Repressor General: Sithmaxxing EditionHave you tried using the dark side?
>>44888980I use the dark side to be NEET and laze around al lday.
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I WISH I WAS A WOMAN
Reply to this post to instantly become a giant boob anime girl
>>44888980take your HRT, retards
>>44891696I stopped taking my hrt
>>44891828Why?
>>44891828that's gay stop that and start hrt again at once
>>44888980friday night motherfuckerstime to turn up
>>44891843I'm already too dysfunctional for even basic tasks and hrt makes the agoraphobia much worse. I don't want to live a constant humiliation ritual I just can't handle it, I can't accept it, I can't be a tranny under any circumstances. It might have been worth it if I had a chance at passing but I don't and never will.
>>44891963my friday night is going to be lame, I only have like half a bottle of wine left because I had to drink through my reserves to get through a little episode earlier this week
Might be the case that I just have body dysmorphia and not actual gender dysphoria. I've been on HRT for a couple months and I really like the physical effects but not so much the emotional effects. Why do people insist on suggesting HRT to femboys?
get this nasty shit out of my face please
>>44888980AGAMP here who used to think he was straight but now can only get sexually interested in the idea of being a troon who gets fucked by her loving passionate husband. Anyone been here before? How can I fix this?
>>44888980I started taking hrt. I caved.
>>44892905congratulations :)
The year 2026 really has been the night of the long knives for reppers.
>>44892913How?
>>44892927Everyone seems to be trooning out suddenly this year besides me.
>>44892913I wish I could get stabbed with a knife
>>44892953Come on then
do u guys wanna learn about protein analysis methods
>>44888980growing up is realizing the siths probably had the right ideas
>>44893032my female star wars OC would be a grey jedi for maximum edgekino
Everything is so boring and stereotypical
>>44893196yeah
>>44892953Join us
>>44873042>if i come out i have a chance at getting hrt soon (20)>if i don't then most likely i have to wait until i am 22 and have my own job and placedo i do it or not anons. i don't even want boobs so i'd have to explain to them i'm some weird enby freak
I honestly can't see things staying like this for the next decade, culturally it's just so fucked there's no way
3am dinner time
I oscillate very rapidly between wishing I was a woman and wanting to be a jacked moid. Often within the same day.Also I don't really want to take HRT because I don't want to look like every other skinnyfat long black haired MTF (which would be inevitable)
>>44893003yeah sure
>>44893327They won't know.Like i said... People might assume you're chubby. Dad says I got fat and if he's noticed breasts prob associates it with that.I've been called a girl in front of him and he laughs it off and corrects people for me.Nobody will ever know if you don't give them a reason to believe it, unless they're terminally right wing brain rotten looking for troons
>>44894139what does this have to do with my questioni'm sure i could hide taking hrt from them if i wanted
Life is misery
>>44894189Just take your fucking meds rn and quit whining is what I'm getting at
FFS will fix everythi-
>>44894139>I've been called a girlaverage hrt """repper"""
>>44894397ive taken hrt for 9 years obviously i dont look like a cis man but i dont look like a woman at all. i could show you but you'd probably save the photo and spam it here to bully me...
Can't be an anime girl. Guess I won't work then!! hahah BTFO
>>44894536Based I've been kind of considering quitting my job and just neeting again. I'm so miserable at work. I could probably bear with it if I had someone to come home to at night but I just get home to my empty apartment and lay in bed playing games on my steamdeck until I fall asleep and then rinse and repeat.
>>44894536I need to get a job soon unfortunately to afford more alcohol and copes.
I wanna date a femrepper
https://www.youtube.com/shorts/RjzaJvAjsNs soon
>>44893828become a jacked woman, duh
Listening to music so I don't hear the voices. Not joking. God this sucks
>>44894195Dealing with insane people is misery. It is where all our problems come from.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CCYebicGnDI
Are there any good places left on the internet
This isn't a repper specific thing but I have nowhere else to post this & it feels like life is just crashing around a pinball machine from monday to friday and then all of the weekend is spent recovering which most of the time doesn't even work. Life has flown by because all of the time in which I can actualize my future is a 5-6 hour block on the weekends.. I have no family or friends either so it's just me, alone, being exhausted all the time for nothing. I beat myself up about not mining bitcoin back when I first heard about it in 2011 because that realistically was the last escape for fucked up millenialoids like me.
>>44896425No, they have prisoners and asylum freaks junkies in rehab etc on iphone daycare. These are jot supposed to interact with the rest of us
>>44896611I should be in an asylum if I'm being honest with myself.
