for a while I thought I was saying profound philosophical thoughts and ideas which people (regular normies who don't read philosophy books) found hard to understand which made me feel intelligent like I'm good at philosophy but I'm actually just in the prodromal stage of schizophrenia with disorganized thoughts that make little to no sense for other peopleI'm going to spend time learning languages instead because there is no way I can learn something hard when my mind is fucked but even with them it's hard and I'm retarded like not really intelligent just someone who is diligent enough to study anything but with pretty average intelligence if not below average (I suck at math too)
no, youre just slightly more intelligent than most people, which is actually a large number of people, but not a genius
>>25280998lol at least you dont online spouting racist incel nazi shit, right?
sorry that happened or happy for you
>made me feel intelligent like I'm good at philosophy>sucks at mathyeah seems about rightlmao
>>25280998What kind of things you used to say?
>>25281012Are these racist incel nazis in the room with us right now?
>>25280998Well, if you are able to recognize all that and adjust your behavior to account for your condition, you are already doing better than the majority of people would in that situation. Not in any 'profound' way, but in terms of pure gumption. That counts for something. John Nash was an actual genius, but even if it's not the mathematical talent, maybe you have something in common.
Just do what /x/ does, ramble about bullshit then claim everyone else is an ignorant hylic
>>25280998There's definitely a sweet spot in early schizophrenia where the apophenia aspect can let you think 'outside the box' in a way that's actually interesting a productive, but yeah that quickly tips over into useless nonsenseGriffithfag, one of the most infamous /tv/ posters, was an example of this. He was a clinical schizo with an encyclopedic knowledge of early cinema (with D.W. Griffith as his main obsession, hence the name) and would often post genuinely thought-provoking iconoclastic takes on film until he eventually fell off the wagon and ended up spamming every thread with gay MLP roleplay involving some other anon who may or may not have actually existed
>>25280998You should self evaluate to see if you actually have disorganized thoughts, you write fine. I'm pre-med and aspiring doctors are unbelievably narcissistic and generally unable to perceive the world objectively.
>>25281138With exception to Gödel, the deeper you get into math that farther from true perception of the world you go.>see all billions of different unified field theories all equally "mathematically" valid
