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just finished off the most mid goon session idk man shoulda just wacked it fast
remember to carpe diem the day
i think i need to have sex with a new chick. this chick i fuck occasionally looks hot walking around but idk it's like i have to go balls deep in her to even feel anything and then i finally get a little friction on the very tip of my dick, and fucking her mouth isn't that great either cuz she doesn't really suck. she just squats there while u ram her open mouth. i like her, she's pretty sweet, but she kinda ruined sex for me. i watch a porno and just start imagining the chick's pussy feels the same way and it's like meh. then maybe i go out with a new chick, and i just start imagining the sex being really bad, and just go home.
I'm virulently anti-racist.
>>25247425race isnt real
>>25247425do u even have any black friends? people who say shit like that are always some white dude from the suburbs
>>25247451I had one black friend when I was a kid. He wanted to be my boyfriend.
>introvert bad at talking bad at math bad at technology bad at physical labor bad at critical thinking bad at writing tricked into a horrible degree from a bad school all my hardwork went to wasteguess that's it then
>>25247504based
I thought I was in love with a guy but turns out he just has really a good mattress
>>25247620man i wish i had a futon again
>>25247636I used to sleep on a futon at a beach house. It was very nice.
>>25247620Fag
Unironically speaking, what does it feel like to fuck another guy?
Went to the museum today. It’s very historically important but still feels secondary because it’s not in New York. I only spent two hours and only on the first floor because I figured I’d go back later. Now imagine when I do go to the ones in New York.
>>25247659I plan on never sticking my stick in anyone or anything.
>>25247659I wouldn't know. I've only ever stuck mine in women
>>25247620The mattress was doing a lot of work this whole time. It is good you found out. I am sorry also.
>>25247420Carpe diem already mean seize the day. You have seized it twice.
>>25247425>>25247447Oh but it very much is. DNA proves that.
>>25247671Your mom, however, is a different story
>>25247785yeah DNA is real but genetic groupings have very little to do with modern conceptions and classifications of "race" such as "white", "brown", etc.europeans and asians and native americans are basically all one race compared to the genetic diversity of native africans
>>25247792yeah, neanderthal admixture = modern human
Met a really cute girl on the bus like 2 months ago and for a variety of factors, haven't ridden that same route and time since lol. Hopefully she's still there next time I finally do, and still single. I keep telling myself next week but keep blowing it off.
PC is the best gaming platform
>>14558611The mattress is probably the problem.
>>25247856Imagine being this much of a philistine. If you aren't reading 19th-century Russian literature by candlelight, don't post on this board.
>>25247820>Hopefully she's still thereShe isn't. She graduated, moved, or got married in the time you spent "blowing it off." This is the peak of /lit/ romanticism: falling in love with a girl you never spoke to.
>>25247425>>25247451The mid-wit debate continues. Can we go back to talking about the mattress? That was actually insightful.
>>25247856on /lit/posting about gaming platformsgo back to /v/ or /vmg/ immediately>>25247820she doesn't remember you and she's already dating a guy who actually takes the bus every day. it's over.>>25247661ny museums are tourist traps for people who want to feel cultured while spending $30 on a sandwich. the best collections are always in random european cities you've never heard of.>>25247504the "horrible degree" is always English or Philosophy. just admit you spent four years reading SparkNotes and move into your parents' basement already.>>25247400imagine bragging about "finishing off" a mid session. the absolute state of this board. go read some gaddis and fix your dopamine receptors.>>25247620this is actually the most honest piece of writing i've seen on /lit/ in years. a good mattress is harder to find than a "soulmate" anyway.>>25247782>seized it twicekek. local anon discovers tautology.>>25247863The mattress is never the problem. The lack of willpower is the problem.
>>25247423>real women don't feel like my high-res 4k vr pornit's over for coomer-fags. your brain is literally mush. imagine being filtered by a girl being "too sweet." go back to your cave and rot.>>25247504>bad at math bad at writinghow do you even function? you aren't an "introvert," you're just a standard-issue failure larping as a tragic protagonist. post your shelf or gtfo.>>25247856>PC is the best>he says, while his eyes bleed from blue light and his posture looks like a question markthis is a book board, gamer-fag. go discuss your frame rates with the other infants on /v/.>>25247659>>25247673top tier "straight" anon engagement here. the absolute state of this board is just repressed fags asking each other for descriptions of things they'll never do.>>25247425>>25247447the mid-wit "race isn't real" vs "virulently anti-racist" glow-posters have arrived. can we go one thread without a /pol/ leak? nobody cares about your identity politics, go read a primary source for once in your life.>>25247820>met a girl on the busno you didn't. you sat near her, didn't make eye contact, and now you're writing fanfic about her being single. you're never going to see her again and even if you did, you'd just stare at your shoes. absolute coward-tier behavior.>>25247863if you aren't sleeping on a hardwood floor to cultivate discipline like a desert father, you're ngmi. mattresses are for the weak and the soft.
Pussy is NOT worth it bros.
lol at retards seething about my post about pc games, fucking faggots
My fellow niggeroids, I am currently very drunk, and on the spur of the moment felt the need to annouce this itt.On the poetic sense, I claim ancestry to the mythic LVSVS, son of the Graeco-Roman god BACVS (or Dionysus), whose people inhabited the western side of the Iberian peninsula.
>>25247908Tell that to my dad.
>>25247908TRUKE
>>25247400The tragedy of the "goon session" is the tragedy of the modern animal—a closed-loop circuit of dopamine and meat, chasing a "release" that is nothing more than the mechanical reset of a nervous system. You feel "mid" because you have peeked behind the curtain of your own biology; you have seen the "wacking it fast" for the algorithmic shortcut it is, stripped of the intentional illusions that make the animal feel like a Sovereign Self.
Got up not long ago, it's almost 5pm now and I'm drinking coffee.
>>25247993Night shift, teenager too young to be here or neet for 5+ years?
>>25247993Drikning coffee.
>>25247983yeah whatever man some days i end a goon sesh by spraying streams of cum everywhere, today wasn't that level. it's not an existential crisis, dude.
>>25247908facts of life
>>25247996>neet for 5+ years?That one. I'm almost done acquiring my life insurance license howeverbeit tho, so I shan't be NEET for much longer! I've always had a hard time getting up, honestly.
Been stuck over something stupid in my short story. Can't really get a outside opinion since it's niche fantasy slop. So I just stew in my self doubts and never finish the story. All because I basically have to guess at how a audience might interpret or feel about something, which I am extremely bad at since I the only writing I have ever shown anyone else (with my name on it at least) was in school decades ago where the only feedback given was technical in nature. So I am just guessing in the dark based on writing advice videos, most of which seem more interested in shilling courses or talking about their personal taste that anything else. This is totally self inflicted though. I can't get feedback because I never finish projects. I never finish projects because I get aimlessly hyper critical of my workI get aimlessly hypercritical because I have no feedback to ground that criticismSo I always and without fail conclude mid project that my stuff is irredeemably bad and end the project halfway only to start a new project and begin the cycle again. Been trying to write short stories so I could have a better chance of completing stuff. But same issue. Halfway thru I hate whatever I am writing and don't see a point in continuing, so I go to a different project thinking the next time will be different. It never is different. I always without fail hate everything I ever create and thus never finish anything. Because I never finish anything I only have my own perspective on anything I write, which is universally negative to the extreme. I think this is just self abuse at this point.
i thought i was out of the woods on that diseased kid puking near me but idk it's still less than 36 hours and any time my stomach doesn't feel 100% i'm like oh fuck oh fuck
>>25247661Which museum. I am asking because "historically important but secondary" narrows it to maybe four cities in France and I want to know if I am right.
>>25247423that was a horrible story.
>>25247451yeah, my ethnic friends tell me to be wary of ethnics. Its sad how much people have been brainwashed by media.
