i’m gay!

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Need a doe-eyed cutie to stare into my soul like this.

>>25281278
>doe eyed
>chick has blue eyes
have u ever seen a doe's eyes dude?

"You gave your heart for the world, and won the world in return."

It's disappointing how psychosis can lead to critical decisions that define ones character, only to become meager realities withering in the echoes of grandiose narratives.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Op7EDcH9LXE

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>>25281289
>meager realities withering in the echoes of

The girls of summer are out and I am loving it.

>>25281304
I hate it. Makes it hard to think. Every time I try reading in public, especially on the bus, I find myself looking up every 30 seconds because there's some bare legs or whatever in my periphery.

My former friend has a crash out at me over text and at one point said I had beady eyes -- his eyes are smaller than mine! c'mon, lol

Some of us have had such strong loves in our past lives that nothing else will do, but that same lover.
But as happens far too often, that lover doesn't incarnate, in the right place, the right time, or at all, and they're still out there, with the others.
But don't cry. This is simply like losing sight of them in a crowd at the beach or something. Eventually you'll catch up to them or they you, remembering. In this terrestrial life, you have a foggy memory of them, but it'll come back to you.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xheRRXm0aFE

I wish things could be happy

>>25281323
Boy I'm glad to be a ruralfag

>Obama: You're going to vote for me
>Gay voter in 2008: Yeah, probably
>Obama: Because of statistics
>Gay voter: Sure
>Obama: Do you believe in statistics
>Gay voter: I mean I guess idk

>Gay voter: You're President now
>Obama: Thanks for that
>Gay voter: No problem
>Obama: Do you think we're alone in the universe
>Gay voter: You're the President you tell me
>Obama: They don't let me near that stuff
>Gay voter: Why not
>Obama: Not sure yet
>Gay voter: What about Area 51
>Obama: No clue
>Gay voter: Is this something you think about often
>Obama: It's something I think about when the economy stresses me out

>Obama: Sorry about the current financial crisis
>Gay voter: Was that you
>Obama: No but I felt the need to say sorry
>Gay voter: I appreciate the thought
>Obama: If I ran for a second term would you vote for me again
>Gay voter: Probably, yeah

>Gay voter: When it's night are you still black
>Obama: What
>Gay voter: When the sun goes down
>Obama: I don't know what you're asking
>Gay voter: Are you still black when it's dark outside
>Obama: Yeah
>Gay voter: That's surprising

>Obama: Thanks for my second term
>Gay voter: No prob
>Obama: I'm still the President
>Gay voter: And I'm still a gay voter
>Obama: I thought it was seasonal
>Gay voter: I mean it is every four years so kind of
>Obama: No I meant the gayness
>Gay voter: Huh
>Obama: Like I thought it came and went with the seasons
>Gay voter: I don't think I've heard that before
>Obama: Isn't that how it works
>Gay voter: No
>Obama: Huh that's strange

>Obama: I have nuanced views on Hitler
>Gay voter: You're black
>Obama: Yes and I have nuanced views on Hitler
>Gay voter: Why do you have nuanced views on Hitler if you're black
>Obama: Something I've been getting into recently

>Gay voter: Can I be president
>Obama: In principle I guess
>Gay voter: Would you vote for me
>Obama: I think so

>Gay voter: I would get to the bottom of aliens
>Obama: Sex or unraveling the mystery
>Gay voter: The latter
>Obama: They still don't let me near the alien stuff
>Gay voter: Why not
>Obama: Still not sure but they're very nice about it
>Gay voter: I guess that's better than them killing you
>Obama: I don't think they'll do that
>Gay voter: Have you tried asking the military if they can bomb Area 51
>Obama: They'll say no
>Gay voter: Aren't you in charge of the military
>Obama: I mean yeah but like not the day to day operations stuff
>Gay voter: Can you give me a pass for Area 51
>Obama: I don't have the ability to do that but I would
>Gay voter: Can you give me the n-word pass
>Obama: I'm not going to let you say nigger
>Gay voter: How about soft a
>Obama: Nigga also a no-go
>Gay voter: But I'll let you say faggot
>Obama: I already say that
>Gay voter: I wish I would've known that before I voted for you again
>Obama: It wouldn't have made a difference you would've still voted for me
>Gay voter: That's rude but that's also true
>Obama: I know

I can't talk to people, I have nothing to say. I'm a loner

>>25281446
Having nothing to say does not stop anyone else, why should it stop you? Engage in mindless smalltalk about anything inconsequential, if they are receptive and return it with more than platitudes, introduce yourself. If they respond in kind and say it is nice to meet you, ask some generic barely personal personal question like asking if they are from <location> or the like. If that goes well, continue escalating the conversation. Throw in a compliment on occasion. Being willing to talk about nothing and OK with failure is all it takes.

