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>>25115815Reading a few different things right now; PF Strawson's paper "Freedom and Resentment," Richardson's biography of Emerson, a few short stories I've bookmarked from online magazines (Joyland, Heavy Traffic, Prairie Schooner, Granta). Learning a lot, but I couldn't tell you what I've been learning. Beside me I've got a 30pg Muji notebook that I'm hoping to fill in the next week or two. Might go on a walk later today. Took the bus to the local university art museum yesterday, saw picrel in the flesh. Idly daydreaming about living in a van.
been reading less than i used to thanks to college and a new writing job, but want to be fiction writer still. i need to practice more and actually read more fiction probably.
Wrote another letter. Gonna start the crying of lot 49. Trying to use my time off from studies/work to knock out as many backlog items as possible.
I want to go back to school and get a degree, but idk what for. Healthcare has the most security, but becoming a nurse or provider does not appeal to me at all. I think I just want to be around smart people with the same hobbies as me so I wouldn't feel so alone. Even generating stories feel difficult without inspiration from meaningful social interaction
>>25115865Fpbp
>>25115947Why are you taking time off?
My girlfriend interrupted my reading time sο I could drive her to Starbucks...
I just remembered my dad wrote two books
Just dropped an MMO game. I was a big raid leader. In 8 hours I'm supposed to host a big raid. I already uninstalled it.
>>25115815>the World doesn’t give a fuck about me so why should i give a fuck about the World ?Tell me why is this wrong
>>25116052define world
>>25116049fake your death
>>25116049>>25116056thisinstall, log in, say you got diagnosed with leukemia and disappear
big dicks will rule the world
>>25116057Even better, anon should start the raid and say a few minutes in>uhh guys>my house is on fire>sorry gotta golog in and never log in again.
>>25116056>>25116057>>25116062I left a game once in a similar manner, I told my guild I cannot play anymore because it brought me back to self harming
>>25116052>why should i give a fuck about the World ?Because its the right thing to dο.
is the Berserk manga /lit/?
>>25116052Anon, you’re trapped in the inadequate idea. You imagine yourself as a kingdom within a kingdom, a little island separate from the sea.There is no 'World' out there to give a fuck about you because there is no 'You' that exists apart from the World. You are a mode of the infinite Substance; a single breath in an eternal lung. When you say the World doesn't care, you are just a part of God complaining to another part of God that you've forgotten who you are.To 'give a fuck' about the World is simply the highest form of self-preservation (Conatus). You don't do it because the World 'deserves' it; you do it because as your understanding of the Whole grows, your hatred of the parts dies. You are the universe experiencing its own necessity. Act like it.
>>25116078Only the Golden Age and Conviction arcs. Everything else is seinen window dressing. But as a study of the 'Idea of Evil' as a man-made psychological construct? Absolutely.
Fuckin' black people never pay for the bus. They just get on without a care in the world. Unreal. We're living in a society, people!
>>25116000If you leave her there, you get the reading time back
>>25116082>Everything else is seinen window dressingCould you elaborate on this? Dο you mean that it's by-the-numbers?
>>25116097NTA but I think they mean just for fun, ie no deeper themes or meaning. it's a manga tho, fun is important
>>25116000did you get a coffee
I was neet for a long time. That changed, about 4 years ago. Recently I finished a masters degree, now I'm working on a PhD which should be ready in 2 years or so.I feel empty. Before I had no career, I was a failure in so many ways. Now everything seems to be falling into place. But I feel empty.It's like my artistic delusions came to a halt. Even within arts, and I have become familiar with many writers and artists, the struggle to write and sell a book has become too real. I feel like my isolation made me think I was a sort of genius, or someone who had the potential to be one, maybe write something worth reading.I still believe I am damn good at my job. But the gap between the works I admire and what I am able to do feels larger everyday.And I cannot devote any time to anything except my work. I have read a lot in these years, but only scientific papers. I just don't have the time to finish a novel, which is crazy, but true. I know it has been about a decade since I had time to read as much as I wanted to. Now, I remember how much I used to read back then and fills me with nostalgia.I am rambling, I know. I think I'm just tired right now.
i just ate 6 white castle cheeseburgers and one of those 12 oz rockstar energies from the dollar store that have like 200 calories and i'm stll hungry damn
I can't tell if I'm actually gay or just basically prison gay out of loneliness.I tried normal dating sites and they were crushing, almost no matches and nothing that led to an actual date.Then the other day I made a profile on one of those gay dating/hookup sites just to see the difference and a dozen guys messaged me and said I was cute on the first day. Damn...
>>25116108my watch says i walked seven miles maybe that's why idk
>>25116108>>25116112sometimes I just become voracious and eat and eat and eatp sure its linked tο my depression/anxiety
>>25116111I used to think similarly but then I got a gf and haven't had a gay thought sincenot even trap shit gets tο me now
I wish trump would just disappear alreadytired of the clownish news stories
>>25116102she got a coffee and I got a pink drink
I watched a heart break today and I lacked the experience to assuage the hurt.>>25115953>be around smart people with the same hobbies as me so I wouldn't feel so aloneDoes he know?
>>25116117Who would you rather have a POTUS? Jenna Renée?
>>25116117Great news anon. The Republican nominee in 2028 will appoint Trump as their Vice President and then immediately resign, allowing the Best President in History a perfectly legal third term, because the term limit prohibition isn't actually a limit on terms but a limit on how many times you can be elected. Pretty cool, huh?
i don't want to go to work tomorrow because i don't want to have to talk about the war. i don't care about it at all. my job has a lot of people who literally do nothing all day. i don't either, but i just sit there and browse the web. they're gonna come up to my desk and try to talk to me about it.
is loneliness really an epidemic? οr have people always been this lonely but just unable to as openly express it?
>>25116144just get a job. you'll spend so much time chitchatting with dumbfucks by the time u get home the last thing u will want to do is socialize.
>>25116160I wasn't speaking of myself. But you're not wrong, I met my current friendgroup and girlfriend through work.