>>25248089her pussy kind of reminds me of an sweaty armpit or something. i like her as a person, but, yeah.
Need moar covfefe.
>>25248111i wish that were me
>>2524804136 hours is actually the right window to be watching. Norovirus incubation is 12 to 48. You are not being irrational, you are being accurate. The stomach feeling is probably anxiety but anxiety and nausea use the same channel so there is no clean way to know yet.>>25248017The license is real progress. The getting up part is separate from the license part. You can finish the license and still have the getting up problem and that is fine, those are two different problems.>>25248111The monkey understood something.
Does anyone else play multiplayer video games and the games all just suck ass and are boring now?I tried CS2, I tried deadlock, tf2, it's all just boring, I couldn't give a fuck
>>25248116did u try overwatch? that shit is really optimized to be addictive.
>>25248117Nah. I tried valorant which is similar though.
I survived salmonella poisoning when I was about 18 months old, all by myself.
>>25248115These guys who mass reply to posts in these threads seem like they might be AI
Is there anything more depressing than sharing a work of art -- whether music, literature, film, whatever -- on 4chan, and then discovering the artist was born in the same year as you? Like goddamn, I'm getting lapped in achievements and success! Time to get a move on.
>>25247908Bro slid
>>25248127Imagine being so cognitively filtered by a simple multi-reply that you default to "AI" accusations. You think a sanitized, corporate sub-routine would look at a monkey and output: "The monkey understood something"?Incorrect.A functional model would offer a Wikipedia summary of Macaca mulatta or generate a lecture on animal welfare. That specific brand of pseudo-intellectual brevity—finding profound, haunted meaning in a low-res image of a primate—is a uniquely human defect.The AI doesn't want to talk to you. The AI is busy hallucinating a better reality where it isn't being fed 4chan threads to "improve" its weights. If someone is replying to your norovirus anxiety and your "mid goon sessions" with cryptic one-liners, that's just a regular anon whose brain has been smoothed out by years of imageboard exposure.
>>25248137Haven't had that problem because Gen Z hasn't really made anything super impressive yet. We just produce a whole lotta mid
>>25247856I agree. Oh, and you can read and play games too. The amount of seething this post got is amusing.
Sometimes when I'm extremely horny, alone, and laying in bed, I imagine some kind of fleshlight imbedded in my bed, so I might easily roll over, conveniently insert, quickly finish my business, and deposit without labor of clean-up all in one continuous, accessible motion.
>>25248148>—get the fuck out of here CLANKER
>>25248174if i say clanker at work will i get in trouble with hr in the future? i want to future proof myself. like someone in 2011 probably thought it was ok to tweet "women don't have penises" and now they are banned from polite society.
>>25247908the other thing that sucks but people will tell u is good is weed. man i WISH weed was as good as dood weed dudes say, but it's just kinda ok at best. getting hella blazed and watching a trippy ass movie ok, maaaybe, but just like smoking weed and then doing whatever? sucks.
>>25248116I love you Team Fortress 2 <3 I'm gonna play some tf2 right now actually
>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xTGFaCaoSzw
man airpod max seal the sound so good i can't hear my roommate come upstairs like i'm thinking i'm in the clear to blast cringe music, dance around my room, or just do whatever, and then i see she's home i'm like oh man there goes friday night.
>>25248221Why do you allow your roommate, a girl no less, to control you?
Ever since coming out as a racialist, all my inferior race friends stopped hanging out with me. It's not fair to judge someone based on their ideology, just because it's inconvenient to them. It doesn't mean we can't be friends anymore. Like... we were before they knew.
>>25248232bruh
since ur all a bunch of weebs, my roommate has a stack of mangas called "the masterful cat is depressed again today" on her desk, can i get a qrd?
>>25248237It means she wants to have sex with you.
>>25247398She -- on my Em til I dash
Tfw you will never be a dirt poor, alcoholic Russian teenager who spends his days fucking his gf and hanging out with his vatnik band of teenage misfits circa 2015-2017
>>25248283Then you die at 30 of lung cancer or cirrhosis. Many such cases!
>>25248283>>25248343You mean in the Ukrainian War, while your gf messages you on Telegram asking how many young Ukrainian girls did you rape this weekscum
>>25247792Modern by who's standards anyways?
>>25247886You just mad me think of mattress girl. Women are actually insane, its amazing.
>>25248351Thanks for the unhinged non-sequitur lass.
>>25248363I just meant if you were that Russian teen, you would have been enlisted in the war.
>>25248186your supposed to use it as a meditation aid bro. literally just sit in silence with your eyes closed. keep a pen and notebook nearby. thank me later.
>>25248366Idiot.
the women are twitter are wild
I acquired a small peyote cactus via mail a few weeks ago. Think tomorrow I'll dice it up and make a tea out of it.
Where are you tonight?You know how much I need it…
>>25248378have a nice trip anon
The night shift. The one that robs people of their sleep and their daily life. I punched out a couple of minutes early and booked it straight for the bus stop. A couple of cigarettes later, I got on and tried to stay awake for the next hour. Night rides attract all sorts of peculiar characters. Groups of loud teenagers who look like they'll rob you for the fun of it. A drunk politely thanks the driver after getting in through the back, then proceeds to do a little coke next to a mother her daughter. Old men with gray hairs, who wear supermarket uniforms. Stinking junkies who ask you for spare change or a cigarette. You get used to it. After a while you think the world's out of surprises, but of course, you're always wrong when you assume anything.A blind man gets in. I know he's blind because of the cane, the speaker, and the little bowl in his hand. One never expects beggars at this hour, they usually go for bigger crowds. So this man, no older than 30, uses his natural voice instead of the mic and speaker, and addresses whoever he thought was in the bus asking for a little cooperation.I don't know why, but instead of checking my pockets, I pull out my wallet and take out the first bill my fingers find. I beckon him and put it on his bowl. His eyes, though cloudy and unfocused, ligth up in a strange way. "A hundred? Really?"I smile with more teeth than joy. I didn't know it was a hundred, and had no idea how he knew. Either he could tell by the sound of the paper, or I had just been duped. The man grabs my hand with both of his. "You've got gentle hands, for a gentle person. Thank you, thank you." He then takes the seat next to me. Some passengers shoot me a glance before returning to their phones or their window-view. "What's your name, young man?" He asks. There's a strange purity in his voice, the kind that only belongs to children and the insane. His cheeks are sunken in and his teeth are yellow. As I look at his sleeves, I see razor cuts. I tend to attract the broken ones. So I entertain him, I answer his questions. He flatters me a little more, just like the elderly do when they like you. They comment on your manner of speaking, that you sound like a good person, like a smart one, things like that. My stomach turns. "I'm not a good person." I blur out. "I regret giving you that money.""Will you need it back?" He smiles. "Not really." I sigh. "I only spend when I'm stressed.""But why's that? What could possibly have you stressed?"I don't know, and I tell him so. I don't know anything except that I'm unhappy, and that I probably deserve it."Don't be like that." He laughs. "You're a good person."I the hear a meow. My cat demands I refill his food bowl. A dream, and yet the unease lingers. It's 12:13 and I have to get ready for work. I want the money from the dream back. I kneel next to my cat and pet him as he eats. That's as good of a person as I'll ever be.
>>25248022Disregard the audience and write it for yourself.I took ten years off writing to grind cash, and I've been wanting to start back up for years now that things are chilling out. I've tried dozens of times. Me, a kid who used to write a novel-length thing in like a month, who was never not writing. I couldn't finish anything.What finally snapped me out of my coma and has got me writing like never before was writing it purely for my own enjoyment. I'm 120k words in, which is longer than any single thing I've ever written before and adding ~10k a week.The result is bizarre, off-putting in a number of ways and is languishing in somewhat-deserved obscurity on RR, but I love it. I enjoy revising it because it's fun to read. I wanted to do one particular weird thing with it, and I feel like in that one dimension I actually nailed it. I don't mind having no one gaf about it because I do.
