loser neet editionprevious thread>>44277825>qottWhat do you want to accomplish within 10 years?
>>44329737The idea of "passing" becomes absurd if you spend more than 5 seconds around a woman. I'm pretty sure most troons never go outside or work.I'm not even that tall but i'm massively bigger than every woman, even the rare one that is my height.
Tranny here, I’m going to break up with my (probably) repper bf. How do I do this without causing him to troon out. He has told me enough to know he at least has thought about it, and honestly it’s just too much for me I can’t deal with that I want a man without that risk. He is also not actually a tranny IMO, just someone who has had tranny thoughts, depression, and probably mild agp (reason I’m breaking up). Should I just give some BS reason for it? I do love him but I couldn’t last in this relationship without being extremely depressed over knowing what he told me.
>>44329737are failedmales reppers?
too tall to troon
>>44329763Tell him the truth about how you feel after you established physical distance.
>>44329762Passing is possible just not for anyone who's gone through male puberty.
>>44329737In ten years I hope to have some success as a musician even if that's just 100k monthly listeners. And I hope to achieve gender equilibrium where I dont have to become a fake woman or a repressed man, and hopefully im not still a low level grunt at my manual labor job>>44329775No ive succeeded in every way now I cant turn back
That nausea inducing feeling of deep visceral dread when it hits you again that you're stuck in this body forever and it's too late to fix it.
>>44329737as soon as you leave school you should be given a job without any interview or effort on your part as a human rightsociety is so evil
i just cant do this anymore everything online says the meds i have are enough to od repping is the worst i cant take it
>>44331376Do you need help anon? Don’t OD, it’s terrible to have these feelings but you can push through.
>>44331376please don't
>>44330941just disassociate nigga like wtf is wrong with you haha
>>44331392i really really cant>>44331440sorry
>>44331489Do you want someone to talk to?
>>44331376consider injecting everclear into your balls
>>44331510not really sorry i dont think it can help and ill just feel guilty really i tried
>>44329737take your HRT, retards
>>44331988>take your HRT, retardsis about as effective as the people who scream ywnbaw at trannies
>>44331988but i do?
>>44329737Develop AGI and upload my being to a digital consciousness so I can live forever inside of the body I desire, instead of the body I was forced to live in.
>>44332392doesn't that make you not a repper?
i'm going to take my HRT
>>44332520what else could i be?
>>44332750a tranny taking hrt
>>44329737I'm tryna stay hopeful but I don't even know how to feel about all of this. All I know is that I want to live and I don't feel like killing myself anytime soon but atp repping and dying feel like the same thing
I went to a convenience store and on my way back saw a guy who looked like Terry DavisMust be some kind of sign
>>44332980I miss that nigga like you wouldn't believe
>>44329737Do any reppers here want to have sex. We can frot and kiss and maybe even anal....t. cis m repperIf you are on hrt you are NOT A REPPER
>>44333071that's just gay sex
How do you even tell if you're repping or just retarded? I don't think I'm a troon but I feel like if its even a question its kind of suspect. I'm 6'1 and kinda stocky so everyone just expects me to just thug shit out and be tough and wtv but I've always kinda liked more "feminine" activities instead of the regular macho stuff or I never had the chance to try the latter atleast. I feel like I'm foidbrained asf its really retarded actually. I just hate the pressure of being a Man but idk if its a sign for more bullshit or if I'm just a coward.
>>44332758i have a male name and look like a man with gyno>>44333071hi :3
>>44333814ok well that's called being a manmoder, which is a type of tranny
Just stopping by to make sure you guys know how fucking pathetic it is to be stuck in the closet as adults
>>44329737>What do you want to accomplish within 10 years?stress inducing question
>>44332980mustve risen from death
>>44333869Grow up
>>44334199Why don't you grow some balls and try be open about your sexuality you fucking pussy
>>44329737Where to buy cheap off-market Finasteride or Dutasteride for John, Hamilton-Norwood 4. Scared of customs blacklisting ?
>>44333869im not stuck in the closet i came out as gay and sucked a guys dick it didnt fix anything
>>44334244I found it easier to just go to a dermatologist and ask for it directly, that or try those telehealth clinics.
>>44334223But I am open about it
Why not just be gay?
