Love edition, do you love anyone anon?Previous: >>44513980
>>44581414I love Gincel :)
>>44581417I love (you) faggot, but I don't love gincel, he's annoying.
>>44581414Just realized I didn't properly format the qott, I am such an alcoholic retard.
>>44581414no>>44581493its okay i forgive you nona>>44581417kill yourself
>>44581493questions of the thread being green is an overrated concept
>>44574092>Chardonnay? Is it a special occasion? Don't waste good booze on ordinary things anon.Chardonnay & Anime Friday is an extremely special occasionalso it was only like eight dollars and from Romania
>>44581425*She. I don't know anymore.>>44581537Hopefully soon.
>44562179I WILL find this anon and get more cockroach art.
>>44581414You don't really want to be a woman, you want to castrate yourselves for women
>>44582039I am a straight cis man, and I wish I was a straight cis woman.
>>44582081You don't though, at best only in appearance
>>44582093Leave my thread at once, you are NOT aware of my dedication.
I am so disgusting
>>44582039>tfw no mommy dommy to keep your balls in a jar
>>44581414>QOTT: i love my dad! and my girlfriend!
>>44582295See. That's what you really believe in
>>44582353she's just facilitating the succubus though when she gives you a look like that she doesn't see you as a man
>>44582039i'll have you know i wanna castrate myself for a MAN thankyouverymuch! which is why there's nothing good to look at any more... it's all femdom slop.
>>44582397That's proving my point. You don't want to be a true woman you want to degrade yourselves for women. It's male hierarchy from a woman's point of view more than anything.
>>44582414no you want to guided by true women the degradation comes from not knowing your place and painfully having to be bullied out of denial etc
i only love myself anymore and it's why i'm on hrt otherwise i'd be dead desu
>>44582451It's about punishing you for not living up to a woman's expectations
>>44582468i don't think men really look upto women in that regard they look upto other better men for that
>>44582483>better men who are defined by being more appealing to women
>>44582500what makes you think reppers aren't appealing to women as is
I want to be pretty but it's too late for me, I'm an old ugly man. If you are young, beautiful and promising, get on hrt asap or you will age like me and be trapped in despair. I want to die when I see my face.
>>44581414My family (not romantically ofc)They don't love me back at all but that's what I get for being a tranny ig
is there genuinely any hope?
>>44585190that you? you popped in my Twitter feed today
>>44585204that’s humiliating
Who up adulting their human male
>>44585230Don't know about 'human', but I am an adult and very much unchangeably unquestionably male.
bump
>>44582407How about you not castrate yourself for a man (me)?
hrtrepping counts as dry repping if it's a hondose
>>44587447Hrt repping counts for any dose. That's because estrogen does nothing for lateshits (past-19)
>>44587458>past 19oh god i am so fucked
>>44587458>past-19:(
tried to grow out a mustache for four dayslooked in the mirror today and instantly panicked and shaved it offmanhood is so disgusting why did they do this to me?
Is it better to try to approximate your ideal of beauty, fail and feel like a crude parody, or don't do anything and feel like you slip further and further away from what you love?
i'm such a moid i thought i wasn't but i am. fuck my stupid repper life. i hate myself i worth nothing and portray zero femi'm so stupidcan anything save me?
>>44587458Strange that we get 20+ troons with actual hip growth.Of course that doesn't mean some of us are fucked at like 14.>>44587540You were probably hitler in your previous life.
>>44587540yeahtweezers make life easier>>44588218>You were probably hitler in your previous life.no that was me
why is the world so evil
>>44588218Not me though. HRT has done nothing but damage my life. I started at 20 and I get called tranny every day. I get people harassing me everyday. I am too feminine to be a cis man, 100x too masculine to be a woman. I am an in between third gender freak even while manmoding.
>>44588337Mostly greed and ignorance, those 2 make a lot of evil things happen, i’d probably feel fine being male if the world was less evil and had no dumb gender normsI just hope some day far in the future human bodies become fully customizable so no one has to suffer when they look in the mirror
>>44581414take your HRT, retards
>>44589870I live with my parents
>>44585204>>44585224twitter please??
>>44588354leave our thread or I will harass you too
>>44583926How old?
>>44589934please don’t give this person my twitter
Why not just be a very very feminine gay man who does not take cross sex hormones at all?
Why not beat gincel to death with rocks and hammers?
