motivation, etc?
>>43906437My emotions have always been stunted because of autism, but male socialization only exacerbated that issue. The problem now is that there's no real resources for learning emotional intelligence as an adult man. Just, at all. When you ask around all you get is a vague implication of 'go to therapy' and not much else. I think the only way to potentially fix emotionally stunted people has to be psychedelic drugs just because of how shitty the system is at dealing with it, yet I'm too much of a wuss to try it.
>>43906437impaired iq from klinefelters and being a very very late child, paired with extreme lifelong porn addiction and male socialization with insane parents genuinely fucked me up for life, the only strong emotion i can feel is envy
The one thing I have is some mad executive dysfunction. My male socialization was a blessing and a curse I suppose, I borrowed a brash and bold personality but shaped it into a "girlboss badass vibe", repurposing. I'm still an emotional mess, I cry a lot, I'm a total hopeless romantic, etc... That kind of came naturally as I first started to socialize with people I was into at like 16 (took me a huge while to start feeling stuff for people, ig that's also relevant to this).
>>43906437> Did male socialization permanently stunt your emotions?No, I'm able to feel all of my emotions, sometimes too much, I can cry and be mad, happy etc> Do you think you will ever experience love towards someone?Probably never in the way others experience actual love, I'm too damaged> Does it affect other things in life like your creative output, motivation, etc?Maybe? I consider myself exceptionally uncreative and untalented I'd consider myself fembrained and to have a poor male socialization, but with excellent female role models
>>43906437sometime i want to kill myself but then i imagine reimu and marisa kissig and my day so bright
>>43906437>Did male socialization permanently stunt your emotions?No. Being a manlet with a slightly bum leg, I was forced to confront and deal with my emotions from an early age. Then when my parents got divorced my mom took me to see a counselor who helped me to be more communicative with my feelings and emotions. This helped me tremendously and I became a marvel to females because I was actually in touch with my feelings and could communicate them....add in a touch of agp intuitivness and I became something of a woman whisperer lol. good stuff
>>43906437>men>less capable of feeling loveLol.Lmao, even
>>43906437>male socializationwhat do you mean by this and maybe I can answer
>>43906437the only part of male socialization i feel like i really got was being bad at talking about emotions, i usually have good emotional intelligence and relationship skills but it falls apart when i have to tell someone about how i feelnot even that i can't feel and parse through my emotions (which was true before i started hrt but that's more about becoming less dissociated than unlearning male socialization), but i get this nagging feeling that i'm bothering people and making their lives harder when i try to tell them about negative emotionsmy gf got mad at me about it before bc she texted me asking how i'm doing and i kept ignoring the question cause i was freezing up when i tried to vent
>>43906437It did a little bit, I used to think I was a psychopath who only cared about myself and getting what I want but I got normal after highschool.
>>43906437I have emotions but I can't talk about them to anyone, at least not in detail, I just start crying sometimes and I understand what im feeling and why but I can't communicate it or ask for help
>>43906437Personally, I've never had any male socialization, yet I was a victim of those who had male socialization.
>>43906437I avoided all that by consuming a healthy dose of fembrained content all throughout my life. The only downside to that is that now I get people refering to me as to a woman from time to time.Vivec docet, as they say.
>>43908708Glad to see that /lgbt/ is Morag Tong territory, fitting since Mephala is a futanari.
>>43906437yeah, and still yeah. but its not the same anymore. i was very emotionally immature from basically puberty to about 22-23 was a raging asshat and then stopped being so self centered and developed empathy realized a lot of people were going through some shit and my terrible life wasnt all that uniquely bad. this gave me crippling anxiety and the extreme need to not inconvenience others so now im emotionally retarded in a new way. just barely starting to progress 10 years later. im still really bad and communicating and not being passive aggressive hoping people can read my mind and stuff but at least now im slightly aware of it. i just get in situations where my anxiety overrides it and i just freeze up and catastrophize and never communicate my feelings but im working on it kinda. it really helps when you finally do and its not a big deal, i guess a lot of the time the issue is actually the specific people involved have issues of their own and are still learning too. i lost my temper and i should probably apologize for but its been too long and i didnt initially because i couldnt wrap my head around it and didnt really regret what i did/thot it was justified and it was the first time i raised my voice in years but instead i think the people who i want to apologize to actually committed to making some changes and realized that while i shouldnt have yelled they actually were really unfair and inconsiderate for a long fucking time(like years) until i snapped. at first i thought they were scared and i felt awful and male about it but idk.
