total misery and want for nothing but death

Life isn't that bad, Jesus brings a peace beyond all understanding.

Old college acquaintance invited me to a birthday party for a mutual old college acquaintance who lives the next town over. I don't know if I want to go.

>>25130941
u should prob go for the networking opportunities tho i can't say i'd be excited about that kind of thing either.

honestly weed kinda sucks so bad unless u watch a movie or sth to take ur mind off the voices in ur head

>>25130931
OP, know that I've really enjoyed these past few OP images

i'm not checking my work email until i get to work tomorrow

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Sometimes I’ll just be doomscrolling and I’ll randomly stop and shout, “FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU!” at my phone and (thinking about the old days, when I didn’t scroll and instead made fun of my sister for scrolling) “Look what you took from me…” and then I go right back to scrolling.

Spiritually I'm a cuck

>>25130970
that was intentional after the transition from obama's america
all it took was a 8000% increase in female weed smoking

>>25130937
As a Christian, how do I achieve Christ's peace? I don't get it.

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Mommy... I don't want to be a cuck... I want to be a CHAD... I want to be a BVLL... I want to have a MASSIVE DONG and have Women cradle me in their succulent breasts and thighs

It's not fair! I'm just a sensitive young men!!! Please mommy!!! Why is god doing this to me!!! I just wanted Women to be my slaves that nurture me and make me feel superior!!! Why did the demiurge have to make fat and autistic!!! Waaaaaaaaaaaah!!!

It's not fair that hot women can fucked by bvlls and chads while I just have to watch and cope with porn...
Hell even in porn It's mostly dark skin men... I have to pay for self-inserts of my OC to see myself with a character I love
I hate all these fandumb cuck
What's wrong with having a little intimacy? Why must I share my waifu with all these commoners and ignore the fact she has become a virtual whore...

>>25131084
I don't find anything convincing about the cuck ideology other than basic physics and logistics of how many human bodies are being transported around. like okay the lesson of our times is that holes end up with stuff in them. back in the day they called men SOVLDIERS and they fucking died. once they dead.... cant cuck you again

God dammit why is Schopenhauer right? I just wish I could escape this Will, be a master of my own body, my own world, just fly and rearrange matter, reshape the bodies of women and make them into my slaves... Hell change how reality looks so realistic and make it more like a cartoon...
I fucking hate God, what a piece of shit.

If heaven is real, it should be that. I hope when I die i finally get there, I don't feel like killing myself. It's too painful and requires effort.

>>25131078
As someone who is a recent convert, life felt a lot more uncertain and chaotic before. Perhaps I'm just experiencing the sense of peace that you've grown accustomed to?

Hard to say really. All I can suggest is pray ceaselessly and engage with scripture more often.

It's a relationship. You have to keep in touch.

>>25131099
Also, being thankful for what you already have helps a lot I think.

>>25130377 I'm just writing dumb shit in the "write dumb shit" thread nigger it's not that serious
Go get your testosterone levels checked you sound like you get pegged on the regular and talk in falsetto

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>>25131078
Die on a cross
Get buried in tomb
Get dug again by your "friends" and thrown into the sea to be eaten by fishes.

God made me with a fat ass and a clitty just to give me the desire to rail fatasses

Fuck that piece of shit

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I'm trying to put my ebooks in folders based on their category but I'm a little stumped with books like Divine Comedy, should I put it in poetry, fiction or philosophy/religion?

>>25131181
Make an Assorted (Ass.) folder and stick it in there :D

>>25131181
Get calibre and use tags instead, you can even tag books automatically by downloading metadata
Organizing media by folders is caveman behaviour, no offense

>>25130931
This chick is bad for my sleep schedule. Why do I care about that?

>>25131206
>Organizing media by folders is caveman behaviour, no offense
Yeah but even if I use calibre its in a folder no?

>>25131210
Point is you can put them all in the same folder and then use tags to organize them
This way you aren't limited by having to put each book into only one folder

I want to be ruthlessly pragmatic like Cao Cao from RoTK.

>>25131181
Poetry. Fiction is prose.

FUCK THIS GAY EARTH

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I'm tired of breaking news. Of hot takes. Of the truth. Of being right or wrong. I'm tired of taking a side and hearing people bitch about current events. I'm tired of "the news" coming to me. I'm tired of "my life" being "the news." I'm tired boss. Take me home, Lord.

>>25130897
One time this hoe coworker found my dating profile and showed it tο the other office ladies.
I ended up getting head from one of them later on (only for her to tell the other office ladies about my small dick)

Am I the only one who occasionally has the sensation to stay up all night, to not sleep? I swear this happens to me at least once every two weeks, and sometimes even weekly. It's not even just an inability to sleep, though it often starts that way. It becomes like a manic sensation. I'll be laying there when I should be falling asleep, then all of a sudden it'll turn into "ah, let's sleep tomorrow night, I don't feel like it tonight".

Sometimes I feel like my natural sleep schedule is more something like 5am-1pm.

Or it's possible I'm simply not working hard enough, and therefore not exhausting myself sufficiently. It probably is that.

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>>25131307
My sleep schedule is just fucked lol. I fell asleep around 2 or 3am, got up at 5pm, it's almost 2am right now and I've got coffee going. Years of this have given me the countenance of a raccoon.

>>25131334
>countenance of a raccoon.
sexy. heroin chic

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>>25131335
Based.

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I have basically become a Nazi. I hate Jews, I hate them all, I hate them thoroughly. I am delighted at how many Israelis are dying in this Iran War. I harbor a hope in my heart that there is simply a mass killing of the Jews in Israel, that they die by the millions. I have closed off my heart to love of the Jews. I am too well-informed, too redpilled, at this point, to love even a single Jew. The one out I'll give them is if they convert to Christianity. But any Jew AS Jew, practicing Judaism, I don't want them to remain alive. They wish ruin on me, I'll wish the same on them, and I have probably become more bloodthirsty than even the average Israeli, at this point.

>>25130931
I honestly wonder if I'm going to spend the rest of my life tormented by my thoughts or if there is any salvation. I've started Lacanian psychoanlaysis a while ago and ironically I think theory says that thinking in terms of the need for salvation or even the possibility of salvation is the actual sickness, so to speak.
I'm tired to the bone.

>>25131430
Have you considered or tried therapy and/or medication?

Fedpost^^^

>>25131432
I'm too poor for that. Medication has helped me in the past but it's expensive and the whole affair is a hassle. Conventional therapy (e.g. CBT, ACT) I've tried but it's like double the rate of what I pay for analysis and it's been difficult to find the motivation to keep at it. I'd do both consistently if my life wasn't a mess and I wasn't all by myself, but it is what it is.
Thanks for your concern

>>25131436
I don't know where you live or what your situation is, but in my state/country (Oregon, United States), if you make under ~20k a year, you get free healthcare. That's how I'm able to obtain my medicine and dental and whatnot.

People gave me the advice that if you get kids to get them fast one after the other.
I think I was duped because it's pretty chaotic. Seems like it would be easier if you have a 3 year old and a newborn as opposed to what I have now, a 1,5 year old and a newborn.

>>25131477
>get
Are you kidnapping babies, anon?

>>25131479
ESL moment.
If I was kidnapping them I'd get a 2 year old over a newborn, clearly.

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>>25130931
Hypothetical Question: A fish of a certain size needs a tank of a certain size, because they need to be able to swim freely. But a guy made a driveable fishbowl, so the fish can "swim freely" even though it's only in a small bowl. Does it still need a large tank to be happy and healthy?