>>25116144It kinda is, people are complaining about that for quite some time. Specially after the covid stuff.
>>25116125I want someone with consistent principles and actually believes in what they say and doesnt act like a child. is that so much to ask for
>Sophia of Montferrat was the second wife of the imperial prince Ioannes Palaiologos (later emperor, 1425– 1448). She was tall and had a body to die for, and her flowing blond hair reached to her ankles. But there was something grotesquely disfigured about her face. The people of Constantinople called her Lent from the front but Easter from behind. (They were a religious people, those Byzantines.) Ioannes never had sex with her, and divorced her as soon as he gained the throne (Doukas, History 20).
>>25116117Yeah I honestly don't even read the news often anymore because of how embarrassing everything is involving his administration.>>25116125Harris.
>>25116172>Lent from the front but Easter from behind.Heh.
Aaaaaahhhh saw another mouse fml
>>25116197I need a new mousepad. Mine is coming apart. I was thinking about getting one of those big ones.
>>25116202I think it's pregnant
>>25116203Get rid of it.
>>25116203My pet rat gave birth to 10 babies once. The issue was that my rat's castle was on top of a high shelf, and the baby rats kept falling and getting stuck between the shelf and the wall; none of my rats lived in a container and could free roam the house. I kept having the grab them and put them back up.
>>25116209I'm trying my best
Would yοu sacrifice your entire high school graduating class for a million dollars?
>>25116297Bro I would sacrifice the entire Earth for $1M.
>>25116297People remember their high school class? Or undergrad for that matter? I'm barely remembering graduate school and that's only until we go our separate ways on graduation.
>>25116309ur supposed to network in school dumb ass
I just know 100 years from now I'm going to shotgun blast my brains onto the wall.
>>25116297No, that is too fucked up. I don't think I would be ok doing that even with random people.
This is the perfect example of an architectural mistakeThis building has a triangle upper shape which leads the eyes up;a column and architrave setup which brings an horizontal aspect;dome tops which emphasizes centralityThe result is your eyes don't know where to go and the whole thing looks like a big blob and doesn't know what it's trying to accomplish. Pure unmastery, at least they tried, I'll give them that
Where to look? Where to listen? Beauty will tell me; curious how beauty makes one feels free, when what it really does is lead you, when it leads your will to want it; but the will sought beauty first, so, it is the will who wins first.
rushdie won
>>25115982Leave of absence from grad school. Burnt out after four and a half years plus alcohol abuse. Department voluntold me essentially.
>>25116516Damn, that sucks. I hope you’re able to rest and recharge and get into a better state of mind during your time off. What are you studying?
>>25116535Thanks anon. I'm a pure mathematician, I lecture as well at times. Reading has been a reinvigorating endeavor, thankfully.
>tfw patrician gf says I have to memorize 100 lines from Pushkin's Eugene Onegin (in Russian!) and recite them to her in the morning or we're doneO_O
>>25116639The fact you haven't already done all that and Notes on Prosody in English is a sign you've clicked the wrong board. Pls go to whatever board has gfs and stay there until you love Pushkin
the US attacked Iran and I find it funny that I know nothing else about this. I think I'm gonna make a conscious effort to not watch, read or hear anything about this matter. There's some kind of bliss when you remain serene amongst people expressing their fake concern and are 'alarmed'
>>25116648>There's some kind of bliss when you remain serene amongst people expressing their fake concern and are 'alarmed'>those caring about launching millions of dollars in missiles at the government of a foreign adversary in hopes of regime change must be faking ityikesI mean hey, you don't wanna care or know, fine by me, neither do my parents, but going further to denouncing anyone who does care and pay attention just makes you a fool
>>25116648>amongst
>>25116130the vp is also elected you dumb booger
>>25116665kek, sounded like a real word to me, so tired writing this
It was my sister's birthday yesterday and the senpai went out for din tonight. We went to a nice, fancy Greek restaurant. So much food, I couldn't help but eat only half the plate and brought the rest home. I got up at like 5pm (lol) so that's been my day so far. We're sitting around the living room having coffee now.
>>25116685Totally forgot you can't say F-A-M on this godforsaken site lmao FUCK!!!!!!
>>25116653>makes you a fooldon't delude yourself, The News is just entertainment, and plenty worse than art of fiction because it involves no intellectual activity, unless you know how to relate events to history. Like really what does a person *get* from the news? Information? Certainly, but is that valuable information? unless you work in an industry more or less related to an event, it doesn't matter for your work. So what do you get? Really, what you get is exercise, an exercise of opinion, you get to share and view detached opinions of others and play with it, and share your own as well, because it's fun, because you enjoy feud, but fun quickly get stale, don't delude yourself that The News is any more serious or practical or useful than that. There is no lesson nor gain to be had in there, nothing more than passion feeding entertainment
>>25116681It's a real word, just needlessly archaic.
>>25116710...you understand what's happening in Iran is happening to actual people, right? And on that geopolitical level, negative consequences are always a possibility.
>>25116719Do you understand that when I pee in the field on an ant colony, *thousands* of ants are being drowned by a catastrophy beyond their comprehension? These are *actual* ants, do you UNDERSTAND??People are happy? good; People are sad? bad; whatever I don't care that much, call me back when their stock market is rising and then are producing good art and good products, good beauty and good philosophy, until then, the news makes me snooze zzzzzz>negative consequences are always a possibilitySo what? Do you prepare for those? If it ever arrives, so what, I'll just deal with market consequences in the moment, the only advantage on me is you'll be able to say "haha, I knew it; I saw it coming", good for you pet boy, but that is no real advantage, keep slurping good good news slop, you'll be well informed, and all the more perfect for it, right? Man, just go read or play games, so that if we meet or you meet someone you aren't such a chore to deal with, such a pessimist, such a soulless husk
So true
>>25116806>english names for a region are in reference to where most english speakers liveStory at 11
Posting on /lit/ on a Sunday night is so comfy, lah.
I can't stop wanting to eat even though I'm full, what is happening...