The Kid Detective is one of my favorite movies.

I really really like (post-pubescent, legal) BOYS

>>25281463
Big ass spider fell out of my towel as I was getting ready for my morning shower and now my whole day is gonna be fucked up
It scrambled into my dirty laundry hamper and now I can't stop thinking about how fast it moved and how spiders could be curled up hiding in any dark corner

I used to be against psychiatric medication because it feels wrong to treat a spiritual ailment with a physical medicine but the pain is getting too unbearable now, it's like electric shocks and bolts of lightning thrashing in my head, even if I become a zombie from the meds it's better than whatever this is.

>>25281463
OK andre gide

>>25281466
You poor thing. Don't fear the spider. Befriend it. Imagine your sense of freedom when you have won the friendship of all spiderkind. Spiders are knowing creatures.

>>25281265
I had one anxiety attack 8 months ago and have never felt the same at all as I was before the attack in late September 2025, I feel like I am a ghost

>>25281454
Problem wíth that though that I would rather blast my face off than pretend to care about what people have to say

at the psych ward for high likelihood of suicide rn.
eating better than at home lmfao. my room is only missing my guitar and it would also be indistinguishable from my room at home.
taking advantage of the unusual protein input to work out, feeling all sore and shit, can even do exercises i can't do at home because here i have this fuckass psych ward bed with a strong metal frame.
i still can't get myself to search for a job though, some things seem to be encoded at a genetic level.
and there were some very smart (one i would even call exceptional) people here, i was surprised. i feel like shit now, even other crazies have their shit together better than me. the day that i tried to kill myself (and couldn't finish due to lacking preparation) i ended up on the street for the rest of the night so i talked to a couple of hobos, even they were quite reasonable, obviously more than me at that moment, but probably also in general. being a neet chud is far more severe than the memes and lack of seriousness about it make it look.
before anyone starts bitching: yes i am allowed electronics, i'm here voluntarily and quite good at signaling that i'm reasonable.

>>25281475
>my hole is comfy, I dug it myself.

>>25281480
case in point

>>25281485
If you didn't care you wouldn't have responded. Do you do a lot of low effort trolling as well?

>>25281490
Newsflash retard you missed the point. I care too much for people to hurt their feelings so I put up a front of interest when I engage with them, yet their inane and trite observations and perspectives corrodes my sanity hence the blasting of the face u see
imma go outside and get some snacks now, eat them while I watch my show u see, so sayonara sucker :^)

my whole existence is flawed
you get me closer to god

>>25281493
>my hole is comfy, I dug it myself.

>>25281265
Here I sit broken hearted, trying to do shit but only farded.
>t.me lit on the loo

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>>25281265
Scenes like those are really cozy. Quiet night, cold humid air, sodium lamps, big empty parking lots lit up. Liminal, like the kids say.
God I want to move somewhere I can walk around at night.

I need a fat bitch

Al contadino non far sapere quanto è buono il formaggio con le pere

Don't let the farmer know how good cheese is with pears

>>25281497
;)

>>25281512
random pic from my camera roll. i see this junction 3/4 times a week, i wait for someone there. the idea of strangers seeing it felt funny somehow.

>>25281564
east europe?

>>25281569
i can see why you’d guess that but no it’s UK

>>25281512
>I want to move somewhere I can walk around at night.
Whats stopping you now? And dont you dare say minorities!

>>25281570
I thought UK was all flat for the most part

>>25281609
do you see mountains in that image?

>>25281586
bugs

>>25281628
bugs? in 2026?
Its been years since I have even heard a mosquito

>>25281623
yes, there's a hill with trees and a radio tower

the white american nazi gas chamber police doesnt want you to learn to read cause if you go on learning you will see that they operate 5000 pound concentration camp ovens. In the concentration camps it was illegal to teach each other to read. the nazis build the concentration camp around the prisoners as the tools to their own extermination.

plump boyfeet and boyhands

>>25281393
Nice

I was wondering why my friend who would always reply to me immediately until he stopped replying at all months ago has been ghosting me but I looked him up and it looks like he’s actually busy with his life, but still, why the fuck won’t you reply when I said I’m on the edge (not trying to sound needy or desperate but obviously I did anyways).