>>44590063why not? :(
it's funny how I so desperately want to be a woman when I can literally barely stand being around like 90% of themmen are so much more pleasant to interact with yet being one myself makes me want to die
>>44590224men are so nicceeeee i need to make men happy
>>44590224i dunno its differentyou can have like more casual conversation with menwomen can be more fun but they are kinda like always playing mind games and trying to get you in trouble for not agreeing with themso im always monitoring myself around women so its not relaxingunless they are lesbians and I know themmost lesbians are actually p. chill around gay guys (fem ones like me)
>>44590224after working retail I have become a little misogynistic
>>44590267nobody ever tells women no, they just get coddled their whole lives and it ruins them, they have no idea how they actthe social consequences for correcting a woman are almost never worth it
>>44590126I cant be femamie at this age without hrt
>>44590352I have a thicc fagcent. hrt would not change that one bitanyone can tell I am gay from 5 seconds of hearing me talk honestly troons don't even look feminine irlthey just look uncanny/alienmode
>>44590369And gays are a weird gross different type of feminine. If youre already an obvious fag at least be girly
>>44590224I don't get along with men or women. On a rare occasion I might hit it off with an autistic person of either gender for a superficial conversation but that's about it.
>>44590784gay men are intersex but male dominant>>44590794I get along with lesbians, its like watching if women actually had to behave
>>44581493It's ok fren. We're all alcoholic retards here.
>>44590794I've come to understand that most of the terrible behaviors from men originate from women and performing for women. Women being more kind or empathetic is just a delusion, an idealization created by men that women go along with to find a partner. Whereas men grow to reflect what women want and a woman's value system, and it's usually a sadist, a stoic monster.
>>44590830men are peacocks, women are peahens, at least for humans. for hyenas it is funny. for clownfish it is humorous. for anglerfish it's also funny. there's a lot of funny things out there
>>44581414>do you love anyone anon?yes. my boyfriend unironically.
>>44590852does he know?idk how I could have a partner as a repper if I was honest and I wouldn't want a partner who I couldn't be honest to
>>4458999629>>44590063okay but you gotta clean your room and mirror
>>44591499yeah, he knows. He's "force" femming me. For some reason he is very confident that I may actually gmi.So far I'm still not convinced, but for once Imma trust someone else. We got together 2 years ago and I got on the shots this January. Tbdesu even if i'm ngmi, he was right that about the shots.
>>44591550congrats, but also I'm gonna have to ask you to leave
>>44592043I didn't say he's succeeding, lol.
too many people on hrt. too many people with glimmer in their eyes and pulse in their veins. they're mocking me.>>44591550you are so fucking lucky and you don't even know it. eat shit and die pls.
>>44591550This is just pathetic. You don't see yourself as a woman this is just an in depth BDSM act
>>44592100i don't think it speaks to what anon might see themselves as. it's just an odd response from their partner. it's not like she can control how he reacts to the news that she wants to troon out.
>>44592056you literally did say thatnow get out of here and go hug your boyfriend for me
>>44589917hrtrep
>>44581414>do you love anyoneMy wife who knows and is supportive, but I waited 3 years to tell her hoping she'd figure it out. When we started dating she talked about dressing me up and pegging me but I still felt I had to prove myself so I refused
>>44587587If you think about your ideal self, for most it's probably the best decision to not ruin it by pretending you can be that, making a mockery of it. The beauty part doesn't cross my mind that often even though it would be nice. Everything else, just a delusion. Being completely dishonest and out of touch with reality, or carrying over that self loathing into an identity you thought you idealized and respected. But otherwise you're lost without a sense of self and all of your thoughts and feelings are fake
>>44592684how do I hide it from them
>>44593187the changes or the hrt?unless youre a luckshit the changes should be doable if youre able to wear layers in the house or bind, i dont think anything else is obvious enough for people to really think somethings upfor the hrt, vials are quite small and you can get like 5 needles at a time but idk your situation at home for all i know they toss your room daily, which would make it a bit hard
Your relatives/friends/co-workers find out you're repressing gender dysphoria How do you react?
I think it's unironically soon time for me to leave this earth. I used to be enthusiastic about repping but recently the Shit started tormenting me even in my dreams.This time I was transformed into Taylor Swift and got tasked by a green forest goblin to bring him a pot of gold.Anyway, I'm still bargaining with myself trying to figure out a compromise that would let me live for a while longer, but I can't lead a normal life if the dysphoria never ceases
>>44581414I need someone to repress my cock STATand don't worry, it's not a big job!
>>44593655Probably suicide.If not that then I'll probably joke about it or pretend not to know what they're talking about if it ever gets brought up.
>>44593655I'm basically openly repping at this point, and it's utterly humiliating. On the plus side it motivates me to never troon.
>>44594090Can you elaborate on that?