>>25116835Did you smoke any weed?
>>25116837Nope
>>25116838You probably haven't been taking your metformin.
I'm such a good liar, I really ought to just become a full-fledged conman. Too bad I have morals.
Someone should make a website where you can type in your zip code and it shows ways to get involved in your local primary, and also allows you to connect with everyone in your local area that's right wing. This would be a good way to start local group chats and start making some ethnic solidarity in places where the high trust-ness has left but the need to persist continues because they are still very valuable. E.g. nice parts of NE that aren't Newport tier.I wish I could build this.>>25115921Really comfy photo
>>25116874>Really comfy photoit's from a film Perfect Days by Wenders
Fuck, I just realized I have an appointment at one o'clock tomorrow and my sleep schedule is totally fucked right now. Fuck!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FHI5EPgLieACurrent feel
I'm procrastinating on starting Hyperion. Really not sure why.
Woke up really late today. I think I was on the verge of getting sick yesterday, and I just happened to sleep it off.
My vision keeps getting worse and worse. Please...I can't lose my sight, I can live with my messed up lungs, my stomach, my sinus, my tremor, my shoulder; but not my sight, I can't live without that.
Time to masturbate.
The first King who played the game of King, of chess, was the Persian Pad-Shah Shapur II, who was taught it by his wazir who had invented it. The wazir was the better chess player, but the King was always the winner of the game.The King attained victory by the ingenious device of overturning the chessboard at a crucial point of the game and declaring himself the winner. This showed an imagination of the sort that the wazir did not have; and it was for this reason that Shapur was the King, and the wazir would never be anything but wazir.
>>25116078It has not literary value whatsoever but the visuals are great
In times like this, I really appreciate Celine’s pamphlets.
>>25116160Idle chatter makes me more lonely than being alone
I can do any goddamn thing I want!
>>25116817>far east>to the west of the American West
>>25117155Sure you can, buddy. Nοw here's you're meds
This is not a shitpost. I spent 24 hours trying to approach the world like a woman and it made me want to kill myself. I couldn't think about philosophy, I couldn't play competitive games, I couldn't get hyped up and energetic, I couldn't get laser focused and obsessive. I had to stay focused on my surroundings, giving attention only to what was near. I was calm, composed, easygoing. Eating smaller portions. My skin looked younger and brighter. I tried to masturbate but I couldn't get off, nothing was erotic. Everything felt so shallow and superficial compared to what I'm used to. I cannot imagine wanting to be a woman.
>>25115815I don't know why. But through text you can sense when people use a term they ascribe inherent weight or authority to. People will mention 'the worble' and you will immediately get that they think 'the worble' is automatically impressive and important. Some other times they will invoke it as authoritative; 'the worble', argument over.
>>25117253This only really applies in some few conversations, though. When the thing is mentioned in context, with the pertinent amount of weight, I don't note this.
>>25117239Transexuals wish to emulate a caricature of womanhood present within their own heads based on their perceived knowledge of women as an outside observer; which they wrongly consider to be aligned with reality. You essentially did the same thing. You did not spend 24 hours trying to approach the world like a woman, you spent a day getting into the mindset of a tranny. You just have a very different conception of women.
>>25116337suicide is for cowards
>>25117268I was raised by my mother and sister, and I've always had a feminine side. >you spent a day getting into the mindset of a tranny.Not true at all. Trannies have hobbies like dark souls decompilations, and extreme fetishes which is a masculine thing. Very few of them actually perceive the world like a proper woman does, which is why so few of them have bodies and faces that resemble women. If they actually did live the lifestyle that I described in my post, they would go on to look almost identical to biological women after enough time. It's because they have masculine spirits and personalities that they retain a masculine appearance.
>>25116097The writing is much shallower and the characters devolve into tropes after Conviction. Fortunately, you get a lot of story until that point. It's still /readable/ later, but you'll be acutely aware of the decline. Don't even bother after Miura's death—it's dogshit.
>>25117016Get your b12 and vitamin D levels checked and go to eye doctor
Women be sο hysterical.
I live in Anguish, I have no purpose, deep down. I know what I have to do but I have no thrive, I have no real will, maybe I've choosen the wrong path for my life but I either went a scientific area, like engineering, which I never felt related to, or I took arts and ended in poverty. I can only find confort in family or nature, I've quit drinking and smoking because of my family and I feel like I can only do things for others and never for me. Even with my selfish nature which I so much want to change, I can only change for something external. I've been wondering though, I've, you've, never experienced anything more than us. It's so scary. I live in anguish, or I'm very very dramatic. I'm young, I want to find my direction and not waste my life.
I thought I was born tο be a vampire but it turns out I'm just a thrall.
For some reason media is getting more self-referential over time and somewhat incestuous. It's easy to blame "the masses" for flocking towards such work but I honestly don't know when or why the shift occured where music, the visual arts and literature began just refering to other works as a shortcut for novel explorations of a topic.
>>25117486People feel aimless without community; being a hermit scholar is very difficult and not suitable for most. Btw, studying pure mathematics was extremely spiritually enriching. It's an endless puzzle of axioms and theorems, rooted in questionable epistemology, as everything else. Don't write the sciences (which math is not) off just because most of its students are soulless automatons. There's plenty of beauty and depth in it. At least the pure sciences, assuming you dedicate yourself to that study.
Would yοu murder your date if she read your work then called you a pseud?
>>25117515I murder my dates regardless.
I wish it was the 60s I wish we could be happy
>>25117281You don't have access to, and never will, to the interior experience of women. You have observed women, in fiction and in reality, and come to conclusions regarding their behaviour. Those conclusions are entirely your own, filtered through yourself and your experience of being a man.>and I've always had a feminine side.What does this mean?>Not true at all.I was speaking in a more abstract sense. Regardless, not all trannies are AGP code-slaves. There's multiple kinds of tranny, with their own inner selves.
>>25117605You and I both know, you were never going tο be happy.