>>44896771no we should be in a nature retreat https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GKBtMLOC2oU
>>44896869I feel 10x better after being in nature. The internet fucking blows and has nothing to offer.
I want to look like Galatea from Justice League.
it's nuts how you have to work and earn your way out of your shithole only then you have the permission to troon
Finally watched Wolf Children.Someone here some months ago recommended it to me, but cause of my mental problems I couldn't bring myself to watch something new I have not seen before.If you somehow do see this, I enjoyed it a lot, and also cried a lot.Thank you.
I think my old ffs savings will go to dentist work instead>>44897907Sometimes I wish I could cry more
>>44896771Kys
>>44895685Not that it's impossible but while on E and attempting to pass it's particularly counterintuitive.
https://youtu.be/UZGu9ixGgL0?si=5mTV74WWQttnq7wk
>Swami do we have to die now?-No but my words
Rapeape fix the fucking website already
>>44898108All in good time anon
>>44894536my thought process exactly
>>44891696HRT won't unrape me or turn everyone into an anthro woman or give me a wife and two point five children and one hundred and sixty acres.>>44893828Literally me.>>44895685Liberal myth.>>44896425Libpol?>>44896771Don't recommend. Wasn't fun.>>44897907Glad someone else liked it.>>44899051Please don't anon.
Next week I have a social event that I HAVE to go to with familyA female friend from school is going to be there, with her husband and two kids, and I'll have to interact and try and be nonchalant and polite and try to hide how I'm a shell of a man who never flourished and who thinks about hanging himself every week
>>44899437just don't, a couple years ago I had to meet one of my female friends from when I was a kid and it was so soul crushing that I still get cringe flashbacks to this day
will it be asahi super dry or vino blanco tonight?I also will be watching anime if that matters
>>44899564I'll try find any way out that I can
feels worse the past week for reasons i can't put my finger on. weird>>44888980no i'm close enough to my virgin at 30 wizard powers waiting on those>>44899573i've only had asahi a few times but i've always thought it was horrible so would vote vinot. weird strawberry ale
can someone help me transition I'm mentally ill and i'm worried i won't ever be able to have a family but I wanna be cute :( i threw away my entire childhood doing nothing, threw away my 20's trying to be the kinda guy a girl wanted just to be cheated on and thrown away, I'm so useless
In the Trump era it's no wonder that even the LGBT community is so enamored with the idea of masculine dominance
>>44899818sorry but I chose asahi and it's tasty
>>44900223help you how? just either go legit with prescribed shit or go diy and it could always be worse, you could have thrown away your 30's and 40's too
>>44900223you're in the wrong thread for that
Anyone think about killing yourself as a kid cus you were injected with evil as a kid
>>44901138I’mDrunk so the drawerings aren't very good
>>449011414 mb size limit pmo
>>44901144sorry for pushing the bump limit
>>44901152but yeah anyone else feel this my father took creepshots of women so I thought it was normal and started doing it unyil I felt a deep regret and horribleness and deleted everything and that is why I will never be a woman and I was destined to be an awful rapist to be executed since he was bornI never talked to him about it after that first notice and i am too scared to confront him about it or drop my parents who would hate who I truly am someone should kill me for being so pathetic
>>44893834more bump hogging
>>44901187p2 you niggas better get educated
>>44901190p3mostly just copying my textbook for methods that probably won't be on the exam
>>44901194thats about it if you want it better conveyed just watch ak lectures
>>44901200k I'm gonna go aura farm with my mp3 player at a lake til the sun rises or something
>>44893828true and real but being a jacked moid is easier so I go to the gym
there can only be one
>>44901209I liked your artenjoy the lake, I'm just drunk in my bedroom like a loser even though there's a lake close by
Sequel fans are tranniesPrequel fans are reppers Original fans are cisgender
>>44901399spinoff fans?
>>44901424Same thing as prequel fans, also reppers. Especially the case for filoniwars fans
i really went and ruined my whole life, huh? if i didn't consciously rep since 23 i could've at least been a clocky twinkhon (if even that). now i'm almost 27 and my body is so fucking ruined i feel horrified looking at my reflection it's like i get panic attacks (except maybe milder idk what an actual panic attack feels like)just let me out of this body please let me out i don't want to live in this thing i want to see myself in mirrors not some strange moid please just blow my brains out anything but this let me out
>>44901399I liked clone wars and some of the legends books when I was a kidmore recently I watched Kyuuninme no Jedi and played a cyoa, was kinda fun to get half into it again for a just little bit
I'm only dysphoric and falsely attracted to the same sex because of being exposed to the internet at a young age. If I wasn't I would just be non dysphoric and straight. If I was legitimately attracted to the same sex I would have at least tried to ask someone out or hook up but I never have, I'm just a coping turbo virgin
I'm voting for the fascist party in my country this coming election just to spite the society that has abandoned me.