>>44594240I'm a stupid impulsive faggot and mentioned it while drunk before in front of my family and some friends but otherwise I don't really talk about it. Seriously need to quit drinking, humiliated myself multiple times these past few months.
Is it cis to have trans thoughts when you get stoned? Like I'll take a hit and suddenly my mental image of myself is a cute girl with breasts and everything and I start having these really fuzzy and warm feelings while fantasizing about being a girl. This has been going on for years too before I even considered I may be trans and it's a big reason why I won't give it up because it feels soooo good
>>44594484No it's not trans unless you start obsessing over it and frequent places like this so GET THE FUCK OUT BEFORE ITS TOO LATE
>>44594484Leave. Leave this place. Go to any other LGBT forum. This place is a troon factory
anyone else HRT repping and have no intentions of ever transitioning? I am afraid only of doctors and being physically forced to stop estrogen or being humiliated in some other kind of way by doctors
>>44593655Troon immediately, my friends already
never ending pain and suffering, fuck
>>44595522i have nfi what i'm doing i feel better and no longer have the drive to escape, dissociate, kill myself, etc. on hrtbut also i'm old and almost 2m tall so i guess i dunno. i'm just glad to be feeling betterbesides the fear does hrt help you?
>>44596071easy to fix
>>44596170yeah, I'm pretty tall so I feel like completely transitioning is impossible but the thought that at least at some point in the future I will be able to have something close to a female body (I want SRS and FFS) even if presenting as male is comforting, it's better than getting worse imomentally I'm not really there tho, but allowing myself some femininity (brighter colours, more feminine cuts on clothing) also helps, more than you'd think
>>44593655how would they even know or care about such technical accuracy they'll just think you're gay or weirdo or no good and in that way they probably already know
i found a new arena of manly activity to keep myself busy see you later suckers
>>44589870Even with HRT and surgery there’s no way someone like me could have a body comparable to a healthy cis woman,hope some day technology improves enough but that’s probably gonna happen after i die
i need to die asap
>>44589870okay i took a single low dose estrogen pill when does the girl happen
Male to Repper(MTR)
>>44599849Where'd you get it
>>44599356same wish i could kill myself
male to rope
>>44600282Estrogen store
>>44600282doctor
>>44600455Fake hrt repper. Real hrt reppers diy because they aren't put to anyone. Super real hrt reppers get someone to do their injections so they don't even have to be out to themselves. You have a medical record of being a tranny.
>>44600477i'm too stupid for diy
if my dysphoria was real I would have already transitioned a decade or more ago. this self hatred, discomfort of my body, and desire to express in a more feminine way can only be some other thing... sexual frustration or lack of fitness or idk, whatever other bullshit.
>>44600526if only it were so easy to just conversion therapy ourselves out of this mess
The level of self determination it takes to troon out is ridiculous, no wonder theres so many lateshits. It's not exactly a feminine character trait
hitting 30 fucking sucks, the potential threshold for everything is closing rapidly, this is the age when you start seeing people your age or younger start making big moves at companies, release their best game / album etc. Why the fuck did I just spend the last 10 years in a zombified stupor, what is wrong with me.
at least I don't have to care about how this life goes
>>44600640and I am stuck working this job 7 days a week for people I hate averaging 5 hours or less of sleep a night, watching my life disappear one day at a time
>>44600640me but at 23
why couldn't I be one of the lucky
>>4460224599% AI generated or a cis man/woman trolling. There is no reason for first image to be black and white unless it was ai generated and the ai couldn't make consistent shadows. Unless she got breast reduction the boob size difference doesn't make sense either
>>44602270you can stalk her on reddit rn it's legit
>>44602270I have pics from when i was 23 and repping that are black and white because the only access i have to them are from my old IG where I posted them in black and white>picrel
>>44602303Some AFABs love skin walking trans women. Unless there are timestamped images with metadata, this is unbelievable without >500k in surgery. Looking at her profile, she only started talking about trans stuff 11 months ago claiming to have done hrt for 18 months. I call bs. 29 mo < 36 mo>>44602320Your shoulders didn't lose ~5-10cm of Bideltoid Breadth.I call bs either way. This woman is a cissoid trying to make dysphoric trannies rope or grift off of them.
>>44602367>Your shoulders didn't lose ~5-10cm of Bideltoid Breadth.didn't claim they did, just that the b+w filter doesnt really mean anything
>>44602367Then 5 months later, she is somehow on 24 months (5+18=23). 2 months after that (7 months) she is somehow also 24 months in (7+18=25). Doing the math, all 4 of the sc posts give different HRT start dates, consistent with an LLM or larper. This is beyond damning. You are gmi, don't listen to this cissoid pretending to be a trans woman.
