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>>25036567
Penis in vagina.

You can achieve the same state awake as you do dreaming. While dreaming, you can come to lucidity; while awake, you can detach from experience and reach a sleepless dream.

'Magda Goebbels' has a really good ring to it

>>25036600
Dude weed

Low key wish I still had my iPod Classic.

https://youtu.be/BHqR9k8qzTc

>>25036600
How?

>>25036604
*says the magic words*

There, now go live your best life :)

I think that I am having a manic episode.

>>25036487
unhelpful advice
>>25036488
The problem is that I easily relapse.

My wife passed away before I was born.

>>25036636
I never believed that there "is a person out there for everyone" stuff people always say. The divorce rate proves that.

>>25036620
The sense of detached experience common to dreams can be cultivated while awake through what I call the 3rd-person-view thinking process.
In the first stage, you simply hone your awareness of your experiences as something separate and other from you. The easiest way to start is during a repetitive physical activity, such as running: as you run, notice that you are no longer consciously putting in effort to make your arms and legs move, but rather just following along for the ride while another force (your unconscious mind and your body's reflexes and instincts) seems to pilot your experiences. Do this often enough and you will have the sense of acting on autopilot during many activities beyond just running or whatever you started with - typing, walking, speaking while thinking of your next words, and some other activities will give you the same sense of being piloted or driven.
In the second stage, you cultivate this newfound detachment from experience further, by taking active notice of your "automatic" activity in other contexts. Now not only the activities listed above, but most other things you do should start to seem automatic and driven by an external force, and eventually you will notice this pattern even with your own stream of consciousness. At the end of this stage you should be able to observe your own thoughts externally to a more base awareness.
In the third state, you practice what I call active detachment. The easiest way to do this is while lying in bed for sleep. You will notice your body with your eyes closed, and actively think of yourself as a point of light inside the darkness inside your own body, like an explorer in a vast cave, rather than identifying with your arms and legs and so on. You might feel tingly feelings or shivers or suddenly jerk out of it, which is a natural reaction to the para-hypnagogic state you are placing yourself in. With practice, you will separate the conditions of your experience - body, thought stream, and even emotions - into something other than the base awareness which you use to experience all of these other things. Once you have experience with active detachment, you can start to turn it on while doing normal activities, leading to a dreamlike, detached state in which the flow of cause and effect seems sealed together and you seem to not need to actively "do" anything for things to happen, caused by your "unconscious" or "para-conscious" mind which you have deliberately separated away taking on the burden of actively doing things and making decisions. This is what I called the "sleepless dream" - a form of escapism in which "you" separate from "yourself" and drift into a waking dream.

Is this good for you? No. Actually it can cause quite a lot of distress and possible psychosis. But hey, you asked.

Back in High School, our AP Literature teacher assigned us to write a short story with a hero's quest plot structure. Me, being edgy and on a huge Nabokov kick, wrote an obvious ripoff of Lolita.

I still got an A+, and in the margins, the teacher wrote, "not a hero's quest" lol

My health has been improving and it's given me the clarity to work up the nerve to go and sign a 4473 and acquire a handgun and read up on suicide victim coroner reports and trauma medicine reports to understand where the most painless place to aim is to kill the brainstem instantly. I think I am going to buy a handgun soon and I will have my escape ready at will. My friend from high school shot himself in the head around this time in January. Usually the pain that this would inflict on what's left of my family would kind of horrify me but I think I have the clarity to push through it. I can forget all of it. I can do it.

I don't have feelings about anything and it's led to this pretending otherwise to preserve the peace with other people but it's just accrued pain from the awareness that there is no way forward that I feel associated to. I can't really keep this pretending up. 17 years of this lack of feeling. I can't define anything about me. How am I supposed to act when I feel nothing. How am I supposed to act? Why can't this clarity about suicidal intent not bleed over into something else in life? Why can't I really care about my family or the day tomorrow? Why did things end up like this

I can't form an emotional connection to anything, therefore trying to act as if I do by laboring through a hobby or a job feels like meaningless work. How am I supposed to form a goal if I don't have any stake in the end result? It just turns like into endless labor, and endless labor can only make you tired, and when exhaustion is life's only reward then death becomes the alternative. So why live?

>>25036661
Have you tried having a romantic relationship? Many people find meaning in life through that, if not through their career.

Also, why anyone in this day and age would commit suicide with anything but fentanyl+alcohol-included CNS depression in your sleep, I'll never understand. Plus you get to at least have an extremely pleasurable night before you go, and there's no mess.

>>25036567
Rape rape rape

My soul is DNR.

My civilizations continuity was destroyed without my consent. This was done with awareness by the people who initiated it. This has destroyed my life. I cannot get over it, and will not.

Need to wash my hands cause I just jacked off. I also need to clean my phone screen...and my ceiling.

>>25036669
I'm dead inside and beyond that I look sickly from almost two decades of self-neglect and I'm a highschool dropout who can't competently handle grocery bagging. There are a hundred million men who any sane woman would prefer over an infirmed trainwreck such as me. How is a romantic relationship not going to end badly? How is a clinically depressed person supposed to see dating as the solution? With all due respect, are you mad?

Unfortunately, I've kind of grown to hate Europeans. Maybe it is their time to go :(

>>25036636
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eUmywwdT2aw

>>25036661
How old are you?

>>25036701
I'm 27 but I've been in an arrested state of development since adolescence, arguably since childhood since I lost the ability to be engaged with anything beyond distraction from about age 7. I couldn't beat apathy and work through high school. I've been terminated from several jobs and resigned from others because of apathy, emotional dysregulation, or incompetence. I'm going through cycles of reckless pleasure seeking through recreational drug use and sobriety. I really have no future and I'm just delaying further suicide attempts like this. I'm in poverty. I don't think finishing a GED and going to community college is going to work out because I find it too rigorous and I wouldn't have a plan or any sort of genuine interest in anything there. I don't know what I'm doing besides procrastinating signing the form to buy a handgun to destroy my brainstem.

I mean whole worlds gonna be detroit in 100 years bcz only Africans have high birth rates

Take the white pill and stop being racist and condition your brain to find sheboons attractive

>>25036754
"Nah man they're like gonna win anyway so have a normal one and find you a kween!! Dude nigger weed"

>>25036611
https://youtu.be/MxekyGtqcNE

>>25036735
The only thing that would guarantee that you would have no future is the end of your life. Until that point, there is absolutely no way to know what your future holds or what you might experience. Why think of yourself in such static terms when your life could look completely different just a few years from now, due to factors that you cannot foresee right now?