Perplexity AI tells me my draft is totally "commercially viable intellectual fiction with cult potential"this tickles my ego so much it makes me wanna try it, even though its probably telling every aspiring wannabe writer that exact phrase
Every skull is a set οf thoughts. These sockets saw and these jaws spoke and swallowed. This is a monument to them. A temple.
Nothing is happening that hasn't been mοst perfectly foretold.
Nick Land became a plan trusting boomer.Social media unmasks so many frauds it's ridiculous.
>>25117735he always trusted the plan doe, thats his entire philosophy. lean back while capitalism and technology do their stuff
>>25117736More like lean back and boomer post on xitter
If my dad discovered that I had fucked a few trannies, he would disinherit me.
>>25117738afaik @outsidedness stopped posting years ago, he has a new shitposting account?
Nothing matters, including the fact that nothing matters. The religiontards were correct all along despite also being wrong about everything.
Memento mori, remember that you must die. Memento amoris, remember that you must lοve.
>>25117741He's @xenocosmography
>>25117741xenocosmography
why do I get e-celeb vibes frοm modern philosophers and their respective fanbases?
Got back from a job interview a couple hours ago. Nearly shit my pants. Explosive shit. Wydrn?
>>25117756>>25117758lmao his posts read like a generic Chudbot AI
>>25117779>Wydrn?Waiting on Uber jeets to arrive.
I hear you got a 6 inch guarantee
For a time, I couldn't believe my parents were retarded, because then, that would have meant I was retarded too. This is, after all, how life works. It was such a difficult knot to untangle. To be a retard, or not be a retard. This affair is now settled: they are retarded and I am retarded. I came to that conclusion early in the morning, after my mother called. She was in tears and babbling about me being a fag. Of course, she preferred to use the more neutral term 'homosexual'. It was a surreal experience and I had to calm her down first, to understand where that was coming from. >'Why would anyone think (You) are a fag? ' you ask, curious.Well, it turns out that retards can forget you are heterosexual even if you had long term girlfriends in the past. And if you are not having sex at least once a month, then you must be a fag. This is must be how the world works now. My father asked me the same thing not too long ago, ponctuated with a few threats here and there because having a faggot son would bring shame upon the family.I am not even surprised, at this point. I mean I knew they were probably retarded, but still. Children develop objects permanence at around 7 months old. My parents are less intelligent than literal babies.
learned ai gents, put down a hypothesis: progressive women in europe welcoming a rapey muslim invasion is not about 'decolonize', so much as it's a semi conscious realization that eligible white boys would rather suck each others dicks than put up with hoeflation. It's a matter of rapey brown dicks are better than no dicks at all.
>>25115815I started reading "The Disabled Tyrant's Beloved Pet Fish" and it's possibly the most adorable thing I've ever read. I have to take breaks because it's so cute I have to calm down.
Am I the only one still making /wg/ threads?
Anyone else feel alone and isolated even when you're surrounded by others?
>>25118114I used to feel like that. It doesn't really go away, but you get used to it, and it doesn't really bother you.
>>25117494Tell me more, they keep turning me down for vampirism
>saying/writing something that has multiple readings, with the ones that are the most scathing being those which are less obviously apparent, allowing the audience to find new appreciation in your worksthis practice we call ‘repartee’, or just ‘wit’>saying/writing that, before passing judgment, an audience must first know the one exact intent of your words, which are typically phrased in a way that their most offensive interpretation are the most immediately clearwhereas this is the domain of ‘internet racism’
>>25118213KEK but it is funny
>>25118221itd be smart for you to learn how not to use pronouns and when.
>>25115815Wjhy does anti-semitism have to be so wrong and stupid all the fucking time. Why?! You have grounds to make good points, informed points, that don't make you look like a rabid retard or stunted zealot. God fucking damn it.
>>25118257youd have to eventually to get the entire message across. by starting with the stupid stuff at least it can look like youre just saving everyone time—— even yourself included
>>25118257I don't know, sometimes I get the feel that are dajooz doing this shit so that they can have some easy strawman example, but then I remember how stupid the average anon is, and stop having funny thoughts.
>>25118274>theyre doing a strawmanyoure doing a strawman
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=szmguXlep9w
>>25118283Not really, I'm stating a fact. This could even be generalized to the rest of the internet. If you think otherwise this says more about yourself than about me. This is something trivial for anyone worth their salt. If you feel like you are average or dumb here, then it says a lot about yourself.
>>25118283>>25118362These anons are desperate to feel like "the smartest guy in the room," but the room they are in is a basement.
>>25118370This is exactly my point. Imagine considering yourself average here.
Why do I have the freedom to pick between 100,000 options in life when only a handful of those choices will lead to happiness?
>>25118265You can probably still do that without committing gross omissions that make you look like a liar.
Just another log tossed on to my funeral pyre
There's never been a single force in my life that has actually pushed me in the right direction. Not my parents, not my friends, not the school system, not the government. 4chan actually came the closest, which is amazing. I don't hate other people but I'm always drained by their presence.
>>25118417I feel you anon. All the best things in my life came from minmaxing each of the boards' culture and applying it to my life and it somehow got me further than the myriad of clashing voices of advice in my life.
>>25118417(You) can push (you) bby but maybe read nietzsche or some buddhism you know?
>>25118417I'm writing something, it will probably change the lives of some anons, but it isn't ready.
>>25118417push something from its current position and it can accomplish this by moving in any direction.pull them from a specific endpoint and they will know which directions to move to reach their goal.
>>25118498And an object which is never pushed nor pulled is never going to move.
>>25118505and?
>>25118507Pushes can come from within.
>>25118511sure man ok, enjoy your intrinsic motivation then or go get it.
>>25118514Intrinsic motivation is a myth, but you can learn to convert almost anything into fuel. Everyone talks about putting yourself into the right environment, but there's a limit with that shit.
i work at a college that has as shitload of muslim students and staff so i thought there would be extreme tds about the war today. not one person mentioned it. it was like it didn't happen, lol.