>>25281674
>reply to me immediately
That shiet is always so exhausting in the long run. Always being on demand.
You gave that nigga burnout with ur incessant yapping.
Every man needs a bufferzone

>>25281696
That ain’t it chief. You don’t know the dynamic.

>>25281699
okay well excuseeeeeeeeee meeeeeeeeeeeeee for projecting my own inner thoughts about something I experienced myself. Naturally I was the ghoster in that scenario btw, acting desperate aint my kinda bag

>>25281696
nta but that’s the point. friendship is work, it comes with inconveniences. actually i’ve never gone for the idea that decency is an imposition. it’s also the exact thing shakespeare ostensibly despised - ungrateful children, machiavellianism. if you can’t look out for your friends what good are you.

Periodically I make accounts on Tinder or Hinge just to get a taste of the life I will never get to experience

>>25281717
Bro I was just saying I dont like endless banter chains. Don't you virtue signal me

>>25281747
>I was just saying
classic backpedalling. & i’m just saying ghosting your mate is cold.
btw you’re begging it with the gen z talk. ‘banter chains’? you’re out of your element.

>>25281760
That ain’t it chief. You don’t know the dynamic.

>>25281265
Four peoples, worthy of the name of peoples, finally appear in the traditions of southern Europe, and come to dispute with the Finns the possession of the land. These are the Thracians, the Illyrians, the Etruscans, and the Iberians.

We must take into account the profound respect with which the chroniclers of Greece speak of the most ancient Thracians, and from all this we must conclude that, despite an irremediable decline brought about by intermingling, these Thracians were a mixed nation of white and yellow ancestry, where the Arian white had once dominated, then had faded somewhat over time amidst very powerful Celtic influences and Slavic blends. (2)

Now, since it is irrefutable that the Madjar is mixed with Mongol blood as a result of his Hunnic descent (1), I likewise do not hesitate to conclude that the Albanian is a similar product. I will therefore say that the Albanians are a white, Aryan people, directly mixed with yellow, and that, if it is true that they accepted from the nations among whom they lived a language foreign to their essence, in this they only imitated a considerable number of human tribes guilty of the same fault. (1)

The Iberians were therefore Slavs. I repeat here the reasons: a melancholic people, dressed in dark clothing, not very warlike (2), hardworking in the mines, utilitarian. There is not one of these traits that cannot be seen today in the masses of northeastern Europe (3).

Thus, deprived of needs and intellectual satisfactions, the merit of the Etruscans must be sought on another level. They must be seen as farmers, industrialists, manufacturers, sailors, and great builders of aqueducts, roads, fortresses, and useful monuments (2). Pleasures, and, to use a now technical term, material interests, were the great preoccupation of their society. They were renowned, in the most ancient times, for their gluttony and their taste for sensual pleasures of every kind (3). They were not a heroic people, far from it; but I imagine that, if they were to rise from their graves today, they would be, of all the nations of the past, the one that would most quickly grasp the utilitarian aspects of our modern customs and adapt to them best. Yet annexation to the Chinese empire would suit them even better.

>>25281782
you’re suffocating me.

>>25281732
>he hasn't transcended the desire to be loved

>>25281674
Dude cut this shit out you are an adult i dropped a friend for this amongst other things. Im not kidding, holding someone emotionally hostage like that is not appropriate unless sometimes when theyre your spouse

>>25281717
>accusing your friend of being a bad person for not ‘replying immediately’, claiming that he is hurting you unfil he responds, insisting he has laws and obligations with you, and then GOING INTO FUCKING LITERARY HISTORY TO CALL HIM AN UNGRATEFUL CHILD
That’s strike two asshole. Here’s a tip, you are antsy and having an attention-seeking attack. Your friend isnt even talking to you but youre such an addict for him here that you’re trying to fuck with and interact with him via us. You should treat your boyfriend better if you love him so much

>>25281760
Strike three you’re out of here retard. Holy shit your disgnosis is quite literally BPD. Notice how you ‘want help’ from a ‘trusted friend’ who you ‘need’, so what you decided to do was attack him call him a traitor and failure of a person. You’re in a mania right now, can you tell? You know what your next step is gonna be? Youre going to try and go out and FIND him now arent you? Stop yourself before you commit a crime