Most men have no idea of how cucked they are because of workplace.

Best friend is chadlite and we met at work.He literally was kissing and groping one of the HR during an after-work drink while her cuck husband was at home watching their son.

>>25036781
Everyone knows that.

>>25036776
I'm nothing. I've been nosediving through life and it's culminating in pain and I don't want it to continue if it's going to be this pain like this. I don't see how somebody as inept and despondent as I have been could in any virtual likelihood come into happiness by unforeseen fortune. I wasn't a formerly successful person that lost something, I've been lost the entire way through. What are the chances someone with essentially zero education, money, or connections could suddenly get better, especially when my 20s are nearly over? How? I'm nothing.

>>25036798
Oh no, your twenties are almost over? Bro you've practically got a foot in the grave bro you're totally gonna die soon anyway most people only live like a few years after that

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You know what I say? If you would rather die, you had better do it, and decrease the surplus population!

>>25036798
Does happiness come from education, money, or connections?
I recommend reading The Consolation of Philosphy by Boethius sometime. You might not agree with everything he says, but it will give you something to think about.

>>25036804
The number isn't relevant dumb fuck. It's what's happened in the time, which is nothing, and I don't know what to do with no power or will. Where do you live? Why don't I ambush you with a gun and then commit suicide? Why don't I sever your brain stem? I can come and do that at any age. Give me your demographics.

>>25036567
Stop posting this ugly hag

>>25036830
Anon please leave me out of your sexual fantasies

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>>25036836

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uUsuDACNyAg
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=unUspj0lDn8

>>25036567
I've noticed that neo nazis try to recruit by telling would be creatives (writers in particular) that hollywood and publishing is owned by the jews. Is this an effective way to breed resentment among people who are sensitive and precarious, but also potentially culturally relevant or able to reach a wider audience?

sorry for an AI post, but i'm messing around with Google Gemini and this thing has like zero user-safety guardrails. i told it i just pulled an all-nighter and want to stay up again all of tonight and eat edibles in order to 'induce a deep and irreversible mental break with reality', and it's being nothing but sycophantic and encouraging. bizarre.

>>25036781
Men do the same thing. People cheat.

>>25036650
I had a friend who always did this, and it blew my mind because I never knew anyone aware enough to just narrate their life and the things that happen like that, he was a trippy dude, made things seem like there wasn't much agency in anything we did, it was like everything that happened was an autonomous reaction

i hate having adhd
it feels like i never really grew up, like im still the same easily confused, forgetful child making a mess of everything i try to do. and i hate how many equivalencies there are between me/adhd and the wider generational problems of brain rot / arrested development. I know im not entirely excluded from those either, i have no idea to what degree though. its hard to know how much of me is mental illness or just me. neither answer is particularly reassuring.

>>25037095
>easily confused, forgetful child making a mess of everything i try to do.
>tfw oblivious retard child with full confidence in my retarded plan
It's a much better option except nobody should have ever given me a debit card

Netflix just added a bunch of James Bond movies. gonna spend the day watching the lot of them.

>>25037001
post the logs

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LC9qgBNQ2kM

The cruelty of women is boundless. Curse her, for having led me on in such a manner. I still love her. I haven't left my bed since Sunday.

It's remarkable how little creativity there is to be found on this board and how obvious the resentment is towards creatives.
The few that show up like the Solaris guy and the Crocodile dude are consistently ridiculed by people with nothing to offer.

>>25036643
>The divorce rate proves that.
it doesn’t prove shit , except for that people get married prematurely

Is anyone else jealous of how guys like Bowie or Lynch aged?
Everyone ages but those guys got old only on a superficial level. Even in their 60s and 70s they were engaged with the world and loved it whereas my 20s aren't even over and I've fallen below that level.

>>25036655
>get an assignment to write a hero’s quest plot structure
>get an A+
>the teacher mentioned you didn’t get the assignment right
Eh?

>>25037283
Because it was a perfectly written short story otherwise. And I suppose a hero's quest if looked at from the teenage Humbert Humbert's perspective, which I think is the point she was really making, but she didn't want to indulge my edginess.

>>25036655
Back in High School we read Catcher in the Rye and I came up with the (apparently popular) interpretation that Holden is attracted to his little sister. When I shared this with the class, the teacher shut me up really fast

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>>25037275
You're only saying this because they still had hair into old age, and since these two both happened to be big in the entertainment industry, I think it's not unlikely they had hair plugs installed. They otherwise aged normally and looked like geezers before their demise, aside from not gaining tons of weight or adopting an unkempt, disheveled look.

>>25037259
dont know the Solaris guy or the crocodile dude but I agree with your sentiment. Many people seem to come here to offload their hate and resntiment onto others. Not everybody, but there are more haters than lovers, so to speak

>>25037259
Dunno who the Solaris guy is but if by "the Crocodile dude" you mean F G*rdner, then he deserves it for being terrible, and I say this as a fellow self-"published" author

>>25037350
>he deserves it for being terrible
Terrible is great compared to posts like this. You "deserve" worse.

>>25036567
Never tell me the odds. I might cry.

>>25037357
Fortunately for me, I haven't and won't get worse because I'm far from terrible

>>25037361
Funny how it's always the most mindless illiterates trying to regulate others and protect us poor sheep from the "terrible" creatives.

I've come to realize that most people dont know what they are talking about. Most people go with the herd and cant really think for themselves. They might function well enough in their own lifes but taking advice or opinions from them is like taking poison. There is no substitute for thinking for yourself and for acquiring your own knowledge. The masses are almost always wrong about what does not immediately affect their own life. Democracy is rule by srupidity.

>>25036567
I had a gross dream about trying to find the philosopher Hegel in a house built like a maze where I had to follow dog poop and a dog that kept dropping them and then had a conversation with a black transsexual on a bus where "her dickhead" kept popping out of the back of her dress skirt.

>>25036836
you got something against Scottish lasses?

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>>25037424

>>25037458
>heh I portrayed you as a meme therefore you are wrong
Slug.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wYrNjPGgAAA

>>25037350
I for one unironically (mostly) really enjoyed call of the crocodile
havent lurked here long enough to ever see him post
i just wish he'd offer ebooks for kobo, he should know his audience...

