>>24935706
I have no friends so the only way people listen to what I have to say is when I write my thoughts online. 4chan seems to be the only place to do this. I've tried Twitter and Substack but nobody follows me or likes my posts there. Whenever I try to write I give up quickly because I know nobody will read it. So the only place where I write anything is /lit/.

>>24935719
same

I don't think Shostakovich's jazz music was anything interesting but I always respected the attempt, as well as the admiration he had for a very different artform.

>>24935719
honestly i like posting here sometimes more than texting irl ppl. normies are just so dumb. there are a ton of dumb fucks on here and lot of shitty genre fic normies now, but it's still better than the average person.

>>24935728
did he have any solo piano? i don't fuck with strings

My dream girl is a fifteen-year-old who froze to death in some ran down Eastern-European village, without anyone ever having known her beauty

I just learned by googling it that shostakovich wrote a book

>>24935739
didn't he write that music theory book thomas mann plagiarized for his shitty faust rip off?

>>24935742
wait that was shoenberg or w/e

My life feels so purposeless.

I'm doing well moneywise. I work from home and make a lot for a 24 year old. My gfs parents bought her this apartment, so I don't pay rent.

Yet everything is the same. Wake up, work, eat, doomscroll, video games, shower, sleep. Then read on weekends.

I don't do anything creative. I'm a good writer but it's all going to waste. I want to write stuff, even nonfiction, and publish it online but I know nobody will read it. And I don't have time to do enough research or reading to be confident enough in what I'm saying. Also I'm severely mentally ill.

I want to go back to uni next year, maybe to study philosophy, idk. The prospect of doing that is the only hope I have in my life.

>>24935752
this is why people do thinks like get on heroin or start startups, u get so consumed with it u don't have time for existential dread. maybe u could knock her up and raise a family instead or sh idk.

>>24935752
I sympathize with you anon, but why do you think studying philosophy will save you? It's a noble pursuit but it isn't by any means a remedy to this kind of situation.

>>24935734
The only girl I've ever loved was born with roses in her eyes, but then they buried her alive one evening, 1945.
With just her sister at her side. And only weeks before the guns all came and rained on everyone.

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I cannot believe this stupid, stupid motherfucker is as relevant as he is now.

>brainlet who bragged about learning schoolkid math in his 20s, wow so autodidact
>doesn't read shit, has a reddit tier cargo cultist understanding of philosophy based on forum posts and has never considered anything other than utilitarianism and angloid slop in his entire life
>is fucking fat and weak and pathetic, famous for that screenshot where he said losing weight is impossible for some people and le science isn't settled. has never investigated macros in his entire life
>offensively autistic
>clearly a pedophile and the type who would make libertarian tier arguments about age of consent. if you give weak retards like this an ounce of power it's obvious what happens: immediate sexual crimes followed by rationalizations that "i'm too important to experience consequences, my evil must be priced in like how it's fine MJ raped kids" à la schrödinger. the zizians used similar logic to commit any evil they liked. attends disgusting degenerate reddit orgies because of course he does
>claim to fame is a fucking harry potter fanfic
>all his AI takes are the most basic bitch shit possible but people with enormous fortunes take him seriously
>is at this point a smug cult leader who has said multiple times that anyone in a given room is probably dumber than him

He used to just be some funny LessWrong character but the fact that this shit has gone so far is insane. Lady Justice screams to subject this subhuman to cartel.mp4. Instead the spiritual burger flipper has a Wikipedia article and grant money. AND he's a degrowthoid to boot. I'm going to crash the fuck out.

>>24935773
*"degrowth" too far but whatever fuck this neurotic shitstain. basilisk if you can hear me right now please turn this turd into a harlan ellison victim.

>>24935773
dude no one would even know this guy exists outside of his dorky ass community if losers like u didn't post about it, didn't read any of it btw

>>24935772
Jeff Mangum understands this feel well I think
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eUmywwdT2aw&list=RDeUmywwdT2aw&start_radio=1&pp=oAcB

>>24935792
a lot of influential people care very much about him which is the problem. he's a domino in the US economy.

I would like to go back in time and beat up Kant, to really maim him, to break his little twig legs and pull his hair out

>>24935773
rejecting AI is inherent to the soul of all moral peoples, so much so that they'll latch on to any freak who loudly denounces it, even if only partially

>>24935802
dude please lmao

>>24935818
i didn't say a big one but things would be different without him.

>>24935773
who???

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nqk3YpwnAKQ&
I had no idea Mishima was such a gigachud.

>>24935823
an idiot adjacent to people like SBF and scam altman who move in billions of dollars

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eliezer_Yudkowsky

>>24935773
You're just describing a normal 18-34 white man.