And to debrief, the cycle went
>need for stress-relieving conversation
>worry about lack of immediate response
>looking up the person’s information and employment status to see if this affront is justified
>going online and trying to bargain with strangers about it
>posting what civilized places call libel about him
>telling people who advise calming down that they dont understand your unique ‘dynamic’ (what don’t we understand, that you think its his job to immediately reply to you? Not that your claim of a dynamic is working at all here anyways)
>’if you cant do this for me what good are you’
>lashing out at strangers who don’t play ball
Crazy behavior for sure. Basically escalating mania. Beautiful silence from your victim here. He’s got you on the fucking run man

glad to see honest iago has got in the mix

Not to mention the reality that you did find out he’s busy and you actually think that’s not fair to you. That his job is to stay available and minimize his life where it might delay texting you

>>25281906
That's not what mania is you retard. People who are manic are insane, babbling, often violent; they most closely fit the stereotype of a crazy person of any psychiatric symptom. Quit abusing this term it is a serious and life threatening condition and people with real Bipolar 1 disorder are severely mentally ill - severe as in homelessness or prison, often enough. Needless to say some respond to meds well and live normal life. t. psych worker

>>25281921
Switching from your initial code of ethics and social responsibility argument, to arguing against honesty itself, have we?

>>25281925
Would you say he is handling this well

>>25281926
sorry - it’s a reference to the play othello

>>25281925
Should I take meds for anxiety? It's destroying my life and I think I'm going to have a mental breakdown or die soon

>>25281945
watch out for falling pianos

>>25281942
Ah the classic jews argument

>>25281956
that was merchant of venice

I'm gonna be a whore!

>>25281957
You know what youre right it has been a while.

>>25281959
Make sure to get scared when guys reciprocate your sexual advances, then rat and frame them as a pervert!

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My online dating subscription will run out in June, after that's done I'll give up on finding a girl.

>>25281961
think you’re a bit mixed up!

AHAHAHAHA, somebody is advertising an Austrian 1968 Saurer 4k 4fa armored personnel carrier on my local Facebook Marketplace. ONLY $110,000!!

I should be jealous of my (former) friend who has everything a man should want but I personally don’t want a wife or kids sooooo….. I’m happy for you and your family, house, land, guns, livestock, pets, video games, and drones, but a man doesn’t actually need any of those things which is why I’m where I’m at.

>>25281983
buyer to collect

>>25281988
It's fully drivable apparently.

>>25281987
wife is probably one man does need

>>25281990
Video games, actually.

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>>25281990
only for breeding

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>>25281996
man is born through woman, and dies in the arms of woman.

Water to water, ark again to ark,
From woman back to woman

Fucking hate being sick. Feels like I can't get anything done or let alone enjoy myself.

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>>25282005
I prefer the love passing the love of women. Dying on the battlefield together, how beautiful...

>>25282011
it has no fruition (no children). nature’s design is elegantly simple in that sense.

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>>25282016
This is why in patriarchal societies men are functionally bisexual. Have a wife, have an eromenos... this seems to be what our primate cousins do too

>>25282022
the concept of fatherhood wasn’t understood (nor introduced to religious thought) until relatively late in human history. ancient europe was matrilineal. the overwhelmingly embarrassingly obvious truth of life is that a child is meant to be living proof of two people’s love for one another.

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>>25282030
To be frank with you, I agree. I think the love of a man and woman is beautiful - and of their children too - and has been distorted and disfigured by so many forms of social life over the centuries. Have you seen Sunrise: A Song of Two Humans? I like to imagine positive and heroic social roles for homosexual couples too, not just sterile liberal ones.

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>>25282030
>the overwhelmingly embarrassingly obvious truth of life is that a child is meant to be living proof of two people’s love for one another.

>>25282043
it was on my watchlist from seeing it on the bfi top 100 but i don’t think i got round to it.

>>25282048
thank you thank you

i just chugged an energy drink and now unsurprisingly i'm hyper af should do sth productive rn

Listen, hating women is not misogynist. Let me ask you women can you even conceive of being in a room where nobody has any part in a menstrual cycle? Think of what could be done. And a million years ago when when we first found that out, that’s when business was invented. The possibilities were endless, we could hold courts, make laws, strategize, perform proper accounting, we could achieve civilization! All with this one simple trick!

>>25282087
a bookshop idyll

Between the GARDENING and the COOKERY
Comes the brief POETRY shelf;
By the Nonesuch Donne, a thin anthology
Offers itself.