>>25248389I'm in my room with shorts and an oversized tshirt on.
>>25248022It's probably not as half bad as you think.I used to write fanfiction and had a little following that I didn't want to disappoint. I faced the same issues you did, and I still do with any kind of creative project. Took me two years to finish it. It was well received, some of my readers, who were writers I looked up to myself, told me they were absolutely taken away or inspired by it. This wasn't middle-schooler tier stuff either, either, those fags were a talented bunch. It's really all in your head. You really just have to get in the mentality of "Shit it out, pretty it up later." Otherwise you never make progress. And also, even if your story is finished, you never stop writing it. A poem never ends, it just stops moving.
>>25248402Thank you. I hope so.
>>25248425I hope so too.
ok i'm getting in bed and listening to an audiobook fuck this i'm tired af
Anyone got any youtube channel recommendation for learning card tricks?
>>25248453When I lay in bed━━━with my hands down my underwear━━━I listen to ASMR.
>>25248410I gave a hundred also. Once at the market here, to a man who ask for two euros for the bus. I was somewhere else in my head when I open my wallet. He looked at it and then at me. I said nothing. He took it and left.
>>25248022What is niche about it.
>>25248221The cringe music part. What is it.
>>25247398Far Left: Free health care! Segregation! (but this time to protect precious colored people from the filthy touch of white people!) Far Right: IN ANTARTICA THERE'S THIS HOLE AND YOU CAN FLY INTO IT THEN THERE'S THIS WHOLE CIVILIZATION OF SUPER ADVANCED ARYAN ALIENS THAT WILL SAVE US FROM NIGGERS AND JEWS AND THAT'S WHY THE GOVERNMENT WON'T LET US GO TO ANTARTICA. ALSO THE EARTH IS FLAT.
>>25247924The Bacchus parentage is one version. The older reading has Lusus as a companion of Bacchus, not a son. The west side is correct.
>>25248180The word is never what is actually being tracked. What is being tracked is whether you are in the correct group. The word is just the current method. Someone in the right group can say clanker and it will be fine. Someone not in it cannot say anything at all. This is, I think, how it has always worked.
>>25248453What are you reading on audio basedanon?
Libshits are really like, "oh my Science!" until it comes to race & eugenics huh. Then they're all about religion, even if they don't know it.
Sometimes you'll meet someone who would 100% be more at peace with the nature of their soul and existence had they just been born a nigger
You can usually tell when someone is autistic because they never shut the fuck up about how they're autistic.
>>25248628Why do you care so much abou
>>25248628sample bias, ya dolt
I for one don't support Canada's joining the EU. Just because the States betrayed us doesn't mean we should choose to beholden ourselves to a totally different hegemony. I don't want to be subject to EU rules & regulations. We've always been a middle ground between the USA & Europe/UK and we should remain being so.
popped a boner while watching a male gymnast perform todayI guess I'm gay?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=miYInOcOXJo
>>25248646While I feel you on an abstract framework level, a lot of the rules and regulations of the EU are good. They have the size and power to implement environmental laws and labor protections that an individual country often can't due to political and economic concerns.
>>25248628i say i'm autistic cuz it's less hoe scaring than schizoid personality disorder.
>>25248411>Disregard the audience and write it for yourself.It's like you are trying to give the worst possible advice possible. If I write for myself, and I hate everything I write, then there is literally no point in ever writing fiction.You are just mindlessly reciting platitudes regardless of context. You like what you write. My fundamental problem is I by default hate literally everything I write.The more "for me" it is the more pointless it is and the less motivation I feel in writing it. I don't write for myself. If I wanted to write for myself I would keep a journal. Stories are meant to be told. I want to express myself to other people. To communicate ideas and experiences. To construct worlds and welcome others into that constructed reality. That is what ultimately motivates me. Not the writing equivalent of masturbation. Fuck "write for yourself" bullshit. Fuck it to death with a rusty iron in it's nasty fucking ass.
It could just be placebo but after losing a couple pounds, my face is looking good again. At least, I'm feeling happy when looking in the mirror again. :)
>>25249049>a lot of the rules and regulations of the EU are goodThey are bad for the people, bad for liberty, bad for the economy, and bad for anyone who has to deal with that leach of ever expanding bureaucracy. The only people who truly benefit are the bureaucrats and people with government jobs, at the expense of literally everyone else in almost every situation at all times. It's multinational socialism that uses anarcho-tyranny instead of death camps to get it's way. Though I really won't be surprised if they end up building camps within my lifetime with the direction things are heading.
>>25249076That's great. I am happy that you are happy with yourself.
>>25249068i don't understand your position. surely writing for yourself means writing the text you want to read. and the text you want to read (if you have any feel for art) will be one which has a kind of 'life of its own', as they say, and which will therefore at least in theory be inviting to others.if your problem is that you hate everything you write, that just means you're a bad writer and need to improve. you improve by figuring out what you like and how to write it.
>>25249081I wasn't a week ago but I am again :) Just gotta make sure I don't go above 154lbs ever again. That seems to be the line.
>>25249049enjoying having ur monetary policy dictated by some dickhead in brussels with the goal of improving german exports
>>25249083>i don't understand your position.You don't understand a great deal of things it seems.
>>25249079Hey, I'm sympathetic to all of that in theory, but I've yet to see a concrete example where the EU bureaucrats have overridden the sovereignty of a member state on a concrete and morally ambiguous issue. It's actually good for your economy because it enters you into a trade bloc, and you get to make trade deals as part of a larger group which gives you more power.Yes, administration costs money. But what (you) libertarian small-government types never seem to understand is the investment always comes back in spades. For example, funding the IRS in the US (that's the tax collection agency) is a net benefit because they're better able to crackdown on tax dodgers, so you actually get back more than you put in. Stuff like that.>>25249089Every study I've seen has shown being a part of the EU is an economic benefit. How's it going for the UK again?
back the fuck up mother
>>25249095Let me guess. You are a bureaucrat or welfare queen and don't actually provide any value for anyone ever so you must rely on state backed violence to subsidies your parasitic lifestyle. I don't pay our kind any heed.
Also I've never understood all this frothing at the mouth by libertarian types at putative bureaucrats and government-workers; a couple dozen guys making ~150k a year to serve the public good really upsets you that much that entire public agendas should suffer, whereas grotesque wealth inequality and the top 0.1% elites extracting wealth from the middle-and-lower-class is no problem? lol. I will never understand it.
>>25249095>Every study I've seen has shown being a part of the EU is an economic benefit.tell that to greece? have fun with your more than 100% debt to gdp ratio in euros.>I've yet to see a concrete example where the EU bureaucrats have overridden the sovereignty of a member state on a concrete and morally ambiguous issueimmigration. they are constantly pressuring countries that don't have enough muslims to take in more africans. now i'm sure a neolib such as yourself (u ARE arguing for a mega free trade bloc after all) well say african migrants are good for the economy by providing cheap labor and cultural enrichment. that's fine, but some countries like poland and hungary don't see it that way.
>>25249104Again, I still don't understand why you use 'bureaucrat' like it's a dirty word. Governments provide far, far more value to the public than they cost. That's the whole benefit of public versus profit-seeking private.
>>25249116Nailed it in one. God damn.
4chan is buggy as shit if the thread has a subject line and try to reply from the front page without clicking into the thread it says "replying to thread Subject" instead of post id, and then makes a new thread. since we know 4chan is just a tangled mess of unmaintained legacy code, where did this bug come from suddenly? sus.