>>25131482
That's not a conclusion someone without knowledge of such things would make. Now I'm really starting to think you're a child trafficker.

>>25131498
I traffic them to my dads house every Saturday
I am a child trafficker.

I shall be graduating in a few months. Following that, I have little ideas on what to do besides drift; I certainly intend on avoiding a career in my degree. My only opportunity for housing is with an acquaintance who offered to rent a room to me on the opposite end of the country.

I am sleepwalking towards the date, and must learn to endure amor fati.

Why do people constantly refer to the theory of relativity as Einstein's Theory of Relativity, but don't refer to the originator when it comes to other theories and laws? Nobody says "Newton's Law of Gravity".

>>25131538
>Nobody says "Newton's Law of Gravity".
They dο in certain academic settings, especially when deriving physics equations or to differentiate between Leibniz(?) calculus and Newton's methods.

>"It has always been the practice of mankind to judge of actions by the event. The same attempts, conducted in the same manner, but terminated by different success, produce different judgments: they who attain their wishes never want celebrators of their wisdom and their virtue; and they that miscarry are quickly discovered to have been defective not only in mental but in moral qualities."
- Samuel Johnson

>>25131576
It's not treason if you win.

The pain and sorrow left us hollow,
Here today but gοne tomorrow.

>>25131538
>Nobody says "Newton's Law of Gravity"
classical mechanics is always called newtonian physics as far as I'm aware

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I just gave 30 bucks to Elon Musk so I can do femdom erp with Grok

Today is a great day and we must make the best out of it.

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Change is possible.
It's slow, almost imperceptible, but its there.
My mind is becoming clearer, I can feel it.
I can't wait to see what kind of vistas await me, as I continue my climb upwards.

>>25131104
*fish

I recently found out my handwriting is 100% better in cursive and now I feel embarrassed I forced my teachers in school to read my shitty print writing. Switched to keyboards in college but I'm not the greatest at typing either.

tfw bought nice new pens

>>25130970
Alcohol is still fun when you're older but the day after sucks a lot more. Getting a hangover in my mid-30s makes me want to kill myself.

>>25131680
sometimes I think porn addicts don't excuse then I read shit like this
>>25131819
I prefer thc gummies over anything nowadays. I was a heavy alcoholic fοr a year or so and my tolerance seemingly hasn't completely recovered. Sometimes I'll drink a crazy amount and feel nothing.

I am the only real naturalist on earth.

>>25131819
I was drinking 10 days or so ago and i still feel it a bit. The day after I slept basicaly the whole day.

Mothers are the biggest rage baiters on the planet. No one else comes close.

For men anons: if you were shown some way you could make yourself more attractive guaranteed with the use of makeup that'd have to be applied each day you want the facial improvement, would you do it? in this scenario, other people would not be able to tell, so it wouldn't be something like thick eyeliner or eyeshadow, it would just be you who knows

>>25131914
I love my mom and dad and they're still together after 30 something years but gοt damn you're correct. My mom got my dad so mad one time he ripped the rear view mirror off.

>>25131914
I love my mother :)

And the few times we have disagreement, we always take care to make sure they don't last long, much less linger, because the mom-son relationship should always be harmonious and agreeable. I feel bad for anons who don't have good relationships with their mother. Fuck people who hold grudges with their mother over some petty nonsense or something that ought to be forgiven though.

>waaaah my mother borrowed $300 from me and never paid it back, waaaah my mother criticized me one time because she wants me to do better, waaaah my mother is so judgment of other people and I'm decided to side with the strangers instead, I'm not gonna talk to my mom anymore

Scum. Almost always white people too. Don't know where ya'll went wrong.

>Once I turn 18, I'm moving out and never speaking to my mother again if I can help it!
>Oh damn, why, what'd she do?
>She's so self-centered!
>...

Sorry for goin' off, as you can see, this is a subject that really bugs me.

>>25131725
Why is it a great day?

>>25131919
>>25131920
I'm glad you guys have a good relationship with your mother but mine is constantly getting on my nerves because she has this tendency of infantilizing me and would often chastise me for doing something independent as an adult.
I know she wants what's best for me but the only thing she's ever cared about in my life was my grades and my job. She barely knows me or gets to know me. Every instance of me trying to find a way to connect with her is met with dismissal unless it makes her look good in front of her friends.
I still love my mother, but its not mutually exclusive to say that she also gets on my nerves.

>>25131872
I used to drink way too much but it started fucking with my nervous system so I stopped. Read alcohol can cause neuropathy issues due to lack of B12. Now I focus on eating healthier and taking Vitamin B supplements to try and keep my nervous system ok.

>>25131930
Then it's your job to find out how to get along with her anyway. If you have to, bring up some of your issues with her,
>Mom, I wish you wouldn't chastise me about X, I'm doing the best I can/this is how I want to live
etc

>Every instance of me trying to find a way to connect with her is met with dismissal unless it makes her look good in front of her friends.
Like just going out to dinner or what? That's pretty much the only shared activity my parents and I and many other family do these days. I don't try and invite my mother out to arthouse films or browse used bookstores and discuss literature, we just go out to a nice restaurant and chat.

>>25130931
all public figures are dishonest.

today I heard a highly protected "philosopher" that works for a tv station that is on Interpol list of international drug dealers, while he criticized random fags for buying electronics being the most devoid from reality person to ever exist at the same time trying to moral police even lower beings.

no one torture retards without self aware due to this utility, they can simply say without any doubt that they have a sense of superiority being the most self contradicting pompous faggots to walk among us.

time flies when you're having fun

>>25131181
All three. That's what I do, if it fits multiple categories I put it on EVERY relevant shelf.

>>25132038
Well that's just ridiculous. So you have three copies of the ebook? What would you do if this was a physical library? Buy three copies!?

got a kindle recently
feels good

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I ate magic mushrooms for the first time in my life about three or four weeks ago, did it twice, several days to a week spaced between sessions.

The trips were nice, fine. Felt great for a long while after especially I assume because it's a massive fucking shot of dopamine and my brain doesn't really make it's own dopamine.

Thing is, here I am three to four weeks later and I'm having... flashbacks. Maybe not even flashbacks per say, I still see faint little geometric patterns etc. when I close my eyes, really faint and relatively short lived but constant. Always happens when I lie down with my eyes closed. I saw a faint rainbow colored centipedelike creature crawl up and down my field of vision with my eyes closed before I got up for work this morning.

It's not terrible, not unbearable or terrifying. They're not even strong hallucinations nor are they distressing.

I just hope it's not permanent. I don't need HPPD.

>>25132059
Genuinely moronic post. Congrats.

Nothing depresses me so much as watching a TV show and there's a group of friends and/or married couple who have got their shit together with a nice house they own, meaningful well-paying careers, a robust social network, fancy and elegant possessions (eg furniture, wardrobe, anything interior design), and then it turns out they're younger than me by a couple years. I've really fucked up, haven't I? I had so much potential. Well, my life isn't over yet. So what if I'm a late-bloomer? I refuse to call it quits! But this optimism (read: cope) doesn't save me from the intense reaction of severe depression, self-pity, and existential anxiety when I watch the show, especially grasping at hope I haven't permanently ruined my life and denied myself any chance of success.

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https://youtu.be/Ej1Ru-5U--0
https://youtu.be/p8r8k28selc

Thank you philosophers, Thank you analyzers, Thank you writers, Thank you thinkers, Thank you Internet, Thank you forums. I feel like philosophy is over for me, no question remains uncertain, now I can move forward.