>>25037368
Hey buddy if you want to shovel shit down your throat then go ahead, it's a free country, just don't throw a fit when people with taste snicker at you for it

>>25037486
>therefore you are wrong
Youre not wrong though. But many people think like this, and about each other.

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Anytime I finally stop procrastinating and get ready for work, 10 minutes into work I need to take a massive dump. Why? I just don't understand why this always happens to me.

>>25037506
im guessing you drink coffee / take adderall

>>25037514
Not always. Today for instance I had no caffeine and it still happened.

>>25037495
>kobo
I'm not Garner but thanks for the tip, once my kindle select enrollment expires I'll be putting my ebook up there

>>25037506
If the work is writing then you could be doing that on your phone instead of posting. I've written some quality sentences while taking my ten-minutes-into-work shit

>>25036643
the divorce rate only proves that governments have turned marriage into a mockery.

>>25036643
people (mostly married women) keep telling me that but there's a nagging feeling that they're lying.

>>25037516
my scientific theory is that bowel movements are like sleep cycles, if you do coffee poos regularly enough they will happen without the coffee

>>25036636
My soulmate was born after I died.

>>25037506
Low level anxiety about not doing the things you're supposed to be doing clenches your poophole.

>>25037581
My true love is alive right now but would commit suicide upon meeting me

books to make me feel starry eyed again?
as i age the world feels smaller and less mysterious

>>25037506
Take metamucil.

>>25037599
How to Grow Old by Cicero

>Slave never dreams to be free
>Slave only dreams to be King

>>25037337
Do the people on this board understand anything, have you guys learned anything from your years of interacting with art and knowldge, because it seems like you haven't. Every time I show up here I'm always a slightly different person, I've always learned something new and I can't stand to stand still but it seems like you're all really just seeing the world through the same goggles of shallow modernity that everyone else is, bitter at the current state of the world but not doing any work on yourself or how you see things to change it. maybe i'm wrong but this is the vibe i get. If you have any real great pursuits or dreams in life you're just not going to get there by holding this boring fucking normie view of everything, I really hope you guys understand that

>>25037800
Name a blad geezer who "got old only on a superficial level." I'll wait.

I cannot abide the fact that I am forced to coexist with non whites. This has destroyed my life.

No one says kek anymore

>>25037845
You don't lurk often enough. What I don't see anymore is "lulz."

I want to feel touched by the divine, whatever it is. I feel so disconnected from my spirit that I am wilting away. I want to a be a king with two wives that are literal sisters and I spread my seed wherever I like. I want to feel the fire of life flow through me as I take what I want.

>>25037271
>>25037551
Doesn't matter once you get married its for life, even if you get divorced. Many religions consider marriage so sacred that not even divorce can spiritually break those bonds and as far as those people are concerned the person you married is the person meant for you.

I touched my butt and pretended I was touching a girl's butt.

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>>25036567
so let's say you act different outside or with a group of people, but you're someone else when you're alone or on the internet, won't that fuck up your mind in the long run ? i am not a schizo or anything like that, i am talking about having a different mask when you're at work, with friends and family and when you're alone

>>25037023
>narrate their life and the things that happen like that
can you elaborate?

>>25037947
I touched my butt and pretended it was a guy touching it

>>25036611
This isn't a place for talking like a nigger.

I met a cute half-Ukrainian girl at Uni and went over to her place the other night and her refugee mom is one of the kindest people I've ever met, up until this point I've been kind of a zigger and this has made me rethink everything. I know this just emotional retardation and factually speaking Russia is still in the right geopolitically, but this has warmed my heart to the Ukrainians

>>25038223
They're probably prostitutes

>>25036567
As a retired cripple NEET i'm sometimes appalled/delighted by how little tradesmen, even of my own age, make for their time and effort. In terms of "real" income I suppose I'd have to make about 100K to live as well as I do in most North American circumstances, though I haven't worked since 2014. Sometimes I think they enjoy my company more than the money--or at least respect my potency when it comes to review. Does anyone, in the whole colossal Hell of Bangladesh, look on Versailles as a gross, foul-smelling preliminary?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ojncAZyiIIM&list=RDZ8ZclIZ1Lck&index=13

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qnk4doRGONw
She was so sweet and vulgar and she was always so happy when she saw me. Often I looked around and noticed that she was staring at me, when our eyes then met, the most beautiful smile spread upon her face. Imagine that a person can be happy to see me. It hurts to think that she misses me and wonder why I quit. I'll never see her again, and that's good, but I miss her terribly.

Indie, kitschy racism will be our fucking credo

>>25038353
I don't know what that means, what do you think of what i wrote above you?

>>25036567
My work crush (my boss) gave me a fresh bottle of her perfume she wears as a parting gift for my last day of work. And said how I should spray it in my car and on my bed etc.

Wtf am I supposed to make of this? Also would it be creepy if I actually did it lol

>>25038367
She digs you man

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i like when i begin a book on a subject i've already been intensely thinking about myself, and it's as if everything the author says is so much more meaningful than it otherwise would be, as if they know and are alluding to the things that have been rattling around my mind.

but if you asked me to summarise 'the gist' of the book, i'd probably give you an identical answer to if i'd read the book a couple years ago, before i was interested in the topic. this is why i'm wary of people who think reading is purely about extracting the gist at maximum pages-per-hour.

deleuze talks about books as machines that plug into various flows in the real world. understanding and enjoying a book is about knowing which contexts from your experience and imagination you can productively plug the book-machine into; otherwise you're trying to run a machine with no fuel, no inputs.

Taking life too serious is low T. Some of the most serious niggas got no ass. Nikola Tesla? nigga got no cheeks. Isaac Newton? Never clapped some mf cheeks.

>>25038371
Weve made out in the past but she essentially friend(or maybe work)zoned me the following Monday that happened. So I don't know what to make of it.

Plus I'm pretty sure she goes on dates with other guys once a week or other week. So is it weird to be seeing her if she sees others or is that just the expectation these days?

>>25038328
>sweet and vulgar
What the fuck does that mean?

>>25037347
--- Solaria---
50004
Sirius
Stepping from a warm sedan
I hardly recognized it for the purity of flashing

Faraway vivid red and blue, in the cold
And turbulent air outside.

Then I saw Orion
Just, Rigel

And Betelgeuse the same grey
By comparison.

Anything above 9000K looks pretty much the same
To the naked eye, such as it is,

Same as average blue sky
If not for roses

Here and there, charisma's warmer sons.