>>44901634Gonna be much more common around the world in the coming years. Trump was just the beginning. Far right surging all over Europe and other Anglosphere countries like Australia and New Zealand. Economy is fucked, no one has any hope for the future, society is atomized and everyone hates each other, people want to lash out and the people who created this society. Add the rapid advancement of AI that's going to really start causing problems in the next few years. If you think things are bad now, just wait for the 2030s the 2020s will seem like the good times in comparison.
I'm not really a trans woman. I'm just an autistic gay boy that never felt like he belong to male society, never was interested in traditionally male hobbies, didn't care about fitting in there much, always noticed that I act differently than them and they are cool and it's other.Not like it helps that unlike the men I see I don't have chiseled beautiful manly face, or a ripped body that is full of muscles like I don't even fucking joking every one of my friend has, no there's not all bodybuilders and none is a model but I see them and see men. Let's not talk about that their undergarments are filled and the contents look manly and it's not the same in my case.Me, a trans? Nooooah way. I just like wearing longer hair, and sometimes painting nails and filling eyebrows. It's not like when I shave and do my hair and sit in bath and stare in the mirror I see something that is not entirely masculine in the reflection. And if I stare too long or turn my shoulder so it doesn't look massive I see a woman with wet hair and grey chin. And it's not like when I imagine myself in the future as someone cool I see a tall skinny lean chick with extra long hair in a heel. And definitely not because I was joking about transitioning since I was much younger. Ahahaha, what are you talking about? I can't be trans. I'm just alt and unlucky and not great looking. aaahahahahah that's comical to think I may be a woman. Even if a therapist once said that I have a lot of feminine in me when I was a teen and I never understood why my auntie who drove me there and heard that during light chatting when picking me up flared up a lot like an angry rocket.
I cope by reading middle age books made for teenage girls
you keep the dick because you're cis
>>44901823>you will mutilate you genitals to fit inNo. I like my small feminine penis that has too much foreskin
>>44892886be cute and find a bi wife who's into it and both of you hook up with a guy a cpl times a year together
>>44894257holy night mare fuel, the body, the face, everything.
>>44901840you consider it mutilation instead of reconstruction because you're a transphobe. it's really that simple.
>>44901970I'm pretty sure this is bait but you're the one who just invalidated every single trans person who doesn't have bottom surgery and you have the nerve to call other people transphobes.
>>44902090correct. harsh but fair. 80% desistance rates still hold true today. tha majority of you are trans identified males, meaning you identify as trans, not as women. you're porn brained because you think the woman with a penis porn fetish is what it means to be trans and not a cis male's sexual fantasy that isn't rooted in reality.
>>44902116When did JK Rowling start posting on 4chan
>>44902138nah. you can get a sex change and be a woman if you want. many of you don't because you don't want a sex change.jk thinks a sex change isn't possible at all. i think the threshold is srs.
I'm a trans-dimensional anime girl
I'm a sexy anime girl that turns all the men on and walks around in skimpy bathing suits while acting oblivious.
i'm a frumpy fujoshi that rarely leaves the house and spends all their free time online shitposting.
>>44902116>high detrans rateNearly all of the detrans that don’t retrans are afabs.
if you are a repper, don't forget to take dutasteride or finasteride daily, and apply minoxidil twice a day on your scalp, to reduce your dysphoria and preserve your hairline. this has been a public service announcement from /tttt/
>>44902365desistance isn't detransitioning. desistance is failing to complete the transition or otherwise opting out of srs.
I don't have gender dysphoria I just want to die and get reincarnated as a pretty futa princess
>hair unkempt and long>beard overgrown>testicles and penis >no job>skull is large>AGP onlineOh yeah, it's male time
>>44902116Bigot
If I ever come out as trans literally every family member and friend will hate me. I feel very stuck in life. Maybe I really do need to just "man up" after all.
>>44893828as much as I'd rather be a woman in the long term, I would totally try out being an absolute giant of a man for like a week. I mean "giant" in a more literal sense, though, rather than merely tall. I'm talking proportional 7'8" at 510 pounds of muscle tier. Being jacked at my current height isn't really appealing to me.
death is the point after which you can't change anythingi'm already dead
I need a man to hold my hips and fuck my ass until the AGP thoughts go away.
everybody wants me dead
>>44904648Same. Maybe it would make me feel better to be fucked like a whore.I'm way too uncomfortable with my body to ever do it
you know what you all are scaring me maybe i will not tell them after allif i don't do anything about it or tell anyone about it, it doesn't exist
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5Xetk3PwPoo>>44904671you don't exist>>44904648you wouldn't like it
>>44904685>you wouldn't like ithow do you know?
