>>25149167
I think I hate people who lie. Not all liars, everyone lies. But people who know they're lying, get called out on lying, then continue to lie despite being flat out wrong trying to inch there way into an advantage that wouldnt be possible if they admitted they lied.

The punishment for this should be having your balls slammed in a car door. Ladies? They do this all the time, it's expected.

Thoughts thinking.

Can someone with good communication skill start his ascension towards being emperor of mankind? I'll vote for him and follow him, I'm tired of this world, let's go to the next step

>>25149242
he would be killed or bribed by the elite

thinking of taking my kindle and smashing it against the wall since it's always glitching and generally being a bubby pos

>>25149242
Sure.

>>25149256
I cannot be bribed. I could be killed.

We're moving away from the Huxley model of authoritarianisn into the Orwell model. Part of me wants to shoot every intersection camera as a fuck you to Flock, but i know I'd be throwing my life away and they would just get replaced. Reading about police using Flock AI to identify criminals is grim, there have been multiple false positives where they arrested innocent people misidentified by AI. Its just seems bizarre that our governments are so eager to take power and accountability from humans and offload everything to a glorified Chinese room computer.

>>25149264
at best you'll be a emperor of a discord server

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In one of the previous threads I posted about killing myself if what I'm doing doesn't work out (this part is still true), as well as it being different from depression but also growing more depressed too, and having to see the people close to me also be depressed.
An anon told me to fast and watch a japanese series which I thought was the stupidest shit I'd heard in my life and told him, but all he said was that my mind was clouded by darkness and he has more experience than me with this sort of feeling. Today I sort of forgot to eat and it did wake me up from that slump, and I remembered another guy I knew who operated sort of like this.
If you read this anon, you may have been right, maybe I was clouded by darkness. This is deeper wisdom than average.

>>25149242
everyone should have good communication skill
its a basic requirement for being a competent human being, but no, its not sufficient to become godemperor of mankind

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>>25149274
I'm already at a higher station than that.

>>25149167
Went to a party over the weekend where I talked to a few friends from college I hadn't seen in years. One of them now works at a litmag I've been reading for a few months. I literally had an article on my phone's browser pulled up from the magazine when she told me about it. I'm now a subscriber and we're talking about Cynthia Ozick via text. What a strange world. I thought she hated me. I'm glad she doesn't. Corny as it is to say, I always had a lot of respect for her. I hope we become and remain friends instead of staying casual acquaintances.

>>25149320
thats not how you use that term

>>25149423
I'm pretty sure it is, but elaborate.

>>25149167
The truth is, most great writers didn't read that many great writers. Which is probably how they were able to hone their own style. Nowadays the majority of great writers are easily accessible and dimeadozen, and there are no great writers writing today.

I've been juping every day for the past 2 weeks so that my friend can crankle on the steps.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WMwMSAaFBRU

>>25149420
That's pretty cool.

Been overdoing the prescription amphetamines and I think I should slow down. I've got that feeling like your face is slightly too big and has pins and needles when you hang upside down for too long, but just sitting on the couch

>>25149167
Flies are swarming about me for some reason. I shower every day, keep my spaces clean. Maybe I should pray or something to cover all my bases and make sure Beelzebub or some thing isn't looking at me for some reason.

>>25149719
Not swarming, per se. ut anywhere I go there are one or two flies, at all times. Annoying me.

The tone of the light in my room reminds me of an evening sunset after a rainshower.

I miss you, but I can’t tell you that.

hath not a goy eyes?

>>25149719
>>25149721
Do you have any friends who experiment with teleportation?

>>25149167
I wonder if there's anything I can do in order to keep at bay the periodic feeling of imminent ego fragmentation/disintegration. This kind of thing leaves me numb and as if "outside of common sense" for days afterward.
I read that the actual disintegration, i.e. psychotic decompensation, never actually happens to neurotic people such as myself. The feeling is miserable nonetheless

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You ever just?

>>25149806
I find unbroken eye contact with myself in a mirror until the part of my brain that contextualises faces stops working always helps. Maybe stay up for a couple of nights then sit at a cafe near a busy intersection thinking about how ants build perfect logistical networks while never being personally aware of anything at all? Oh hang on, you wanted to keep it at *bay* sorry

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In the past u had u had certain vanitas objects like books, extinguished candles, musical instruments, an hourglass and skulls. But what objects remind u of mortality now? The same ones? Or something else?

>>25149829
Pretty much all of them since I'm thinking about mortality anyway
>should really replace that sponge. no more showers soon

>>25149167
Femanons should rape me.