>>25118417hanging out on hn brainwashed me into getting an mba, maybe the first not stupid thing i've done in my life lol
>>25118417Everyday I thank the internet, I should make a shrine for it. My sincere gratitude to you, the anons of my life
Another dream that presented to me what I desire most: have a girl that desires me, have our legs touching each other in a public space, hold our hands and be close Have you ever had a dream remind you of someone that you had forgotten? I had a dream once that invoked a blonde girl from high school I fell in love for like a week; not a person I talked to either, she was from another class, just a girl I kept seeing. it's kind of crazy how if felt when my subconscious just pulled this girl out of nowhere
A man walks into a zen pizzeria and says>Can you make me one with everything?The pizza maker responds >It's all one alreadyThe man hands over his money and waits for his change and his pizza. The pizza maker hands over the pizza, and the man asks>Hey, where's my change?And the pizza maker responds >Change must come from within
>>25118520the fight is against shiites
pet peeve: I hate when TV shows and movies use old chess notation in dialogue.>rook to bishop fourWhat the fuck is that? You mean Rook to C4? goddamn it>>25118575lol
>>25118520That's what the immense military budget pays more: a level of superiority that the vast majority of citizens don't have to worry about any military global military actions if they don't want to.>>25118535Of course. Something that usually happens for me is if I imagine a certain girl while jacking off one night, 9/10 times one of my dreams that week will feature her, not even necessarily in a sexual way either
Pretty sure I just heard two gunshots and I do not live in a neighborhood were that ever happens. Suspect sirens to be soon.
The other night at my place I heard the following from downstairs:>woman crying, not loudly but in a broken kind of way>same woman sobbing and saying "please please please" desperately over and over>door from neighbor's house opens, older lady comes out and says things that were too low to hear>footsteps towards neighbor's house>door shuts
>>25118644>banal drama
My future wife gave me cake today. Yes, she's my future wife, this is destiny.
>>25118677>i am going to have my cake and eat it too!Don't mean to rain on your parade, you just set it up too perfectly. Best of luck.
>>25118633>Of course. Something that usually happens for me is if I imagine a certain girl while jacking off one night, 9/10 times one of my dreams that week will feature her, not even necessarily in a sexual way eitherthat wοuld explain why my coworker keeps showing up in my dreams, heh
>>25118417For me it was 4chan to a degree, some existential books and self-help books. My parents never really paid much attention to me - I'd debate it was the bare minimum; only to the point of paying for food, education and housing. Not that I'm ungrateful about that, but my personal development has had been something I'd done on my own accord. You can make mock me for using self-help books but when your father ignores you 90% of time growing up, you don't really have a lot of options.
>>25118677It's her job as a cashier to smile and be kind to every customer, anon.
>>25116902>Perfect Days by WendersThanks, I'll look it up
>>25118732>but when your father ignores you 90% of time growing up, you don't really have a lot of options.A lot of the time, it's because he never figured his own shit out. That's how my dad was. Now he's a homeless fent addict. I'm sober at least but my life is basically haunted by some "curse" inherited from my father that I'm still trying to break.
>>25118780What's bred in the bone will come out in the flesh.
I still think 4chan has become a real piece of crap over the last ten years, and it was a mistake to have visited here again after so long.
>>25115815I was reading this auto-biography and was very taken in and interested by its contents. Then out of nowhere this old faggot breaks into a more than twenty page tangent about mid 19th century erotic-romantic poetry he found/made up. Pace slowed down to a crawl, I can't even read a page a day now; I'm a passive prude and too proud to just skip it.
>>251188664chan's been dead for at least a decade. I used to chastise myself like, why are you clinging onto a dead site? But I realized that it doesn't matter. I guess what I mean is, I learned all that this place had to teach me, and now I'm a man. I'm old and capable enough to do what I have to, and if I need any guidance in life, there's the classics. You can read Juvenal and Seneca and they've aged like wine. It's right to be sad that the things which were meaningful to you in adolescence stopped mattering, but that means you've matured, you've outgrown them
>>25118257If I were a running a massive conspiracy to make myself rich and powerful I'd certainly want virtually everyone who is a vocal truther to be a massive retard spamming delusional bullshit on nearly every platform. In order to facilitate this I would make little decentralized networks that are sufficiently well-poisoned on certain contentious issues, meaning that no person of merit takes them seriously. This would also serve a dual purpose of demoralizing those that are approaching the truth and slow the progress towards revealing the truth as these radical networks engage in meaningless purity testing, violence, and parochialism. The larger and more culturally important voices I would work to control directly through a mix of blackmail, media manipulation, and temptation. You might be wondering how I would know to do all this and how I would guarantee its success? That is actually very simple, because I have done it before, in living memory, the last time my hegemony was threatened.
>On June 11, 1927, Coolidge honored Lindbergh for his solo trans-Atlantic flight to Paris. Two news companies raced to be the first to get their priceless footage to the throngs waiting for it in Manhattan. One company sent its film via airplane, but the International News Reel Company chose to send its film by train.>The speedy No. 460 was chosen and with just its fuel tender and a baggage car converted into a traveling darkroom so the film could be developed in transit, the train was off.>That proved to be the key. Though the plane beat the train to New York, its film was undeveloped and had to be sent to a lab. When the No. 460 arrived, the processed film was raced to theaters.https://lancasteronline.com/news/the-little-engine-that-did/article_63c84900-f536-5097-a7de-e97461d32c97.htmlThat's a great story.
>>25119058>I would make little decentralized networks that are sufficiently well-poisoned on certain contentious issues, meaning that no person of merit takes them seriously.This happens, but it's not a significant thing.The reason the right collectively fails to rally around any one thing (like antisemitism), whereas the left can do this consistently, is that everyone has their own personal reason for coming to the right whereas when people adopt leftist ideology it's embraced as a kind of package, like religion. It worked for fascism in the '30s because it functioned as a leftist movement back then, it was new. Antisemitism will never ever win unless it's part of a completely new system that stakes its independence from things like fascism and other failed movements of the past
>>25119100I mean the left has already had this done to them, in fact it is the ideology which I mentioned previously threatened their hegemony in my post. Admittedly it was only really a threat because it was associated with actual state actors like the USSR, but that's neither here nor there.