>>44334397Why are you here then
>>44333129So? I'm still asking.
>>44334413I'm a repperI know I'm a tranny deep down but I won't take my HRT>>44334416What
>>44334445>I know I'm a tranny deep down but I won't take my HRTImagine being so scared of what other people think that you waste the one and only life you get to live on this earth being a good boy denying yourself from the joys of living free
wish i never knew about any of this stuff
>>44335039I wouldn't either if i were cursed being born like you lol
gincel kill yourself challenge>>44329737blow my head off>>44334494meeee :3also i'm already almost 30 with a fucked hairline. everyone always talks about hating the optics nukes and come in there and then say shit like this
having to open the catalogue to find repgen makes me upset. wish there was a repperchan or something. i know it would get raided by every layer of society okay just let me fantasize
>>44336360i think it's more likely nobody would use it. not like it's fun to raid the "i want to kill myself" thread anywayalso do you guys not just go to /lgbt/repgen to avoid the catalog entirely? i hate having to look at the rest of the board
>>44336369>go to /lgbt/repgen to avoid the catalog entirelydidnt know you could do that. yeah thats nice. i apologize for the newfaggotry
>>4433636012 hours, 50 posts deep and you think you retards could sustain a whole board for yourselves lmao
>>44336452dont call me a retard :(
I hate male skin. Its so dirty and rough and hairy. I shave and in less than 24 hours I have thick stubble. I hate it so much.
>>44334389Did that already. Problem was Fin didnt regrow (but now realize it maintained). Expired prescription & pharmacist is a bald asshole who won't fax a request for renewal. hate how pharmacies charge more for Finasteride if for bald vs say generic Proscar. Taking high dose of Saw Palmetto daily.
>>44336970Yeah I looked in the mirror this morning and I look like a corpse, sickly pale slightly yellowish skin with dark eye bags and various acne scars.
>>44337143You could ask specifically for proscar instead and quarter the 5mg pills, not sure if that would help with availablity but would be cheaper.
your dad trooned out you should set things right anon
>>44337442Nightmare scenario right there
VGH the hopefuel>https://old.reddit.com/r/transtimelines/comments/1v8hzih/just_completed_year_1_of_hrt_started_at_29/
estrogen would have saved mewould have
>>44337758It was already over for me at age 14.
>>44337581you post this just to hurt me
>>44337581you are not a good person
There are no good people in this world.
>>44337581Thanks for reminding me that I'll never be even half as pretty
Do all modern trannies just get the idea to be in a polycule beamed directly into their head as soon as they start estrogen
>>44337886I've only ever seen west coast American trannies doing this, to be fair.
Wasted my life.
Another day as an AGP-having, masculine, wide, no friend having, no job having, no life having NEET loser malecel
That but with added anhedonia and being far to old to ever improve
well I finally hit 6 months of hrt, so I am back again to torment reppers so far:skin super soft and lighter, I think it's still getting lighter and softer suprisinglyarms got super skinnyass getitng biggertim burton character looking eyesharline improving a lotweakest gyno on earth I don't think I can even call what I have boobsNo one can tell I'm trans though still, I haven't taken a real good look at myself in lighting, because I don't want to see myself well until laser is done or it just gonna look ass anyways. well that is all reppers.
>>44338029Have your penis inverted yet? For me it took 9 months before I got my vagina looking right :(
>>44338029why are you being mean to me
>look in mirrorjesus christ. what the fuck.
MOVE ASIDE I-I'M GOING TO THROW UP
Sneedrepping - Repping without HRTWho up sneedrepping
>>44338428*raises paw*
>>44338428>Repping without HRTSooo repping
>>44337758no amount of estrogen could've saved meit was over the moment a sperm cell with a Y-chromosome got into that egg
>>44329762the most brutal part is when you realize that you will never have female socialization, you will always act like a man or even worse, like a man pretending to be a caricature of a woman
>>44333597Macho bullshit is as fake as Disney princess shit. Look around you, nobody acts like that. Everyone has emotions, and it's horrible that men aren't allowed to express them as freely as women are, but I can guarantee you that the pressure of being a man is a million times better than the pressure of keeping up the tranny charade and turning yourself into a social pariah."Feminine" activities are mostly things that men have always done for millennia but our society just arbitrarily decided to assign to women. I don't think you should base your gender identity around that.
