I've always wanted to be a creative ever since I was young. I've day dreamed about being one and tried working my ass off trying to write ever since I was around 12. My parents tried pushing me towards it for school assignments. I also wanted to draw but never got into it seriously.I've been wanting to write again for nearly 2 years now and have barely made any progress towards that goal. I've only done one little drabble like 2 years ago and haven't done any exercises since then. I've been trying to get myself to write, but all of it looks too complicated and exhausting for me. I've tried multiple different strategies, but they never seem to work. I've tried forcing myself to write, but can only make myself write a couple of sentences for barely 30 seconds before stopping and looking at my phone again.I've never been able to complete a single multichapter story in my entire life and actually coming up with stories isn't much better. I can't think anything through and everything about trying to make an entire story looks too hard for me. I want to be a creative really badly, but nothing I've done seems to have amounted to much of anything. I want to become one so badly, and I want to stop wasting my life doing nothing.
>>24709432Shit you not, it's a muscle. You start out benching the bar, it smacks you in the face. Some people around you laugh, others give you the side eye, you know you'd do the exact same performative shaming ritual if you were them, but to you, it's devastating. So you look at the masters who should motivate you, those great few who spun beauty straight out of their heads. And you see them and where they are, and you and where you are, and the way people cringe when they see your work, and you decide it's hopeless. You're not creative. Let the journal collect dust above your bookshelf. You've trained yourself to bounce between interests so nothing can ever matter enough to hurt. To be hard. Boring. Daunting. Maybe that's why so many "artists" feel like normal people wearing a costume and doing an impression of an artsy type; when those people make it part of their personality I'd imagine it forces them to care about their creativity.I get it, it's hard to try when the stakes are this high. Socially, I mean. All the TikTok compilations of people being embarrassing, the gnawing in your cerebellum when you make that visceral reaction. It's like when you were a kid, watching a movie with your parents, and that scene came on. Killing, domestic violence, something bad happens on the screen, and you make sure to throw in a little shake of your head or a little sigh under your breath, just to make sure mom doesn't think you're into that kind of thing.It's poison, arsenic for the mind. It'll try to tell you that you're not the right kind of person who achieves their dream. Some people got into it when they were too young to be self-consious, others pushed themselves through anyways. Passion paired with discipline can break through the monotonous cliff face that keeps anyone from becoming good enough for the pride in their work to take over and continue the cycle of improvement. It's likely the only way.Yeah, you suck. You aren't creative. Neither are the creatives until they hit a certain point where they know what they're doing. But, unless you gave in to the crab-bucket shithell that engulfs everyone these days and turns them into performative, plastic people with algorithm-friendly haircuts, you're probably more creative than you were yesterday. If you keep doing that, maybe you'll still be shit, especially compared to the greats, but you'll be at least good enough to look back on your old work and feel an endearing sort of cringe. Like an old episode of a show you used to like, one that's no longer funny, but was the best thing ever to a certain person in a certain place at a certain time. You.And there's always the chance that you're better off than a whole lot of others. To them, you're up above, squandering the latent talent they wish they had so you can watch TV like the average drone with a dead dream. Instead of growing into the kind of person they think of when they imagine "making it".Just like a muscle.
ObligatoryKILL YOURSELF HOWIE
There is this misconception that creative people are dreamers. Most people are dreamers. What separates creative people from the rest is that they are "doers". They do the thing, whether its shit or not, and when they do it enough, obsessively, with a little luck or talent they get good at it. But you have to DO IT. Not think about it.
>>24709995How do I make myself? My problem is my ADHD and my inability to make myself get started on things most of the time. I've been writing and RPing for years, so I have been able to do these things for a long time.
>mfw I see newfags effortposting as if this thread hasn’t existed in some form, verbatim, every other week for the past three years
kill yourself
>>24710062>for the past three yearsreally? I feel like I only started seeing them a few months ago, but I also don't use /lit/ a ton
>Howie thread
howie bait thread he's posted this shit a billion times
>>24709432cute dance
>>24709432Just be creative
>>24711960How?
>>24709432It's a mixture of having maaaaaany hours of experience with your craft (massive bonus points if you were autistically interested as a kid and thats all you consoomed) and good genetics.
>>24712350When I say "with your craft" I mean consuming said craft and also creating art is said craft.
>>24709432Fuck off, Howie.
>>24709955At this point Howie is just a sounding board for all the delusional retards who still respond in good faith to his threads.Even if this were a legit thread, this kind of response is just profoundly stupid and meandering. OP was asking about creativity, not offering to be your shrink. Keep your hangups to yourself. No one wants to know every inane observation that crawls through your small, slow mind.
>>24712524You come across as bitter with a post like that. What's going on? What makes you feel the need to lash out?And it's easy to tell it's just a rationalization of your own problems when you fill your post with that "bad vibes" stuff that you don't need to back up.Relax. If OP isn't sincere, maybe some of the lurkers itt are. I'm sure doubt and worry are common emotions among people wishing to start any hobby.It sounds like you have an issue with emotional control, anon. That, or just really poor reading comprehension. Either way, just know I'm rooting for you. Just be kind and move on with your life.
>>24713089You actually can't respond without drowning into a stream of consciousness. Hilarious. Ford the waters with a little economy of language before replying, okay?
>>24713251Not everyone has to share your taste in writing style. Hell, I kinda like that wavy sort of prose, y'know, the kind that just reaches out and touches everything around it? I mean, people's minds are all about relating things in their heads, why not wind the sentence around here or there? Give it a try, it's fun.
>>24713311That’s right, keep shortening your responses. I’m glad I was able to teach you something, you frantic little sperg.
>>24713314And now you're back to the bitterness. I mean c'mon, it's an anonymous board, what gets you so wound up that you go and get upset like this? Lighten up man, we all clicked on this board for similar reasons. School year woes?
>>24713320See now you’re stagnating. Not a new feeling for you, I imagine. Keep tightening that text. Once day you’ll know what it’s like to write normally.
>>24709432you have to buy a macbook pro and start spending a large part of your paycheck on starbucks
>>24713326Whatever it is, I genuinely hope it gets better. If you're struggling, you should know that no matter what way you feel about yourself, there's always gonna to be a place for you amongst others, and your problems will in time either pass or become bearable as you learn to live well with them. No matter how many strings you believe have snapped, no matter how many links with others have been lost, there'll always be a connection somewhere. Always.And as for my writing style? If the world at large can put up with Cormac McCarthy, then a slow literature board on a Cambodian midget sightings forum can put up with me.