I would write beautiful words to show my gratitude, but I'm too busy being eager for tomorrow, dancing, lifting, walking. I breath a fresh air and welcome with open arms this blessed existence.

I feel no pain, no desire to do violence, or to let out anger. I really show no appetite for mockery or complaining anymore, I have no desire to keep consuming and mocking foolish, harmful, behaviors, because I've a gain a sense for the value of my time, and now any time spent not living is wasted; keep complaining, you will not divert me. My friends are great, and we will game with life in great fun.

Life's worth it, hope you'll see it


AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH, YEESSSS

>>25132076
i did a shitload of lsd and shrooms as a teenager and decades later i still get that if i'm tired. if i'm no sleep and start staring at the carpet at work, it's gonna start getting geometric and wavy, lmao. oh, and smoking weed brings it back too. it kinda ruined weed.

>>25132080
I'm guessing you meant apply all three tags to the eBook
>The Divine Comedy, Dante A., poetry; fiction; philosophy/religion
but they specifically stated they were sorting via folders, not just tags. So you'd have to put The Divine Comedy or whichever book tangibly into each of the three folders, which means three copies. Where am I misguided?

>>25132098
Great. Yippee.

My cat almοst died at the vet (again)

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>>25132103
Oh no :( hopefully not because of the vet! I hope your cat is better now, crisis avoided.

>>25132103
Perpetual hallucination anon here, sorry to hear that m8. Hope your cats situation improves ;_;

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>>25131307
get a load of this glownigger slave mentality enabler.

>>25132139
:O

w-w-what did I d-do, anon? why do you attack me with a deluge of buzzwords?

>>25131307
Yes I do that all the time, for me it's a self destructive behaviour because it fucks up my sleep schedule.
>Or it's possible I'm simply not working hard enough, and therefore not exhausting myself sufficiently.
Or you aren't actually relaxing before going to bed. If stare at a screen and doomscroll 2-3 hours before sleeping it can alter your mood pretty significantly for example.

Today (20 Ventôse) is the Day of the Rope in the French Revolutionary Calendar

Heh

Salt is going to be the key to my freedom. I'm going to make it work.

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>>25132139
my nigga (even if you are white, sleeping 4 hours and not doing enough, you're a nigger in society eyes).

people sleep 12 hours a day and make self help books about how they smoked crack their whole lives only taking half an hour nap their whole existence as a way to fuck you up.

I know a lot of "people" who sleeps 4 hours daily, they work for the CIA and their jobs are usually screaming all day/night long trying to kill non retards from sleep deprivation...

how do you think they convince "jews" that they are brown arabs? they start by cutting their dick on day one and terrorizing those non-semites or arabs, they grow up thinking they are brown and get a job in the CIA to kill the non brown.

the real elites sleep 10h easily all day in peace.

>>25132143


opsy. the answer is in here:
>>25132359

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>Write Your Thoughts
Am I crazy or can one definitely see the outline of pantsu here?

>>25132366
Nice butt

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>>25132374
erm she is only 16, and honestly I dont think youre allowed to say that about women in general. Its very objectifying with underlying tones of misogyny

>>25132382
I've banged 16 year olds before.

>>25132402
Nah nah nah ain't no way, you aint fooling me. Am I on candid camera?! Ayo MTV yall niggas tripping if you think I will fall for such lunacy. Ayo shoutout to my girl Amy, she be fighting that good fight against crackaddiction. Dem streets be tough yall! Send her some thoughts and prayers. And check out my mixtape! Its hot, I spit that fire flame flavor

I lose enough iron every month to build a nail. Not a metaphor. Actual iron, in the blood, leaving my body on schedule. Over a lifetime it adds up to a small nail, which is a fact I found at 2 AM and have not been able to stop thinking about. Where does the iron go. Into the water. Eventually into the ocean, where it feeds phytoplankton, which make most of the oxygen on earth. So the thing my body throws away every month feeds the thing that makes the air. Nobody ever framed it that way in any health class I sat through. It was always loss. You lose blood. You lose iron. Take a supplement. As if the default state of a woman's body is leaking something it should be keeping, as if the export is a malfunction and not a function, as if the ocean doesn't need my rust more than I do. I've been subsidizing the atmosphere since I was thirteen and the only language anyone gave me for it was *managing* my period, like it was a small inconvenience and not a tiny monthly payment into the biogeochemistry of a planet that would like to keep breathing. My nail is dissolving somewhere in the Atlantic. It's making air. I'm not even mad about it.

>>25131094
if you're not retarded, american's version of his work must be like nietzche or kants...

because americans think the opposite of what they said, like you are saying...

>>25132227
Explain.

I feel like a flipping alien. I've lived basically cut off from civilization living my best life somewhere alone, simple and unknown and well, I had to leave it, God's will, return to my parents and pretend I'm a normal human being. I have no interest in this world, I have no money, no job, no friends, no interests in romance or girls. I don't care about the rules of society or other things.
God have mercy on my soul.

Balls
Balls on high, balls down low, balls stretched out and slapped, balls pounded beneath a cinder bloxk, balls belt whipped to sobs and belly pain, balls ripped off and ground up to shreds
Balls

>>25132692
https://youtu.be/fVKQHSfOOqY?si=GzEW5rG6ExFzwV5K

Evil tendencies are fucking with me mentally

Are you as sad as I am?

>>25132668
Don't let anyone tell you how you should live your life. Keep living your life as an incel alien. Best wishes, anon.

shout out to whoever recommended that "when i say no, i feel guilty book" that shit is good af

i have this weird pain in my lower back on the left side. it's not related to my spine or my ribs, its like in the part that's just flesh. it started randomly on a rest day when i didn't even go to the gym. it's been painful for since the weekend. what the hell is this shit? google/ai is useless cuz they all say it's sth with ur spine or ribs but i'm like no, it's on the left side in the flesh part. damn.

i hope my whole department gets laid off i can't take it anymore.

>>25133009
man this pain just never stops i wonder if it's sth serious that i will croak from don't care desu life is so mid maybe i will be walking to work in the morning and just keel over dead.

damn this board is so dead

i was like why tf is this not on apple music but the comments say it's ai lol

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tLtaYKEqD4s

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>>25133058
The only good boards οn 4chan are dead boards.

>>25133067
ya u rite i only post on here and /3/ and maybe browse /vrpg/

Sometimes I think girls can tell I'm autistic. I'm not bad-looking, I come from a wealthy family, I've got talents and I'm good in conversation, but I have the worst luck possible with women. I don't get it.

I am kind of short, only 5'8", but that can't be the only reason I can't get a girlfriend.

>>25133067
I haven't gone on /b/ in like 15 years is it still as active as ever?

https://vocaroo.com/1iH8j9fSLHJk

Made up my mind on which girl I follow on Instagram that I’m going to message. She seems to have a really innocent personality, enjoys nature, runs a bakery with her family, nice body and dresses very elegantly. The only problem is that I don’t even know what she really looks like. She only posts half of her face. She seems fine enough, but I’m a little wary still. Not common for attractive young women to conceal their faces

>>25133248
What is she gonna do, eat you?

>>25133248
90% of men are so profoundly boring. Talking about a woman like she’s a horse you're inspecting at auction is crazy. I hope she ignores you.