>>44602423the hand/arm tattoos in timeline pic lining up perfectly is enough proof for me. and the dates pretty much line up??i'm not here to pinkpill people it's just like ... i don't think this person is faking
Femrepgen has entered its hibernation phase again, so I'm just going to say it here: shit would have been so much easier if I were a lesbian. But no, I'm the kind of bisexual who can fuck both but only falls in love with men. But when you're in a relationship with a man, you naturally fall into a certain sexual and social role that I find absolutely unbearable. Not to mention the differences become glaringly obvious. I've had to reject guys I liked because I just couldn't deal. I'm going to die alone haha.
I think I have early-onset dementia. I am fucking 33.No idea where to post my boring blogpost other than here. I'm just going to pray now.ha ha. I suppose this is how it has to go.
>>44603708Depression can do that. In most cases it can be fixed though not all...
>>44603764I'm forgetting basic words constantly. My train of thought evaporates in the middle of conversation pretty much every day now. My nearly 90 year old grandpa is picking out the right words before I can.During basic tasks I'm losing the context of what the fuck I'm supposed to be doing. I'll be like "uhh, where does this go?" Like some kind of mental patient. I'm really losing it anon It's so goddamn over
>>44603708try drawing a classical clock (the one with hands) and post it here. you never know...
>>44603827You might need to book an appointment with a doctor, anon.
>>44603874I think I did ok. Time as of drawing was 9:20 EST
>>44603928Yeah you did well. It's time to treat that depression and get checked for vitamin deficiencies while you're at it.
>>44582081Update I finally actually went to a real doctor after stalling for too long and I have an infection, need to take antibiotics prescribed. Also my right nut needs to be surgically removed, left one isn't quite dead yet.
>>44604558>right nut needs to be surgically removed, left one isn't quite dead yetthere's your opportunity to just get orchi
>>44604558might as well troon out at this point
>>44604605I'll ask if I can get them both removed, tbhon I think both are dead since I have zero sensation in either along with all the symptoms of tranopause. But the right one is clearly in way worse state, doctor said it was obviously dead while the other one looked like it had problems but nowhere near as bad. Also sorry if this description is gross or TMI.>>44604657Considering permamanmoding, if only because the symptoms of low levels of sex hormones are unpleasant. But I still don't think I'm actually truly trans, but just a mentally unwell cis man.
>>44604834>tranopausefor fuck's sake, get on DiY hrt!Don't ruin your whole life, anon.Who gives af if you're a real tranny. Atp girlpills are medication for you either way.
>>44604864literally never passing
>>44605432>>44604864sorry I was having posting difficulties. Meant for top of thread.
>>44604864I'll update the thread if I ever do, I guess.>>44605432Mogs me, I'm seriously chopped.
I sometimes pray to God to take my life. Why won't he let me die? Sigh...
I hate myself too much to ever transition.
<-- Gigachad_.jpg I hate myself so much that even if everyone supported me and I was guaranteed to pass I still wouldn't transition. I need to suffer as much as possible before dying.
https://www.youtube.com/shorts/9a6OGHJOgnwI hate trannies that's fucking unreal they're everyfuckingwhere why can't they just be normal?
I don't think I have it in me to wait years and years and years for transitioning to do anything
everything about me is fake
I have nothing to look forward to in life
I tell myself I'm not one but then there's shit that's incredibly painful to read
>>44604558>>44604834I admire your couragealso how the hell did the poor doctor react when you told him?
if i was about starting hrt i should do it 13 years agowhen old grown ass man suddenly starts to live his "true self" it's always turbocringe. old men are known for being weirdos and perverts without a single glimpse of self awareness
>>44611080which is more cringe, a 30 year old starting HRT? or being a john50?
>>4461109930 is still cringe. most agps crack around 30. i don't want to be another agp when i know i could be a special snowflake agp who didn't wait till fucking thick nosehair
the MAN who could never be what he wanted him to be
So tempted to hrtrep and be a grotty theymab top (i physically cant bottom so why not just be a top) who has gay anal sex with ftms. i dont even care any more
>>44611893waow
hrtreppers belong with hrtreppers
>>44611058I assume going through medical school then working in that environment desensitizes you to a lot, cause he didn't really react much beyond usual medical questioning. Also might have helped that I had an excuse on hand but I doubt he bought it. Funnily enough I overheard some other guy in the lobby mention 'penial injections' (unrelated to me mind you), no idea what that was about.
I love my boyfriend. We've been together for over a decade now.
>>44612142what was your excuse?