>>44904704do it and you'll get it
>>44904685>you don't existhow did you knowfor all intents and purposes i am barely a person let alone something with agency
>>44904713...no tell me.
>be me>born in a small town of a poor country>in an extremely poor and dysfunctional family>abused by dad, abused by mom, abused by older sister, abused by peers>loved only conditionally>never get anything from anyone>want to be a girl since kindergarten but don't tell because nobody will listen and i'll be abused even more>in 15 years old learn about HRT>can't DIY safely because of family and zero private labs in the shithole town>wait till 18yo and move to the capital>4 weeks pass by>the full scale invasion starts>lucky to leave the capital the first day, back to the shithole town again>procrastination and failed attempts to get a job that will give me money for transition>fail>fail>fail>more fails>back to the capital in 2025 in hopes to get on HRT and whatever>interact with people>see how emotionally retarded and manly i am>buzz cut>1 year goes by>in the city under endless drone and rocket attacksthere is no way out for melike even being cute and pretty doesn't work because men don't have money anymore and can't go freely on the streets after 25yojobs are shittyall social lifts are frozencan't leaveuseless, bald and uglyone group of billionaires wants to kill me because i'm a tranny freakanother group of billionaires wants to kill me because i'm wrong nationalitylife is against me on every stepeverybody wants me deadfrom the street i hear a motorbike and confuse it with a drone like every timeand the stupid site doesn't allow me post pictures because of my ipfuck you
>>44904856tough hand famalam
>>44904868yeah, my mental health is ruined for a few life cycles forwardsome things are unfixable and unbearable
I literally believe AGP functions as a memetic virus and that science doesn't even have the framework to understand it. As an early teen I was googling boobs & asses on the family computer which is very typical moidbrain behavior. But then in the early 2010's I read a copypasta from /cd/ or something about a boy who dresses up and has sex with his friend and it stuck in my mind forever. There's a lot of little things like that. I was a little autistic maybe, but I was totally on track as a straight male, until I was exposed to these tiny AGP breadcrumbs and for some reason I remember those things a lot. Nothing but the cognitohazard explanation makes sense.
>>44905180having that sort of awakening just means you were trans to begin with
>>44905180>>44905240I wasn't born trans but I'm pretty sure I was born with AGP. I remember getting aroused at the thought of being a woman as early as 5 years old, maybe even a year younger than that. I'm only considering that I'm trans because the dysphoria is going crazy right now. God finally took away my lust and gave me this in return. I'm on track to beating my nofap streak and exceeding it by many days because I seriously have zero urge to consume porn or masturbate now.
>>44904856I am so very sorry
>>44904856:(there must be some way you can get on hrt
Dear brothers and sisters.Recently I have sinned against you by calling (I don't know who is or is not here) you a (...)I don't believe in banning and deleting at all.
But people here. They never reprimand you right.I would confess, I would (...)That is just what I want. Longer story
>>44905375i'm working on it but i need to fix my wisdom teeth first (i finally got around to it)but pretty much yeah can't end the war nor earn enough moneyfmstli don't know what's the point of my endless suffering when everyone get to be happy in their life at least to some extend but everything fucking everything is against me like fucking everything. i don't have freedom, money, power, i own nothing. and nobody will help me i mean realy help real fixing in my life.i can't be myself because i'm too ugly and unpassing. i can't be a tranny or i'll be killed and even i hide i still will be killed by a fucking ballistic rocked or a drone. all roads lead to death.why everything was meant to be against me?why my pain wasn't ever meant to be relieved?
9 hours and 10 minutes of air raid alertat least a few hours of silent
Or maybe you don't mind. Fine too.
>>44905604silence*
Soo you were going to make it not becoming trans.Let me tell you a little story.Everyone can the sexual and gender identities.You are thoughtful and worthy people recognising relationship and erotisism in reality doesn't word as it does now.