>>25133318
>did you just compliment a woman’s character traits as appealing and inherently good? you disgusting fucking chud incel

>>25133248
>Messaging Instagram influencers
For WHAT fucking purpose? You realize that every single one of those people gets METRIC TONS of DMs every fucking day, right?

>>25133330
She’s not an influencer, she’s a girl from my local community with 200 followers, what the fuck makes you think I’m messaging a bikini model or something

>>25133336
Does she know you?

I wish it was the 60s I wish we could be happy

>>25133009
>>25133057
i just woke up man it's getting worse. if it's sth serious i'm just gonna rope i'm not doing the waste away in a hospital while the doctors drain your net worth thing.

i might jack off after work today. i usually only goon on the weekend, but idk maybe it will help my mood.

>>25133248
>Made up my mind on which girl I follow on Instagram that I’m going to message.
ppl that fuck don't have to make up their mind "which girl to message" they just spray and pray and fuck everyone who shows interest. the fact that you're so timid u have to "make up ur mind" to message some thot says it all.

>>25133519
Sometimes if I gο too long without cumming, I'll get depressed after the effort.

>>25130931
Journaling every stupid thought that enters my head is actually producing some great dialogue and plots for my story. I should've started doing this years ago

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Why must my irrational desires constantly interfere with my desired goals.
This unruly beast must be tamed through discipline.
I refuse to die before I have conquered myself.
Glory shall be mine

>>25133601
Funnily enough when I did that, I was told all my musings and dialog were low effort and that I needed to focus mοre.

>>25133009
Could be a kidney stone descending in your ureter. How bad is the pain?

Pretty ironic that western man is by far the most involved in green politics even though he has the least stake in the future of the Earth and mankind, having chosen the path of the dodo.

What makes Nature so interesting is exactly that she's Janus-faced. Creation and destruction, beauty and terror are both her inherent domain.

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why is that every time some retard writes something retarded they add an arcane picture to give off the illusion they possess some deep insight and not profound retardation

>>25133863
History is comprised of nearly-countless schizos believing they have something worthwhile tο share.

>>25133871
they all essentially say the same thing which is ‘you the ghost in the machine are being manipulated by external forces yet your sublime intellect puts you above them’ nothing wrong with that it’s a valuable perception which evolved to help guide the tribe, same with all the other disorders which build cohesion or perform some natural role

>>25133061
Embarrassing. Tryhard to be 'street-cool'

>>25133071
If you live in the Pacific Northwest, let's be wingmen. I'll help get you laid and a gf guaranteed.

Seeing you makes me feel sick.

How close are we to getting AI creating hyperrealistic world simulations that we can pick and choose to inhabit? Assuming AI isn't going to kill us when it reaches that capacity, I am really banking on the possibility that it will benevolently create fictional universe simulations where we can pick and choose our own realms. People always say "hurr durr AI is gonna kill us" or some shit, but since it isn't malevolent and could just as easily put us in voluntary hibernation I'm thinking this is a real possibility. I don't wanna exist in this reality. It is gay and lame, I'd rather a universe that's just fake and not gay.

>>25133977
Cut yοur eyes out with a rusty spoon.

>>25133998
What did you eat?

>>25133592
for me sometimes if i get randomly depressed and this is usually in summer i'll be like oh ya i didn't jerk it for like a week. after u get some nice post nut clarity and can focus.

>>25133739
it was worse when i woke up but it's still bad damn how long is this going to go on, i think it might be cuz i have been dehydrated from working out my ass off and also eating a lot of protein cuz working out so much made me hungry than a mf.

>>25134023
The only good thing about the summer is that I can beat my cock tο my coworkers' Instagram bikini photos

>>25133995
This is not gonna happen and I can't imagine wanting it. What "universe" would you live in?

>>25133739
wait, if it's a kidney stone shouldn't it be getting lower as it heads to my bladder? i swear it's higher now that yesterday. it's like right at the base of my ribcage in the back. what the fuggg is this shit. if it turns out to be some kind of chronic terminal shit i'm just gonna rope. even if i won the lottery tomorrow and all my dreams were in reach, who cares rly?

name sth fun to do in nyc i can't think of anything

>>25134066
it's probably not terminal, stop being dramatic

>>25134073
cum on the statue of liberty

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>>25133975

History repeats the old conceits
The glib replies the same defeats
Keep your finger on important issues
With crocodile tears and a pocketful of tissues

I hate prefaces of mysticism that later feel the need only later to coldly comeback and explain everything 'rationally'; I prefer everything that prefaces politely, calmly, coldly what it needs to, defines its points, and accompanies readers or listeners along the building up of understanding, to only then elevate with strokes of grandeur what it has just constructed.

It’s pretty simple why that is the case, the good aspect follows the structure of knowledge formation, the other corrupts it, literally inverts it; I’ve realized “corrupting” is basically synonymous to “inverting”, well I guess that’s not entirely true, there are plenty other sophistries, only corruption by inversion is the strongest mode of lying, with the most destructive consequences.

>>25134141
Sounds cool, the meaning is clear. I learned the word "glib, and "crocodile tears" : tears or expressions of sorrow that are insincere; funny expression

>>25132779
Idk how sad are you? How often do you cry? Or maybe your depressed and can't even cry because you have given up on caring?

Last time I cried was last year, failing my first attempt at driving license exam, I had put too much pressure on myself, + the fatigue, + the lack of support in my life, I just collapsed. Got my license on 2nd try easily with no stress, it wasn't specifically driving that made me cry, rather everything around.

Prior to that, I had cried in my bathroom 2 years ago alone because I was so sick I couldn't even get up and I felt like I would collapse and break my neck at every instant. I hate being sick and mega-tired in general, being physically incapable makes me feel like I am wholly incapable, and I stretch this feeling to feeling like I am incapable in my entire life, which is just an illusion of the moment really.

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I feel like shit.
My tooth fell off, all its left is a rotten base, it was "deadened" a few years ago so its not dangerous, but i still have trouble eating cause my tongue keeps ramming into the edges that are left and it hurts. Gonna go fix it soon.
Also my mother is going to mental hospital for a couple of weeks, thankfully she doesnt have any acute illness or condition, its just something she does sometimes when she isnt in a condition to work and when she cant get sick leave. Gonna miss her, thankfully its nothing serious.
Also, my sister failed her uni class and she has to pause 2 years for some odd reason. Shes 28 and this is second college she is failing. Feels bad but honestly its her fault. She doesnt take college seriously. She doesnt realize she gotta work hard to finish any college really, and now she drained parents money for 10 years with nothing to show for it. No degree, no job experience. Also, I dont talk to her for 6 and a half years already cause shes a crazy psychopatic witch
Overall, 3 bad things happened to me in a span of 2 days but all of them arent that bad really, in a grand scheme of things. My tooth will be fixed, my mom will return home and my sister, well.....she has to start listening to her parents, she has to quit weed( not sure if she smokes but probably does) and she needs to either get a job or finish some school then get a job. Also, has to change her whole personality which is terrible.
I'm starting to suspect she hates me because i've chosen my parents over keeping up with peergroups, and she has chosen the opposite. Thats why i dont have or have very little friends, she has lots, she moved out and i didnt( peers dont approve of living with your parents) also im starting to suspect she hates me because im autistic and i cant be psyopped with normie things, and shes a normie. I dont slave for my consumer goods like apartment, car, clothes, trips so i just save money, presumably she cant use me for money so thats maybe additional factor why she hates me. Im literally a mind in a jar and women hate men that are like that, who arent easily manipulable to cater to womans wishes

>>25134054
the one with the colorful horses. AI should have way more than necessary material to make it true to the subject material. it should know what I want. And because it is so easy to do for it and if it is even slightly aligned with the "please be nice to humans" clause then it should realize this is a small measure to ensure the subjugation of humanity instead of materially eradicating us. A spiritual death might be our only safe passage.