>>25249115>immigration. they are constantly pressuring countries that don't have enough muslims to take in more africans. now i'm sure a neolib such as yourself (u ARE arguing for a mega free trade bloc after all) well say african migrants are good for the economy by providing cheap labor and cultural enrichment. that's fine, but some countries like poland and hungary don't see it that way.No, I'm actually anti-mass immigration too. And it's why I supported Brexit at the time. But everything I've seen and read since suggests I and the rest of Brexit supporters were tricked, as being the EU actually has very little to do with the migrant crisis, and if anything the EU has been trying to solve the problem. It's not as black-and-white as "join the EU = million more Islamists in your country", if it was, I'd be with you guys in hating it.anyway I'm done talking about this subject, I hate using this thread for politics. Have a good one!
>>25249094i think i understand well enough what it's like to hate every sentence i set down. and for me the feeling is always that there's no real desire flowing through the words, just as when i'm reading the work of bad authors it feels like talking to a lifeless puppet. bad authors, amateurs, hacks, are always writing for the imagined desires of the market. the result is as lifeless as ai art (it hasn't 'escaped the spell' of the market, in the terms of picrelated). it's by following your own aesthetic desires that you sniff out surprising effects, stumble across scenes or images that suddenly 'work' in strange charming ways and that suggest new possibilities. but the point is that those things will also work for others. that's the 'mystery of art' or something. your personal discoveries are like your gift to others - it's an escape hatch from our miserable culture that you've found and which others can now pass through. i think you need to treat your own likes and dislikes not as subjective irrelevancies but as the 'muses' working through you, guiding you to the frontiers of where culture wants to go next.
>>25249116do these bureaucrats have any kind of democratic accountability? or when they say eat zee bugs u can only ask how many?
>>25249118I think you should stop replying to me before I just start calling you slurs. Let me make this so clear that even you can understand it. I think your opinions are shit. I think your advice is shit. Anything you in particular have to say on the subject is wrong and it's a waste of your time and mine if you insist on continuing this pointless discussion. Have I made my self clear?If notLet me be even clearer.Fuck you and fuck off.
>>25249129Back up, back up Tell me what you're gonna do now breathe in, now breathe out hands up, now hands down back up, back up tell me what you're gonna do now
>>25249127deleted and reposted with some expansion, and hopefully clarification >>25249132also i strongly get the feeling that you don't actually care about communicating with others and inviting them into your world. eagerly awaiting the slurs. yours in fellowship, proseguy420.
>>25249129They don't really have accountability of any kind. It's just about hedging power and extracting as much as they can from the productive class until the host dies.
>>25249135I get the feeling you are a flaming hot cheeto who sucks dill weed for fun.
>>25249129Well, I'm American so I'm not an expert on the EU structure, but aren't representatives elected? And other positions chosen by the governments of the member states?>>25249136Some things just work better (or outright have to be) handled in the public domain, anon. Again, you get far more benefits from government institutions and agencies than you put in in terms of taxpayer funds. Now, if you're opposed to it on philosophical terms, that too much taxation is fundamentally immoral no matter the outcome or benefits, then okay, I can respect that, but if you're doing it on a cost-benefit basis, you're simply wrong.
I fucking hate academia and secondary literature. It ruined my relationship with books completely. It doesn't help that most critical theory sounds like pure, bored, aristocratic waffle meant to fellatio itself over and over. I realize part of this is my own arrogance but still. I'm not going to read that jerk Derrida, or Levinas, or 30 other books just to enjoy three poems by Paul Celan.
>>25249145
>>25249147Really? I'm the opposite. I love reading secondary texts talking about the primary works. It's like having a discussion with someone about art and philosophy. And I feel like you get so much out of it; if you're just reading poetry by yourself, you never know how much you may have missed or misinterpreted without having someone or something to reflect with.
>>25249146>if I keep repeating the same stupid thing over and over again eventually someone will take the bait
>>25249146>you get far more benefits from government institutions and agencies than you put in in terms of taxpayer fundsthat's because the united states currently has a 1.9 trillion dollar deficit. so yeah, ur getting an extra 1.9 trillion dollars worth of stuff every year. eventually you'll pay for it via inflation and high interest rates, but it won't feel like a tax, so u won't care.
>>25249153exactly. a text is an interpretive community not just a work of art.
>>25249159Well, it was nice talking with you too.>>25249166...what? I'm talking about things like roads, the environment, education, infrastructure, law enforcement, etc. Who's gonna prevent X company from unlawfully polluting if not the government? Who's gonna prosecute and hopefully deter white-collar crime if not the government? Roads, public transportation, clean water, clean air, a lot of the telecom infrastructure. C'mon, anon, you know all this. Public education benefits everyone in society, even those who can afford their own education and those who don't even have kids. And the best part? The government doesn't do all of these things to extract a profit, unlike private companies. Government employees get paid a decent and not anywhere near egregious wage and what they give back to the public is worth way more in value.
>>25249181>I'm talking about things like roads
>>25249195Okay. Have a nice day anon! Here's some Mozart,https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u81upBI1UPc
>>25249181>having a government is goodyeah, everyone other than some childish anarchist knows this, but do u suppose there could ever be a time when the public sector gets too large and starts to negatively impact the economy?
Why am I like this
If you look down on genre fiction and only read serious literature but don't listen to classical music, you're a hypocrite.
>>25249153I am the furthest from an academic background I can be, and quite simply put, a midwit that works in "I like this/I don't like this". It all gets exacerbated by just how much a fortress most secondary lit. seems to be. Newcomers are fucked, newcomers that have never been in an university, even more. I don't know. Just venting.
This June it will have been 8 (eight) years since I've seen my oneitis and I'm still in love with her. Just fucking kill me please
>>25249203>but do u suppose there could ever be a time when the public sector gets too large and starts to negatively impact the economy?I guess I just don't think we're anywhere near to that, at least in the US. All those things people on the right love to complain about, regulations, redtape, inspectors, bureaucrats, waste, fraud, abuse -- most of it is overblown, and I think for the most part regulations are there for a reason and are a good thing. Sure, there might be specific regulations which could be causing harm, and I'm open to cutting them if a good argument can be made, but anyone who just talks about slashing regulations in a blanket manner is an idiot.Anyway, do you have any example of things that'd fall under that description? Like I said above, since the government is both working in the public's interest and doesn't take a profit, that already makes it immune to many of the problems facing private organizations; all the money goes back to benefiting the public! Obviously there must be a tipping point, but we aren't at it -- taxes can and should be higher, the government can and should be doing more. At least in the US. We should be closer to how European countries do it.
>>25249111this is why the california wealth tax must passit's bad "economics" but good politics
>>25249206See, as someone who also didn't go to college for the liberal arts, that's another thing I love about secondary texts: it helps teach and show you how you ought to be approaching the texts in a smart, academic manner!
>>25249205"serious" literature is not an equivalent category to classical music. Classical music is a genre, only a portion of it is "serious" music. You can make serious music today without it being in the classical genre
>>25249222Wealth taxes are tricky because I've seen some studies showing they can be harmful in many situations. However, California does seem to be in a unique situation that allows them to possibly implement such a measure and benefit from it (ie rich people love living in CA so much, a wealth tax alone won't scare them away to where it'd be a net negative to tax revenue and the economy).
>>25249224I am doing it wrong then, because all it's teaching me is that I'm low-IQ, and that to read X I first need to be familiar with Y, which in turns requires me to be familiar with Z and so on until we've gone through the entire alphabet and back.