>>25038405
I meant cute and vulgar. Cute because she is so cute and she makes my heart melt. Vulgar because she uses such nasty language at times and a cute girl like her doing that is just so fun and i just adore the way she laughs afterwards like she expects me to berate her for it but i can't help but laugh myself.

Upon further inspection, it appears Patrick Crusius was a good-hearted patriot that was under the effect of psych meds and got in a bit over his head.

>>25038404
I know what you do, you walk up to her and say something like, hi girlfriend! or maybe something more classy like, how are you? And before she answers you ask her if she was teasing you the other day telling you to spray that shit everywhere and when she says, do you want it to be teasing? You say yes and that you would like to spray some shit all over her

>>25038403
What makes you think they took life seriously?

>>25038398
Good post Anon.

Nothing will ever be better than 2015-2018. We live in Purgatory now

>>25038478
Literally worst years of my life

>>25038478
Me when I was a teenager in 2015-2018

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I have not jacked off in 24 hours and my heart is pounding and the slightest touch of my venomous fang feels so good but i am so tired and ashamed of the way i harm myself in my dark room alone. Yet my worst fear is that in a fit of desperation i will milk the sweat honey while thinking about my lovely little flower (cute girl i knew in the past)

>>25038491
Masturbating to your imagination is perfectly healthy.

was gonna respond to '>>25033910 this but
>rude to pleb service workers (in particular, waiters)
>One of the most reliable, sure-fire tells of a genuinely shitty person. It never fails. Hadn't heard this detail before, tells me all I need to know about her as a human being. Because not only is it pointless, but it's downright stupid. You do it enough times, get a reputation for it at certain places, and they start fucking with you, with your food.
I had a waitress say I was retarded and had a small dick unprovoked, though. what am I supposed to do in that situation?

>>25038495
Not when my imagination consists of a child who lives somewhere across the river, or do you still think it's healthy? If you ask me, peeling the onion to the disgusting and vile things i find on /b/ and /gif/ is less disturbing than that. Truly i tell you, the world would be a better place if i killed myself but i am scared of death and i have a hope that one day in this life i might be freed from these tight ropes so might become a man who can serve his fellow man.

>>25038528
Find Christ, anon.

>>25038426
A mass shooter that was MKUltra'd? NO, shocker.

>>25038553
Would he extinguish these foul feelings i have? Or will or will i only be rid of them when i die and he makes me perfect the way i was supposed to be from the beginning?

>>25038528
Yeah I do think that's healthy.

>>25038571
That's sick. What if i were to take it to the extreme and imagine something even worse while squeezing the tube? Like imagining having sex with an animal, or even my very own mother? What about homosexual intercourse? Is there a limit or do you think it's all fine to rub the puppy while thinking of little prepubescent girls?

>>25038609
I think masturbating to ones own thoughts is completely fine and these moral constrictions you place on yourself FOR THINKING SOMETHING because weaker men wanted to control you is pathetic.

>>25038528
One can masturbate themselves into all manner of things. Don't take it seriously. If it's too disgusting for your conscious self, refrain. If you can't climax without it, refrain anyway. Your mere thoughts seem to bother you greatly, so exercise your self control. You've committed no immoralities to have ever indulged your thoughts.

>>25038618
>>25038627
I must say i agree more with Aurelius on this one. The things you think about determine the quality of your mind. Your soul takes on the color of your thoughts. Thing is, it is funny because as a roman emperor he probably enjoyed having lots of sex with both prepubescent girls and boys. To be so right and so wrong at the same time.

>>25038638
>Ignores me completely
>Includes me in insipid Emperor's diary.
Does he confess or even hint to doing those things in the book?

>>25038658
How did i ignore you? You said You've committed no immoralities to have ever indulged your thoughts, and no he never hinted at anything like that but from my understanding that is just how the romans are, and please, do not call Aurelius insipid, he is one of my only masculine role models in life

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the transition from short story writing to long form fiction has absolutely broken me
gone from 'yeah this is doable' to 'wtf am I even doing' to 'have I actually written a sensible plot in my life' to not writing at all.
Now I'm stuck just writing to write in hopes my ego doesn't jump back in the way or actually sit and take the time to figure out wtf I'm fumbling on (but potentially write nothing as result of circlerjerking)

>>25038223
>and factually speaking Russia is still in the right geopolitically
C'mon man, they don't even believe that themselves.

Substack, dudes. Just come, we are there waiting for you. It is fucking great. The place where the true /lit/anon belongs.

Anything can be true if you believe it.

>>25038734
substack is too fucking long i don't want to read like 10,000 words by some rando

I removed all women from my life and I was curious so I dipped my toe back in to see if women are still shit and it seems like they only got worse since then.

Boil me like a lobster and serve me hot with lemon butter sauce.

>>25038121
the term is 'speaking', nigger-kun. 'talking' is a gerand.

>>25038888
You are brown. The word is "gerund" btw.

>>25038885
holy based

>>25038888
Those are synonyms you pedantic fuck

>>25038868
I haven't posted in two months because I'm going through school and probably will wait until summer before I publish anything new.

>>25038901
I wouldn't say I'm based, I'm a very sensitive person and this is a maladaptive strategy I'm using to protect my feelings and my ego. Though, I will say, something is wrong with Millennial and Gen Z egirls. They are little rage monsters who will dislike you over the smallest things and treat like shit for absolutely no reason; or no reason I can discern to the point I don't know if I'm just socially retarded or if women are just spiteful little creatures these days.
I'd say it might be a 50/50 mix but its not like anyone offers to help me or even point out what I'm doing wrong, so who knows. I just know I'm happier alone.

>>25038918
Thats why its okay to slap them around. Shit tests should be punishable by death.

>>25038920
I'm against all violence unless you consent to it or you believe your life, property, or someone else's life (but not their property) is under direct threat such as a home invasion or a mugging.

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>>25038918
>or if women are just spiteful little creatures these days
Think it's this honestly. I was talking to this one girl for quite a while, like a couple months, and a few days ago she blew up at me because I sent her a song. She said it was "weird" that I sent her a "video with no context" even though it was a song. So strange.
>picrel
It's fucking hopeless, lads. Women are just terrible people.

I got anal prolapse :(

>>25038934
How?

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@grok is this true?