Born to shit, forced to wipe.
>>25119114There will probably never be a propaganda machine good enough to curtail an authentic social movement. They can prevent a movement from being born at least by muddying up the soil though, which they're absolutely doing now.
I've always wanted to be a blob monster. I don't think many people relate to that.
>>25119132Maybe fat people just have more follow through that you?
Mmm, this bread is delicious. And the circus isn't half bad either.
>>25119149no way. bread is getting more expensive by the day, circus is politically correct and diminishing in quality.time to revolt.
>>25119149The circus in that phrase was originally referring to chariot racing. That was the most popular public entertainment in Rome, much more than gladiators or anything.
Last November I spent a week reading a book halfway, and then other stuff just took precedence thus I placed it on the backburner. Today I finally got back to it and finished the last half in under 3 hours.I really enjoyed it too. To think of all that wasted energy I spent constantly reminding me to finish reading that book. Uncluttering your mind feels good bros. This year of the horse has been great so far.
I was born under a bad sign.
>>25119172Was it a no passing zone sign? because I was born under one of those and it really did not turn out well for me.
I'm gay for Holo the Wisewolf.
i don't know what to write about
>>25119188Write about me.
>>25119191once there was a man from /lit/whose posts were quite full of shithe went to a thread and made a replyone which could better be used as two-ply
Miss her!
>looking for a bodyhorror book>ask the libarian whether its gigeresque or cyberpunk>she doesnt understand>pull out illustrated diagram explaining what is gigeresque and what is cyberpunk>she laughs and says “it’s good bodyhorror sir”>buy the book>its gigeresque
>>25119210Giger is sick, don't shit on Giger!
>>25119172MF Doom is pretty cool, I know
The original version of Bring Me To Life is SO much better than the album version: https://youtu.be/M37euoee3Tc
>>25119226I like Giger, but don't like how overpopulated his style is in the genre. It feels like a knockoff when someone else tries it.
>>25119237Give me some examples please. I can't really imagine how Giger could be replicated on a literary level.
I received a nice copy of Taschen's Giger collection as a gift for my birthday back in January, actually.
>>25119233The Rehearsal made the song better
>>25119248I don't know what you're talking about.
Oh lol. I'm not a shows guy.
>>25119239>I can't really imagine how Giger could be replicated on a literary level.I think that's the issue. A majority of the work I've seen it in just use it as an aesthetic without delving much into it.The Stars Are Legion was one that I wish did more with it but it's a background element for the world. It's an all female world where they are born, live, and die on living ships that gestate them and reuse them later on, but the ships are dying. They really emphasize that it's a symbiotic relationship between them all. That's where it ends. Every bit of technology is written to be a biomechnical or organic component but it's just flavoring for a lesbian space romance that's the actual focus of the story.
>>25119256Clark Ashton Smith's story The Vaults of Yoh-Vombis makes me think of Giger, for some odd reason; because it really isn't the same kind of science fiction. Its being the inspiration for the face-suckers from Alien is probably what does it.
>>25119252https://youtu.be/xBF4E_RESes?si=I99BUuUYjr7mMDGt
>>25119266This shit is so bad it's insane. Is this what passes for good TV these days?
Any 'heads in here? https://youtu.be/Hwj_lADy9xs
>>25119276its le ironic and therefore above criticism
>>25119276>I opened a book at random and started reading, and I got to tell you this shit is so bad it's insane. Is this what passes for good literature these days?
>>25119287>>25119290Total non sequiturs.
>>25119294ur a non sequitur baka baka
Online dating is going absolutely miserable so far. Apparently the only interests the female gender has these days are LGBTQ, George Floyd and climate change, or hiking. I also always see the same exact music taste on every profile, it's like these people are clones. And, without exception, the only ones that actually seem like halfway interesting personalities are not looking for serious relationships. That said, a long time acquaintance of mine is currently breaking up with his girlfriend of 4 (would soon have been 5) years; the girl genuinely thought he's her soulmate and that they'd grow old together. It's like the universe is comforting me, being like: "Hey, look, long time relationships suck too and true love is a scam.". As much as I like her (couldn't care less about his feelings), I still feel some comfort in that.
>>25119310All women with actual interesting personalities are mentally ill, just fyi
We've had an exceptionally warm winter here where I live.
I wish video games were designed to be fun and not, y'know, psychologically addicting skinner's boxes that want all your money and time.>That's manchild shit.Of course you're right, fishing is a lot more respectable. But games keep your mind and reflexes sharp, whereas traditional men's hobbies are a bit zen and dull. I would play tennis with a friend if I could.
>>25119320Some games are fine, it can be a fun recreation. I've been playing the Kingdom Come Deliverance 2 and it's been fun.
>>25119210you look up body horror nowadays and its just a bunch of analog horror shit
>>25119335I don't really even know of any body horror books. Suggest me some?
>>25119342Throat Sprockets by Tim Lucas is a short one I liked recently.
Goddamn it, I love ice cream too much. Finally bought a quart of coffee ice cream after abstaining for a few months, and I can't stop eating it, I've had three bowls today alone!
>>25119352>coffee ice creamthere's your problem, anon. you got a good flavor.
Speaking of coffee, it's late-nite coffeetime right here, right now. >>25119354>Coffee tastes good?Yes.
Took a nap because I was sleepy and I ended up feeling worse.
i took a nap at 8 pm last night and predictably i woke up at 3 am
>>25119368What did you expect?
>>25119406didn't he get kidnapped or something?
My mom is on vacation at some tropical destination, and texted me how there's a lot of young people there on spring break, followed by "Young guys wanna try out older women xd" -- this isn't gonna end with my mother having a one-night stand with some 20 year old punk, is it? Oh god...
>>25119427God I hope so.
>>25119438Hey, stay away!