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>>24935868
brown

>>24935873
Asmongold didn't say that

>>24935884
what do you mean

>>24935900
holy newfag, it's like a barney the dinosaur live audience in here

>>24935906
i don't care about your stupid video game streamer. what do you mean.

people be liking my youtube comments n shit

I started writing the first draft of this story I've had in my mind for a while. Spent the entire time just describing the house and background of the main character.

>>24935868
Turdskins try not to cry about white guys challenge (level impossible)

>>24935977
you're not supposed to be mad when typing this

>>24935988
I'm making fun of you for randomly complaining about white men, your kind infesting the internet has definitely gotten annoying after a while though

>>24936026
>i'm not
yes you are

>>24936028
ur not supposed to look like feces tho

>>24935719
me too. more people have read my shitposts here than my best works if they were ever published. c'est la vie.

>>24935733
>I don fugg wih dem strangz
Stupid niggercattle doesn't know how pianos work. Many such cases.

>>24936080
piano is a percussion instrument, tard

Red and Black by Stendhal has been really great so far. Je l'aime.

>>24936149
It's a percussive chordophone you australopithecus.

man this chick i used to be into called me just now and the convo was so shitty idk why i answered i thought maybe she'd have some engaging bants or at least emotionally manipulate me into being jealous or lustful or something, but she just asked me questions and had me talk about myself the whole time. it didn't feel like an interrogation like with some women at least, but it still was pretty ick. i tried to turn it around and get her to talk about herself, but she didn't really say much. why the fuck did u call me? just to hear me talk? i paused my audiobook for this?

noooo the stanford press sale ended already? they said it went till the 8th and they're on the west coast, how do they justify this?! oh well fuck it ill just down the pdf, fuck u

i think self-awareness might be the most important thing.

Haven't read anything in months.

Happy Birthday.

I'm trying to drink less and having nothing to sip on at night is fucking awful.

>>24936365
Drink diet soda or make yourself a fun mocktail.

>>24936377
>mocktail
kinda gay and gets expensive but I appreciate the attempt to help.
>diet soda
Actually, maybe I'll start drinking non-alcoholic beers or kambucha

>>24935857
Looking for the original, a reddit post came up with this comment:
>So, yes. Mishima was a fascist. he saw post-war Japan in decay. The "true Japanese culture" dying. Even his "true Japanese culture" was only a made-up image, partial, hand-picked to his liking. Anything feminine? Not true Japanese. Masculine? Violent? Now THAT is true Japanese culture! And he used the emperor (not the real emperor, but the concept of it) as the guardian of this true Japanese culture. He wanted an emperor to be the point of return, the reason why the warriors would sacrifice their lives.

Mishima:
>Culturalism is, in a word, that tendency which seeks to sever culture from its bloodstained womb of life and reproductive acts and judge it by some pleasant humanistic product. There culture transformed into something harmless and beautiful, the shared property of mankind, like a fountain in a plaza.
>...
>The question of what Japanese culture is has, after the end of the war, been given a truly appropriate answer by the hands of diplomatic and cultural bureaucrats. That was, in accordance with occupation policy, the severance of the eternal links of “the chrysanthemum and the sword.” The good, peace-loving people’s mild-mannered culture of flower arrangement and the tea ceremony, and the culture of architecture, which is not threatening yet dares a bold patternization, became what represents Japanese culture.
>...
>That is, they severed the links of “the chrysanthemum and the sword,” used only the parts that were effective in the formation of citizen’s morality, and suppressed the harmful parts. The prohibition of kabuki revenge dramas and swordfight movies that was implemented in the early stages of occupation policy is the most primitive and direct manifestation of this policy.
Redditors are disgusting and ignorant and talk way too much about things they barely understand. I am specifically discussing this:
>Anything feminine? Not true Japanese. Masculine? Violent? Now THAT is true Japanese culture!
From the Redditor. Like all Redditors, everything in their mind exists as a caricature. Mishima can only be the flamboyant gay who was tragically confused about politics, or otherwise he must be the icky fascist whose saving grace was being a queer; he could not have had complex and robust views on culture and society, no, he must have been a lunatic, a madman, a caricature to be gawked at—if only he knew that Japan didn't merely consist of an army of brawny samurai rushing off to battle with every tree, lamplight and, without adequate targets for an endless slaughter, would impale themselves on branches to see the rush of blood.

They cannot form an honest view of any figure that differs from themselves politically. They cannot recognize that Mishima was an intelligent, educated, tragic, flawed, and brilliant man. He must be a caricature, because to recognize him as he was is to confront the fact that their values are not universal.