how good is a whr of 0.75 for width? I dont see much info online (cus most stuff is about circumference) cus by circumfernce im 0.80 which is ropefuel my measurements 26 waist and 34.5 hips
>qottbe a cook at a decent restaurant and find a nice twinkt. cooklet starting an apprenticeship at a major hotel and in a situationship with a gay kazakh twink>actual post>>picrelhow it feels being a bifaggot>post stcriputmu PSim quuite drunk off rum rn so sorry if not coherent, tschüdeloo :3
>>44339205trvke>>44339243trve
I ended up taking hrt again after like 3 years of detrooning. I probably won't stay in it though tbhon. I can't commit to trooning out. maybe I'll be one of those famed cis men on hrt
strange dream that everyone somehow found out about my repping and were super weird about it
yeah, i think i'm just gonna bite the bullet and at least get one vial, even if just for safekeeping rather than actual usebeen really considering it the past few weeks especially, but i'm seeing more noticeable body hair on my torso at nearly 25 that i don't think i really had before (idk maybe i did and i just haven't shaved it off in a while), and that of all things is for some reason pushing me over the edge
>>44339851Shaving sometimes makes more hair appear
>>44339865is that true or just an old wives' tale / seinfeld bit
>>44339243Being an autistic mess I wasn't even male socialized and is a caricature of a human being...>>44339851Yhezus X-crist troon out already!?!Or take a DHT blocker perhaps
>>44339873Old wives tale
>>44339873half truth. the shaved hairs when regrown no longer taper to a point so they appear thicker and more noticeable but it's the same density of hair.
I am meant to look like a cute girl with a gigantic ass. what the FUCK. This is NOT HOW LIFE IS SUPPOSED TO BE!!!
my parents would never accept me
Anyone else here still coping with the vain hope that eventually some drug or pill will fix you?
>>44341675One day I will wake up and just feel good
>>44341675>some drug or pill that will fix youyou already know what people will say about this
>>44337376thats what was doing before, and even than it was $50 for 6 months, dealing with an asshole bald pharmacist. Its funny bc bald pharmacists DO project their misery if taking meds for hairloss...have tried no fap, nizoral, rogaine...nothing but irritability, brittle hair & ibs. I thought about trying estradiol bc will never procreate, and realize zoomers will soon control everything & program their looksmaxxing etiology into everyday life. Bald is no longer acceptable unlike 20 years ago. The shaved head is now a meme. And beards are out, clean shaven twink look is in.
why did you do this to me
please god help me
>>44344305>>44344436;_;It be like that sometimes.
>>44341750I don't mean some hypothetical potential cure for gender dysphoria, but an existing drug or mix of them that will somehow fix me because I'm desperately hoping that I'm not really trans but just a mentally ill cis man who psyoped himself into thinking he was.
>>44344478See a doctorThey medicated me for my bipolar which I apparently haveBut unfortunately it didn't stop the troon thoughts.
>>44337886i was poly before i really learned about trannies monogamy just never loaded into my brain to begin with
>>44301779Want to inject even more as I fear that it wasn't enough to completely kill them, but ran out of needles.
>>44344446i don't know what to do anymore except scream and cry
>>44344496I saw a doctor but they just gave me generic self help advice and a prescription for prozac. Although didn't mention any of the tranny stuff out of shame and not wanting to potentially out myself.
time to contemplate if mindless consumerism will appease the demiurge for a week or two and postpone my inevitable decline into hondom and/or an early death.
I will (most likely) never transition.>If I give myself over to this [desire], I shall be destroyed.—Andrea Long Chu (https://youtu.be/6CFHRw79CrY)>>44330941Real>>44331024>JobFuck a job. UBI now
my only options are to fightfight my urges (rep)fight my instincts (suicide)fight the world (transition)but i don't have any more fight left in me
>>44346411What does one even do when they reach this point, besides isolate themselves from the world and rot away?
>>44332418unfortunately you were born like 50 years too early, we'll probably be dead by the time humans can actually do this without being stuck inside a body with the motor skills of a roomba
>>44345149You retard I told you already 12 cc isn’t enough. Before I did it on my own, I researched it for nearly 2 years. All accounts everywhere which mention numbers mention ≈ 32 ml per testicle. Dayumn. Also please go to the nu eunuch archive.
