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>>25185601Come back before it’s too late.
Since the people in this place has a tendency to dwell on the woes of their circumstances, I just want you to know that your bitching and moaning just kindles my desire to personal greatness.With that in mind, go ahead and complain about being a victim of your past and coming up with excuses for not being a master of your present. I'll be reading it with a smirk on my face. Unless of course you prove me wrong, but thats impossible! Unless...
tits = ugly sacks of fatfemale=gay without a dick
Was watching his Larry King interview (deeply closeted lmfao) and Norm drops a Nabokov reference after a question about mortality. Starting to like this guy more and more
are there any books that explore the idea that political affiliation isn't something you choose, but something that you are simply swept up into?
>>25185637not quite that, if I'm understanding what you mean by "simply swept up into" correctly, but you might like and find interesting<-----https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Righteous_Mind
In 2007 I was 8 and I went into the kitchen to grab a snack and my dad is on the ground with his pants down, ass up, I see his asshole and everything, and I just kind of don't know what to think and after a few seconds of eye contact he says he's doing a coffee enema, he was a plastic syringe in his ass. I don't know why he didn't do that behind the locked door of the bathroom just a few feet ahead of him. I used to shower with him when I was a kid. I don't know why this memory resurfaced at age 27. When I was 5 my felon uncle was alone in the living room with me, I think my mom was smoking weed in the other room, he pinned my body to the carpet with his spread out arms and he mocked me for being weak and hung a loogie in my face as I cried and screamed. When I was 5 I saw my dad get beat with a baseball bat by my mom and her new boyfriend outside of daycare I saw the police take my dad away and i remember the red color of her camaro sports car it was a sunny blue day. My older stepsister who was 6 played with my penis when I was 3 I think it's one of my first memories.When I was 12 I was obsessed with scat pornography. I first ejaculated when I was 13 when I kept vigorously shoving a banana in my ass. I got shit and smushed banana all over my bed. I didn't learn how to tie my shoes or ride a bike until I was 19. I stopped turning in homework and assignments at school when I was 7 and I was never held back they just kept passing me through the grades and I never graduated highschool and I don't know what a verb or a noun is or what algebra is. My parents both showed to pick me up after school and would frequently get into physical altercations in front of the rest of the parents and kids and I remember feeling embarrassed and ashamed when the kids would say out loud that my parents were fighting again. I got diagnosed with CPTSD, autism, OCD, major depression and ADHD last year my parents never took me to a pediatric psychologist or therapist when I was a kid. I attempted suicide on December 24 2023
>>25185720You’re a lucky guy.
I'm going to be someone's father soon. Recommend me some good books.Hard mode: I'm not white or religious
>>25185746Matthew Arnold’s poems. Why? Cuz they’re cool
big dicks will rule the world
>>25185753Define 'big'Define 'dicks'Define 'will' Define 'rule'Define 'the world'Or keep your mouth shut and stop spewing such bullshieeeet
>>25185746Never forget that your girlfriend chose to murder your first child before it could be born. A baby-killer isn't fit to be a mother.
>>25185753Penises are wandsGrow your wizards staff and do bigger magicks
>>25185769I talked her into it.
I had one of those dreams in which you wake up in bed and it feels real. Except it wasn't my bed but some bed in a 3rd world Asian country. My room was open and half-built, and some Asian girls who seemed to be my family came in my room claiming that there's no running water. I looked out the window and see Asian people walking. Then I realized that this is a lucid dream, so I get out of bed half naked and start exploring the house. A bunch of other stuff happened.
>>25185601I really want a drink and a cigarette, but that will have to wait until I'm at the venue tonight. I fucking need something and I can't jerk off again. Maybe another coffee with some brandy in it to take the edge off. Just a few more hours until I become who I really want to be
>>25185769>lonely anon is mad about something anyone posting here while copulating is aware of already>thinks it's a gotcha
>>25185769We don't care about morals here, bud.
>>25185784maybe you are dreaming now, and that was your true reality.God youre such a chink
>>25185766It’s as you see.
I had a dream last night that the song “Viva La Vida” by Coldplay (awful fucking song too) had a new section that talks about “getting that pussy even though you’re not a rock star” and there were a bunch of comments on the YouTube video saying it surpassed their favourite book in quality. Everyone had the same favourite book too, it was Being and Time by Heidegger.“Man I love Being and Time it was my favourite book until I heard this!!!!” I think one of the comments said.
I look a lot cooler from the outside than I actually am. And I look like a total fucking loser.
>>25185897I’m gonna pretend you look like the girl in your pic and instead say no, you don’t look like a loser. You look cute
>>25185889Sounds like the kind of dream someone with gender dysphoria would have.
>>25185902I’m mentally ill but not like that. Kill yourself.
The conspiracy theorists are right and Artemis II is not actually going out to space.
>>25185901>the girlDamn, people don't even recognize Tomoko anymore.
>>25185912Oh the neet anime girl. Yeah I didn’t recognise it was her.
>>25185878I'm blind
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fgs1J0rsCWYI typed up a several paragraph post about why this really random rap song from 13 years ago fills me up with so much nostalgia but that was too many words diving into a single rap song so I’ll just post link and move on.
just finished flowers for algernon the ending made me tear up a littlesuch an irritating feeling
>>25185974>such an irritating feelingexpand your thoughts on this, I am intrigued by the notion
Over the years I've seen people here spewing hate over and over against groups of people, but I don't think I've ever seen someone spew hatred against an individual.Even when they refer to an individual, the hatred seems to stem from or be fueled by the individual being part of a group. I don't see "I fucking hate Susan", I see "I fucking hate women". Sometimes I get the impression that all this hatred could be focused on a single person they personally know, but for whatever reason the hatred becomes totalizing.What's up with that? Is itA)Hating an individual is more difficult than hating a groupB)Hating an individual is an inherently lonesome experience in which very few people will support youI don't fucking know. Does the hate come before the intellectualization? Or is it the other way around?