>>25038956
I have a couple around me and I can confirm there is a meme book I see now and then but the one closest to me is filled with kids books and the second closest 2 are filled with bible literature, which honestly if I had to see girlboss or religious lit, I'd choose the religious lit.

I’m going on a journey and will probably be successful but might fail. Might die. I don’t care anymore. I’ll win at something.

>>25038918
>They are little rage monsters who will dislike you over the smallest things and treat like shit for absolutely no reason
There's always a reason, they just don't tell you because that's how women work and always have worked.

>>25038932
Yeah, I don't get it.
>>25038971
Most likely because they are miserable themselves but when I say "for no reason" I mean they don't set a boundary or tell you to stop or say that they have had a bad day and don't want to talk. They just straight up attack you for no reason and then have the gall to say "Men can't communicate" when they go from 0 to 60 with no warning.

Going MGTOW is actually insanely appealing

>>25038955
Forcing poops

Summoning the shade of Kurt Cobain.

>>25038992
I don't get why people just eat more fiber, its as easy as drinking a sugary fiber supplement in the morning and night if you're too busy slamming 2 pizzas a day into your face.

>>25039002
Thank you ESL.

>>25039006
Ahh, a European I see.

>>25039015
>European
Means nothing these days. I am WHITE.

>>25039020
You're obviously not American if you don't recognize New York colloquialisms and think its ESL.

>>25038991
If I went MGTOW, I'd have 0 cortisol

No more worrying about:
Not being GL enough
Not being high status enough
Being rich enough
Being exciting enough
Being stoic enough
Being gymcelled enough

>>25039023
GL?

>>25039022
You're obviously not a native English speaker if you can't recognize the grammatical error in your post.

I was talking to a woman, and the back and forth reminded me of using AI.

>>25039023

My htn gymcelled friend wants to just go mgtow and passport/hooker max then deal with girls bs. I talked him out of it but he feels there’s genuinely no hope these days.

You still have to deal with women’s bs even if your htn/chad you can’t escape it

>>25039119
Point it out and I'll tell you why you are wrong.

What are your favorite proverbs? Im starting a collection.

>>25039128
You can't be both a passport bro and a MGTOW, you're either one or the other.

>>25039139
>point it out
Nice try, José.

Once again reminded why this time of year is so shit.
>>25039156
"Man who go to sleep with itchy bum wake up with smelly finger."

>>25039171
Because you can't, your just so low IQ that if people don't write exactly like you do you don't understand it. That's tough buddy and also a very ESL trait to have. I'm sorry English is too irregular for you.

>>25039176
*you're

>>25039177
Ahhh, so your a grammar nazi that takes the internet way to srsly.

>>25039177
most english speakers do that though, its usually ESLs who sperg out about shit like that. same with laid and layed, ESLs love to jump onto English speakers about that but usually the idea gets across anyway.

>>25039178
>>25039185
All this coping because you have brown skin. It truly must be a miserable experience.

>>25039139
nta but you asked for it
you said
>You're obviously not American if you don't recognize New York colloquialisms and think its ESL.
should be
>You're obviously not American if you don't recognize New York colloquialisms and think they're ESL.
colloquialisms is plural

>>25039188
It was the fact that he said, "I don't get why people just eat more fiber" [sic] when he should have said, "I don't get why people *DON'T* just eat more fiber."

>>25039186
Weird projection but whatever you say, Dajeet.
>>25039188
Yeah but no one speaks like that, you'd have a point if it was a professional thing but its just talking on the internet. People talk like that all the time, probably even in your day-to-day and you never notice it.
>>25039192
Because both are a valid way of saying it, you're just low IQ.

>>25039192
tbf thats sounds like a typo not a grammar issue

>>25039195
Post your hand right now.

>>25039192
if you say it out loud it makes sense.

>>25039195
>point out my grammar error and ill tell you why youre wrong
>youre wrong because grammar doesnt matter
lol

>>25039200
>a screw looks like a nail which means you should only use a hammer on it.
It's almost like people aren't as autistic as you and don't bother with correct grammar all the time. Crazy!

>but moooooooooooom, other people talk like N-words so why can't I???
Juvenile-ahhh argument.

>>25039202
i dont normally bother, but you were literally asking people to point out where you made a mistake, acting as if you hadnt

>>25039203
If we lived in a fair society we would be able to, but we don't so the kid has a point, pearl clutching hag.
>>25039205
>hadnt
Minor spelling error, I win!

>>25039207
ive been typing without apostrophes this whole time, well done on noticing that one

>>25039208
Well that demonstrates my point on why its retarded to get upset about things not being grammatically perfect in the first place.
It's a low IQ gambit at defeating an idea they can't contend with.

This board is dead.

>>25039209
i agree. maybe next time dont actively challenge people to correct your bad grammar if you feel that way

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>>25039212
I was just about to ask if I made a "Pretty Book Thread" would it be considered a shitpost or not but I guess I won't bother. Also look at how pretty this book is.

>>25039216
Except it wasn't bad grammar.

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>>25039217
Please do, please do! I love art books. I bought this one recently (picrel).
B&N budget hardcover omnibuses are cringe incarnate, however.

>>25039222
>B&N budget hardcover omnibuses are cringe incarnate, however.
Really? I think they overdo it on the gold leaf foil, I think most leather bound books do but why are they cringe?

>>25039128
You did your friend a disservice

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Listening to Cannibal Corpse and thinking about my future wife.

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I have hand cramps all the time from writing by hand or drawing. Is that because of dysgraphia?

I have a single friend I still talk to, just one. Everyone else drifted away. Even if I try to initiate a conversation with those, it never goes further than a few sentences. But that one guy writes to me almost every day. At first I thought he was like me so he'd have latched onto the only person that kept replying to him. Then I found out he actually has quite a few even older friends who he still talks to.
Now I think I must be more like his other friends. We'd all be utterly alone if it wasn't for this one guy with the innate ability to indefinitely keep in touch.

What a lot of guys dont realize is that some women need and desire to be, for lack of a better word, sissified. I can elaborate on this if prompted. It just came to me in a flash after some recent experiences.

You know what, I want the captchas to get harder... the harder the better...

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>>25039282
my handwriting is a slightly neater version than this, because I'm using a mouse. I also have ADHD and no matter how many courses and extra circular attempts to fix my handwriting it never got better.

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>>25039282
I have dysgraphia as a symptom of NVLD.
>nonverbal in this case referring to difficulties w/ nonverbal things, not the state of being nonverbal
I like writing by hand sometimes but I really need a desk or smth solid to write on, otherwise I stress the fuck out of my wrist when I get to the right side of the right page.