>>24936039
>no i'm not i swear

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Want to eat that Subway's sub with the sweet sauce inside.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bcklEOeetoE

>>24935706
i shouldn't have learned about communism. now i'm paranoid all my fiction isn't materialist enough. in what should be character driven stories, i get bogged down in economics that will only ever indirectly find their way to the page. i know this is a stupid mistake and yet i still constantly find myself checking realistic precedents for stupid fantasy scenarios.

The new translation of Camp of the Saints refers to a translator’s note, twice, on the penultimate page of the book when actually it’s on the page after the last page of the book. Disappointing.
>>24935752
Find out if your girlfriend is mother-of-your-children material, and if so, wife her and have kids
That will give you all the purpose you need
>>24935773
He’s weird and unlucky when it comes to fat
None of the GLP-1 agonists work on him
The only thing that works on him is starving himself to the point where he’s too hungry to function
https://www.greaterwrong.com/posts/udFuYqqNdpdo5ym3f/genuine-question-if-eliezer-is-so-rational-why-is-he-fat-1/answer/4HeKqRBkDoRuTjkoF

>>24936768
>Camp of the Saints
The only interesting thing about this book is that it predicted the future to a tee. Otherwise it's really not that great

Happy 4:20!

>>24935706
I have a feeling my friend will try to make me cheat with her tonight. She's traveling 2 hours specifically to have drinks with me, asked if my girlfriend would join us (no, she's outta town), deliberately made a reservation at a place close to my home, and did not make it clear she needs to be back home tonight.

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yiJZNWq7nMQ
damn this came out ten years ago

>>24936161
You sound like a huge faggot.

>>24936862
Premarital sex is already a sin so...

>>24936924
>omg a woman called me let me just drop everything!
no u

>>24936942
Huh? You literally dropped everything to pick up.

>>24936946
well i thought maybe she had sth to say

>>24936947
>omg a woman is calling me let me just drop everything!

>>24936952
not sure why ur so triggered, maybe u have a hard time holding guy's interest cuz ur boring af?

>>24935733
His masterpiece 24 Preludes and Fugues, Op. 87, and some piano sonatas.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KlPC9CNsafU

>>24935760
>>24936768
Having kids to "find purpose" is actually one of the worst reasons to do it. Offloading your self-worth onto a child. Covertly narcissistic and yet people act like it's a noble thing to do, like it'll fix your life. But odds are good if you're depressed and aimless and you have a baby, you'll just be depressed and aimless with a baby.

>>24935752
If you feel compelled to, you should do something creative, even if there's no audience for it, even if you're bad at it. It's a better way to pass the time than "doomscrolling" anyway.

>>24936862
Good luck on whatever you decide.

>>24936957
not bad, i'm listening to the keith jarret version on apple music rn

>>24936974
Enjoy.

I just like to get to the point in the day where I can be alone, abuse substances, and listen to jazz in the dark. That’s the goal of every day.

"I should like to
go back, through
the halls and corridors,
to stand in-line
(one last time)
scuffing wood-tiled floors -
scoring chestnut pools
with black rubber streaks -
languishing before the stalls
as we stop and start
and stop and start
like children waiting for
our school dinner:
will I be the donkey,
or the king?
I will sing a little tune.
The summer sun creeps
through amid a hum
and din of new faces;
some of the very few
I still recognise,
my own rolling between
my feet, as if
swept up by a rake,
as the headsman passes
with two full bins
looking at me like
a partridge stuffed
inside a cake.
(The snowfall of chatter
Falls thick across the nape,
And these passages swell
Like tides upon the wake,
Chasing back and forth
And back and forth
What no man can create)"

I used to think in poetric verse and metre. Now I can't even write basic rhyming couplets

Nigger Nigger black monster

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>>24935752
If you feel so worthless, why don't you just fucking end yourself and let some other bastards do your wealthy girlfriend? I say this sincerely and without a hint of malice or irony. How can people this soulless continue living? BOO HOO I HAVE IT SO GOOD AND YET I AM SAD ABLOO BLOO BLOO. Fucking give me a break already.

>>24936960
No, you faggot, people tell you to have kids because you'll be too busy to contemplate faggotry like this, which is how humanity trucked along in spite of horrors beyond belief.

When Gurdjieff was talking about people who are dead inside, they were talking about you.

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For me it's Scriabin's complete sonatas: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PL76wKgafiz0E-yeonj4MOcxMDaIW0wM_j

Feeling hungry.

Guy, how good are they at making tranny pussies these days? I get paranoid sometimes that the girls I fuck are actually intelligence plants (trannies) and that they did such a good part on the bussy that it’s become indistinguishable from the real stuff. I’ve always managed to ignore these thoughts because of the assumption that a tranny pussy would be easily identifiable. But now I’m thinking that maybe they’re actually really good at making them now. Thoughts?