>>25149820
I can always lean into it but it never leaves me any more satisfied or even neutral about the experience in the end. Sometimes it has a nice mystical edge, an almost erotic sensation, and that's about all the positive value I may extract.

>>25149242
sorry, my communications skills are shit. Would you consider proclaiming a stuttering autist as your god-emperor?

Man i just wanna gorge on some white chocolate and gummy bears

I feel like the shadow demons in my head are actually bigger pussies than me.

There's a lot of things you can demand and get from life. But getting love and respect from someone is something that you can never demand and receive with sincerity.

>your thoughts
working some kind of office job where everyone wears suits and button up shirts and ties and slacks and ending up in weirdly intimate close physical contact situations with a bigger, taller, more muscular coworker who might even go so far as to put an arm around my waist at some point

>>25149719
>>25149721
that's Satan letting you know that he's always with you, in your heart

>>25150241
I was just reaching for the copy machine, Bill. Don't get your hopes up.

gaddis is fucking with me

The horse the man the woman loved owned fell.

I wrote something

Recently checked out Jobless Reincarnation. While it's the usual pervy power fantasy it impressed on me how sad the isekai genre actually is. Ultimately it expresses these MC's as fulfilling their highest self. Even otaku hikokomori/NEET weebs have that noble spark within them they wish thy could express in their way.

>>25150245
What do you mean?
>>25150303
I wish it was normal to write sentences like this.

Clavicular streams are actually pretty fire

Do the evolution!

There's this one fucking anon larping as this gay satanic vampire from this biblical /tg/ thing and he is really obsessed with me cuz I just happen to live in a country he associated with a race that has lots of corrupt rich ppl

Make my funk the P. Funk
I want my funk uncut

>>25150365
why

>>25150407
Sup fellow fa/tg/uy. Vampire larp guy obsessed with you? Neat, I dont go to those threads. You should lure him into an elaborate trap and turn him into a perpetual content farm for your DnD/novel.

1. I am not omniscient
2. If God is omniscient he knows alI that I know and I don't know what he knows because of 1
3. If I don't know what he knows and he knows all that I know then I know nothing
4. I know 2+2=4, therefore God is not omniscient

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>>25149167
>go to sleep
>have a dream
>in the dream a woman approaches me
>she proposes to me, hugs me tightly and soothingly sings in my ear how I won't be alone
>burst down crying
>wake up
>burst down crying
my own mind is playing tricks on me.

I can feel your energy, you are nοt a friend of me.

I looked up the girl's school final exam schedule and perfectly timed it to where we'd run into each other, and bam, now I've got her number and we're going out. Some anon disparaged me for so-called stalking but no, it's called putting in effort to make things happen when you don't share a social circle or workplace or common situation to get the opportunity to meet and talk to them.

Of course I'd only suggest this if it looks like they're interested, but yeah, in today's world, you gotta do what you gotta do.

>>25150407
Sounds wild. More details?

>>25150562
Now tell her what yοu did and see if she freaks out.

>>25150567
I really don't see how this is any different than knowing someone you're interested in goes to a specific coffee shop on a particular day at a usual time, so you try to also go at the same time to try and run into them and talk. That kind of thing has been going on for hundreds of years, since the dawn of modern social civilization.

It's like that episode of Seinfeld where Jerry and George wait outside a girl's office-building for a ostensibly chance encounter. Or a thousand scenarios on How I Met Your Mother. I know, I know, "those are sitcoms, they're supposed to be absurd!" but they're also supposed to be relatable and, at times, smart ideas that humorously go awry.

I'm fat and ugly and I have a small penis. I wish I knew how to remedy any of these things.

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This should be my ticket out of wageslavery.
This times 50 and I will create a salt empire.

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>>25150561
Friend, foe, it doesn't matter. Only one of us leaves.

>>25150600
What are we lookin' at? You growin' pot or something?

>>25150604
Cabinets to evaporate sea water in. Leaves sea salt which I intend to sell to tourists.

>>25150607
Cool, cool. I hope with all my heart it works out for you, anon. I'd be too nervous to try something like this and invest the money and effort, but hey, nothing ventured, nothing gained, right? And of course you have direct knowledge of the potential, customer base, and demand. If I'm ever in the area, I'll buy some!

>>25150567
Why would she freak out? Obviously you dont tell her you were stalking her, you act cool and nonchalant like it just happened to be fate.