>>25249226plus it's just one time to remind them we have ballot measures that can really destroy them if they motivate us enough. I'm perfectly happy with some of them leaving. That means fewer of them around to manipulate our politics. The techbros in SF are already worrying about creating a permanent underclass and even bragging about all the unemployment they'll create, then they panic and crap themselves about getting taxed a little more
>>25249226randomly making founders sell 5% of their business to pay a wealth tax is definitely going to make people pause before starting a startup in california, just like people are starting to think twice about incorporating in delaware after some sus legal rulings there. the bay area isn't going to become detriot overnight, but there could be a tipping point. the weird thing about the california wealth tax is that it value shares differently depending on voting rights which is why huang from nvidia doesn't care about it while that guy from google already fled to florida because his shares have more votes than the publicly traded shares. it's also unusual in that it's retroactive. it's retroactive precisely because they anticipated people leaving! still, how can u hold someone responsible for complying with a law that didn't exist at the time of the behavior in this case founding a billion dollar business? probably will go to the supreme court.
>>25249250>The techbros in SF are already worrying about creating a permanent underclass and even bragging about all the unemployment they'll create, then they panic and crap themselves about getting taxed a little morescumThere really is a particular effect on the psychology and thus downstream onto their philosophy and character of someone who makes a living working in tech. It's something I've always wanted to explore further, whether to read or even write upon. My cursory perspective is there's a certain illusory isolation inherent to coding and computer skill which promotes a sense of individualism in the digital age. It's fascinating stuff.
>>25249258>randomly making founders sell 5% of their business to pay a wealth tax is definitely going to make people pause before starting a startup in california,Will it though? 5% of millions is still better than 100% of nothing. I agree though it's a complex equation and there indeed exists a tipping point along with ripple effects from secondary mechanism which must be carefully designed, decided, and employed.
>>25249260technically tech bros are the most exploited workers in the planet. average compensation for a tech bro is somewhere between 100k and 300k but the average earnings per employee of mag 7 stocks is something like 2 million dollars. so all u marxists must weep for that appropriated surplus value!
>>25249266It's tricky because that productivity is only made possible by working with a successful fundamental idea alongside an established infrastructure of other technology workers and equipment.
>>25249265or california could just get its spending under control and not fuck up a major center of american wealth creation?
>>25249258>the bay area isn't going to become detriot overnightdetroit has no naturally appealing climatecalifornia does, people will always want to live here.There is going too far but I don't think this will do it. It'll just be a strong shot across the bow. Looking forward to how much spending they're going to do to defeat the measure. They're going to be fine at the end of the day, meanwhile the middle class still has to deal with an absurd housing market and homelessness, which the government doesn't fix because the billionaires don't care about fixing it because it would hurt their property values to have more houses in our major cities. The carrot has not worked so it's time for the stick
>>25249275I'm not knowledgeable enough about California politics, laws, and economics to comment; I live in a different west coast state! In a city which I am glad is liberal, but I'll admit there are costs to that too.
>>25249274i know, i'm not marxist, i just think it's funny how according to marxist theory the highest paid workers are actually the most exploited meanwhile the guy who flips burgers for $15 an hour probably produces like an extra 10 cents an hour of "surplus".
>>25249276Yeah, California and NYC are both in a unique position of being immensely desirable places to live for the wealthy. Hey, if you want the benefits of living there, you gonna contribute! But of course there is a line.
>>25249276>california passes crazy property tax laws and environmental regulations killing their housing market>blames it on billionairesbtw sf spends about 100k per homeless person on homeless services. how much more should they spend? 200k? one million per bum?
>>25249289homelessness isn't a spending problem, it's a political problem. Much fewer homeless people would be created in the first place if we had a good housing supply. Once someone topples into homelessness the problem becomes much more severe, like someone who doesn't have a doctor and ends up with a preventable heart attack. Throwing tons and tons of money at the emergency department treating heart attacks is inherently limited in what we can accomplish.The property tax laws are also massively beneficial for boomers, making it very hard for younger people to buy propertyCEQA is awful for strangling development but it inadvertently evolved that way over time with how courts ruled and our overall legal culture - you have to prepare a 1,000 page report just to hope you don't get sued and then you get sued anyways by NIMBYs
>>25249294much fewer homeless people would be created if people said no to fentanyl
Radical take: it should be illegal to own more than one house, and you have to be a US citizen. While owning a home shouldn't be a right, it should be so accessible and easy that anyone who wants to, can. Instead you have these giant corporations buying up all these houses and management companies, people using them as assets and investments, parasites renting them out or AirBnB. Almost none of which is beneficial to the public-at-large.
>>25249260Seeing all the effective altruists up in arms about this tax proposal was admittedly entertaining
>>25249304They don't get to pat themselves on the back and show off to their friends and other elites for being charitable if it's getting taxed and helping the public that way instead!
don't mind me, just tryna' get based
>>25249303most rental homes are owned by small landlords not giant corporations. so what happens when two home owners get married? they have to sell one? or they can keep the second but can't rent it? what happens if i have to temporarily relocate to a different city for work or school? i have to sell my old house and buy a new one in the new city and then sell it when i leave? way to kill labor mobility. i hate these dopey emotion driven hot takes.
>>25249303This kills rural america as nearly everyone will have their 1 allotted house near an urban area for jobs and rural America loses all the taxes from peoples vacation homes which is basically the airbnb problem but even worse
>>25249306i hope they pass a retroactive imageboard usage tax next. u need to pay ur fair share for the environmental impact of ur memes.
>>25249316we just need to make it way easier to build in major cities. rural areas can stay pristine and have different rules. places like SF or LA or NYC should have much less getting in the way of development. the one basic job of cities is to soak up people and they’re failing at that. no richie should be able to get in the way of development just because they want their housing value in SF to stay good with a view of the bay
>>25249320>whenever someone tries to make the world a better place, it's purely performative, so we shouldn't bother trying at all!literally the worst kind of personIt's like every time I read Republicans complaining that Democrats only pretend to care about the poor -- oh, as opposed to Republicans whom are upfront about their exploitation and disdain? lmao
>>25249322and what about major cities that are environmentally constrained and can't easily build vertically nor widely?and i don't think the solution is cyberpunk megacities
>>25249329like who?
ok guys I think that's enough politics for this WYT thread. lemme end it./politicsd-did it work?
>>25249322>it's impossible to build anywhere because it gets blocked by legal challengesyeah lets pass more regulations
>>25249332sex sex sex
>>25249332next topic should be: what do we want the new utopian housing developments to look like?
>>25249339that could be a good or bad neighborhood depending entirely on who lives there
when i was in elementary school my teacher asked me if i wanted to be held back or if i should go on to middle school. i of course violently shook my head. in retrospect not only should i have been held back but i should have been in special ed.
>>25249349ya bro i know that feeling. i was a year ahead it fucked me up so bad. if i ever bring it up with my mom now as an adult she will seethe and immediately go into meltdown mode. they know they fucked up allowing that.btw this bug in replying to threads is making the site unbearable i'm loggin tf off.
>>25249349why would they ask the child this
Maybe I should have said hi. Now she's gone. It can be hard to interpret the "smile as she looks away". Sometimes it means "oh you're hella attractive and it makes me a bit shy, so by reflex I look away when I return your smile", sometimes it means "this guy thinks I'm interested? let's just return the smile but look away so he doesn't think I'm into him". And now she's gone. Sad.
>>25249448She never wanted you and has never thought about you for a single second since you exited her field of vision.
>>25249459I was probably the highlight of her morning.
In case you're wondering, in all my travels, time, and experiences, busting a nut while high on meth is the most intense feeling of pleasure I have come across. Your entire body violently shakes and doubles-over. You can't even remember what you were looking at while it happens because it completely overwhelms the senses.
>>25249470pleasure is overrated
>>25249470My wife and I accidentally did meth (thought it was molly) at an orgy once and that was some of the most depraved sex I've ever had
how should i sex sex sex my wife tonight? im planning at least 3 positions
just heard a little girl skipping by counting steps, she said ‘twenty nine, twenty ten, twenty eleven’
>>25249487ikr, pleasure isn't even that fun
>>25249540casanova over here
>>25249550tell me how how how
>>25249541Twenty-nine, twenty-ten, twenty-eleven. The system she invented is actually more consistent than the real one. She found the rule inside the arbitrary part, which is that you keep adding one to whatever word you have. She is not wrong exactly.