The problem with eating shwarama is that you wanna eat more of it after you're done.
>>25119201This phenotype is sο hot
My gf is going through a depressive episode and she's taken most of my xannies. Not sure how tο ask the doc for more.
>>25119483Tell that to the doctor. Ask for advice. He will give you more.
im nothing
>>25119515Hi nothing, I'm dad!
>>25119517dont remind me
>>25119515im unclean, a libertine, and, every time you vent your spleen, i seem to lose the power of speech, you're slipping slowly from reach, you grow me like an evergreen, you've never seen the lonely me at all
>>25118114skill issue
>>25119427Someone's getting a new stepdad
I'm beginning to think tgat pussy is the #1 restorer οf empathy. I've seen a lot of chuds (including myself) definitively change their stances on issues after obtaining a gf.
>>25119515I FUCKED MYSELF AWAYNOW I'M NOTHING!
>>25116052You shouldn’t, but you’re fundamentally lying to yourself because the only way to conceive of this thought is to possess the conflict of caring for a world you feel rejected by. Life, or at least your life, is a vortex birthed by the contradiction between how you see the world versus how it really is. It’s something I relate to and causes a great deal of personal frustration, but in the end, it’s something that should probably be accepted as a part of us.
It's good to be in something from the ground floor. I came too late for that and I know. But lately, I'm getting the feeling that I came in at the end. The best is over.
>>25119599Simply build something up from the ground floor yourself
Have we entered a post-truth society? And if we have, is it solely because of AI-powered propaganda machines?Honestly I think post-truth took root the very moment the general public was tοld to "trust the science" and not question authority (which was long before covid).
>>25119635If you'd read your Greeks you'd know civilized society has been dealing with sophists since people could speak
A 10yo girl at the school i work at killed her self, the only why i can think of is her parents were raping her.
>>25119661I fail to see how sophism is related to post-truth.
A lot of history's great figures were borderline asexual (though many were also hypersexual). As someone who's kinda asexual myself, I find this interesting. I say "kinda" because while I jerk off 2-4x every day, I have no actual desire for a girlfriend and have never tried to get one. Though, on rare occasions when I look at beautiful women there is this twinge of unhappiness and frustration inside because I notice I'm attracted to them, I want to date them, I want them to myself, and I get angry. I suppress this feeling because I hate that they have this control over me. And I hate that so long as a girl is beautiful and desirable to me, then she's also desirable to countless other men whom you'll always have to worry about. Naked women show up in my dreams sometimes, but I never make a move on them. I don't even touch them. I hardly look at them.If I could explain it, it's like, understanding all too well what kind of business this love and romance stuff is, and being so firmly against it at such a young age that as an adult it's simply nothing to you. I just always thought it was terrible
>>25119635This guy is a moron. Truth does change if a lot of people believe something or not. If a lot of people believe something, then it's true that a lot of people believe something. And if they don't, then it's true that they don't believe something. What is true changed.
Jew fatigue.
>>25119756all of 4chan believed this color is bluebut it is yellowis the color blue or yellow, to you
I love vocabulary, whether it's for looking at architecture, bird watching, rock watching, tree watching, movie watching, simply being able to name specific things unlocks previously unattainable thoughts.If you enjoy a topic, learn the parts, learn to name them, and follow the path to decipher how a whole comes together through those parts. The more you can name, the more you can see.
When considering things and their beauty, there’s always two elements that can please us: the idea and the aspect. When leftists embrace ugly architecture it is because everything beautiful in aspect, by idea, they associate with power structures, oppression, class dominance. So, for instance, they reject Gothic or Roman forms outright not on the base of forms, but only on the base of ideas; by always thinking of the people who made those forms emerge. This modern popular mind thinks too much and makes for a poorer appreciator of art, it dwells so much in ideas that it cannot detach the author, or the society contextual to a piece, indeed it always comes back to this: it never knows how to enjoy things in loneliness, as a solitary, self-sufficient action
>>25119635>”fake news”
>>25119664:OIt's possible she was getting bullied. RIP. I could have saved her...
>>25119818I would have adopted her and raised her and homeschooled her.
>>25119818doing what, beating up a bunch of 5th graders?
>>25119767There is no color. It's an illusions.
>>25119839are you sick in the fucking head?what does her being molested at home have to do with taking her out of the school system?
>>25119840
>>25119666They are called lawyers and PR consultants.
>>25119843The guy I replied to said she could've been getting bullied. Are you okay?
When yοu really think about it, the only people vehemently against workplace relationships are also the worst people imaginable:>HR jannies whose worldview revolves around employees working their ass off 110% of the time>Girl Boss alpha bitches who got their positions by sucking dick and want to pull up the ladder >incels who believe that having any interaction with the opposite sex could have them castrated, branded, and sent to the nearest workcamp So go for it, anon. Ask out that chubby goth girl with the big tits and tight slacks.
>start part time job a few months ago>enjoy it and make decent money>family keeps throwing random low paying job listings at me because they're full time
Very difficult situation at home...Mom has a new boyfriend coming by, and I suddenly find myself bothered. I mostly stay inside the room or leave the house when he's around.I don't mind appearing extra autistic, but they inevitably get the impression I don't support the relationship.Truth is I couldn't be happier with it. I'm leaving to be with my gf later this year, and the fact mom wouldn't be alone is comforting. The guy is just... huge. Deep voice, biker gang member aesthetic.I guess it just plays on some deep-seated trauma about me not being a proper man, y'know. Having this archetype walking around my "safe haven" is just very taxing.Sucks that for everyone else it just looks like I'm unhappy about sharing my mom's attention, lol.Horrible.
>>25119912you should make it clear that you like the guy and hope it all works out. you don't have to outright say that but just show some interest in them and explain to your mom that even with you being cool with it, it's just a little odd to have a new guy around and you gotta warm up. it'll clear her mind of it while also excusing your shyness.
>>25119907If you aren't working every waking hour, you're "wasting your life!!!" according to many.>>25119896Most of the girls I've dated and slept with I met through work.
