> be me, boymoder in college> afraid of girlmoding, scared of public ridicule> guest speaker calls me a young lady> happy but obviously keep boymoding> every now and then strangers read me as a girl> still keep boymoding> it becomes more like weekly> still keep boymoding> twice weekly> keep boymoding> thrice weekly> keep boymoding> once daily> keep boymoding> a few times daily> won't stop boymoding, just not ready, don't wanna be a hon> time passes where i ignore other people and never have to interact with anyone> i fall into a depression and a boymoding rut> make zero progress during this time, eyebrows, voice, makeup, or clothes> one day i have to interact with people and strangers keep giggling> get read female multiple times over the day> lots of "wait, that's a guy"-esque comments from a bench> later the person next to me says "wait, that's a man..." as I get up from my chair inside> as i walk into the men's room, "oh i thought that was a really ugly girl at first..."> in the evening...> "what the hell is that?!"> a group of girls burst out laughing point at me> apparently my breasts are showing under my jacket and I look like a guy with boobs now> i am a deer in headlights> run away down the stairs and they just laugh even harder> realize with shame that I have given up any dignity because I was scared to be myselfI'm going to just girlmode on Monday and I'm gonna try to act shameless about it. I'm such an idiot. Boymoding for too long isn't cute. Just honmode, or HRT will do it for you. The question is if you do it scared or if you do it and own it.
>>45294000Boymoding only becomes honmoding when one slips up as you did and forgets to make sure their breasts are even the slightest bit invisible.
>>45294115But I did do that. I wear a sports bra. And I was wearing a jacket specifically to be even safer. The problem is that it showed when I had my backpack on pulling it tight around my chest. That's the slip-up. It doesn't matter, I just suck at boymoding and so do probably most boymoders.