I swear some of you have never once courted a woman, that's like extremely mundane. For example, I used to work security for a bar and there was this big tiddy girl who used to go out for smokes and side eye me from time to time. I tried to say hi but she was never interested or was always too drunk for reasonable conversation while I was on the clock. So, I asked my friend that looks like basically every frat boy ever to go hassle her while I was working. We arranged that I'd tell him to cool it, he'd punch me in the face, and I'd get to hip toss him. It worked fantastic. She was out having a smoke beside the door I was working, I texted him that she was there, he came over and was rude as fuck while she was obviously not interested. I told him to cool it, he talked some shit then punched me in the face, and I grabbed him by his belt then face planted him into the grass. Was clapping those cheeks later that week.

>>25150617
Holy based. And yeah, you get it. All men that aren't movie stars do some form of social scheming to open that first window of opportunity.

>>25150616
If it was just me I'd probably have moved slower or not done it at all. My adhd brother is all in on this idea and I'm the handy one who made these cabinets. We've made many other versions, all of them lacked certain things. But if this works we're off and the only thing stopping us is making more of these.
He's going to do the sales. Perfect duo. I do the work he sells it.
I pray to God this is my ticket out of the wagie wheel.

>>25150624
Make sure on your sign you put something like "The official salt of 4chan.org/lit/"

>>25150623
Exactly. You dont have to fight a man, but you need to get her attention and do something of value to convince her you have some merit. Women usually have a constant stream of attention from an extremely wide variety of suitors, and unless you're a magnetic Adonis you need an opportunity to show off your charisma.

>>25150617
>I swear some of you have never once courted a woman
On the contrary, I'm married to a Gen Z girl and am the DD for her and her gal pals so I know exactly how women react to such social schemes, even if they work out positive for all involved parties.

Off to catch a train back to my place after living in exile at my mum's house long enough for the olllll ball and chain to get herself in enough trouble to be legally forbidden from sitting outside threatening to kill me/herself and telling my neighbours I'm a pedophile. I'm so mentally reamed out after the last few years. I just want to make shit music and build model kits and be left alone for the rest of my life. I think I've genuinely quit everything but existing to gently amuse myself

I can't believe some of you pseuds actually associate with women, how un-/lit/ οf you

>>25150617
>I swear some of you have never once courted a woman
I'm 26 and have never been on a date

>>25150687
I think it's allowed so long as they spiritually core you out like a butternut squash and you never write anything again because it would mean experiencing your own thoughts. As long as you're retarded and never write anything who cares how you got there right, you're here now

>>25150715
Do you look like Gollum οr something?

>>25150715
But why?

>>25150650
Dont listen to women, they lie for silly reasons.

>>25150769
Women run the world, if you're not listening to them then yοu'll get left behind.
Mind you, listening doesn't equal believing/trusting.

>>25150566
I’m the vampire, but I don’t actually larp as him I just avatarfag with him and I’m obsessed with this anon because he’s so obsessed with me that he is reading my thoughts with a satellite.

He is also a neet.

Every time vampires are discussed I get the urge to reinstall bloodlines and do a malkavian run

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>>25150715

I haven't gone beyond my yard in several months. I did shovel the snow in my driveway recently.

I'm mad

I could help any of you get a girlfriend. I have had over 100 girlfriends

Holy fuck coming back to the city after a few months being a hermit in a small village is so jarring I could puke. I feel like I'm on a roller coaster just sitting still at the bus station with my eyes shut

>>25150769
>>25150746
I never really tried, I guess. I've never had a girl express interest in me and most of the time I get the impression I'm vaguely disgusting looking but I've never actually asked anyone out or even used an app. I don't meet people naturally either since my workplace is mostly male and my hobbies are all solitary and I don't go out on weekends. Might be autistic but never got tested.

bow down before the one you serve
you're going to get what you deserve

>>25150876
Why?

I’d use a front in this larp game but I’m not as cringe as my opponent

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>>25150900
I'm pathological. I wake up mad for no reason other than the world is evil and wicked. Then I realize I'm no different and it will fuck my executive level functions for the rest of the day. I'm honestly surprised anyone even responded to me

>>25150904
you sound like a 16 year old

>>25150908
I'm 55

>>25150902
What do you mean?

>>25150913
I don’t materialize myself in others, at least not sentimentally.

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I now have a date for my first date in almost exactly 10 years. Funny thing is that I'm not even really excited, I have zero interest in the girl I'm going to meet. I guess she's cute enough but we seemingly lack any common interests. I'm not even sure what we're going to talk about. She's also a psychology student and I loathe those people. But I need dating practice. And who knows, maybe she's much more interesting IRL than online.