>>25186051J's aren't individuals. They're a hive mind like the borg aimed at destroying all life.
>>25186051I just realized I dont have a working definition of hate. But upon reflection spurred by this post, I guess its just an inverse of my simplified definition of love. So instead of something that gives me joy, it is something that brings me... misery? Hate towards a person, because hate for the group, for the group as a whole has a tendency to posses the same traits that brings me misery.However no one does that. My inner turmoil is my fault alone. >Does the hate come before the intellectualization? Or is it the other way around?I never heard of an animal hating anyone
>>25186051It's very simply just association.The most racist people on earth are probably people who live in close proximity to low-income black people and have to deal with them smashing straight into their car and then passing out fake insurance while having a retarded ego spat about how it is totally your fault they slammed straight into your stationary vehicle without looking.The least racist people are individuals that have close proximity to black people in high-income areas and then all of their memories of interacting with black people are a nice barista making their coffee correctly or a coworker who is more knowledgeable than them in a specific area. It's the primary reason right wing individuals are far, FAR more racist than left leaning people because all of their interactions are with a highly marginalized group that has been systematically groomed into being as irritable as humanly possible. That's kind of a bridge that liberals don't want to cross.
>>25186051It's pretty simple, they learned the mental mechanism of collective guilt (men bed, wypipo bad) from the culture in which they grew up in, which was vastly dominated by wokeness. They're simply repeating the same mental schema that was used against them since birth and have internalised. I was saying this shit in 2006, that the way leftist discourse was being organized (speciously particularist instead of rigorously universalist, naively idealistic instead of seriously materialistic, artistically puritanical instead of radically philo-creative) would have ended up creating a class of very resentful people, and here we are.
>>25186051Individualism is a lie.
Goethe on midwits (Maxims and Reflections)
>>25186051Groups are shorthand for sets of behaviors"I hate women" most of the time means I hate excess femininity, like pity for everything, physical weakness, demands of equality"I hate blacks" is hate of ooga booga aesthetics, niggardly dances, violence, lack of soul, lack of wit"I hate Jews" is hate for the biggest promoters of slave moralityOh how I'd like people to behave as creative individuals, very unique in all ways and thinking for themselves at all times, but unfortunately the world simply isn't like thatSome people when they say "I hate women" will in actuality hate every woman they meet for being a woman, some others will actually mean that they hate 95% of 99% of women and actually consider people as unique things before considering what group they belong to, It's up to you to figure which type of person you are speaking and not take the shortcut to draw a caricature of your partner in conversation, in which case you'd be as dumb as people you call dumb, for making assumptions and drawing caricatures before asking any questions
I’m gonna be stuck on a 6 week situationship from 2 years ago for many more years because things became more complicated than “just” a 6 week situationship. But she’s also getting engaged. Motherfucker I will never care about anybody like that again, it’s hard for me to get attached to people but when I’m attached, I’m really attached. Why, God? Why? Serious question. I’m drowning and I’m thirsty but this salt water doesn’t quench.
>>25186354Are you the guy who was posting a while ago about wishing he could redo his whole life so that he could meet his ex again and not fuck it up? If so, I felt that shit.
>>25186358No, but I am a guy who was another “Are you the” guy about a year ago. Don’t want to get into it because the situation has become a different beast entirely.
>>25186362Channel your feelings into your art, write a poem about it.
someone needs to kick out trump already holy shit what an absolute disaster. whats the point of living in a country if one clown somehow ruins everything
>>25186375Too numb for that. Way too numb for that. She gave me more attention than any friend I ever had after the situationship was over (which is why I said there was more to it than that, but it’s kinda hard to explain) but now it’s all just over. I doubt I will ever find a connection like that again.
FINNA TURN MY MOTHERFUCKING LIFE AROUND, STARTING RIGHT AT THIS VERY MOMENT!
>>25186376What did he do?
I was thinking today that the way my mind works, this insidious, inescapable, ubiquitous 'overgrowth of meaning' would not let me alone even, or especially so, in the case that something awful, and real, and crude, happened to me. The death of a loved one. Terminal or chronic debilitating illness. Financial ruin. I wouldn't be able to tame the mind and keep it from wandering off into weird recesses, from violently forcing me to feel that all-too-familiar, dull, inarticulate, towering pain forever instead of the actual pain that comes from living and losing in the world. I would not be able to grieve the death of a child, for instance. Isn't that incredibly sad?When I take a moment to think about it, I am not the least bit over my ex girlfriend. It's been six months and my head hasn't allowed me the liberty to mourn. Isn't that pitiful? What kind of animal am I?
>>25186389Update: managed to work on what I needed to work on for a full hour, which is a record for my ADHD brain. Finna grab a coffee and relax a bit.
>>25186389Oh yea? What do you got planned big boy?
I waste so much time every day just watching the same videos over and over like jerma getting nuked or tung tung tung sahur songs
remington with one shell loaded calling me like the green goblin mask from spider-man
>>25185601In keeping with the spirit of the time I will be appending the name of low status ethnicities to anything I dislike."Hmmm yes traffick is quite bantu this morning""The weather is very Indian today""Your opinion is guatemalan!"
>>25186453And conversely"This pudding is Aryan!"