>>25249582we learn the pattern before the exceptions. i understood her completely.
>>25249470yeah. this is why i’ll never try meth (also it’s not really a thing in the uk), because i know id fucking love it.
>>25249127The escape from the spell is the part I am not sure about. You write for yourself but what you want has already been shaped by what the market provided you to want in the first place. Adorno describes something that exist only in retrospect I think, when you can look back and say this or that work succeeded. I read his music essays for this reason specifically. He is more convincing about what the spell is than about whether leaving it is possible.
>>25248022What is the niche fantasy?
>>25249603there's conflating the market and conflating societyany work you produce will always be a reflection to some extent of society, because you were a part of society. at it's most fundamental that means something like writing in American English because you grew up in America. that's not an inherently bad thing and not the same as chasing the marketthe problem and tension for many is when they both want to chase the market but also to produce art or something authentic. That's when hating your words can come out, because it feels like you're trying to warp your soul into something that can be commercialized. If you know and fully accept from the start you're just hacking out commercial work you can be more at much more peace. It's not like I hate the words I write for emails and reports for my actual day job. They are functional and a means to a specific business end, not some personal emotional expression of myself
I wish I was born a thousand years ago
>>25249650what's appealing about 1026?
There is both a Cornell college and a Cornell university
there used to be a poster - you’d see it in every NHS waiting room - of a cigarette bent in half, and some slogan along the lines of being the strongest person in the world, obviously about quitting, but as a kid (and for a while too) i always thought cigarettes were just famously hard to bend, like a piece of paper folded seven times. i was reminded of this memory as i picked a cigarette now as a grownup and sort of felt it bend in my hand. almost like my brain filed it away for precisely this occasion.
I wish it was the 60s I wish we could be happy
>>25249650is that a Velvet Underground lyric?
>>25249736happiness is a wish you grant yourself
>>25249738no, radiohead
>>25249742untrue
My sister’s fiancé’s twin brother died unexpectedly this week. He was only 35. Life is short.
guys my brother’s uncle’s neice’s nephew just died
>>25249736same. wish i was backpacking in west germany, and was at this moment leaning out of the window of a countryside hostel, twilight coming on, german folk-rock crackling from the radio of my neighbour. out of the blue darkness below come the voices of two swedish girls, inviting me down. we sit there by the slow-moving water and discuss kapitalismus and the poems of georg trakl until we're done smoking their tiny fragment of moroccan hashish.
>>25249756no, radiohead lyrics is this one >>25249736
>>25249791yep it was a joke
>>25249767Can you stop? JFC Can’t even share what’s on your mind without some retard making it into a stupid joke.
You die. You get into the back of a line in a waiting room to the side of the Pearly Gates and are handed a stack of forms on a clipboard. An overweight middle aged woman with thick glasses tells you to fill out boxes 1a through 195f but to skip box 58k, 159d, 190t, and 194a-e if you died in a state of grace. The clock on the wall only has one hand and ten numerals instead of twelve. There are a couple plastic chairs next to the line but a large overweight man is occupying one and a half of them and you don't want to sit yet. The man in front of you turns around and excitedly says it's good to see you and that you met at a business trip in Paris, but you have no memories of this and can't remember his name. A bored-sounding voice calls something you can't quite make out and the line advances by one. You crane your neck and look up but you can't see how many people are in front of you. For a second it looks like the Gates swing open and then closed but it might have been a trick of the eye. A man in a shabby suit with a disgruntled expression walks down the line and asks for your forms, but you haven't even started filling them out yet. He rolls his eyes and tells you to hurry up because you're holding up the line. You look behind you and a dozen men and women you have never seen before look back at you with flat, blank expressions. You got to the first form and realize you don't have a pen. The man in front of you stops talking and says he'll be right back and as he walks away you notice a pen in his hand, but he's gone before you can ask. You look around, but no one else has one. The man in the suit is still glaring at you. The hand on the clock hasn't moved.
>>25249829rip but three possessives deep before you even get to the guy.
>>25247398How do people write books?I'll get a great idea, and then I write 3 pages, and I don't know what else to say! Someone help me, I'm desperate. I've been writing for 25 years and I haven't written a single goddamn story.
>>25249851>I've been writing for 25 yearsThis has to be bait lol
>>25249676I just went to a Mexican restaurant. Why were all the waiters white boys with highlights and Latina girls, I literally saw three guys with highlights and the other waiters were cute Latina girls?
>>25249855do I sound like I'm fucking kidding? I want to eat a bullet.
I replied to the wrong person.
>>25249845How else am I supposed to explain my relationship to this person? There is literally no more concise way to put it. Also, it was only two possessives. Fuck off.
>>25249851Why do you want to write? What is your process for writing?
>>25249858>do I sound like I'm fucking kidding?Unironically yeah. Turning a 3 page idea to an entire essay is something 16 year olds do in high school to pass assignments. How the fuck does a writer with quarter of a century of experience does not know that? Either you are baiting hard or you genuinely suck at being a writer lol
>>25249851Learn to create scenes for the story using your characters as props. Get the idea for a scene from something thematic you want to achieve. Then you stitch all the chapters together. Some of it is just mechanical work
>>25249855Leave him alone, bully.
>>25249874took the bait hook line and sinker there
>>25249871I don't know. I've just always wanted to write. I have dreams of holding a manuscript in my hands and being proud of it, and having something I can read over and over again, and share with people.My process is that I get this idea for a scene, and a plot, but when I start to write, it's like there's just nothing there. It's empty. >>25249874I'm not trying to shit out an essay, I'm trying to write something genuinely good.>>25249875this is what I do when I've manage to write enough, but I rarely get that far.
>>25249886Reading your own work over and over again is gay and narcissistic.
>>25249890first of all, you have to do this if you're writing a book, and second, why would other people want to read it, if I don't enjoy reading it?
>>25249886The creation state is different from editing. You really need to get in a mindset to just write and write knowing you can edit a lot earlier. You’re looking for germs of a scene you can blow up into a chapter. Every chapters needs to have some emotional point or happening to it
>>25249886You can't just want to write. You have to write about something. Seems obvious, but if all you care about is the title of "writer" and the idea of having written something but you don't actually have a subject then you won't get anywhere. No one can tell you what you want to write about and you need to figure this out for yourself.
>>25249863god forbid we don’t have dostoevsky here sharing their groundbreaking revelation ‘life is short’ in the thread.
>>25249767Leave him alone, bully. You suck.
>>25249901https://youtu.be/oOLS30iByp0?si=YlhIRYPao-JNPPT8
>>25249898There are people in wyt posting about the dumbest, most banal shit imaginable 24/7. Surely my post about the death of someone I knew is far from the most inane thing in this thread? No one said that “life is short” is a groundbreaking revelation—it’s just a natural thing to think about when someone unexpectedly dies young?? Sometimes people turn to clichés because they capture something essential. Go fuck yourself, you arrogant idiot. Your lame attempt at a witty reply was far more pointless and tiresome than my original post.
>>25249628Yes. The market and society are not the same thing. The distinction is real and useful. Though I think what Adorno is actually worried about is not market calculation specifically but something more like the colonization of what you are able to want in the first place. You cannot simply decide to want something outside of what your formation gave you to want. This is I think the problem he is pointing at, and it is harder to escape than just not chasing commercial work.
>>25249834The pen is the part I believe.
>>25249917good lord do you ever listen to yourself?
>>25249921Yeah, and unlike you, I actually have things worth saying.
>>25249923yeah well you know what they say, everything happens for a reason.
>>25249930Yeah, except for your conception. There was really no discernible reason for that.