>>25150891
You gotta get out οf that workplace, bro
Been there, done that, and beta males are just as backstabby as office whores but at least you can oggle the ass and tits of the latter

I miss boiled monkey heads.

>>25150715
>>25150930
Damn, anon wοrks fast
>>25150938
Uma delicia

My coworker is so fucking sexy. She's a single mom and like 10 years older than me but got damn I want to pleasure her. Nοt even in my dreams can I escape her.

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>>25149167
I live in an apartment complex with a lot of people of different races. I've noticed that whenever black people get in an argument they repeat the same phrase over and over again without changing their tone/inflection. Some examples from the past week:
>That's some real ass shit though! That's some real ass shit though! That's some real ass shit though! That's some real ass shit though! That's some real ass shit though?
>Why you fuck with me like that? Why you fuck with me like that? Why you fuck with me like that? Why you fuck with me like that?
>That's what I'm saying. That's what I'm saying. That's what I'm saying. That's what I'm saying. That's what I'm saying.
>I don't want a bitch on me like you. I don't want a bitch on me like you. I don't want a bitch on me like you. I don't want a bitch on me like you. I don't want a bitch on me like you.
When other races argue they'll say different things, but whenever two black people argue they mostly just shout repeated phrases at each other until one of them gives up and walks away. Why is this? Any guesses? I'm not even a racist, it's just annoying to listen to.

>>25150939
>Damn, anon wοrks fast
Lol I'm 27 so it'd actually fit.

Whenever I try to do the right thing I get punished for it

>>25150959
That's what it means tο be a stoic.

>>25150927
This does nothing to answer my question.

boring boring boring you're all so boring now
we used to have fun

Sometimes, when someone hurts you, it’s because you hurt them first, and they had no other recourse.

>>25150973
I used to do drugs now I dont do anything. I used to go out now I dont go anywhere. I used to have fun, but now I just dance.

the thought of dying without having written anything significant scares me

>>25151002
Oh nο, you'll die just like 99.999% of humanity! Woe is you, faggot

>>25151002
Why? You arent special, everyone dies. And you wont care afterwards.

I’m proud of myself for pushing myself out of my comfort zone and doing what is best for me.

I regret that I took so long to do it, wasting valuable time.

>>25151017
What did you do?

>>25151018
she asked for extra mustard packets

Sinner

In the afternune
I needeth a woman
With hare for brains
What scheeme you?

In the daylights
Under heavven
Are trav'lling delights
The furmaments scrawl 'pon

Shinest my girl
With axe for a
Smile -- And secret
Breathed wyles

>>25151018
he finally had an intimate encounter with a man

>>25151079
Hells yeah, put it on pastrami.

I don't care about trans people and sports or bathrooms etc especially nοt teenagers, but I have noticed and continue to notice that 99% of issues pertaining to trans people end up being trans women. And I truly 100% genuinely believe in my soul that it is because they were raised with the entitlement of men. You don't hear about trans men complaining all over the Internet for being excluded from male spaces, they just want to be involved and happy it seems. You hear a lot about trans women complaining that they weren't allowed to strip naked in the changing room with other women or that women don't feel comfortable for whatever reason blah blah blah
The issue was not trans people it is how men are raised to feel entitled to certain spaces or things

>>25151171
That's because they're autogenophiles and it's a sexual power trip. They should not be indulged.

When I see transgender people, I basically see a mentally ill person.
Maybe they view themselves as women, maybe they have genuine gender dysphoria and have a brain structure more attuned to being a woman or vice versa, maybe they were groomed from a young age by political activists to have retarded ideas in their head. But at the end of the day they’re a mentally ill person, mentally ill people that are going to probably end up mutilating themselves, killing themselves or harming others to press their legitimacy. In any other situation you would send these people to a therapist or give them a pep talk that they should recommit to conforming and being neurotypical in their thought patterns, you would actively protect them from themselves and try and help them develop coping mechanisms or outlets without going to extremes.
But in this society the external world justifies, validates and pushes this mental illness. It’s honestly extremely abusive and sickening.

There's a beast deep inside me, raw and powerful, who will unleash when the time is right.

>>25150496
>>25150566
He keeps spreading lies about me like here >>25150812

He is literally starting shit up with me for no reason cuz I felt like self-expressing

>>25151223
What do you mean by this?

