Whenever I finish a book I just think "what was the point?"The last book I read was American Psycho. I literally learned or felt nothing. My only thought was that it was kind of impressive that he could write it. Basically my only thought when reading any book is that it's kind of impressive, since I've tried writing shit before and know how hard it is to fill in the details. I read the Sound and the Fury a while ago and still remember that literally my only thought after finishing it was "what was the point?" Now it's like that with every book I try to read. am I literally retarded? I feel like I'm like a monkey that just doesn't understand language and when you speak to it it just kind of sits there like "OK." I have lost the capacity to appreciate literature. I went through an intense existential and philosophical 'crisis' where I wrote a lot of highly abstract unfinished stories and poetry. Now I can't write anything. I feel like I've already exhausted all ideas. I've alreayd seen everything that can be said. Nothing interests me. I don't understand the point of any book.I tried to read "Extinction" by Bernhard. I hate Germany myself, so I liked reading about this guy who fucking hates Germany as much I do, but after fifty pages I just didn't see the point anymore.
>>24825023You can't help being a hylic OP. It's not your fault.
>>24825023oh yeah, right before I read American Psycho I read Hunger by Knut Hamsun. The same thing happened. This guy basically runs around the city and a bunch of depressing shit happens while he sabotages himself like a retard. Then he gets on a boat and the book ends. Why the fuck was the point?
I stick to books with great or old-fashioned prose so my rhetorical capabilities improve. I'd never read something like American Psycho. I feel like it would make me actively stupider.So whatever I read, there's always a point. I'm not wasting my time.>I've alreayd seen everything that can be saidThat's not true, but you need to live to realize that. You need to be kicked in the nuts here and there--hard. It's more important than reading imho. It's a part of why modern books are so shit. Nobody's living anymore.
>>24825023Sounds like you don't like reading.
>>24825023Try reading something with more value than just a story or a social message. Like, for example, classics, philosophy, history, or psychology.
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>>24825023Your actually chemically depressed.