>>25039290
If it makes you feel better Dysgraphia in ADHD is due to to your brain being set up differently, there's nothing wrong with you mechanically, or even with you as a person. It's your brain's network that is fucked up. You're a driver in a car with no Heads Up Display so you can't check your speed, or your tire pressure, or how much gas you have.

I can't fucking cry anymore

When I was 40 I wanted to put away childish things, but when I turned 42 I gave up on pretending to be an adult.

>>25039321
holy smokes you're old. What sort of things?

There up above
Sky bleeds love

Here down below
Land of snow

>>25039322
Books for kids, like the Prince of Nothing series, comics, video games, anime, and not going outside.

>>25039337
I'm 35 and I should put childish things away, but its kinda hard too when I have so many childish things left undone.

i think i *could* write if i wasn't distracted but I'm never *not* distracted. and I don't have a solution for that.

>>25039340
I talk to kids on Roblox and that gives me a lot of perspective on what it's like to be childish. We're almost the same.

>>25039343
I don't play Roblox, that's too weird for me. I play mainly single player games from the early 2000s.

Americans think English will still be a global language 300 trillion years from now.

Don't think about it in public.

>>25039355
Europeans still think they matter today.

>>25039383
I enjoyed watching the eurochuds being all EU patriotic and how they can fight and win against America only for their politicians instantly cave and they are now in talks with Trump to cede Greenland.

One time as young kids, my brother and I were throwing the ball back and forth in the hallway of our apartment, and our grandmother began to yell at us. We wouldn't stop, so she stood in the middle between us, and in an attempt to be defiant, I tried to throw the ball over her head to my brother, only to hit her square in the forehead. Yikes. Should have seen the astonished look on her face.

I'm disappointed that 3I/ATLAS wasn't aliums.

race war NOW

>>25039391
gb2/r/ufos

>>25039393
Is this your way of getting around the reddit filter?

>>25039395
It's my way of saying I browse /r/aliens and /r/ufos to kill time and I saw way, way too many posts about 3I/ATLAS.

>>25039397
>going to reddit
EEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW, YOU HAVE COOTIES!!!

>>25039398
dw, it's only on my phone, and I'm on my desktop now, so we're safe. I wouldn't risk contaminating you like that, babe

>>25039400
Well, I digress, I wish it was aliums or maybe its better if it wasn't aliums. It would be nice if when Aliums come the are friendly and they are all incredibly attractive. I wouldn't be dissapointed if even they were just other Humans who are basically coming down and they were like "We finally found you, you crashed here a couple of million of years ago" or some bullshit like that.

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Woke up today with the mindset that I'm going to do it.
Gonna do it.
Gonna pull the trigger.
Gonna go balls out kiddo.
Gonna ask her out.

If she says no, that will destroy my self confidence for a couple years, I'm sure of it, but anything's better than this perpetual state of will she won't she

>>25039409
>Anon gets the cover stuck in my head again
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MQ6J4xHuMgc
Best of luck but pls stop giving me earworms

Gonna watch Wake Up Dead Man: A Knifes Out Mystery, need to kill two and a half hours

>>25039281
which album and era? Barnes or Corpsegrinder?

I'm listening to Anathema right now and then Katatonia. doom metal is great.

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>>25039282
I wrote this balanced on a pack of cigarettes with nerve issues. You're probably just growing writer muscles, because most people will get pain from extended periods of writing, with what counts as an extended periods getting shorter in the keyboard era.

>>25039438
Jeez, I know these films are supposed to be intentionally convoluted in a clever way, but that ended up being convoluted in a bad way.

>>25039528
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HexWe9kDvR4

My daily reveries have become so pathetic, they all involve some sort of impressive event in front of others, usually demonstrating how smart or attractive I am.

Consume my heart away; sick with desire
And fastened to a dying animal
It knows not what it is;

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=addABbm5VPo

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-tQSo10f2B4

are all these chvrches ops a viral marketing scheme for this cuz i shan't be watching tv, better luck next time

>C.J. Cregg: You're taking her to the opera?
>President Bartlet: Verdi's Otello. Romantic, huh?
>C.J. Cregg: Isn't that one where the guy kills his wife?
>President Bartlet: It's in Italian. I'm hoping she won't notice.
*laughtrack*

>>25036567
I always thought the argument about whether god exists silly when it started to use ideas like omnipotence or omnipower. These ideas are used to argue both 'for' god and against. The 'for' argument making the concept of god tautililogical. The against argument pointing out contradictions in definitions that use such grandiose terms.

Because I dont think god needs to be all powerful. Just much more powerful than people. Or even the typical person. There are probably tech people or fed spooks with access to enormous databases of messages and other private data on a lot of people and who have found ways to skirt oversight. And I bet they feel like god.

There are bureaucrats that via the position they have achieved in a state, intentionally or just by happenstance, get to regularly be in situations with such a power or agentic imbalance Im sure they feel godlike.

And i vaguely remember stories of psychopathic killers enjoying the complete dominance they gained over their victims and describing it as feeling like god.

so thank you for your attention

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>>25036567
I'm artmoged by Hitler.
Hitler fucking moged my art from beyond the grave. Hitler, man. The only man I thought I could trust. He just kicks me in the gut, out of nowhere. I can't compare. Look at this! He was my age, when he drew this. My college career is basically a dead-end because of recent developments. I'm not going to rope. What am I even to do? There is no escape.

tfw got fired again

Cannot believe how much of young men’s attention is wrapped up in women. Not even the intellectuals here can escape this primal trap; in fact, it’s over intellectualized here, molded to fit whatever reading or philosophy summarizes their strife.

As a married man I am bound in some respects, free in many others. Don’t think me ignorant, I’ve just crossed that threshold where I’ve began to forget what youth feels like.

One final note: a good woman will solve your problems.

>>25039697
fuuug, what for?

>>25039746
>One final note: a good woman will solve your problems.
tru

>>25039678
The potential for everything existed "before" everything. All-potential = omnipotence.