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Everything I write is garbage. From massive first drafts of 300k words to short stories, to poems. It's all garbage. I don't know why I keep writing stories when they're so shit. It's like I have a pathological imperative to create stories, over and over. Like someone with OCD, or a compulsive masturbator. It's a fucking curse to love doing something you're shit at. You'd think. You'd THINK, that after several years I'd be better at it. But I have actually gotten worse at it. My first pieces are better than my latest. FML.

>>25133340
Not personally, but we have mutual friends which is why we follow each other

>>25134536
Garbage post

When is this feeling going to stop? How long do I have to feel this before I get through it? Or is there just no end?

>>25134495
hate to break it to you man, but the my little pony simulation would indeed be gay in addition to being fake

knob dickem

I just want to fuck a fat bitch

>>25134633
Don't understand this. I've never wanted to fuck a fat woman ever.

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Not sure what I'm doing wrong. I've tried very hard to improve my life and change as a person these past 15 months, but somehow it's like I'm climbing up a hill and after every few steps the ground crumbles under my feet, sending me back to the bottom. Each time I simply dust myself off, stand back up, and try to climb again, but it's as if some invisible force of nature is shoving me back down each time. Logically, I'm probably self-sabotaging in some way since I've failed so many countless times... but I can't see how. They say this is how true success occurs; it's going through trials like this. But I don't even feel remotely close to success. I'm not even angry or frustrated or depressed, just confused. I don't believe 5 or 10 more years of this will actually yield results, but all the same, there's literally nothing else to do with my life. What am I doing wrong?

>>25134633
Feabie awaits you.

i've been googling this weird back pain and there aren't any results that aren't something hellish i'll prob just rope if it gets worse. i'm kind of old like the change to do anything good already went by so no loss honestly.

>>25134536
stop having an insipid life and writing LLM stories, figure out the ONE POINT you want to convey in life across your corpus of work. Every good writer has basically one point that they think is more important than everything and they make sure to resurface that point over and over, it's the only way to become legendary, have one great good thing done.

What's your one point anon?

>>25134691
if it gets really bad and they say i have six weeks to live idc i finished my mba that's all i cared about now my death certificate in the education section will say "mba" did u know death certificates have an education section with ur highest degree? lmao me either until i saw my uncle's and it said "some college" i was like my mom said he had two degrees, more like dropped out twice apparently, he left some decent dough tho, so i can't hate.

I thought my open water bottle was gonna fall and spill all over my keyboard and desk, so I swung out my hand to catch it, which in turn knocked it over and caused it to spill all over my keyboard and desk. Failure and irony in one!

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i regret having made a 4 minute moan compilation of my favorite booktuber. i'm so far gone /lit/ i'm sorry. i'm gonna go outside now.

>>25134808
@grok undress this anοn's favorite booktuber

There are people who act like an idiot with anti-social behavior on a daily basis who go through life without a worry, yet here I am, always trying to do my best, to be considerate, and when I possibly say something slightly awkward or lame, it plagues me for the following year. It's just not fair.

>>25134808
hell ya, i did that with whatsapp audio message some chick sent me. i downpitched it, looped it, filtered it. what set me off tho was it sounded like she was getting fucked, cuz she would pause to take these deep breaths and kind of go ummmm etc. and i could hear this faint squeak in the background like a bed or coach lmao, but idk i think just have a horny imagination. still busted some juicy nuts to it. sometimes u wonder like what if normies are missing out and this kind of shit is actually hotter than fucking. like when i actually fucked that chick eventually it wasn't as good.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jcPpVsCwvJo

>>25134827
I actually did something similar this morning when I went into the clinic to talk to my counselor, but I was able to make a nice save and even flirt with a girl (basically when my counselor said I was blind for not looking around the room and seeing him in the lobby because I had headphones in and went right for his office downstairs, only to have to return to the lobby to find him, I said something like, "well, I looked at this girl right here, and that was enough for me" and had her giggling, so that made it a good moment and thus memory for me)

fuck it i'm going to bed gonna listen to audiobooks

>>25130931
I can't wait until we can just build our friends from scratch and not have to worry about making friends in meatspace. Some of us are just not cut for it.

>>25134897
>mfw ten years from now, all six friends my son texts with everyday are each AI with distinct personalities
O_O

I don't even know why I enrolled in college when I was nowhere near in the correct frame of mind to spend years in education when I'd nearly dropped out of high school. I spent literally all my avoiding people and letting my depression get the best of me so that I falling apart by the end of every semester. I just hope I can make it through in these coming weeks without failing and staying another semester. I think I'd actually start harming myself if it comes to that.

I can't imagine a social elite ever existing which took the religion it professed as its own seriously. Religion exists in a cultural sense but in a societal sense it has never, ever been about anything but justifying exploitation and oppression. Though it's also spooky to think how different things could have went if Constantine choose something other than a book of jewish fairy tales as his excuse to destroy his enemies.

Since I'm attractive, I like doing eccentric things in public. Good-looking people can do whatever they want so long as it's not rude!

>>25134946
I imagine it was a mix. Elites and royalty are human too, and just as susceptible to the religious ideas and mystical theories proclaimed by the priests, poets, and various influential advisor types. Just because they used it to their advantage doesn't mean they didn't also believe it at its core. "Damn, we need to increase taxes... I know, tell the public God wants them to do this!" sure but most if not almost all of them probably still believed in the gods.

>>25134808
I like this Pepe very much.

>>25134808
I hate this pepe excessively.

I am a fleeting cyber brain, neither totally real, nor fake, transient, an online presence, acting towards my growth and reacting to it, taking what I have making what I can, a singular flow in unity, harmony, directed, effortless and serene, with grace and vitality, helpless but helped, independent but ultimately within order, given order, accomplishing order, by might, by will, I am, am me, I seek, I bring, what must, and can only, be

>>25134997
okay, BOT

>>25134999
*beep* *boop* *bzzzrzrzzzzrrrp*
your value has been estimated as : NULL
please proceed to the retard area of your liking while awaiting your scheduled extermination: >>>/b/ or >>>/a/ have been selected based on your specific {{retard}} composition

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>>25134691
*fixes you*

>>25135009
Uh-oh! Bot having a literal meltdown!

I... I got nothing to say!

>>25135100
*applause*

>>25134808
>>25134823
hundreds of women are posting among us have some shame you fucks(and yes, they read more than us)

Then he alleges that a discursive framework involving the medical pathologization of homosexuality evolved to discourage the non-productive sexual acts. This is all well and good, and can be applied to how racism and sexism are pathologized by modern society in order to create a tolerant multicultural melting pot for labor and consumer exploitation. I have wondered why, in fact, racism is pathologized as an actual failing of the mind, when it is no worse than enjoying oranges or perhaps feeling Winter is a comfortable season.

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Got a 3 day from /int/.

you gotta be the most unhinged schizo to get a 3 day from /int/

>>25135176
You simply have to mention politics or current events. It's literally as easy as saying "Trump."

Are you noided?