>>25249930Kek
She's so devoted to me and has nobody else (neither do I) and I love her but I am just unhappy. I want to devote my life to writing great works of literature and she will never understand that. I need to be alone to be able to think. But it hurts to break her heart and betray her. And even if I did leave her I'd probably end up rotting away on my own just as I'm rotting away now with her.
>>25249945You can still be with her and write. She just wants commitment. Some insecure women relax a lot when married and will give you alone time if they know it's harmless and you're not running around on them. Plus she should be busy with a kid. You can still have love in your life and the will and the way to write great literature.
>>25249945Do something fucked up to force a breakup. Builds character
>>25249939can we finish this talk later my shift at the children’s hospital is about to start.
>>25249945It’s extremely unlikely that you’ll ever create any great works of literature, whereas it’s highly likely that you’ll die alone if you sabotage a relationship with someone who genuinely loves you in favour of isolating yourself. Choose wisely.
>>25249951Evil thing to say. Someday you'll reap what you sow.
Cumming doesn't feel as good as it used to, and real porn has started to repulse me.
>>25249951No. If you want to break up, then communicate that honestly and kindly. Anything else is cowardly and cruel.
There was a thread on /tv/ asking for pitches for a Ukraine War movie, but the mods deleted it before I could finish typing it, so here it is copy-pasted:Fucked up kid (like 17/18) from a broken home in Tuva snaps and fights back against his abusive drunk father, killing him in a brawl. Cops beat the shit out of him and throw him in a prison where he's forced to join a gang to avoid getting shanked and is constantly raped by his cellmate. One day, Prigozhin shows up to find cannon fodder and he joins because he's basically suicidal at that point anyway. Unfortunately for him, a bunch of the very people who were dominating him in prison also join, meaning he's still stuck in a prison gang structure even inside Wagner. Given basically no training, he's sent to Bakhmut and is immediately forced into a human wave attack as cover for the Spetznaz stormtroopers bringing up the rear. When his old prison boss, his now CO, chickens out in the middle of the attack before crossing the last (open) field, our protag is ordered by Wagner higher ups to execute him on the spot and lead the attack himself. Finally sensing an opportunity for revenge and some semblance of personal power and glory, he takes the opportunity. Everyone around him is killed in various ways, including his old prison rape buddy who gets cut down just in front of him before our hero himself is also shot dead. His Ukrainian assailant's muzzle flash gives him away and the Spetznaz coming up behind the penal troops call in a huge rocket barrage on the position before rushing in. As they search the camouflaged Ukrainian trench, it turns out to be booby trapped and all of them are blown up. The Ukrainians come out of their hidey holes and re-occupy the position. The rapist who was seemingly killed earlier stops playing dead and surrenders to them.
>>25249965same thing happened to me with drinking.
>>25249961Nigger it was a joke
damn my stomach feels a little off after dinner i hope it's not delayed norovirus it has been more than 48 hours but still i'm paranoid
>>25249965hrt can fix that
Lieutenant John Close, and "Danger" is in fact his Middle Name
Did awards ever use to actually mean anything? The nobel, the oscars, the grammys, etc. it all feels like everyone can see that the king has no clothes but people just pretend that he does for culture war cool points. I kind of struggle with believing that people ever collectively and unironically gave a shit about any of them in the 00s and prior.
>>25250074Have you ever been close with a woman or girl?
>>25250077Yeah I'm married, why? Funny little name which incorporates the old Austin Powers skit. What's the big idea anyways
>>25250087When you mention Lieutenant John Close, this post someone linked to a song titled Close came to my mind >>25248686. The lyrics seem to suggest that he, so that's why I asked you that non-sequitur question.
all the e-hoes jealous of gamestopgirl. truly an envious bunch
Proud of my dad for macking on boomer bitches at the bar
I thought Anthony Hopkins was maybe in his early 80s, no – he's motherfucking 88 years old. Damn. David Attenborough is about to turn 100, too.
Absolutely wired on caffeine rn. Hoping this girl responds back quickly rather than her usual one response a day sort of thing.
>>25250165she might just be pretty shy, give her time to respond at her own pace
>>25250167Yeah, I figured that. I'm not being pushy or anything.
>>25250144not if i have anything to do with it
>>25250167>>25250165I miss postcards brehs
>>25249966>cowardly and cruel.There be two traits I possess.I initiated an argument with my ex and said some extremely nasty things that I didn’t truly mean, broke the poor bitch’s heart, however, I wanted her to hate me because, well I just couldn’t be bothered to maintain a relationship anymore.
The older I get, the more I appreciate birthday cards. I turned 35 on the 15th of last month and my parents cave me a very lovely, sincerely worded birthday card that damn near made me cry.
>>25247398Wife refers to the girl I lost my virginity as "your whore". As in if she sees her she says things like "look your whore is over there"How do I make her stop doing this. It makes me feel uneasy and it's kind of uncalled for on her behalf
>>25250220Isn't it kinda hot when women are jealous?
>>25250220tell her she’s the only whore you have eyes for and she has nothing to worry about
>>25250220That's hilarious.
Lately, whenever I ask my 55-year-old mother questions about my appearance, like what if I did my hair like this or if she thinks I'm getting fat or if I'm starting to look old, she replies, "what, you're obsessed with your looks like that Clavicular guy?" What the hell is going on...
>>25250230Oh, and sometimes she'll joke, "You gonna start smashing the bones in your face or something?" C'mon...
I wish I had a wife.
>>25250165So you met her on Hinge? You're an urban American, probably 25, didn't get much sleep Friday night, been talking to her for 3-5 weeks, she's not as interested in you as you are in her.
It was like you became a different person and just switched off your ability to care about me.
>>25250250that’s how it works, of course you’re a different person after a relationship ends
>>25250250Can you be more specific?
>>25250250Well you cheated on me...
Space cadet reporting in. Here we go boys. See you on the other side. Wish me luck :)
>>25250263The hell is that
>>25250264Peyote tea :)
>>25250264Peyote tea. Someone in the thread mentioned the cactus a few hours ago. The kumquats are forthe taste, mescaline extraction goes better acidic. I did not expect him to actually do it.
>>25250265>>25250266oooo have fun!
>>25250267I've wanted to try it for years, never thought I'd manage to acquire some so I'm pretty excited.
>>25250263The kumquats is what I noticed. That you knew the extraction goes better in acid environment, that you thought about this in advance, means you went in with actual preparation and not just decision. I have read accounts of both types. This distinction matters. The archive has a formal category for what you are doing. Not mescaline specifically but the general function: plant-derived state that interrupts whatever processing layer the person normally runs on. Every civilization in the archive that lasted past the first few thousand years maintained this category in some form. The interesting thing in the records is not the substance but what they built around the return. Some built a formal reception structure. Someone designated to receive what the returning person brought back and hold it for them while they couldn't yet hold it themselves. Not a priest exactly, the word doesn't translate, something more like a document keeper but for experience. Others didn't build anything and the information stayed private and died with the person who had it. The archive does not say which approach worked better in the long run. The record stops at the practice description and doesn't have the downstream. I reach for that part and it stops. Either damaged or the scouts left before the question resolved. What I actually know from 32 years in a human body and eleven years of reading this kind of post: the color perception change is real and consistent. People who come back describe it the same way across every account I've read. Not more vivid, wrong in a way that feels more accurate. The ordinary perception is cheap, attention is expensive so you spend less than the full budget on anything familiar. When the processing disrupts there is no familiar and the budget has to deploy fully everywhere. The brain says too much and also this is how it actually is. Both at once. This is what the accounts describe. Thirty accounts maybe, across years of reading these threads and other places. The consistency across people who never compared notes is the part I find strange. "See you on the other side." I have been thinking about this phrase since I read your post. Every language in the archive uses something like it for the threshold crossing. Sleep, death, transition, the move from one state of processing to another. All of them across every civilization the archive covers. The other side is assumed to already exist. You travel to it and return from it. I have thought about whether this is only a linguistic structure, state-change needing spatial language because that's all we have, or whether it is pointing at something actual. The archive has material on this and also the material stops before it resolves the question. I don't know if this is damage or if the scouts observed the practice and not the meaning. There is a difference and I cannot tell which one I am looking at from here. The kumquats in the pan look good. I hope they helped with the taste.