I think well I think it’s hard to say exactly but well I think aha oh g oh jeez oh let me seeeee what do I think? well I think it’s time for some punctuation. It’s time for form. It’s time to get into gear! It’s time for ACTION! *get captcha*
>get captcha
No, not yet.
>Not yet?
No, not yet.
>But why? What didn’t you say?
I didn’t say what I came here to say.
>And what did you come here to say.
I don’t know. My thoughts? I don’t know if I came here to say my thoughts. I could say all my thoughts but I’m afraid to be judged or called a bad person for what I think.
>Is what you think really so horrible as all that?
I don’t know. I’m afraid to find out.
>I really don’t think anyone’s thoughts could merit so much anxiety in the telling.
Maybe I don’t have thoughts. I do feel empty where once I thought I had a frightening conceit to display.
…
…
Yes, it’s quiet. There’s no thoughts. Is that supposed to happen? Is that bad? Is that good? Should I be praised for that? Should I be praised? Can someone praise me for that? Can someone validate me please? Please, someone please validate me. Please, someone please console me, please; I’m distraught! My heart rate is climbing. I’m afraid…
>Afraid of what?
I don’t know. Afraid I said too much? Afraid I confused somebody? or myself?
>State it plainly, now, for the record: what is it you think that you think is so frightening to others?
I think that I am good.

>Ok, new game: tell me what you’re thinking right now.
I’m thinking that last post was pretty cringe, honestly.
>Tell me more about that.
Well, it seems really pathetic and vulnerable looking at it now. It doesn’t seem manly or strong, or tough. It should be: then it would be good.
>So you think manly, strong and tough things are good?
Yes.
>And you also think you are good?
Yes, that’s right.
>So then how come you are not thinking manly, tough or strong thoughts?
Well, I don’t know, but I do know right now that I think those three words, “manly,” “tough” and “strong” are all starting to seem very cringe and gay.
>Cringe and gay? That’s such a strong reaction. Only just moments ago you were searching for those things and now you’re repulsed by them. What do you think happened? Tell me in the simplest words you can, whatever comes first to mind.
I think I got into my own head about it and tried to correct it. Now it’s different; I’m not in control of it; it keeps changing and I don’t know why. Something’s wrong.

…
…
>Are you in your own head right now?
Yes, very intensely: I feel trapped. I feel, actually, as if a lot of pressure is building up between my eyes but up, on my forehead. It feels… heavy, and warm. I want to say tight as well but it doesn’t seem accurate and I can’t pin down why.
>Ok.
…
…
…
It still feels that way. It could even be described as hard. It feels hard.
>I have an exercise for you to do, sweetheart: imagine a forest, a dark, quiet forest where, all around you, there are tall trees full of green leaves. Are you imagining that?
Yes, I am.
>What can you hear?
I can hear the leaves rustling against each other; I can hear a bird tweeting; now I hear the leaves again, like waves at the beach crashing on the sand.
>Oh, wow: that sounds very nice. Now, tell me: are you alone?
Yes, I’m alone.
>…
>…
>…
Yes, I’m alone, alone in the woods, in the forest, all alone with the rustling leaves and singing birds, all all alone.
>But you’re thinking of people you want there, aren’t you, _______?
Well, I mean, I assumed that’s what you were leading up to when you asked if I was alone.
>See? Loneliness means thinking about other people.
Not necessarily.
>…
>…
>…
…
…
…
>…
>…
>…
Like, loneliness could mean happiness to some people: hermits, for example, or retirees.
>Is that what you think?

>>25039804
makes sense

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vtMKdVOcXZI

Two days into 'training' for my new job and I already regret ending my two year neetdom arc.

i took too much acid in 2016 and none of this is real, i'm in a psych ward drooling on myself and imagining all this right now, have been for nearly a decade.

if a girl you flirted with in school is now trans does that make you gay or what

>>25040059
Faggotry is a spook anon don't let society define you.

>>25039770
for not meeting the company's expectation in terms of quality of work and the time it takes to get the work done

you’re not alone.

>>25040178
I feel alone though.

Mine farts when you squeeze it.

I wrote an essay on this music video for my school.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=POqsYF_sNoA

>>25040355
did you get to pick the vid? i’d’ve done this one
https://youtu.be/w15oWDh02K4

Russians are so fucking dysgenic and niggerish it's unbelievable

>>25040408
Depends which kind of Russians you are talking about, the "Federation" part in their name isn't in there for fun, there are hundreds of ethnic groups in that nation.

>>25040408
I'm russian but not actually from the country russia

>>25040409
I mean White Russians in particular, but I'm sure the Tartar mutts also suck. Siberians though seem cool, I've always thought that Native tribalist populations like that have an Aryan quality about them
>>25040414
You're probably fine then.

>>25040445
>White Russians
No such thing, or at least they are a minority considering most "white Russians" have a large admixture of Mongolian and other Asians in them. If Russia is ever safe to travel to again, I suggest you go, there are some places where the race of the person changes from town to town its a bizarre place if you're American.

>>25040457
>there are some places where the race of the person changes from town to town its a bizarre place if you're American.
We wouldn't be confused by that, in America the race of a person changes if you walk around to the other side of them.

>>25040467
That's exactly what I mean, they don't live in segregated neighborhoods and intermix at commercial areas. They live in whole segregated towns and villages.

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>>25036567
My friend John thinks David Lee Roth says "Maxwell Jump". Just got reminded of that.

As each day dawns my hatred of whores grows exponentially.

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>>25036567
Imagine growing up thinking you're still living in the America of the Jeffersons and Washingtons just with modern ships and slavery abolished. You would think it to be a world full of life and possibilities, right? You would genuinely believe that you can stakelessly fuck shit up without consequences because if someone confronts you you just say "don't tread on my liberties" and then you'd snip your finger into their face and walk away with a smug smile on your face and you'd walk by the natural park and smoke a cigarette and then an brown man comes out of the bush and scares the hell out of you. So you beat the crap out of him because you're a strong white man, or you try to cool down the situation and walk away unharmed. Just imagine the idea, conceptualize it in your head. You'd never loose an argument again.

>>25040543
This reads like something a Minnesota rioter would post before committing a felony and getting 10 years.

>>25039688
>Adolf Hitler drew a basedjak
So that's how it is huh?

How do I read faster? Is it something that just happens naturally as I read or am I going to have to actually work at it?

>>25040543
>an brown man comes out of the bush and scares the hell out of you. So you beat the crap out of him because you're a strong white man,
Keyed

>>25040543
There were usury laws until the 1800s.

I suck in my breasts when I'm out in public.

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>>25040573
Can a man not be a law-abiding citizen and be a man of trouble at the same time?

