Everytime I go outside, I can't stop looking at chicks and when they don't look back at me or look at me with disgust' my self-esteem gets crushed again. It happens at least ten times a day and I can't stand going outside anymore. Sometimes, after a really shitty day I watch scat porn and imagine these girls despising me using me as a fucking toilet because that's my only worth. It's pure torture for me.Any books/authors about that?
Realize they are externals by reading pic, then move on to gospels. Then join the catholic church, and start going to confession weekly. That was the path I took at least.