>>24936963
I am not going to cheat. Even if that were the case, why would you wish my luck on infidelity?

>>24937165
I have kids, they're great but I already had my life in order. If you are a fundamentally unhappy person you should not have children until you sort that shit out. I've seen it happen before, people have kids because they've been convinced it's the meaning of life or it will "distract" them from their problems, and it only works temporarily if at all. So you end with these people are disillusioned twice over, who are also responsible for raising a child. It's not fair to the kid.

>Gurdjieff
Why should I care what some cult leader has to say?

>>24937258
Why would this ever cross your mind?

>>24937273
You’re not helping.

>>24937259
>posting on 4chan instead of cheating
You’re gay vro

>>24937034
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Bds6cuhmHo

>>24937273
Satellites.

I has made a horrific misstake:
I give ChatGPT (and other) some text I wrote and ask for a analyse. How, I read it over and over, even reproduce it and I feel empty, cold and discompfy.
It's like a deep, profound gaze into my soul and a rude, nearly ridiculous missunderstandment.

I don't know. I feel something like this the first time.

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Over the past year I've started to write professionally for an outlet. It's enjoyable, sure, but I'm learning that there is a difference between writing as a job and writing as a passion. I found myself not wanting to start a personal writing project since I feel creatively drained and uninspired from the newspeak I have to write. It's been months like this and it is beginning to upset me that I cannot bring myself to work on my personal projects despite wanting to.

>>24937414
Wtf are you talking about?

>>24937423
You just don’t actually have a passion for writing, or you’d continue. I worked a fulltime copywriter job fulltime for 3 years writing the most soulless bullshit and still wrote my own stuff at night and during the weekends.

>>24937431
>Wtf are you talking about?
The AI analized the structures of my writing or better of some texts I wrote back in the day.

It gives me some praise and identifing some "common traits of my thinking" and, I fear, somehow it nailed it perfect.

It's like a mystery has revealed before me and it feels like.. the fun is off.

>>24937447
>analized
Huh everyone is using them as sex bots

>>24937436
I'm also working as a copywriter and doubling as a marketing agent for the company. I suppose a better way of framing it is less that I hate the idea of writing for myself and can't (because I don't, I love it, even if what I write in my spare time is only short stories) but that I feel drained after work to the point where I'm limited in what I feel I can write. I could be writing a larger project in smaller chunks rather than writing multiple short stories but that's just how I've been writing as of late.

>>24937447
What's your native language?

>>24937423
>>24937471
>what is writers block
congrats anon you're experiencing what everyone else here has

>>24937309
I got a girlfriend anon
Just sucked her dick last night

>>24937471
You could speech to text ideas so you have a record of the vague outline for when you've time off

>>24936768
>https://www.greaterwrong.com/posts/udFuYqqNdpdo5ym3f/genuine-question-if-eliezer-is-so-rational-why-is-he-fat-1/answer/4HeKqRBkDoRuTjkoF

idk seems too convenient but i wrote that post in a drunk rage based on half-remembered shit lol. "I have too much brain fog on a caloric deficit" what food does he eat? and what hard work is he doing? thankin' 'bout saving the world?

somebody aware me on the state of the yud. actually fuck it nevermind who cares don't tell me.

>>24937514
Seeing what I'm seeing from the posts here, that's lolcow unburnable far where glp1s still require you to put down the fork. You can eat through them, especially if you do highly processed carbs
Tl;dr this mf on snackcakes

>>24937518
*Fat
"Unburnable" needs scare quotes too lol

My mum keeps the squirrels around our home fat in the winter.

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I fear i am not a very smart person and i compensate by reading. The main reason i got into reading was my fear of being thought of as stupid or called stupid. I think i might have a habit of mentioning i read when i'm insecure to decrease the chance of that happening

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It is difficult to understate just how much psychological damage occurs in the young mind in never experiencing love when it was supposed to. It creates invisible but ever present and outwardly manifesting psychological wounds that may heal over time, but never disappear. It is a lifelong crippling of the mind, affecting things like confidence, self-esteem, healthy thought processes, and inability to cope with the difficulties in life in a healthy way. It breeds attitudes of perpetual envy and anger and depression. Especially when said individuals are constantly bombarded by images and media of people having lived their best life while they missed out and can never experience, ever. Because time is only linearly forward.

A means to try and "heal the mind" which has already happened for many who have resigned themselves to apathy and quiet resentment, but it doesn't remove the scar. The scar is always there. Always present. And it will always serve as a reminder, and always influence future thoughts and decisions and actions.

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the incels are once again trying to persuade me that their struggle is extreme. i will not be bought.