>>25149167
What's it mean if an excoworker/boss you mad eout with once. Keeps texting you here and there (I rarely if ever initiate texts) and visiting you after rshe left the workplace? She's even come visit me at a diff worksite from where we worked together. And has found out my schedule from other people

She even said next time I'm working with another coworker (female she was also cool with) that we should go for dinner. If she wants to hangout as a group does that mean it's fully platonic or she's using her as an excuse.

Or am I just being attention farmed

>>25151198
>I basically see a mentally ill person
They have astonishingly high rates of mood disorders. Interestingly, when you let them transition, their mood disorders basically vanish and they live otherwise unremarkable, normal lives. I think the efficacy rate of transitioning is something like 80-90% -- if that existed for any other mental health disorder, we'd call it a miracle. Much to consider!

>>25150945
noticed this too but idk what causes it or why it happens but it is notable

God dammit Cainefag literally who are you tell your discord clittycel cabal to stop fucking spreading their fanfiction about me

Y'know all I did was just post a cute little OC that represents me but some faggots who think they are masculine and tough shit are seething and now spreading misinformation about me

My shoes are fucking sick. So is my new hat.

>>25151422
nice man feelsgood

I am jealous of those that can complain. I can not complain about anything other than life itself. I can not think of a single time in my life or the entire human history in which I could feel happy. I can not think of a single noticeable improvement or negative impact on my life. I can not think of any person who I would want to become. Every event that I am faced with does nothing to change the void within. I can not complain when I can not think of something better.

I have spent a lifetime oppressed by my incurious and money-minded parents, and now i have spent ten years avoiding my psychonaut father-in-law because I think he knows something. You can find his works in The Journal of Analytical Psychology, its cutting edge shit! Problem is the guy gives me the cold shoulder even when I read his articles, and I’m out here showing my ass to the guy exposing my journey in the process, and he turns around and says ‘neat’ in an even tone! How sober do i have to be to meet your standards?! Like I don’t deserve it? You know if you’re not going to let me participate in this, then I’m just going to steal your treasured knowledge like i stole your precious daughter, right through a hole in your rotten chest. One of the mysteries, how that happened, I’m sure! The way you were acting you seemed glad I took her off your busy hands. I’ll buy your magazine, I’ll take the shit that you’re saying right in, I know the real shit when I see it. So how are you going to act like you won’t understand me when I’m out here trying to fucking excavate you? Is giving you grandchildren not enough to join the Institute?

I said I had nothing more to say because I felt like that was my only option.

>>25151509
elegant

Oh sure i’ll speak honestly with you, by the way are you inoculated against venom?

>>25151528
Yeah

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I've been fucking around, customizing my Steam and social media profiles, and I had a sad thought: Nobody's ever going to walk into my life. Like I'm never going to get a DM from a random stranger and they'll have a life-changing effect on me. I do encounter random people, and it never goes anywhere because I'm just too different from people, and too closed off. It must be so exciting to live in a world where that's true, where you feel like you might meet the love of your life or your new best friend any day now.

>>25151650
Why would someone walk into your life when you can walk into theres? You dont want to.

>>25151653
I literally can't offer you guys anything, I'm too different, you don't want it.

>>25151657
From me, or from anyone? What do you do that's so weird? I promise you I'm weird as shit, but I still meet people. Boring is the only issue.

>>25151674
I was traumatized around age 6, which caused me to shut off my emotions and spend life searching for a cure for all suffering.
I've done a lot of research to this end, across such varied subjects as religion, dreams, philosophy, perception, meditation, breathwork, predictive processing, and endogenous drug production. I know a lot of miscellaneous, often surprising individual facts about these fields, and yet I still haven't found my entry point, I haven't found the one piece of knowledge that sets the whole thing in motion, so I just have dozens of disconnected little facts that make you raise your eyebrow and think, "there could be something here...".

Of course, nobody will give you the time of day until you figure everything out. I'm sure you want to say, "Oh you have the lucid dreaming community! You have the psychonaut community! You have the stream entry community!" -- no I don't. In these niche communities, if you say anything that violates consensus opinion and steps out of the orthodox, you'll be amazed at how little they want to hear it. Nobody is actually interested in what I've discovered so far, so I've decided to keep it completely private for the past few years. I feel a lot of parallels with Newton, honestly. Of course I'm nowhere near as intelligent. But I have noticed things everyone else overlooked, and it's all I care about.

doing the :/ face irl hurts my lips

>>25151694
You can have a perma :/ face if one side of your jaw muscle is much tighter than the other.

Who the fuck is Jalter

I have become desexualized. Is this what Deleuze meant by the Body-without-Organs?

