no one chairs editionthe previous thread or something... does it mattress?>>44238846>qott of the threaddo you avoid looking at mirrors?
>>44277825sometimes i look nice in the mirror
>>44277825Never take HRT, friends
>>44278014no!!!
the dysphoria keeps coming back, but this time without the psychotic magical thinking that made me believe a successful transition was still possible
>>44277825depends on the day? today I look particularly haunted so yes but most of the time don't really carealthough I do still hate pictures of myself. yesterday a guy came up to me and was like "i took this nice picture of you :) can I send it to you" and it really freaked me out>>44278014don't have to tell me twice
>>44277825>0.87 midface ratio>feminine/androgynous, sensitive, emotional personality>demure, submissive demeanor>enormous jaw and zygoma>giant chin>bullied by less masculine looking, more masculine acting cis moids throughout life>autistic>huge browridge>physically abused as a kid by a hypermasculine father>did i mention 0.87 horse midface???Developing an extremely, 96th percentile long midface while being a submissive feminine male throughout your entire life has to be some kind of cruel cosmic joke.It's like God wanted to trap an Apollonian, androgynous, sensitive soul, inside of a unfixably hypermasculine face, and finish off this cosmic joke with a society filled with cis moids born with more beautiful and gracile features, who all want to make themselves appear more crass, ugly, and masculine, to cause the most ironic suicide story in the universe, for teh lulz.LONG HORSE ADAM DRIVER MIDFACE 0.87 MIDFACE RATIO LONG HORSE ADAM DRIVER MIDFACE 0.87 MIDFACE RATIO LONG HORSE ADAM DRIVER MIDFACE 0.87 MIDFACE RATIO LONG HORSE ADAM DRIVER MIDFACE 0.87 THIS IS WHY I REP THIS IS WHY I REP THIS IS WHY I REP
I don't know what's sustaining me at this point, but it's probably a massive cope that I'll eventually get rich and will pay for a bunch of surgeries to fix my hideous body.
why is the universe so cruel to me
>>44277825avoided mirrors for 35 years now
>>44277825sometimes I can look at myself for a couple of seconds, but there's some days in which I can't even stand to look at my ugly ass manly face for more than 2 seconds, it's so disgusting and upsetting in a way that cissoids will never understand. Doing videos is absolute pain.
>>44277825Avoided looking into mirrors for years at one point.
>>44277825i repped for like 10 years and trooned out a little over a year ago. literally everything has been positive except a few things ive been forced to confront vs avoiding while repping. mostly related to dealing with family/inlaws and bathrooms feel awkward as fuck now and it makes me want to go outside less bc i have to hold my pee in more. other than that though im really glad i did it, i just think about being the age i am now or a year older and still not transitioning and how i wouldn't be staring at the barrel of a gun in that case
do people with assburgers still have a problem with looking in the mirror cause i never did i'm just looking at how sick my hair is but if someone were to analytically break it down how my reflection is different from females i would be like uh oh that's not good
Like 2 of my siblings have trooned out :/ During a psych break i told them I was a tranner but I’ve been repping since thenWonder if they think about that sometimes
Last night I had another cute lesbian dream and I woke up really depressed so I called into work sick and laid in bed playing Twilight Princess on my steamdeck all day. I need these days every now and then where I just rot in my bedroom it feels comfy. I feel like I'm more comfortable being depressed than I am when I'm in a good mood.
Hello Stonetoss I know you lurk (and probably also post) here
>>44280041Is there real evidence for this or is it another case of if you dislike trannies you must be transbecause if the latter were true like 10% of the planet at minimum would be trans
I rep for thee
>>44279978honestly kind of cruel of them to not bring it up, nona.
>>44277825Yea. Morning thought process is usually>I look kind of fine don't I?>Why would I think that? That's gross and narcissistic, and probably AGP, too.>>44278427Photo fear is so real. I covered up my face out of last year's holiday pictures, and for a bit my homescreen was a relative next to an ominous dark blur.
>>44280050His latest comic is a stolen bit from a repgen thread last week
>>44280141Stonetossamabs....it's over....
>>44280141STONETOSS, if you can hear us... put the amogus on the FIRST PANEL next strip!! inshallah!!
>>44280141I choose to believe this is what happened.
>>44277825>do you avoid looking at mirrors?I just bought an apartment and both bedrooms have inbuilt closets on one wall, so an entire wall of each room is just mirrors. I've been trying to come up with a solution to cover them without it being too weird. Maybe I'll make a collage of all the anime girls I wish I had been born as and tape it over the mirrors.
>>44277825bathroom mirrors are whatever, it's more seeing my reflection in public through reflective surfaces like windows that really depresses me
Outdoor reflections really give me a sense of scale of just how hard i heightmog everyone and everything around me, and how masculine my silhouette is.