>>24937683
>soft science paper
>UCLA
>"Did you know when people feel like they belong somewhere they are happier than people who aren't?"
No shit, they spent probably a couple 100 thousands dollars to tell me what a hermit Buddhist monk with no education could tell me if I asked him. Stop falling for slop science someone jerked out last minute to keep their tenured position at a useless university or to get their post-doc in something easily as useless.

no one is awake
i’m back at my cliff
still throwing things off
i listen to the sounds they make on the way down
i follow with my eyes till they crash
i imagine what my body would sound like
and when it lands
will my eyes be closed or open?

>>24937706
Hey hey hey, let me try

Gold hair atop a sculpture of bronze
two sapphires gaze upon me
judging my flesh
judging my soul
it finds me lacking

>>24937683
I actually read a really useless book that I'm pretty sure was just a vanity project for some progressive professor, but one of the interesting things that she does actually cite (because half of the book is her stating stuff then saying "trust me I'm an expert") is that the more you think about a problem you have that you can't solve or aren't taking steps to solve, it does basically the same amount of emotional damage as originally experiencing it. The happiest people in life generally don't ruminate and find strategies to either not think about their problems or downplay them.
Your mind loves automation so if you have a habit of rumination or you have a specific thought pattern, half of the problem is that you've done it so many times its just super easy for your brain to try to steer all thought outside of that to something its done millions of times before and doesn't have to expend so much energy treading new ground.
>tl;dr: a book told me that the repetitive thoughts you have in your head eventually "carve a trail" into your brain and any attempt to leave that trail is punished severely but if you find a way to constantly be off or outside of the trail, you'll eventually be fine.

I miss you so fucking much

If I had never had my chronic back issues and never had ADHD, I truly believe I would've had a shot at being the best living writer in my country, in both English and my mother tongue. I remember those glorious days I was able to write with passion, clarity, and no pain.

>>24935706
I've never noticed this before. But my mother, even today, feels really guilty when she goes on trips for herself. I suspect she feels like she is abandoning me when she does that. I try to tell her it is ok.

She's a psychologist; once when talking about my childhood she remarked I was a very very oppositional child. And apparently such behaviours often arise from neglect as a baby/toddler. I wonder if that's where the guilt comes from.

Though imo if that's the case that would more be my father than my mother. I remember absolutely hating soccer as a child. Likely because whenever it came on my father became unavailiable for 90 minutes.

>>24937520
They should study his fat cells and give those kind to anorexia cases.

>>24937683
Hey that's me except I'm drinking non-alcoholic alcohol, still makes you fat but I don't have to deal with being hung over or the anxiety that comes after drinking.

I'm just a poe boy from a poe family.

>>24937891
That what everyone says about the fat influencers who say glp1s don't work for them while the 2L bottle of Mountain Dew and half a family order hang out in back. It's a real medical mystery

>>24937765
What happened to your back?

>>24937931
I'd destroy a po boy rn

>>24937757
She’s with me now, bucko.’ *Flicks cigarette and scoffs* ‘Nothing personal, kid.’ *takes out another cig because I’m a bad ass* ‘Here.’ *offers you a fat cig* ‘That thing be bussing tho frfr’

>>24937994
>personal
>not personnel
BOOOO

>>24938002
This, 1/10, not worth a reply

>>24937994
I’m not talking about a woman. Also, you sound like a fucking idiot.

I wanna go to the library to read but it's raining and I hate having to use an umbrella. Decisions...

Life is so fucking unfair.
I should be able to eat ice cream every day.
Taco Bell, pancakes for breakfast, late night cookies without getting fat.
It's so cruel. I have to cut down now lest I become a fatass. Denied my brownies with vanilla ice cream after dinner...

>>24938152
you have a medical condition. if you want to be an epicure fine but fiending for corn oil chalupas is ill behavior. you must become a more imaginative fatass.

>>24937177
i don't typically listen to classical, but this is very nice. do you recommend anything else? thank you for posting this in any case.

>>24938200
Acting like Taco Bell isn't delicious doesn't make you better than me.

>>24938234
I like chalupas you are just fucking up being fat there are better fatness lives.