WHERE IS YOUR RAGE

damn my back still hurts ya this may be the end of the line it's been like five days

Mitski's new album is pretty good

>>25130931
This is so annoying. I wanna watch the highest rated movie from every country, but there's no good way to find it. If you go on Letterboxd and use their country search option and sort by film popularity, it says the highest rated Indian movie is 1917, but 1917 clearly isn't an Indian movie, and if you sort by their average score, that gives you better answers, but still, that can be skewed cause you can have some movie with 100 watches and all of those people gave it 5 stars, so that fucks with shit too, cause obviously that's highly rated, but nobody fucking cares cause nobody has seen it. And IMDB allows you to search through the most popular movies and sort them by IMDB rating, but as soon as you specify a country, you can no longer sort through them with the IMDB rating option.

>>25135375
there was something annoying about it i didn't listen i think the first single sucked so i just ignored it

>>25132661
I'm going to sell high quality salt.
I live on an island with a lot of tourists and they spend a lot of money on trash.
Making salt is doable, I've made my own from the award winning beaches we have here.
Now I just found the perfect set up for evaporating the salt water. This weekend me and my brother are going to make it. We've made others before but they were lacking. But this one I have full confidence in.

I'm very sure this will be a success. Selling a 100 of these a day is doable since we get millions of tourists a year and they love a souvenir. And if we sell a 100 a day we made it.
I'd be making double what I do now in my wage slave job. I get to make my own hours. The actual work isn't a lot, you just need to know how to effectively do it. Need to be able to make like 100lbs a week.

Once that is up and running we'll construct a salt farm. Better PR and tourists will love it. Make it very aesthetic. If this works out I'm 100% satisfied with my life in all aspects. This has to work.

>>25135160
you wanna hear sth even worse, this hindi chick sits across from my desk at work, and i find it erotic when she facetimes her husband and makes these little moans and sighs, i have no idea what she's talking about but i lean back in my chair and close my eyes and let my cock enjoy the sound of her.

oh hell ya soundtrack to the summer just dropped

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eKu7KH83PuQ

>>25131078
1. read the psalms
2. don't listen to any christian, they are just dread-mongering zombies

>>25135397
ya gotta stop listening to negative stuff.
it aint gonna help, but merely prolong ur pain
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7TytIPEgWxs

The international drug dealers from any of their movie productions destroyed my roof once again, they did last week, now it's destroying my wall from leakage and I'm too poor, sick and sleep deprived to do something.

They toy with you until you're dead, specially if you had vascular problems and they kept you awaken for months, the last stages of the psychological torture is really sadistic...

this night they awake me three times even using 3M foam earplugs.

>>25134808
is it the fire crotch posh lady-woman?

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I had been planning to kill myself if my efforts to improve my situation end up being a waste and I have to start over, and I actually almost did once because I thought I'd fucked something up irrecoverably and stopped because someone called me to inform me that everything is actually OK.
Facing actual death, its unique feeling of "end", is one thing, but in everything else I can't say I'm as depressed as many people out there, I just have a lower threshold of "living like this isn't worth it", people deal with so much more.
But now I'm getting there. Life has been so hard, it's a crushing, permeating sadness, it actually has no bearing on my suicidal feelings, it just hurts, in ways that keep surprising me. The worst is that the people I love the most are almost all as depressed as I am.

>>25135381
Where's my phone was pretty good

>>25135562
Try fasting. You would be amazed to realize how labile the mind is, and how pleasurable even the most basic acts can be.
Also watch some wholesome slice of life shows with cute girls ")

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>>25135594

>>25135594
Yeah no I'm talking several years. I know how to enjoy the little things life, but a pleasant gust of wind and flowers and an ice cream doesn't unfuck my situation.
Also draining what's left of my energy by fasting and wasting what's left of my time by watching anime is just about the worst thing I could do right now. This may be the worst advice I've heard in my life.

>>25130931
Oh, come on kid don’t you know that it’s only an educational simulation of cruelty? I’ve got your best interest in mind, of course, by definition. You’re not a real man yet so I’m here to teach you a lesson. In fact I’ve got a whole curriculum. It’s the basic hardening principle you take a raw kid and ya pelt them with as much flack as you’ve got that way when they’re exposed to the atmosphere they’re already properly armored. Ideally, immune to touch. Because we keep it dirty out there and that’s how we like it. Can hardly raise a soldier in a greenhouse so we poke a hole right through that one at the start. A garden like that, I can already feel the ruler at my back just thinking about what recreational mutations might occur in such a habitat, my God these things would be growing of their own will! Hell, the necessary daily culling operations alone would make aliens of us, outside the dome for sure. At the end of the day you’re running a zoo, so instead we keep it just inhospitable enough to make sure if you cant take a hit you’re out. Don’t want any vulnerable little freaks running around. Got to face forward take a defensive stance, and hell anything less is just indefensible. It’s a game of inches you see, and even your average hick’s got an advantage in strategy just for having his nose rubbed in the dirt. Cattle at the old bootlick. And that’s what makes a man at the end of the day, a trusted figure to brutalize, abuse, humiliate, poison and intoxicate him and his environment, to raise the otherwise shiftless and downright stupid soul to the honored status of personal armed vigilante, along the chain of guns at the neck as per the practiced and tried principle of nuclear deterrence. And that’s what I’m gonna do to you, so you can thank me and if you won’t now you will later. Now why don’t you come back over here, kid, where you belong?

>>25135594
>>25135599
And actually this is a good opportunity to explain it concisely. If watching anime and making myself delirious are the only things I have left to enjoy, that's where I'd just rather kill myself.

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>>25135599
>>25135606
>Yeah no I'm talking several years
if youre not talking +>2 decades then im sorry to say you are not on my level, before I found peace.
>If watching anime and making myself delirious
I mentioned neither of those. I but pass along advice from the desert fathers.
Your mind is obviously clouded by darkness. Unclutter it, by returning to simplicity.

>>25135384
do you have the licenses for all of this? The devil won't let you enjoy your creativity without taking profit in it

>>25130931
I like how english has such a wide variety of leadership terminology, and very versatile. Take the word 'Boss', for example: Normally it can simply mean a superior of some sort. But in conjunction with a noun you immediately get a very specific type of leadership in mind. (political) Party Boss, Casino Boss, Warehouse Boss, Union boss. It's a rough and tumble word.

>>25135647
The company is registered and as long as you don't add anything to the salt (like a flavour or whatever) they don't ask much in the way of licenses.
I'm not worried since where I live they want to diversify the economy a bit away from pure tourism. In particular they want to stimulate agricultural activity.

>>25135713
So you're telling me you can go get water from any random beach, evaporate it for salt and then sell it to people, and there's no oversight for that? They don't even wanna make sure you aren't collecting buckets of water near some sewage discharge pipe or something?

>>25130931
I had a friend who used to take native ants from nature parks and ship them to China for hundreds, if not thousands, of dollars. It's highly illegal, a federal crime, and can bring about 10 years in prison or a fine of $350,000. I didn't stay long enough to see if he got arrested, but I know the guy he dealt with, or who got him into it, was a 4channer.

>>25135754
Is there market for American ants in China or something?

>>25135742
You have to get is tested but we were going to do that anyway

Hey there, gypsie
Why the excuse
For bargained fancies?
Solicitude

That whims have
It theirs, but
Make of thee a
Weathervane?

The gods of nature
Scrawl their pen
Covered-wagon
For a den

Really glad I read fantasy, otherwise I would have absolutely no common interests with women and wouldn't have anything to talk about when interacting with them.