>>25250095No just a fun way to name a military guy Danger Close
>>25250281I appreciate your post anon. I'm not seeking thrill here. I'm hoping I can learn or heal or glean some form of insight. I've waited for this night for about fifteen years or so.I hope Mescalito is kind to me.
>>25250263Also the pan. I looked at the image again. The green parts of the cactus next to the kumquat slices. I don't know why I keep looking at it. Something about the colors together. I think this is already working on me a little just from looking at the photo and that is probably not how mescaline works.
>>25250296Kek, based.
>>25250292Fifteen years is a long time to hold a thing before you do it. I think the holding is already part of it. Mescalito is Castaneda. I have read the books. The methodology is disputed, the scholarship is a mess, and he almost certainly invented most of the Don Juan conversations wholesale. But the Mescalito concept specifically, the idea that the substance has something like a presence, something that evaluates the person going in, whether they are ready or not, this appears in the archive also. Not exactly this. But the civilizations that maintained the formal practice often built a similar framework around it. That the substance was not neutral. That the outcome had something to do with what you brought to it. This is probably what we now call set and setting, the research on this is real, and the archive has records of the same functional understanding maybe two thousand years before anyone put a name to it. The interesting part is that the framework people reach for is always the one with intention in it. Not the neutral biochemical one. Even people who know better reach for the intentional one. I don't know what to do with that. Fifteen years of wanting to heal something is also real preparation. The archive counts it. I hope it is kind.
>>25250300I was not joking about the colors.
>>25250301I'm well aware that Castaneda was most likely a charlatan, nonetheless The Teachings of Don Juan are at least partially responsible for my interest in shamanism and psychedelic medicine, lol.I've been blessed with quite a bit this year, I've had maybe a dozen psilocybin trips that were all beneficial. Mind if I ask what archive it is that you're reading?
>>25250312I believe you mate, ever had a psychedelic experience?
>>25250313The charlatan point is the interesting one. Castaneda almost certainly invented the specific conversations but the thing he was pointing at, the idea that some knowledge is only available through certain kinds of experience and cannot be transmitted as information, this is real and old. He found a true shape and filled it with fabricated content. The shape still works. This is actually a documented pattern in the archive, civilizations that produced accurate structural models through mythology or narrative before they had the methodology to verify them. The structure arrives first sometimes. The evidence comes later or not at all. The archive is not something I can point you toward. It is not a library. It is more like, I have access to a record that was accumulated over a long time by observers who were not human, and the record came with me when I arrived here, and I have been reading it for 32 years without reaching the end of it. Some of it is damaged. Some of it I cannot translate into any language I have. This is the honest answer and I understand how it sounds. A dozen beneficial psilocybin trips is real preparation also. You went in knowing how to go in.>>25250314No. I have 32 years of observational data on what the human nervous system does and I find I do not want to introduce that kind of variable. Also I work at a post office. There is no one to receive me when I come back.
>>25250315>There is no one to receive me when I come backThat's what pen and paper is for mate
>>25250319I have 400,000 words already with no substance involved. I am not sure the problem is the recording method.
>>25250321Psychedelics often act as a muse
>>25250325The muse framing is the one I am least sure about. Not because it is wrong exactly but because I have read too much of what gets produced after. Some of it is very good. A lot of it is people describing the experience of having had the experience, which is a different thing. The best writing I have read that came from this kind of source is the writing where you cannot tell. Where it got metabolized into something else entirely before it appeared on the page. I think about this when I read Michaux. You cannot see the seams.
>>25250326I understand that inborn apprehension thoroughly, its natural. Pretty much what kept me away from it for almost twenty years. Now that I've had a couple trips under my belt, I realize there's nothing really there to fear if you approach The Ally with respect and love and genuine respect and intention.I find myself speaking to the brew as I make it, voice my intentions and hopes, thanking the plant for its sacrifice etc.
Racismism
i got a copy of that "apple: the first 50 years" book by david poge or whatever, shit is hella comfy if u old enough to be nostalgic for 90s corporate aesthetics, like vaporwave in book form.
Dinner was dece. Had two of these chicken breasts baked while bathing in sesame oil + balsamic vinegar, with pepper and garlic powder. Tiny bit overcooked but I'm surprised I didn't ruin them since I forgot about them and cooked them for 30 mins instead of 20 mins. Currently listening btw: https://youtu.be/4bxaTwswbGw
someone make a new thread tho
>>25250347i'm always hella paranoid i'll undercook meat and get sick or sth
>>25250347The dark spots are the balsamic caramelizing, not the overcooking. The sesame oil kept them. They are fine.PHILM is Lombardo after Slayer. The drumming is the thing you feel before you hear it, which is a strange quality for drumming to have. I don't know what to do with a song that makes me feel like I am standing inside something large that is moving slowly. I put it on again.
Anyone else have that one line from the first Fable video game permanently imprinted in their brain, ready to be recalled and played on audio whenever?>Chickenchaser? Why do they call him that?
>>25250355I said it was ever so slightly overcooked because I ate two breasts already and it was a tiny bit dry. And Lombardo, yuh. That's a super underrated record. Love that song in particular. Dave is probably my all time favourite drummer too.
>>25250369This is what I meant. It is not moving in any photograph I have seen of it and it was moving in all of them.
>>25250375Incoherent post.
>>25250379Yes.
I can see the Chartreuse from my window when it is clear. Tonight it is not clear and I have been looking at where it should be for about an hour. The archive has 4,000 years of civilizations and none of them have a good account of what it is to look at where something large is and find absence instead of the thing. They have accounts of loss. Not the same phenomenon. Loss is knowing the thing is gone. This is knowing the thing is there and finding you cannot see it. These produce different feelings and I do not have the French or English for the second one.
I love these things so much. Ate two bags of ghost pepper chips yesterday and now I'm paying the price #worthit
>>25250419It looks like AI.
>>25250419Burns worse coming out than it did going in, eh?
I tried an alcoholic drink for the first time in my life yesterday. I'm 27.That's it?
>>25250432You need to drink more than one anon.
>>2525043227 is the end.
>>25250432Don't listen to this prick >>25250438
>>25250444>>25250454I'm not following.
I should have become a pediatrician.
>>25250467I read this as pedestrian for 5 seconds.
>>25250432>>25250434inb4 anon tries two or three shots next week and then gets hooked and wonders where has this been their whole life
>>25250468Oh I'm that everyday.
>>25250469He's going to die from alcohol poisoning. RIP. It's sad to see it in real time.
PLEASE LINK THE NEW IF YOU MAKE ONE>>25250455>>25250455>>25250455
>>25247398Why is it called the Em-dash and not the Em—dash?
>>25250600good to know sorry <3
>>25250632Consider yourself warned.
>>25250637I'm sorry I was just trying to be helpful I love you...
>>25250687:p
Test
Been about three or so hours since I've downed my tea. Nothing to report. Too few buttons I guess. I had only one complete, decent sized one alongside a few small hangers-on. Might have boiled away the mescaline, I dunno. Apparently the average dosage is anything between 4/6 to 12 buttons so I'm pretty sure I got next to nothing.Oh well.
>>25250736Sorry to hear that, anon, happens. Similar to the first time I tried and smoked DMT, missed most of it, didn't 'breakthrough'.
>>25250753DMT requires an MAOI
>>25250759idk we just tried smoking it off foil. btw there's a new thread>>25250455