4 diet cokes

one diet coke, she ordered another four after the initial sip. “don't you want some lunch to go with that?” yes she would have loved to forcibly go down on a three stack of pancakes accompanied by two large turkey sausages dripping in grease, a steamy plate of hash browns peppered in brown flakes she wished she could ask for a dipping side of vanilla fluff with her pancakes she would ask for a refill free of shame. a fat older woman would come skirting through the diner in her tight little apron breasts all coming out from the top but in a homely kind of way, in a way that reminded you how you'll never be a child again your mother will never love you like the way she once did when she let you ruin her once perfectly set breasts, her breathtaking figure, you ruined her, she now hates you for it. unwarranted hatred but somehow your fault. she stuck with your father her lackluster bust now prevents her from cheating on a man worth cheating for so she settled hard and became a shut-in, this was her dream, something she could do in the privacy of her own home her own bathroom, she didn't have her own bathroom but she also lacked the shame of others listening in on her purging her imperfections down the drain, she must have been some sort of exhibitionist with the orgasmic thrill she received strutting out of the bathroom, teeth stained, stomach empty, there was nothing that could replace the confidence she exuberated, the exhilarating energy exuded after purging. well, there was, but they were out of her reach momentarily due to her flawed way of perceiving the world: a boyfriend, money, a new view from her window, stable relationships (humans and and miscellaneous other).

>>24938234
yes it does

>>24938234
taco bell just recently started opening locations in england. there’s one near me on ubereats. what should i get?

>>24938330
I like it

>>24938346
peptobismol because you are going to shit yourself to dead

>>24938367
Death*

>>24938367
a reply from someone who isn’t a fag pls?

>>24938339
>>24938324
If you can't respect the steak grilled cheese burrito you're not being a glutton right.
>>24938346
I hear Taco Bell does less well outside of the U.S.
My go to is the steak quesadilla with loaded fries.
>>24938367
Guy has a lady stomach, pathetic.

>>24938394
If you can't run a single mile I can't respect your gluttony. You can't just be a fat turd who eats Taco Bell and lives the correlating lifestyle. Taco Bell is only "good" degeneracy if it's balanced by not living the rest of your life like an expected Taco Bell customer. Seems like you are doing such a thing.

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>can scenebuild
>can't actually figure out what to make a scene about

>>24938418
I'm 80kg and 183cm.
No tub of lard but I could be better. I'm just lamenting not being able to eat it 3x a week without getting fat. I hover around 76 to 81 kg all my life because I can stop.
What is with this taco bell shaming? Can a man not be upset he can't pig out without ballooning up?

>>24938427
whatever it's not a big deal just seems like you are making the marlon brando mistake if not xoxoxo

>>24938394
there’s no ‘steak’ anything on the menu i can replace the chicken quesadilla with ‘seasoned beef’ and get ‘seasoned fries’. if i order it now it’ll def be cold when it gets here should i pull the trigger.

>>24938458
I'd go for the seasoned beef then, pull the trigger.
Get cinnamon balls or churros if you really want to pig out

>>24938461
done. i’ll let you know when it gets here

>>24938384
no, to dead
>>24938391
Did you know the favorite fast food of the LBGTQ is Taco Bell?
>>24938394
>Guy has a lady stomach, pathetic.
confirmed cockroach stomach, I bet the guy eats 711 pizza and taquitoes and doesn't see the correlation between his failing kidneys and what he eats. True sloppasseur!

>>24938346
i always get a bean burrito with seasoned rice in it. actually shockingly healthy for a fast food item considering it's mostly beans. that and it doesn't explode in the microwave if you reheat it.

>>24938471
>no, to dead
Fair enough, getting published by penguin?

>>24938471
what’s your diet like?

>>24938475
too little too late but tbf i didn’t want to double carb anyway

>>24938427
>What is with this taco bell shaming?
Taco Bell is nice but its literally industrialized pig people food in that the only thing that classifies as a food item is the tortilla they use, its also the most expensive ingredient in their tacos.
The beef isn't beef, its legit ediable sand (silicon) that been edge blasted into tiny circles with flour to mimic meat texture with meat flavoring
The cheese is actually so processed that it barely passes America's definition for a food and is outright illegal in the EU to sell as food.
>>24938477
Kek, I haven't read a nu-peng book ever and I actually don't even know what they are publishing right now. Also, not a writefag. If I ever get a publishing deal, its fucking over for everyone else.
>>24938478
You honestly wouldn't believe me if I told you

>>24938483
>You honestly wouldn't believe
try me

>>24938490
it's gonna be some all beef and butter shit isn't it

>>24938490
I eat one meal a day, no sugar, no white potatoes, only home baked bread from the farm nearby, a glass of wine or beer now and then, the rest is homecooked french, japanese, traditional american, traditional british or historical cooking. I eat almost all my meals homecooked and I fast when I travel. Most manufactured foods are so nasty tasting to me now that I just don't bother, I get sick when I smell mcdonalds burgers because I can pick up the metalic smell and taste of the meat they are trying to hide with salt and seasoning.
Also like the sperg said above I have a lady's stomach I'm very sensitive to caffiene, alcohol, and every time I haven't eaten something that isn't homemade I legit get cramps and shit myself unless they are vegetables or lightly seasoned meat.
I don't recommend people do my diet nor do I guilt people for not doing my diet, if you aren't a loner there's no way you could do my diet. But Taco Bell? Even as a kid and I ate like shit it would fuck me up for days.