I've got back-tο-back hour long meetings and feel like I'm gonna shit my brains out
>>25119912massive cuckery.
>>25119929Thats why i wfh and only have a 10 min daily in the morningyou gotta step it up
I would rather have gone to see the Pelé's movie.
>>25119912Why not have a one-on-one conversation with your mother and tell her all that? It would really mean a lot to her.
I can't sleep.
>>25120028What did you see?
>>25120049>t.
>>25119912son believe me—— just being this conscious of the social dynamics at play here puts you SO FAR into the green, id be genuinely surprised if you dont navigate your way to a positive, amicable resolution.cosigning these two posts >>25119912, >>25120033 and suggesting you watch ‘Baby Boy’ if youd like to see how much worse the situation could actually be.
>>25119666Because you haven't read your Greeks
sheit, had meant THESE 2: >>25119916, >>25120033 but then misclicked
>>25116125The person who most deserves to be president of the USA is Jesse Ventura.
>>25120105I prefer Jenna Renée, personally.
note to self: I WILL use 'insinuate' and 'intimate' (the verb) each in a sentence this week
It’s time to wake up to reality. There is a massive disconnect between institutional activism, specifically within the feminist movement and government ministries, and the world as it actually exists. You talk about parents needing to take responsibility for their children’s social media consumption, yet you ignore the fact that the public image of your own movement is in ruins. If you stepped out of your bubble for five minutes, you’d see that most parents today shut their ears the moment they hear the word 'feminism.'Instead of asking why 'Redpill' content and radical manosphere influencers are going viral, your only solution is to demand bans. You have immense institutional power: a government ministry with a budget of hundreds of millions and lawmakers with access to massive public grants. Yet, there isn't a single campaign effectively countering these trends. There are no memes, no cultural relevance, and zero presence in the digital spaces where young people actually spend their time.The strategy of trying to co-opt people through moral superiority and fear isn't working. You’re at a crossroads: do you want to be 'right' inside your echo chamber, or do you want practical results? It is easy to constantly demand accountability from men, but it’s much harder to hold yourselves accountable for spending the most money while delivering the fewest results.Preaching and giving sermons only leads to people tuning you out. You need to understand that you’ve already lost the older generation. It’s time to start doing damage control and rethink your entire approach. Think about the world you are leaving for your own daughters and granddaughters. If the current trajectory continues, what kind of future are they actually going to inherit?
At 31, I think I'm actually at the peak of my attractiveness. But I know it won't last, before I know it I'll be an old man and will no longer be able to chat up and sleep with 18-25 year olds with impunity. For all my life I'm been a sexual conservative. No one-night-stands, no sleeping with a girl I don't have feelings for, no sleeping with a girl I don't plan on being serious with. However, with my situation, with clockticking on my peak, I'm tempted to take full advantage, and embrace full promiscuity. I don't wanna have any regrets. Plus I know many young guys would kill to have my looks, so if I waste it, I'd be doing them all a disservice. It's just not who I am. I know most guys, even most here, probably thinking about fucking every chick they can, any opportunity they can, but I've never been about that. I've had attractive girls invite me over, rub my back, throwing themselves all over me, yet if I didn't see it becoming serious, I didn't escalate. It won't be easy to make that kind of radical shift. However, I'm thinking I must. I must while I can.
>>25120235Just get someone that you like and build something meaningful with her. Don't waste your time, anon. It doesn't really matter to have sex with people that you don't really care, it is like masturbating, don't you understand that?
>>25120240Like I said, I personally completely agree. What I worry about is the opportunity cost. This is not only my best chance at sleeping with tons of beautiful women, but perhaps my last chance. So there's the anxiety of losing the opportunity without taking advantage of it. I don't wanna wake up in ten years, happily married, going "man, I shoulda' slept with more girls when I had the chance".
>>25119311Mentally ill girls are the only ones I've ever known. I just want something, anything that's not fat.
>>25120242Yes, you should do it, but what I'm telling you is to not waste your time, and specially don't fuck up, anon. If you find someone that is worth it, don't waste your chance (this opportunity cost thing goes both ways).
>>25119635>post-truthCould also mean the time when society came into contact with truth, which has always been the case. Giordano Bruno was a martyr of truth at the hands of the Church.
>>25120251That's a good point. If the next girl I get into a relationship with turns out to be the one, believe me, I won't hesitate because "I've got more whoring around to do!"
>>25120258I think that it takes a divorce for a lot of people to understand this. Both man and woman end up giving up on things to be together, and that is ok, if it is what you want, but you have to leave them behind.
>>25120249I love fat girls. You're missing out.
I feel so unloved, I need a . . Loli in my life
>>25119756This is the most retardedly pedantic post I've ever read on this godforsaken website
>>25120235not just to embrace midlife by desperately seeking hookups with teenagers, but to dramatize it as this vile philanthropy too?will be dropping a line direct to god tonight praying you see zero pussy from this. freak xunt
>>25120394>will be dropping a line direct to god tonight praying you see zero pussy from this.NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
>>25120394based
I am concerned my obsessive love will never fade. Oneitis seems sickeningly terminal. I feel thirteen all over again, seventeen years later. Access to other pussy does nothing to dampen it.
>>25120449Why can't you be with your oneitis?
>>25120449are you saying you're hung up on a girl you knew at 13?
>>25120463It's a long story, but we were together and planned our lives together at one point, it's not the pure, fantasy-style limerance.>>25120496No, but she (girl from age 13) did take years to get over. To this day even, her face still gives me a shock of memory when I see it. I meant that the feeling is directly comparable. Previously, I thought I'd matured and gotten over that kind of attachment to someone. I had other quite normal relationships that lasted some years, but then that level of attachment came back much stronger down the line with far worse sequelae. I'm just BAWWing right now though.
I got permbanned from Grok.
>>25120542how
time for a new>>25120601>>25120601>>25120601brunnhilde edition
>>25120449Seek help. Women are not worth all the mental space.