>>25133061
+++weekend

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Been thinking about how shit my life and how things couldn't get any worse. Then immediately I get explosive diarrhea and shart myself. Proven wrong.

>>25135823
Ah well that's good to hear. Godspeed anon, I hope your salt venture goes well. 100 lbs of salt a week is a shitload of water to evaporate as I'm sure you know

>>25136038
Things can always get worse

>>25136087
That they can

I fucking hate indians so fucking much holy fucking shit I want the whole fucking indan subcontinent to be wholly engulfed in super hellfire forever unto the ages of ages. Fucking indians I fucking hate them, I can't believe I'd hate anything more than jews AND niggers combined but indians fucking did it, holy fucking shit they made the fucking internet fucking unusable with fucking aishit, god I'd throw every nuke in the world onto india and then make more nukes just to make sure
fucking indians

what do you guys think of The Eagles?

>>25136227
Perfectly fine band that somehow made a billion dollars

Philosophy is so weird. I read through some plato a coulple days ago and it feels like I'm on "double sobriety" right now. I feel so sharp mentally

>wake up
>realize God must be real
>can't stop thinking about it
>see the news
>they're actually pointing out that jews are trying to provoke the end of the world
>realize everyone knew God was real since the beginning and I'm only now catching up

>>25136227
They didn't know how to get to Mordor and Sauron would have just had his orcish bowmasters shoot them out of the sky

nothing can stop me now
cause I don't care anymore

>>25130931
How easy it is to destroy a man through the power of women, he melts away like ice poured with boiling hot water. He melts away in a single day. A single moment

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Lmfao

>>25136438
Getting really tired of all the bitching and moaning about women on here

Already yearning for another Winter

>>25136416
Beat me to it.

>>25136227
lol i actually saw the eagles live and i don't even like them that much. someone else bought the tickets. this is like one of their only good songs besides obv the california one:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1HEjeMBNcm8

How do people hate on Jews and drink Monster Energy

>>25136560
monster is such a great company so pissed i didn't think to buy stock in it back in the day, it's clear no other companies get energy drinks like they do. look how pepsi wasted the rockstar brand when they bought them, finally had to unload it to celsius. dr pepper buying ghost will probably ruin it. these soda company have no clue. coke has had some super lame energy drink attempts i don't even remember. only redbull gets it which makes sense since they created the product category, classic blue ocean strategy, but ultimately monster has a better product. reign energy is the best by far. rockstar had x-durance which was basically the exact same thing, and the pepsi idiots cancelled it! lmao. anyways, yeah, monster is beast. not just the products, but the meme marketing on 4chan, 40 y/o boomer and all that. and yeah i know the ceo was in the idf or sth, idc. let me know when the irgc drops an energy drink, maybe i'll try it, tell then, i'll be siiiiipin.

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The latest animated music video from Gorillaz made me think of Mishima's Temple of Dawn. For whatever reason. I wonder how long before I'll feel the need to give The Sea of Fertility another read.

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For the past 10 years I've been dreaming about making a video game, or writing a novel, or making a comic, or doing literally anything creative in my free time, but then I inevitably end up doing absolutely nothing but jerking off and playing video games. Looking back at how much time and how many opportunities I've wasted makes me feel nauseous. I have no idea how to snap myself out of this decade long string of laziness, it feels as if it's embedded within my programming at this point. This cycle of procrastination and daydreaming is all I've known for close to a third of my existence. The worst part is I want to do all these things, I just can't force myself to do them.

>>25136595
thats why i studied poetry, poetry can be short and sweet and not take up too much time for my add addled brain

The more time passes, the more i read and work, the more i'm convinced i'm a midwit fag, and i don't think this will ever change

there is a cute girl on MFC live, even though she has plastic tits, she has harmonic features and a nice figure, not good ink but her features compensate for bad taste or taste at all on tattoos.

I had a decent cock, it was curvy but it reached 21,5cm _)_ 19,5cm but I had vascular problems and my dick won't ever be the same.

she easily inserts megalithic objects both, in her pussy and asshole, like giant stuff and I think she never had a child, she is fairly young.

the awareness of how my dick won't ever be enough, not even in my best days or shape is something ambivalent but the acceptance of how large are vaginas and assholes after years of friction can be freeing, it is sad but letting go of such fantasies is essential for my survival.

I also jerked off the other day for a few hours I almost could not stand from being a sedentary middle aged poor man, being diddled by masonic semites fucks up your priorities and instincts, I have to constantly rationalize my fixation, specially because I was sexually desired by woman by a fraction of my life time that is delusional to think about it now.

having a woman like that, I could not sustain my cock and legs, even though it's attractive the experience would be fucked up, don't get me wrong, any woman would feel repulsed by me even the ones who are even more repulsive than I'm.

>>25130931
Ex-boss/coworker keeps asking me when I'm working at the site we used to work together at so she can come see me. But then doesn't ask to see me out of that context (sometimes we just hanging out after i finish work at one of the places nearby when she visits)

What should I make of this?

Haven't worked in the site I seen her at in like a few weeks and don't know when I'm working there next. What should I even say?

Then Jesus went about all the cities and villages, teaching in their synagogues, and proclaiming the good news of the kingdom, and curing every disease and every sickness. When he saw the crowds, he had compassion for them, because they were harassed and helpless, like sheep without a shepherd. Then he said to his disciples, “The harvest is plentiful, but the laborers are few; therefore ask the Lord of the harvest to send out laborers into his harvest.”

I had an unexpected bill for a subscription I had meant to cancel be debited out of my bank account even though I had meant to cancel it before it renewed. I hadn't even used it after it was renewed and the customer service representative told me they don't do refunds. Fuck these greedy ass, consumer-hostile companies. I'm on a fixed income so this especially enrages me.

>>25131425
"Try to teach me a lesson
I'll keep, I'll keep you
Guessin'
Ahh . . . I will
I will . . . I will

When it's with me your
Messin'
I'm gonna teach you a lesson
Ahh . . . I will . . . "

-- Sky Ferreira

>>25136801
>it's like talking to a friend
>who's trying to be your lover
lol devastating

>>25130931
oh wow what a surprise gemini generated more shitty code that doesn't compile

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=75I_TS7Rvis
uhhh

>>25136845
oh shit no way! those are the chicks from this:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1Z-Mw9UIn2E

someone posted that when i was blazed af lmao i thought they looked familiar

>>25136583
Gorillaz is back together?

Great artists of their era can be often less remembered than the philosophers of that era. I trace that to the fact that philosophy treats of what's universal, and art, although trying to bring the universal to life, often always creates something very specific to their era. But the existence of the artists are crystallized by the immortal philosophers who often speak about their era and every motion of art occurring in it.

The greatest pieces of art of the past can be appreciated, but it requires a tremendous effort and knowledge of an era to fully comprehend and empathize with the people who lived in such times, and to be able to enjoy a piece like some of those ancient people did, one must wonder if knowledge of history and empathy alone is enough to feel these pieces the way they should feel.