>>44347088https://forum dot eunuch dot co/viewtopic.php?t=354
>>44347088Originally I was going to order more needles to inject more, but irl stuff came up so I had to put it on pause. Will check out those resources too. Figured the quickest way would be walking into a pharmacy and asking to buy needles and syringes, but don't know what I'd tell them if they asked what they're for as I'd rather not be seen as a junkie. Also thinking of switching to isopropyl rubbing alcohol instead since it's cheaper and from what I've read isn't that toxic compared to ethanol, but I could be completely wrong on this.
>>44347154>thinking of switching to isopropyl rubbing alcohol.anon NEVER and I mean NEVER use isopropyl alcohol, never inject what you cannot safely drink. Isopropyl gets metabolised into acetone, which in turn destroys your eyesight by damaging your optic nerves. please read more holy shit
>>44347163I thought it was methanol which had that problem due to being metabolized into formaldehyde, with the main issue with isopropyl being it lasts way long and is much more potent.
>>44347172okay technically we’re both right, I’m sorry if I’m coming off a bit aggressive or with an attitude but I just want u to be safe..>Enzyme used: Alcohol dehydrogenase breaks down the alcohol.>Main product: Acetone (a type of ketone body).>Toxicity: Acetone is also toxic and causes central nervous system depression.I think the whole thought process I had when I mentioned the eyesight thing is because as far as I’m aware it always has methanol included, at least when sold in pharmacies so u don’t drink it..But yeah it does last longer and is more potent damage wise
>>44347194>No, methanol is not always included in isopropyl alcohol (rubbing alcohol). In fact, high-quality, pure isopropyl alcohol contains no methanol at all.>Why You Might See Them >LinkedContamination: In recent years, some low-quality hand sanitizers and rubbing alcohols were recalled because they were accidentally or illegally contaminated with toxic methanol.>Denatured Alcohol: Methanol is sometimes intentionally added to ethanol (ethyl alcohol) to make it undrinkable, but it is not a standard ingredient in isopropyl alcohol
>>44347194>>44347205I guess in that case I'll only consider using rubbing alcohol as a last resort, but if there's no everclear or anything equivalent available, would plain old 80 proof vodka with zero additives also do the trick?
>>44347217>would plain 80 proof vodka with zero additives also do the trick?Technically it would work, I just don’t know how long it’ll take you to get the desired result. I myself used both 70% and 95% ethanol. >a 40% alcohol concentration does denature proteins, though it does so more slowly and less completely than higher concentrations like 70%. At 40%, alcohol alters the structural conformation of proteins by disrupting their internal hydrophobic bonds.From my experience, every 3 ml of 70% alcohol subtracts about 30 ng/dL give or take. So I’m not sure how the equation would look like for 40% alcohol. You also have to account for the fact that, when you denature proteins you often get left with the alcohol missing with the cell fluids and contents, which dilutes it further. What I mean by that is, your area of effect worsens the lower your initial concentration is.
>>44347257mixing*
>>44347257Good to know, the real main issue now is buying more needles, theoretically I could just walk in a pharmacy a buy them as long as I specified the Guage of the needle and holding volume of the syringe right? I just don't know what excuse I could come up with for needing to buy them, obviously I don't have a prescription or anything.
>>44345149>open repgen>some nigga posting chudjaks is diy nuking their ballsgood god.
>>44347353Maybe buy insulin needles, I don’t think anyone will assume you shoot heroin with needles this small.. I mean I usually just walk in, ask for 21G needles with a 3 ml capacity, no one really cares. Maybe you can tell them it’s for a vitamin D shot or some shit idk
>>44347445I mean it's not off topic exactly>>44347459Thank you for your help anon, will be doing this and to be fair I do have a vitamin d deficiency so helps with the plausible deniability.
>>44347486you’re welcome! I wish you the best of luck!!I’ve been lurking on here daily for the past 4 years and will continue to do so, if you have any questions or need help, I got u twin. WAGMI
Waking up with my giant male skull.
Reading repgen with my giant male skull.