>>25151639
...well you have to tread on me first. hey man these colors dont run so im just gonna stay in position until you attack. I wish you would. I got a department over here trying to make something up but I don't really have much faith in those guys. Come ooooon. Give me a real flag for once

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>>25151693
I'm going to say something helpful. It will sound both mean and depressing, but I promise I'm both being honest and trying to help the best I can, because I know exactly how you feel. I am not a nice man but I'm trying to be nice right now.

Now that that's out of the way, the problem here is your ego. Could you have discovered something? Should you discover more? Is what you know enough worth enough when people with less have more? Can you ever share it? All these questions are irrelevant at the end of the day because they're presented to you as your problem, and they are your problem, but it cannot be solved by you with the advice available, and they're hardly unique.

We live in an age where novelty is valued, but only very particular innovation matters. People arent fleshy hydraulic mech blobs inspired by lightning, they're the gestalt manifestation of collective yearning and purposelessness. A parasitic infection is present in the internet because the real world is withering, not in a schizo way, but in a practical sense. Money is tight, subsistance is difficult, and the locus of self worth moved with that gestalt body into an intersubjective hell amalgam. Your hobbies and passions forked and were divided by people who use them for careers, clout, soothing ennui, or pumping dopamine through their hollow dead eyes as they have to cope with mortality and Taco Bell. So, they descend into dreams. Into the dance they always have, and meld it into their personality as an existential flotation device. The internet facilitates this clotting of like-minded parasites in community, like us right now. That community you want to help isnt about the topic, it's a release from the horror of their reality, so upheaving conventions that give them meaning is blasphemous relative to their objective. It ruins the conventions of their worth. They dont care about the passion, they care about living vicariously through it.

But you and I are different. Probably autistic, but that's okay. I needed to be placed. I have many gifts and passions, but my corporeal form is intangible, and I can never grasp these things, which means I need someone to place me somewhere to do a task, like a machine. So, how I deal with it is I dont talk about it and focus first on living. My passions are perpetual and self sustained. I dont create for anyone but myself, not because I dont want to share, but because no one cares, and it's silly to expect that they should. I do what I do because I must. Then I live my public life on top of that.

Shelf your hubris, but index your work. Do the work you love, but dont expect it to be reciprocated. Do it because you love it, and the chance to share with someone who understands is so preposteriously unlikely, yearning for it is a perscribed malady. Dream of sharing, prepare for a chance that may never come, and live your public life seeking out the normal things; someone to share a beer with that you dont hate is a good start.

>>25151693
Are least you're self-aware which is more you can say about 90% of humanity. That's not a bad thing

>>25151731
>advice
Wise words. I'm not a nice person either but this is good stuff. Divorce yourself from ego and watch your life turn around. It won't come fast or easy but it will come

>>25151777
Exactly. I was paraphrasing a chapter from The Leizi with my own insane bent, but that story is the same thing through the metaphor. Here's a more direct paraphrase, I highly recommed it.

"An emperor was in tears because of how beautiful the world was, and how he wished he could live forever because it was truly the height of all existence. His country was the most beautiful, his people were the best, and it seemed like a crime to give all that up by dying. His ministers were also in tears, because they didnt even have as much as the emperor but still enjoyed their lives, and if he was going to miss his life, they felt they should too.

A nearby monk laughed, and the emperor was pissed. Truly it was a maudlin occassion, and the emperor wondered why the monk had the audacity to laugh when everyone else cried. The monk said, "You arent the only one who has ever died. Everyone dies. Not just eveyone, but everything; it isnt unique. You're out here acting like you're the only person in the world who would ever die, and that's just arrogant. You dont remember what was before this life, and you dont know what's after it, so carrying like this instead of living is a waste. And your ministers? They're sycophants for indulging you."

The Emperor nodded, and immediately poured his ministers a drink."

I liked that story quite a bit. I have another one about an archer and a magic sword I like almost as much too.

>>25149167
Death to the Holy Spirit.

>>25151802
How do you kill a ghost? Garlic?

>>25151806
God has always been an illegal alien and I say we deport Him

>>25151808
Oh? Where are we? Where is God? Either way I'm just happy he exists.

>>25151815
Jehova was initially a cacodemon made up by stupid Jews. Go back to putting circumcised cocks in your mouth, Christcuck. Death to the Holy Spirit. Praise Buddha.