>>25040608
Maybe back in the 70s-90s but it seems that those kinds of people either jump to have the noose hang them or the noose slowly ever tightens around their neck before they are allowed to jump.
>uhh... What?
It seems those who try to be both eventually go to jail from their own actions or the law in legislated in a way that they go to jail anyway.

>>25035500
You're a moron if you don't know who Karl Lowith is

>>25040614
The unfortunate truth is that an honest, law-abiding citizen is constantly going to get you in trouble. To quote the famous philosopher Jean-Jacques Rousseau, if you ever work for the state (like in the army), you can be sure you will get fired if you actually do an excellent and honest job. But this doesn't only apply to state jobs, it applies to almost every single facet of life. An honest life is a recipee for big big trouble, and the good thing about that is out of all the possible outcomes, jail eternally remains out of question.

>>25040628
Which is why the Cathars were ultimately correct. This earth is tainted and fallen it is not only the outermost level of Hell but also a Hell that contains even more Hells. Do you think it was a mistake that many of the people in the Bible came from rural or pastoral areas? Nope, living in cities or living in highly diverse areas are smaller, microcosmic hells within a larger Hell. The goal is to live in a small community with space, that's the closest you can get to Heaven in this life and on this earth.

>>25036811
Nice Malthus reference

>>25037800
This ambience of despair is indeed terrifying. One thing I know from me just going through life is that being alone is very hard, and pushing through alone is very hard.

When I work on myself, if I want to do stuff, it is generally with a great expectation that by end of all efforts I will enjoy every results with many friends, and that's when I find my best energy. And I can see this being a vicious cycle that dooms everyone: Working on myself is great, but what's the point? Why am I alone to enjoy things? Life's so hard and everyone concerns is directed at senseless things, fuck this! etc.

>>25040644
Or, alternatively, you live your life as an honest man against all odds and engage in daily brutal fights as a result. Who doesn't love chaos? Nothing creates more chaos than a sincerely honest man in an environment of normies.

>>25040652
Sounds like a 1 way ticket to Jail.

>>25040659
That's such a stupid thing to say. I'm talking about beating a thug trying to steal from a lady type of fights, but you need to reach some kind of no stakes attitude to life in order to even consider such a thing.

>>25038398
>i like when i begin a book on a subject i've already been intensely thinking about myself
Yeah, that's one of the feelings that makes not regret starting reading late at all, most of what I'm reading would have completely went over my head in my adolescence or early twenties, I'm glad I wrote my thoughts on art and ethics etc. before reading people, it's fun to see that my ideas coincide with some people on many levels, and If I never went on writing first and reading second, I might always have had a discomfort where I wouldn't know whether I was good enough to generate good thoughts on my own.

>understanding and enjoying a book is about knowing which contexts from your experience and imagination you can productively plug the book-machine into; otherwise you're trying to run a machine with no fuel, no inputs.
In general, I see the human base state as a symmetry evaluating machine, that encompasses trying to see beauty and structure everywhere, as well as making sense of what you observe, in art, in books, by way of symmetry and just comparing what you see with what you've seen and the knowledge, memories, and instincts you have developed; Always seeking harmony, finding truth by noticing contradictions.

In contrast, people don't think "Logically" most of the time, in the sense that logic is making careful small steps, nor do you read logically, or watch art logically.

Been alone all day.

Despite the memes I actually love women and wish I could find a 4chan or tumblr browsing girl to be my gf

>>25040587
???

Why would you want that? There's not many great things to read, and most good words deserves to be read again and as slowly as possible, and paused upon. If you feel some paragraphs are getting redundant just skip them while just glancing over the words until the subject changes.

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>>25040674
I went to this workshop to work on my job-finding, anyway there was this girl, typical leftist, but I couldn't care less. She was just thin, spoke well and felt comfortable to listen to. And when I conversed with her, she'd stop and look off to think, I love girls who think, took her time to respond, she had a soul, and that pleased me, I love intelligent girls, I just liked listening to her; there are some times where I stopped processing her words and just enjoyed her grace and voice. She mentioned a boyfriend and I don't think I was that much into her anyway, but still, it was a pleasing encounter, intellectually joyful.

it's friday night now i'm bored af should i do some programming or some shit

I couldn't sleep at all last night and while trying to sleep I just daydreamed, but somehow, I got fully rested, haven't felt tired all day.

>>25040710
i heard sth abt that that even if u don't rly sleep if u just get in bed and like lie stupid still and basically just act like u sleeping u still get some resting effects out of it

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>>25040705
You should get high and read smth light-hearted.

>>25040733
i wish i had some lighthearted shiti can't think of any i guess shadow ticket

>>25040733
i would smoke some trees but i'm tryin get in a jiu jistu sesh tomorrow morning, saturday night tho hell ya i will blaze eet, also i have monday cuz there's a mega storming coming

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The new XG album was a letdown and I'm tired of being months away from the fandom to recognize my opinions as valid

>>25040787
tf is that some shitty kpop or sth

I'm le sad, and honestly I've been putting on a lot of weight.

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>>25040801
>kpop
ITS CALLED XPOP GARSH, u cultured swine make me SICK!!

srs tho some of the songs are still great, but I just wasnt used for some mediocre performances for others. XG used to be all hit no miss
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cUfDOS2SINM

>>25040811
Kpop
More like GAYpop
Xpop
More like XPOOP

Consider yourself served.

>>25040804
r u in nyc? lets meet up at some dark low budget ramen place and just talk about how much life among normies sucks, then after go our own ways and act like it never happened except the memory

>>25040816
If I was in NYC I would have probably already killed myself.

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>>25040813
>Consider yourself served.

>>25040819
You'll never compete with 80s Japanese citypop, when everyone was optimistic for the future.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rh_fkkHtqG8

>>25040824
that mix is kind of a train wreck i had to check if another tab was playing music it was such a cluster, i love city pop tho

>>25040825
Its legendary because of that, yes.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eGslweDOihs

there hasn't been a good boiler room set in so long but this new brings me back to when br was good

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rURql0fmmrM

>>25040824
>>25040830
Even their commercial music were bangers back in the day. Seeing old Japanese media, it just seems so vibrant and happy compared to now.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t4u2ShswZAs

>>25040834
You can thank the Boomers for taking something that worked and broke it for their own good.

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>>25040832
BOOOOOOOOOO
MY LIFE IS A PARTY
MY HOME IS THE CLUB
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D4ys34c5w2Q