I mean work typo sorry
post me somethingI just don't want the solution all in my own you <3 lovely deary dears
Even if you same sex. You don't have to be gay anymore even. Even if you live that way
6 shots in and I think I'll study magick and if that doesn't work, I'll just kms, like whats the pointWhat do you think about this
i dont care if its a fetish or not i just wish i looked like a girl
some people just begin to look like such a cute grill
i am pure masculinity
kill all afabs
>>44905716It is no longer necessary, yes to order it right, not talk not the clothes of family members all this.However you don't have to consider yourself closeted nowadays.Rather how relationship and erotisism fails. And has for hundreds of years. And silly games. Nothing else>Silly games mind that well nothing else
>>44905876you will never understand me
>>44905930I doYou understand I am not posting it in this post<<but no hard feelings at all intended>>
justaweee with hard feelingsno-one likes dem
>>44905942kys faggot
i win
im sorry for being a failure
>mind they do not bind themselves to anyone anywherehttps://youtu.be/n1CCbnoEnM0?si=agXj0UwWIGkyQdYz
i do not fegget deareven if i <3 or dear lovely thee cute onewhatever it is i do
I don't want to post the solution on my ownhttps://www.scribd.com/document/1005948951/The-48-Angelic-Keys-the-Enochian-calls#fullscreen=1
Mind the first paragraph means do not enter sin, and God, as the last paragraph says won't regret creating humans
Relationship ans erotisism is shitty to everyone.Is been for centuries <3 dear lovelies
im sorry for being amab
i can feel everyone hating me
>>44906141eeeh i stil <3 ye
>>44906159i dont like it when people lie to me
when i die no one will notice
I'm looking for the australian Cureanon from 2018-2019ishAnyone seen that Cureanon ever since?
>>44906174i can't dear <3I <3 you in any case
it is not even gay anymore
>>44906336);
should i troon out or should i skip to the part where i kill myself
>hate work and look forward to the weekend all week>weekend finally arrives>open up a game and run in circles for a few minutes before closing it>refresh my youtube home page at least 5 times>check my email 10 times (nothing new)>mindlessly browse through 4chan threads without making a post>try to jerk off but get tired of it halfway through and stop>try to come up with some fantasy I can daydream about but it’s boring>give up and just lay in bed with the lights off until it’s time to go back to workHaving nothing to look forward to in life really fucking sucks. I have tried so many hobbies to fill the time but I always drop them as quickly as I picked them up. I’m only alive because the thought of dying makes me sad
>>44906362I believe you're referring to Crystalia, and no I haven't seen her for a while
>>44906450you could also just rot and do nothing like me
>>44906511That's one of her names she used, yeahI wonder what happened to her... I miss herShe probably won't talk to me because I trooned out but... she's still important to me
if i cant be afab then no one else should be allowed to be afab
>>44904856Condolences nonny.
I spent like an hour shaving my legs and now I have bony man legs but without hair1% less gross maybe
dear i am not watching this thread as much any more at this pointI love ye <3 <3 <3
for centuries relationship and erotisism
garbage ye dearest dearies <3>absolute garbageBut ye are some thing elseSome thing extraSome thing more advancedAnd I do not want ye (...)
dont ever w/ out the addendum i will or would post ye i haven't told ye everything yet at allhttps://youtu.be/R9LppgWJiBg?si=pXP2Ily4Ixx1Ctre
Part of me is wondering if I got a girlfriend would my gender dysphoria go away? Probably not as I've read many people's experiences online that it didn't, but maybe it's not true for me? At this point in my life, both intentionally and unintentionally, that I will never find someone to love me just for who I am. I have grown very cynical over time, and thanks to my fucking autism and low self esteem, I find it incredibly hard to connect with people, let alone a potential significant other. I will take interest in someone if they are nice to me, but one conversation later and it's all too apparent that I'm just fucked up and not built for this world. That's the sad thing. I'm not a man that wants to be a woman. I'm an alien that got sent to Earth and got it's memories wiped, then decided to get a mix of hormones in the womb to make me AGP. Now I might as well be asexual as I don't even seek out porn or masturbate anymore. Dysphoria was born out of this condition, and the woman in my mind's eye...I imagine her often and it feels good to do so. She's not even a sexy bombshell or anything, just normal. I want to believe I can be like her, but she is so much more caring, emotionally expressive, and happier than I ever could be. The sadder thing is I know I have it so much better than most people in this world. But my life is stuck in place and it does not feel good.And all the ableist motherfuckers out there can go fuck themselves. They are just as bad as transphobes. Sorry that I feel entitled to a society giving a shit about me if you feel entitled to me being your fucking slave. Go fucking fuck yourself.
you are specifically worthy i love yeyou are a special kind of more advanced ande mitee
forget>closetedall the collective moneys spent alreadyw/ out beginning hrt ye lovely dearseven if ye want to be gewd natzeez
>>44907020not reading all that