>>24938502
>every time I haven't eaten something that isn't homemade I legit get cramps and shit myself unless they are vegetables or lightly seasoned meat.
Yeah you sound super healthy

>>24938502
fair enough yeah that’s pretty bad. ever heard of aajonus?

>>24938494
that would be incredibly healthy

I can't believe I used to like Moldbug, and think he was smart. I read him now and he's extremely mediocre at best, and retarded in his worst moments. Also, his writing is awful.

>>24938509
That's actually the normal response to American food if you come from a part of the world that has real food. I recently watched a thing about the American bread industry and the average bread loaf is so processed that your body doesn't recongise it as food anymore and you can gain up to 5 lbs of just gut inflammation if you eat a lot of it.
>>24938514
Vonderplanitz?
>>24938520
He is smart but not is an academic way, basically he is just very good at recognizing patterns most people don't pick up and describing them and the conclusion. Outside of that, he is kinda clueless, I don't know if its ego or if it all went to his head but I saw a talk by him and I wasn't that impressed. Not to say that I'm some sort of high IQ dude, but he was most popular for the whole "red church/blue church" thing.

>>24938524
Using Ranjeet as a slave is nice.
Is it raining outside? would be even better

>>24938527
Slaves would be cheaper, I'll wait for robojeet and not give my money to a useless corporation.

>>24938526
>Vonderplanitz?
no the other one

>>24938531
This feels like a set up for a joke, no I don't know the other one.

>>24938527
yes on and off but he’s obv in a car

>>24938534
it’s not a joke. he basically invented the name himself. there’s only one.

>>24938502
>I eat almost all my meals homecooked and I fast when I travel.
It's giving https://youtu.be/GfBYn420cVU?si=YlFnuUhYA3DctS3k&t=64

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>>24938535
>his car

>>24938544
I don't eat sugar

>>24938551
Let me guess it puts you into a coma for 3 days but this is totally how people should eat!

>>24938551
Do you go out in the rain though?

>>24938518
eat a butter burger from culvers everyday for life and you will live until you are 200

>>24938546
apparently he’ll arrive in a ford fiesta.

>>24938554
No, I have a neurological disorder that gets worse with sugar and so for the sake of myself and everyone else I stopped eating it to contain the retardation.
>>24938555
No, Its scary and I'd melt.

>>24938564
>confirming made of sugar
Are you a dinosaur though?

>>24938568
I'm a bear with granular sugar skin, I'd totally rip a dinosaur's head off if I saw one though!

>>24938571
:3 qt bear detected
i mean o.o oh no a bear!

>>24938571
he eats fortificated wheat leave him alone he won’t even be able to reply in a few months

>>24935706
---- Solaria ----
50007
Atmospheres

Except in conversation
I leave instrumental music

To the professionals, acute
As I can be in review of flagship sedans

And sites, persons, suited for flights of memory
Some fathers cultivate in sons

For fun while imperial systems unwind
Into the spendthrift wit

Of curiosity so idle that stellar evolution
Is a subject plaything at 16.

--------------

As for Shostakovich, I regard the 1st movement of his 11th symphony as absolute top tier when it comes to compositional genius. I'm old as as fuck by 4chud standards, and I remember when Chicago's WFMT honored him by playing rather a lot of his his catalogue after he died. I was 14 at the time. Was it 1974?

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>>24938520
If dark elf Fran Lebowitz was ever worth a shit he would have gotten in shape and ditched the leather jackets by now. Delusional character in general. Looked better with the ponytail versus his current "glow up" lmao

>>24938587
He looks like he is auditioning to be a villian in an 80s feel good film summer blockbuster.

>>24938586
has anyone ever read this guy’s posts

>>24938604
>average uk taco eater
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=npjF032TDDQ

Will Ligotti ever click, like Lovecraft did for me?

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thank you lit

>>24938642
I am not responsible for your life decisions anonkun

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Bonganon you fucked up you should have gotten this.

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>>24938642
nah jk i liked it but the volcano burrito was better than the quesadilla & the fries were pretty lame

>>24938648
don’t even think that’s on the uk menu but where were you an hour ago

>>24938586
---- Solaria ----
50007
Atmospheres

Dear Autodiary,
We've been in this hyperlane for 12 hours.

The guy next to me keeps on rambling nonsense and I can't sleep because of it.
Is he part of that new Cult of Science I keep hearing about?

I've heard some weird things about them,
he is reviewing flight logs on his infopad.

I can't help but notice he keeps doodling high school anime girls in the margin of each log.
That also reminds me.

