Would (You) make for an interesting literary protagonist?In my case,>Fat autistic chud who is also an obsessive record collector>Constantly grapples with his own beliefs and worries about how he'll survive as a manchild ill-equipped to handle independenceThere might be some potential for a compelling character, but the problem is that I never really go anywhere outside of work so most of the novel would be me seething at Twitter screenshots and browsing Discogs unless some embellishments were made.
No, not really. I mostly stay home with my cat reading books or watching movies. At work I'm just killing time, avoiding the office politics and I've given up on women.
>>25269196A true herbivore man
>>25269163Yes, i would
>>25269163The first half of my life, absolutely. American Father, German Mother. Get divorced when I'm like, 3. Mom packs me up in the middle of the night and flees to Germany. My dad sells his business and follows. Two year chase through Europe, including hiking across boarders. Dad finally catches up. Spend the next few years switching off with my father and mother for 6 months a year. By this time I'm basically insane. Move from California to Michigan to California, be a screaming ADHD nightmare. Move to Germany when I'm 15. Screaming fights with my mother, extremely bullied in school. Start drinking. Get into a special ed school for the deaf (I'm not deaf). Move into a half-way house for mentally ill teens. No idea what to do with my life, pick first school on google (fashion and communications design). Love it. Become an alcoholic. Have an epiphany and become less insane. Work as a set designer in a theatre school that's committing tax fraud. Guy who owns it get's fired, so I don't get hired again. Get agoraphobia because my fucking landlords stalk me. Get diagnosed with "pseudo-dementia", so the government wrote me off, and stopped trying to help me get a job.The second half is just coping with being a mentally ill NEET. Got kicked out by my landlords and moved across the country to live with my mother. Her shitheel husband tries to "bully" me out of the house. She kicks him out. I spend all day on 4chan and youtube and reading, doing a couple chores. Nursed a chicken back to health, and some cats. Life is good, but boring, now.
>>25269163>chud who is just ashamed of every breath>grapples with nothing because nothing I do matters, nor it will amount to anythingI am the standard Pessoa protagonist.
>>25269484>Get into a special ed school for the deaf (I'm not deaf)>Get diagnosed with "pseudo-dementia">Work as a set designer in a theatre school that's committing tax fraud. Guy who owns it get's fired, so I don't get hired again
>>25269163Yes. One could write a shaksperean tragedy on my life
Is everybody on this board a NEET? Is this the only demographic that seriously reads today?t. NEET
>>25269163I do not think I am enough of a fuck up, all things considered.Read Theodore Dalrymple, that is actual literary fiction fuel.Literary fiction is mostly a race to the bottom, an endless cavalcade of fuck-ups that provides the reader their daily dose of schadenfreude. Most trailer trash's lives could easily make it to the canon of Western Civilization, if you bought them a beer and let them ramble a bit while you record them.I had a neighbor who literally lived in a house made of doors, surrealist type of thing that became a 4chan copypasta for a while. Then I grew up watching in real time how little by little his residence became a crack den, until he took his own life and the crack den, instead of dismantling itself, just kept on growing until the city made it to USA's heroin epidemic statistic, called a hotspot and even a ground-zero for the epidemic in my state.I've always had the desire to write a novella trying to piece together that guy's life, but then I browse Amazon shop and realize most literaries today are just self-pity, 'The fire we burn tomorrow', immigrant slop complaining about how hard it is to be 'X-american' while refusing to return to their 3rd-world and stop yawning us to death.Surely, no one wants to read about how my neighbor got laid off of his construction job and kickstarted a heroin epidemic. It is sad, and does not dialogue to the asian-american experience of mopping that they can't lay a white husband.
>>25269572the only people in a social context that allows them to justify reading are NEETs, people with dead-end menial jobs, certain types of self-employed, or people whose actual careers are over but who are given a sinecure for prestige reasonseveryone else is getting their free time raped by the social signaling they need to do to keep their position. the people who read as part of their jobs (academics, journalists) are under pressure to focus on specific hot trends and the latest thing instead of focusing deeply on things that grab their interests.
>>25269484I would read the fuck out of this
>>25269576Eloquently put anon, I work at a library and virtually every work of non-genre fiction by a young author is just identity politicsHere's an example that almost reads like parody, yet it's a bestseller:>The Bradford-Shmulkin family is falling apart. A very modern blend of Russian, Jewish, Korean, and New England WASP, they love one another deeply but the pressures of life in an unstable America are fraying their bonds. There's Daddy, a struggling, cash-thirsty editor whose Russian heritage gives him a surprising new currency in the upside-down world of twenty-first-century geopolitics; his wife, Anne Mom, a progressive, underfunded blue blood from Boston who's barely holding the household together; their son, Dylan, whose blond hair and Mayflower lineage provide him pride of place in the newly forming American political order; and, above all, the young Vera, half-Jewish, half-Korean, and wholly original.