>>25151731
You come across as autistic, whereas I'm probably more schizophrenic/narcissist. These are kinda just buzzwords, but I assume your life is essentially like, you have a powerful fixation with a handful of topics that are so niche you recognize that no one's ever going to be on your level with them (true for me as well), and you probably feel a mixture of loneliness and anger over it -- lonely because, obviously, you're alone, and anger because the handful of people that do touch on your passions inevitably abuse it and corrupt it, because at the end of the day they don't care for the thing in question, unlike you.

I think for me the situation is arguably more dire, because I depend directly on other people to help me with my research, which is the most important thing in the world. Generally people with autistic brains can shut out the world pretty effectively because mere fixation on a thing is enough for them to be happy, whereas someone like me is more tied to the external world because I just get stuck if I work in a vacuum. Ultimately the result is the same though. You just can't expect the world to reciprocate. I'm not really in the habit of considering myself a super-special-super-unique-talented-and-gifted-once-in-a-generation-genius-with-divine-insight-and-a-direct-link-to-the-muses, but holy fuck, I really underestimated how "normal" most people are. Like one of the selling points to the concept of universal literacy and general education was this idea that we had all this undiscovered talent in the uneducated masses, and so once we taught everyone to read and write we'd suddenly get like 5x the amount of Rousseaus, Mozarts, Napoleons, and so on. That was a lie. Adulthood is realizing that not only is that false, but that someone like Mozart or Rousseau only comes around once in like 5+ centuries, because 99% of humanity is just mostly doing the same shit their parents did, the trends change but it's all the same underneath.

Like you posted an old chinese fable. Think about how crazy it is that nobody talks about old Chinese culture. We have all the records. We could easily have entire communities dedicated to old Chinese architecture, we could have lively internet communities of 1000+ people where you post some old chinese building and they identify the styles & influences, or where there are daily discussions about some philosopher. This doesn't happen. Do you know how many people actually participate in circles like these? Like 10 at most. The number of people who have a decent knowledge of chinese architecture alive right now are probably less than 1000, and there are 8+ billion people on planet earth. As I get older, I feel more and more that the real core of the "intellectual world" is held up by a very tiny circle of very passionate people. It is actually kind of shocking how the majority of people alive have no niche interests of their own

I need someone to spread my fat fucking ass and breed me like the bratty femboy I am nyaaa~
Btw, can you guess who's my favourite philosopher?

>>25151825
Derrida.

>>25151815
Its a fucking cynical literary metaphor regarding our pushing away from God in the modern age, OKAY? You fucking RUBE

European/Western culture is just overrated Jew worship. The East is the door to freedom, but it was thanks to Eurocuck jew philosophy (eg communism) that they're a mess now too. Mixing with Jew worshiping Western hypocritical cucks is the best way to destroy one's genepool. Hapas are metaphysical abominations.

The only thing westerners are good at is worshiping Jews and getting cucked. I bet Odin has blessed me more than those icchantika cucks.

>>25151845
What not reading classics does to a mf:

>>25151853
I do read a lot of the classics. I finished Plato's Republic recently and liked it a lot.

I find it easy reading classic Greeks, Indians, Iranians, and Chinese. However, I got 1/3rd into the Pentateuch and threw it to the side. It is filth. Death to Jehova. Death to Allah. Death to the Holy Spirit. Praise Buddha. Praise Odin. Praise Mithra.

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My LLQP exams are on Tuesday. Pray for me bros and wish me luck. I'm gonna take some L-theanine the morning of and throughout the day to be as focused as possible.

>>25151820
Pigs and fishes. You assumed quite a bit about me, and quite a bit about yourself. I'm not lonely at all. I have a beautiful wife, a cute dog, a family that loves me and is proud of me, a little brother that talks to me three hours a day on the phone, and I'm great at almost everything I've ever tried, not to boast, but just as a statement of fact. I'm a magnetic charming scoundrel if I'm being frank. My passions are just what I must do. But virtu and fortuna. Lots of virtu, low fortuna

Now for issues, mine issue is entirely outside of my control, like yours. At the end of the day, I want to save lives. I want to make the world a better place. I want to be useful. I dont need money or fame or a title, but to do so I need a chance. And I cant control that. I need to be seen. I need someone in a leadership position to place me somewhere to be useful and to be as loyal to me as I am to them, and the results will speak for themselves. But that hasnt happened yet

So, I focus on my life. I train every day to be better as a passion. When the time comes I'll be able to step up and make it look effortless, even under pressure. if I ever get the chance. I do this for everything I'm passionate about, like writing for example. I've written a rather ambitious postmodern hell book no one will care about until after I die, even if it's doing some neat things.