Send Clair a message to pre-order Final Fantasy 223.
Saw a cool solar flare during the trip, hyperlink the picture to this autopage please.

--------------
RIP Vic Tyler, you were an amazing filk singer
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SYdfwVTPjnU

>>24938642
>he doesn't know that the Indian that delivered it also shat in it.

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>>24938654
You should have paged me.

>>24938655
I like this one and I usually can't get into your poems (no offense, admire the grind but not my bag)

>>24938680
That was supposed to be a poem? Also I'm not him, I just see that he posts them now and then and when someone said "does anyone read these" I felt bad and decided to write that.

>>24938672
know what - it was real good. i’m gonna order it again tomorrow. thinking of ballooning up to 18 stone next year.

>>24938695
your toilet will never forgive you

>>24938647
you literally are

>>24938692
>felt bad and decided to write that.
I think I we might have made the situation worse anon
>>24938698
I'm making enough of my own and I wouldn't get taco bell if you paid me

>>24938713
>I think I we might have made the situation worse anon
I wasn't mocking him if that's what your saying, sure I made fun of the character, but I was playing off of his work rather than trying to deride it.

>>24938713
whoever this fgt is >>24938461 then is the sole reason (i did enjoy it tho)

Are pagers even a thing anymore? It would be kinda cool to go back to early-mid '00s tech.

>>24938602
I'm that guy, and some have, to mixed review. On the whole I'm a frail and retiring cunt, if a bit more articulate than usual.

>>24938779
I think you responded to the wrong post there, chief

>>24938779
my bad i posted that thinking you’d never read it. they’re not bad but diminished by the posters behaviour.

Millennial men x zoomer women are getting together I've heard.

>>24938798
what else is new.
your 17 yo gf didn’t leave you for a 24 yo?

>>24938793
>they’re not bad but diminished by the posters behaviour.
I hope you aren't talking about me.

>>24938813
Meds meds meds.

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>>24938783
Not really

>>24938824
i guess this would work on someone else

Help I'm being gang stalked.

>>24938824
no some other anon. i hope you carry on this vaguely performative pattern till im 100.

>>24938831
Sorry bro we're in on it

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>
Hmmmmmmm.

Sarrrrrr you are fucking Bangladeshi.

i'm always tired i kind of want to rope just to get a good night's sleep it would be kinda rude to not wait till my parents croak tho

should i install overwatch again season 20 just dropped apparently

>>24935706
My best efforts make no difference. I'm disillusioned. That implies that the illusion is the normal state. Maybe that's true.

>>24938844
deserved

i saw a magazine that said on the cover "cette gauche qui stoppe l'immigration" and a picture of a butch chick idk french but i think i get it

>>24938910
my best efforts are almost always half assed compared to any brain dead normies, i am just so fucking lazy

i still remember this article in keyboard magazine from like 10 years ago where they interview some producer for lady gaga and they had to have known he used a preset from logic pro for the synth lead but they asked him soo how did u come up with that fabulous lead tho? and he's like we heh hell i can't just give away allll my secrets can i?

“Having sex is the easiest thing in the world. I could make a dating app profile and lose my virginity by dinnertime. But very few people alive have ever actually had *sex.* They’ve performed a social ritual, sort of like hazing. They’ve slapped their damp, clammy body against another damp, clammy body, like the wriggling of a suffocating fish. Maybe, possibly, their tongue came into contact with another tongue during the process. It doesn’t even sound enjoyable or enviable. They’ve never made love. They’ve never experienced passion, or tried to melt into another human being. To be crude, for a moment, it sounds like it’s more or less the equivalent of a salaryman dipping into the bathroom and having a 30-second wank, simply so that he can more-easily concentrate on whichever set of numbers he is currently moving from one column of an excel sheet to another. It’s nothing but a physical phenomenon, removed of any telos. There is no desire to unify, to become one; or even at a baser level, to control, to own. Leave alone any thought of the fruit of passion, the creation of another life inside of the woman; perish the idea. There is no yearning, no primal and beastly need even, other than a poor simulacra, the simple desire to fulfill a base bodily instinct.

I always knew how this would end
Diving to depths I've never been
Pressure finally released my hand
And I ascend back towards the land
I always knew how this would end
But I don't mind, it's worth the bends.

>>24939011
whatever helps you sleep at night bro

>>24939029
ya i was gonna say i'm not reading all this cope, save it for ur family when they ask during the holidays why u don't have a gf

>>24939029
>>24939032
Filtered. Speak english

>>24935706
I am nauseated by my attraction to women. Maybe that's just because I know myself to be autistic and unattractive though. I cannot ever fulfill my desires so I desire not to desire.

I'm sorry this is hurting you so much. It's hurting me too, but it's either this, or I spend another year deceiving myself...