>>25269682It is odd how they will mistake race for a modern horoscope, and have no way to present themselves or even connect to others besides surface-level trivialities like their appearance and background. Whenever I see a fat hillbilly taking pride in his supposed european origins (their parents were likely too high to even know who they were fucking in the gutter they were conceived), or some rich asian-american born off a mailbride rambling about their 'backgrounds', I just hear people with nothing to say.The XYZ-american is rotting this country, and literature. I wish they kept it to politics — the pro-wrestling of the humanities —, and left us alone.Because of this people, my greatest life aspiration is winning the Patriot Awards from Turning Point USA, because anything that does not validate their racial self-pity (inconsequential tediousness) 'murders' them and is thus extreme rightwing madness.By the way, what book is it? I'll leave a shining review on Goodreads, as my tiny contribution to make this world just a little worse than I found it.
>>25269738https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/220239019-vera-or-faithAnd before you ask, yes the author is
>>25269163you are the protagonist, despite not being interesting.https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Af-k9sTAYEQ&ra=m
>>25269163>Would (You) make for an interesting literary protagonist?my personality? yeahmy life? nah
>>25269748>"award-winning author">National Jewish Book AwardI have noticed that these 'National Asian-American Award', 'National Nepo Book Award', and these non-prizes for hedge fund babies with multinationalities seem to be multiplying, but it is funny to see some veteran authors coasting on it.If Bukowski tried to launch a career today, he'd have kept stamping mail.
>>25269163not really. life not interesting enough nor bad enough. just mediocrevery little actually going on good or bad
>>25269652unfortunately, I don't actually remember all that much.
>>25269929Pseudo-dementia strikes again
>>25269953>pseudo-dementia
>>25269929that's just trauma bro, you were probably checked out and dissociated in the moment so of course you'll have difficulty remembering those times considering you weren't even emotionally present when it was all going down
>>25269163I play video games, walk my dog, buy groceries. Shower once or twice a month. Sleep cycle does laps around the clock as I alternate between sleeping during the day or the night. The cashiers at the store dislike me because of my stench but I can't bring myself to care about such things. Sometimes I read and I dream of finishing my novel that no one will publish or read. If someone wanted to write a book about an irredeemable NEET turd, I'd be perfect, but the plot would be very boring. It would have to rely entirely on the style of the prose and psychological character study.
>>25269163what's an obsessive record
>>25269163YesI think recently that I am mad>be gifted kid>basically just fucking bored in government school>history of stubbornness to extreme degree>goes from once pissing myself in class deliberately because the teacher wouldn't let me go to the loo,>to just designing a massive fucking battleship one day. Everybody in the internet insists I am insane for this, but I am confident in my calculations that it would work>enough of a sperg to think of mad shit to do and enough of a shameless cocky bastard to do it>can't motivate myself to do shit unless the sky is falling. Live a whole life feeling meaningless, from school where the meaningless was forced upon me, to now where it is increasingly my own shell-shocked fault that I cannot leave this mentality unless the sky falls>increasingly make my own esoteric philosophy and disbelieve realitythe strongest emotion I have felt is rage on a few times, but otherwise I hardly feel any of them. I used to have a complete lack of self-awareness, ironically the only thing that solved this was my noticing similarities to Celaena Sardothien from (((Maas's))) un-horny series. If you have read it then you have cringed at her like I cringe at myself. Now I am become a decreasingly sane facsimile.
>>25269163Are you familiar with Ignatius J. Reilly?
>>25271159I am not kidding about my stubbornness in following crazy ideas, there is not a whole lot that stopped me from going to prison for itI will not elaborate except that (1) what I did was well-intentioned (2) harmless (3) driven by stubbornness and arrogance that I did not think twice about and would never have done if i used my brain, (4) a very unique kind of fuck up
>>25271187A good fuck up is worth the trouble, provided no one gets hurt besides yourself.The biggest mistake of people is trying to optimize life. Life is about having interesting stories to tell, not about having been the happiest or richest person around. Nobody will remember your 9/5, but they will remember the crazy shit you did.
>>25271169OP here, that's actually my favourite book and parts of Ignatius' character resonate with me, but I'm more of a people-pleasing doormat
>>25269682>blend of Russian, Jewish, Korean, and New England WASPWhy do people choose to do that? Of course your family is falling apart.
>>25271273Love transcends all boundaries, silly :)
>>25271529Sure, it collapses all of them, until people just hate each other.Love is ridiculous, humanity is a joke. The happiest man is a hermit.