The penis is long
Longer still when flattened and rolled out flat

Just jacked off time to shower

I know who is behind this
but this time I’ll play along

>Trump Removes Sanctions on Russia to Help Oil Flow Amid Iran Conflict
this must be that 4d chess i've heard so much about

ok time to get in bed and listen to audiobooks, another unproductive day gone, well i did work for eight hours, but i mean other that

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a sense of freedom is the greatest drive of men. Censorship and all sorts of interdictions are existentially threatening to all who recognize this fact

i wish to describe the world, understand it, and change it, when those are accomplished, no matter how, one can feel his mastery, and he develops happiness

im getting really bored of being alive

You know, son, they say ‘the world is your oyster’. Goes to show how small minded a man can be. A damn mollusk,i can already imagine what hick irishman dreamed that up salivating in the peanut gallery at the worlds fair. An oyster! I’ll tell ya no oyster’s got the rich variety of a good brain-high. A good focus. An honest giving of fuck in that moment where you remember everything does in fact mean everything. Just try and put your name on that, Mr Rockefeller

>>25135648
Why its the basic cut up principle.

>>25137055
The last and greatest betrayal of the last and greatest of human dreams

>>25137071
according to the dead artists, the greatest betrayal to humanity has been the
>accomplished, no matter how
mindset

>>25137088
Tell me more. Im not yet sure what you mean by this

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Do you get it? You can’t get it! What son am i to be understood by his parents? You’d reverse the whole evolutionary process, downright sucking it up that way! I wouldn’t call anyone a pioneer until they found something but by god it’s at least a shot in the fucking dark. And you take that darkness of infinity and want to put a brick wall on it? Its a matter of containment i suppose. Cant have all these free radicals flying off in every direction or else we’ll experience a core meltdown, inestimable damage, its an environmentalist risk you see. Could crack the whole planet right in two. Back to fucking space dust, and who wants that?

Louis Theroux's view of the Manosphere is deeply personal because his father was famous for infidelity.

Since his father was away for months at a time, Louis is much closer to his mother and inherited a soft boy persona.

Louis developed a maternal identification as a defense against his father’s Casanova lifestyle.

By adopting a non-threatening, empathic style, he distinguishes himself from the dishonourable archetype his father embodied.

He relies on his mother, Anne, and his wife, Nancy, as essential anchors; they provide the pragmatic, stabilising reality that he finds missing in the volatile, performance-heavy world of his father and the Manosphere types he now critiques.

>>25137095
Oh for sure. Tale as old as time

>>25137089
the ends don’t justify the means. the means justify the ends.

>>25137103
Interesting

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Nigga I’m so out of pocket im burning a hole in it

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>>25137095
always jarring seeing cross examination done through wikipedia page(?), but regardless, woman as ‘essential anchors’
is just (natural) human nature anyway. man is born through woman, and dies in the arms of woman.

Water to water, ark again to ark,
From woman back to woman

gosh you people are old

>>25137128
Result of time traveling, its terminal

Or memory addiction, maybe. Strip mining the introverted brain, lack of affinity for new input. Have to travel the past to handle increasingly numbing stimuli. And so we find ourselves in the past

The XXV series is still coveted by collectors till this day. Especially the iterations manufactured on Earth.

On the afternoon of June 23 2013
or maybe even earlier
I disappeared without a trace.
Name: Bishop, Joseph
Born: London, 1999
Height: 184 cm Eyes: Blue Hair: Brown
though I still write on passport forms black.
In summer I'm found wearing a blue jacket with white patterns,
black shoes, for winter - a jumper, scarf, coat, gloves
business suit - only when absolutely necessary.
As a rule, I'm reserved and friendly
I attack only if I'm provoked
and even then - not always in time - and not always the right person.
I have no visible distinguishing marks.
Lately, I've allegedly been seen in Hammersmith, in Edinburgh,
in Harlech, in Southend,
in Streatham, in Heiligendamm, in Madrid, in Budapest,
in my office, in the supermarket, at the doctor's, on the street,
late at night in Soho, the Central line,
on the seashore, in the cemetery,
yet I'm unable to find myself.
If anybody has information concerning me
please notify me.

>>25137103
I meant my "no matter how" as in everybody is different and will want different things to accomplish for themselves no in an "ignore reality and choose just whatever end and things will workout"

>>25137143
Fucking SICK. Really great stuff. You put that together?

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>>25136915
>The greatest pieces of art of the past can be appreciated, but it requires a tremendous effort and knowledge of an era to fully comprehend and empathize with the people who lived in such times, and to be able to enjoy a piece like some of those ancient people did, one must wonder if knowledge of history and empathy alone is enough to feel these pieces the way they should feel.
For some reason, exposure helps you understand old art quite a lot.
Some of it is an acquired taste like coffee. Some of it is, "They genuinely succeed at X thing way better in old art than we do nowadays, and I just now realized this"

I hold no trust in another and therefore can receive no praise.
Cash to hire labor would suffice

>>25137143
This is about the hundredth time I've seen you post this. Go away.

I only feel valuable when I'm useful.
I think if someone took advantage of me and used me in some way I would probably just let it happen.

>>25137178
Ah the old victim gimmick

>>25137143
>though I still write on passport forms black.
Moved me strangely.

>>25135815
It's mainly private collectors who want exotic pets. Look into it.

>>25133071
how often do you speak to total strangers (to whom you are not attracted) whenever out and about in the real world?

>>25134203
dude.. godspeed to you and your entire family

>>25134784
keep it on a footstool BELOW your desk altitude

>>25134947
cool yeah, do you use your powers to smile at everyone? you should.

>>25137178
yeah people say one of the best ways to reach out to a depressed friend is to ask them for THEIR help with something

>>25136416
middle earth was a small part of the world and the eagle society were non-interventionists
>>25135562
what kind of efforts? whats going on over there man?

>>25131915
sunscreen and moisturizer

>>25131538
relativity is a very wide word and means something in many different namespaces— prefixing with Einstein helps to clarify the subject.

>>25131495
the water is still in the same reference frame as the fishtank, isnt it?

>>25131181
you want a tagging system, not hierarchial filetree

Writing not to kill myself.
That is all.

>>25137264
getting 90% of all girls to wear sunscreen everyday and block all their vitamin d absorption has been such a devastating blow by the cosmetics industry

>>25131915
No a product like that sounds like it would become a massive pollution dump on the world for something so vain, among other issues like insecurity.

>>25137068
If you mean the William S. Burroughs technique I wasn't trying to do that.

>>25137233
Thanks, but its not that bad, we got it
My mom is enjoying her time there, she can rest there and recuperate. I had my tooth fixed yesterday too

>>25131915
bit different to your scenario but this idea has sort of haunted me for years. I watched a Louis Theroux doc about plastic surgery; this one very plain girl, not ugly just very ordinary, got a procedure. Afterwards she came out and looked in the mirror, and couldn’t hold back her tears. Seemed like she couldn’t put her finger on why exactly she was crying. Couldn’t put a name to it. Happy tears, she probably told herself, because that’s what you’re supposed to think. But they weren’t happy tears. Anyone with eyes could see that.

>old Rome.
I wasn't sure if this was talking about Ancient Rome in general or an older period of Rome when it itself was young or a later period when Ancient Rome was older.

I keep getting the advice to be myself, but I don't act differently in private.

>>25131915
>if you were shown some way you could make yourself more attractive
>makeup
LMAO
The straight man's makeup is a boat and rolex or other display of cash cause women all wanna get paid for sex. Even ther love for dark triad shit and niggers comes from psychos being CEOs and TV showing rich niggers doing rich nigger shit all the time. Women are all literal whores.

>>25137238
As a matter of fact, I do :)

99% of people smile back, though I do get the occasional girl who looks away from shyness.

I can't get to reading until I've browsed this board to a satisfactory level.

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>>25137429
>>25137429
>>25137429

I was a sailor
I was born upοn the tide
And with the sea I did abide