I know I talked a lot about myself, I dont want to make it the "me" show, but I need other people as much as you do. I'd love to share my writing. I'm honestly tired of carrying so many people and being the strong unshakable one for them, so I'd love some support. People, even average people, are honestly amazing, but they're specialized. So find common ground with the people around you. And even if you wind up like me, reading Pantagruel and laughing my ass off utterly amazed at the quality of dick jokes while no one else gives a fuck, dont let the lack of support stop you. Find the locus of your passion within yourself and you'll always be inspired.

>>25151856
Hail Eris Hail Discordia

>>25151871
Discordianism is stupid. Tradition is important. There is a lot of truth to Parmenidian Being, but it shouldn't be hypostatized.

Google's search engine is just flying by the seat of its pants now huh. Google somthing twice in a row now and you'll get two totally different sets of results, because the results are totally AI-generated and AI is basically just an incredibly complicated roll of dice.

>>25151873
Woosh

I've been consuming a lot of BL lately and it really shows in my writing.

>>25151901
Bud Light? Why would you do that to yourself?

>>25151905
Oh my god, you drink keystone light? Icehouse?

>>25151905
No, the other kind of BL.

>>25151911
Boy's love?

>>25151920
You should try crying about it

it never gets better than this

KINGTOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOS!!!

>>25151929
STFU. I'm based. Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me.

>>25151913
Yeah

>>25151937
By your own logic, you are a jew, since all of humanity is a jew and you're a part of humanity too. Check your ego. You aren't special by any metric and probably never will be. If you kys now, in two weeks no one will even remember you except as some petty, bitter monster. Congratulations, faggot

>>25151867
Good luck!

>>25151953
>GOD'S CHOSEN ONES out of nowhere
Rent free.

>>25151953
>you're a part of humanity
I am not. It depends on how you define identity in the first place. This is only a temporary incarnation. I know rebirth is true.
>You aren't special by any metric and probably never will be
Good, this entire species is vile. There isn't a single thing worth remembering about humanity except the Buddha, but Buddha surpasses ordinary human existence.
>If you kys now, in two weeks no one will even remember you except as some petty, bitter monster. Congratulations, faggot
One cannot truly die except in pairinirvana. The dream continues on. Whose dream is it?

>>25151971
He's the one that was saying we're all Jews. I was just poking a hole in his stupid rant. Didn't be a faggot

>>25151977
You're delusional. You can't even prove buddha was real nor pairnirvana. Like it or not, unless you're a bot, you're human like the rest of us. Claiming otherwise is pure ego and what would buddha think about that? He would disavow your stupid ass in the first second. You can't be this dumb

>>25150560
How's your relationship with your mother?

>>25151992
Nta but I'm guessing poor. I've had very similar dreams like this since I was about 5. That was in 1976 and they have never let up

>>25151990
Kys, j*w. You can kvetch and oy vey all the way to hell with your shit prophets like moses.

>>25152006
You should try crying about it

>>25152009
You should try kys.

>>25152010
I must have hit a nerve. Lmao at how utterly pathetic you are. Servile cur. I'm better than you

>>25152011
You're a j*w. The only thing you're better at is being a cannibalistic pedo. No one with a shred of wisdom likes you "people."

>>25152016
That includes you since you're a part of humanity all of humanity are Jews per your own assertion. Checkmate, bitch

When it rains overnight I sleep more. What's up with that?

>>25152021
Nah, only abrahamists are jews. The limbs, blood, and entrails of jews will one day decorate kourosh's tomb. Cyrus/Kourosh made a mistake.
You're a k*ke, aren't you?
It's thanks to jews mankind is in this pitiful state anyways, so I say jews should go first and foremost.

Fuck off Jalter
I'm not gokubro

>>25152027
I'm Irish/Welsh American. I've already forgot about you lol

>>25152033
America was financed by kke Haym Salomon and established subversive philosemitic Freemasons. It is wrong to distinguish "good" from "bad" jew. Hadrian had a better approach than Hitler.

Indian people are named shit like "Ranjeet' or "Poojeeta" and get seriously offended when you call them a jeet like it's the N-word or smth.
>>25152023
It must clear the air of your smog-infested city, Ranjeesh.

Bigots and Bullies go to hell I'm afraid.
Let others have fun, chuds.

You used to have to go to Amsterdam to get the highest quality hash brownies. I wonder if that's still the case.

>Get off the pot
Does it mean:
>Get off the toilet
or
>Stop smoking marijuana
?

>>25152119
Toilet

I've been told I type loudly.