The more I read, the more I realize I know nothing at all. By no means am I stupid but there's so much classic literature that I'm never going to get to read and I read really, really fast. I'm upset that I'm going to go out of this world just as bewildered as I came into it. I've read philosophy, religion, nonfiction so much and yet I've pulled very little practical knowledge from it. I can't even read for pleasure anymore because genre fiction is so dreary and boring. I've read some wonderful books this year, and none of it is sticking.. I'm still the same wasted brainlet I was last year. Everything is going to rot and ruin and all I can do is die calmly. I'm fifty-four. My kids are grown. My friends have flown. My family is distant. I have nothing left but words and now, they are failing me too. What can I do? I feel like a rabbit is a trap, ready to gnaw my paws off for just a smidgen of meaning. I've read thousands of books and absolutely none of it can help me, ever? What is the fucking POINT
>>24796354I have pursued, alas, philosophyJurisprudence, and medicine,And, help me God, theology,With fervent zeal through thick and thinAnd here, poor fool, I stand once more,No wiser than I was before.
Bro is crashing out.Chill tf out. Language is a chain meant to torture you. Literature is not the sum of human experience.
Mit Eifer hab' ich mich der Studien beflissen, Zwar weiß ich viel, doch möcht' ich alles wissen
>>24796354We are monkeys running on hardware from 300,000 years ago tampering with the fundamental laws of the universe so that browns in favelas can have faster, better, and more porn than they did year over year because we sacrificed god on the altar of our own hubris and replaced him with money. Slow down and take a breather. You, flesh thing, inheritor of your unfinished genetics, need to keep these things in perspective. You were never supposed to know everything. You are supposed to be a happy frolicking monkey and maybe do something noble or difficult from time to time to facilitate the access to frolicking for the ever increasing population of half hairless monkey things. Stop trying to do god’s job for him.
>>24796354all philosophy is just masturbatory. there is nothing to know.
>>24796620Reddit but also reasonable post
>>24796620sounds like fascist apologia but decent prose
Who cares? Just enjoy your life and read what you want.
>>24796354I feel the same way but at 32, nothing sticks
>>24797849that resonates everytime I finish whatever philosophy book, maybe what I learned was what I wanted to learned from it due to preconceived bias and context. But it makes so much sense during lecture and I refuse to believe is just a recursive meaningless trap. Then recognizing it IS a trap makes me want to scream to the fucking boulder rolling down again. Then I open another book
>>24796354How about getting a hobby? Like use all the information you gained to leave a mark on the world through a form of artistry. That or make more money for your kids
>>24798704My first philosophy class I kinda figured that out. One guys says the river is always changing the other guy says the river always stays the same. Both are right so what the fuck is the point of knowing philosophy?
>>24798746If you just want to be 'right' take the moral high ground and become a christkek
>>24798765I am a Christian now, but not out of a sense of moral superiority but because it feels right
Life is but a dream silly OP. We were never meant to read anything ever.
>>24798805Life is a shitty stage and we’re all shitty faggot actors
Bro you need to slow down. You can't read everything, you're stressing yourself out in the pursuit of something impossible. Read slower and contemplate things. Learn to savor the parts that you like. When you talk a walk do you stop at every living thing to try and understand it? No, learn to enjoy the walk itself and let yourself stop and admire a big tree, or beautiful flower when you see one. The meaning comes from within, what one gleans from a work.
>>24796354The books were written with you in mind but not written for you. This is what I try to tell myself.
I just want to say fuck faulkner. never undestood a single line of his slop. "oh its deep" i don't care. doesn't do it for me.