>>44277825i look in the mirror and see someone else but it's not it's me, i look at my face but don't see my whole face i see something smaller maybe just my looking deep in my eyes, not everything is in focus i'm not seeing my whole head and face and my brain kind of fills in these blurry shapes for me. I can sometimes even think i don't look horrible and then when I take a photo something horrid i don't recognise is staring back at me, and i look in the mirror and he's there too. If i look at specific features i can break this spell and spend hours on front of the mirror distorting my jaw and nose and eyes and brows with my hands pulling at my face lost, like im moulding some clay with my hands and not my face, it feels and looks about as foreign to me as a block of clay from the earth.I can stare at my giant V shape body and shoulders and lack of hips until I cry and have done so many times
>>44280141I- This can't be a coincidence.Take your HRT, stonetoss. It might make you less of a tranny-obsessed tard.
She never misses.
>>44277825i looked in the mirror last week and it took me 5 minutes to recognise myselfi try to avoid mirrors now
>playing elin>died to a random spear trapthis isn't fun. oh wait maybe I should have looked up the wiki and found out if you go to the Aremu village and sacrifice 10 potions of silence to the altar of Neikikomo you get a companion that sees all traps. fuck this gameI WANT TO BE AN ANIME GIRL
i look like this
>>44280382Just play Degrees of Lewdity
>>44280512Don't post this AGPfuel here, makes me want to rope.
the best part about being post op is getting fucked is like watching fpov porn.
Love yourself nona. You are beautiful in your own way. You might think you're worthless, but you're a miracle, one of the rarest things in the universe. Every moment of consciousness is a blessing, even if it doesn't feel like that sometimes.
>>44280512AGP triggered evil image
>>44277825MenNuff said Also, saw alex jones walking a dog this morningFucking freaks
>>44280141hey that's me
I'm repping because I hope to have children one day. One a scale from 0 to 10, how retarded am I?
>>44282475>Willingly passing on the tranny gene
>>44277825>qott of the thread>do you avoid looking at mirrors?Been on HRT for 10 years and I still sometimes have to look away from mirrors on the bad days. Not always, definitely not most of the time, but rarely the dysphoria gets pretty bad even though I do pass.
>>44282538>Been on HRT for 10 yearsWhat are you doing here then?
>>44282556Used to be a repper myself a decade ago, like checking out the old stomping grounds every now and then. Besides, you girls could use the company.
>>44282536It's not 100% heritable, not even 50 I suspect.
>>442824751000000000000000000000000000000000000000
>>44280012me too honestly. i just have so many triggers of "dysphoria" at work anyway, just rotting away in bed feels amazing in comparison.
>>44282475infinity/10.
Right wing men who are unironic apologists for other men getting abused and raped, and that carries over to their hatred of trans women
I should not have drawn this >>44278212every time I see or think about it, I feel awful
>>44278429>ADAM DRIVERhe knows his audience
>>44278429>>>bullied by less masculine looking, more masculine acting cis moidsthis is what incels thankfully don't get (so there's more pussy for me), you can't outlift autism, or fembrainism
>>44283999It looks pretty cool stylistically, there's a unique style of expression that stems from this kind of suffering.
fellow reppers, do you have souls still? mine seems broken I think>>44277825>qottof course, I start crying when looking at my reflection
>>44284085He knows me?
I actually do the opposite and hyper-analyze my face most of the time whenever I pass a mirrorA couple days ago I saw my reflection in my window and stared at it for so long I started to see visions and I teared up a little bit then later sobbed in bed for the first time in a while
>>44280546life is evil, love is an illusion, nothing matters and consciousness is a curse
ich vvill das Repstab gerne tragen...
I should have repressedI shouldnt be hereI’m sorry
I LOVE THE GUN RANGEI LOVE THE GUN RANGE
>>44285510I am like this spiritually
>>44277825>No I don’t avoid themThere is nothing to hide
I'm coming to the realization I'm not trans but have a fascination with the visual aestheticization of femalehood which manifests as /giwtwm/ fantasies. On one hand it's good because I don't need to change anything, but on the other my seething envy has no cure.
may i kill myself please
I've been noticing that while my dysphoria can get really bad, is not as bad as others. Like I can manage it now, but I know I'll never be truly happy which is way I still hope I can trannysition eventually. But there's other people who repress that get some really intense dysphoria and I'm wondering how do they manage that.I read this story about a scientist from the pharmaceutical sector that had a nervous breakdown in his 50s and just couldn't keep repressing at that point. That idea scares the shit out of me, I can't allow me to lose control like that. So I was wondering how do you deal with dysphoria when it gets reaaaaaaaally bad.
I’m just a gay manI’m only disgusted by the notion due to homophobiaI’m a man
i'm not a woman trapped in a man's body i'm a woman trapped in hell
>>44278241>>44283999it keeps getting worse>>44284109this flesh is a vicious mockery of everything i wanted in this lifethere is nothing i can doit can't get betterit can only get worse
BTFOd by my best friend who I have a crush onit wasnt even on purpose cus nobody irl knows i rep but it still hurt a little
>>44285510is zizek a repper
somebody should buy me hrt and turn me into their gf>qottya DUH. except when i'm having a good hair day then i can kind of see the potential without spiraling usually
>>44287909what if we buy each other hrt and be each other's gfs
>>44287932i would unironically be kinda down for that dynamic if i wasn't a broke bitch l0l
I'm too much of a coward to ever transition.