Critical, and with nothing else to do,
I scan the Contents page,
Relieved to find the names are mostly new;
No one my age.

Like all strangers, they divide by sex:
Landscape near Parma
Interests a man, so does The Double Vortex,
So does Rilke and Buddha.

'I travel, you see', 'I think' and 'I can read'
These titles seem to say;
But I Remember You, Love is my Creed,
Poem for J.,

The ladies' choice, discountenance my patter
For several seconds;
From somewhere in this (as in any) matter
A moral beckons.

Should poets bicycle-pump the human heart
Or squash it flat?
Man's love is of man's life a thing apart;
Girls aren't like that.

We men have got love well weighed up; our stuff
Can get by without it.
Women don't seem to think that's good enough;
They write about it,

And the awful way their poems lay open
Just doesn't strike them.
Women are really much nicer than men:
No wonder we like them.

Deciding this, we can forget those times
We sat up half the night
Chockfull of love, crammed with bright thoughts,
names, rhymes, and couln't write.

My SCUBA training course begins May 21st and goes through July 20th. I'm so friggin' stoked :)

>>25282022
Or you could just have a close friend that you don't have sex with and a woman that you do, fag

>>25282098
don’t hold your breath

>>25282094
reading ai slop
shan't be me
have a nice day THOUGH

>>25282103
I know not to do that already :)

>>25282108
telling. it was written by one kingsley amis in the 20th century.

>>25282094
Very thoughtful actually

‘Oh, do you have kids?’
Man - ‘oh no, me and my husband arent able’

Officer, have this development arrested

>>25282212
asking people if they're going to have kids when they brag about getting married is one of the best way to trigger shitheads who just got married for the tax break with no intention of using it raise a family

>>25282219
What if they’re level-headed childless couple?

>>25282224
dinks are useless hedonists who don't need to be subsidized with a tax break.

I'm having kids for dinner today.

>>25282274
Don't forget to suck the shit out of their intestines

>>25282283
Intestines? Did you misread what I wrote?

>>25282288
You're eating kids, I understood you perfectly rabbi.

>>25282283
don't want to leave any loose ends hanging about do we

I bet the Catholic Church is pretty pissed that Gnostism was rediscovered after doing such a good job of essentially nuking the thing out of existence.

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Society should start shaming women with small breasts, just like short men and men with small penises are being shamed.
>b-but
Shut up, flattie.

>>25281586
a job (or lack thereof)

All the tribes hoard breads and wines.
These climates transform men swine.
All these hives hide knives and lead.
These bribes can't transform swine to men.

Jesus, lightnen up, will you?

>>25282295
I'm referring to dinnertime. Most people would understand what I meant. "Hey, honey, we're having X for dinner tonight." X = friends. That's commonly said amongst households. You should know better unless you're from a foreign culture, see Grice's maxims.

>see a cute korean girl on my twitter timeline
>like the post and see her profile
>scroll down to see she has some fetish of peeing and soaking her panties with piss
what the bloody hell

>>25282395
You knew what you meant. I see through your feeble attempt to change the meaning of your original post you SICK FUCK!

Does anyone know if there's any novels about two people who fall in love, have a passionate relationship together, break up amicably, and then stay friends and aren't bitter with eachother?

>>25281289
John Berryman said the worst part of psychosis is its banality.

Let's be real every murder is at least biological genocide

>>25282379
Haha! Really something. A certain feeling at least.

>>25282411
Reasonable sentence cut with blunt profanity, one of my own I see

>>25282527
Probably not in my instance. The worst part for me was probably how overwhelming it was. Not being able to control the content of the mind, seeing Hellish things emerge from every corner, experiencing a complete dissolution of the personality into operating on strict, primal impulse.
If they were based in reality, along with the rewards the psychosis fed me for overcoming the struggles it presented, then I'd be thrilled, possibly forever, but instead I'm just here, existing with no real sense of purpose.

Actually now that I think of it isn't parenthood a main thread in moral judgements regarding murder? Killing a father is killing a father but killing a very sure fatherhood candidate is family annihilation and I think we've been accounting for that ourselves since the beginning.

>>25282527
Is John Berryman really that based of a collective consciousness sickness guy? Would you recommend me a set of poems or works of his? I've been changed by Burroughs and am trying to find other similar artists to get out of certain holes

i feel like i have parts of the brain of different people

>>25282564
Also if it helps I'm an alcoholic help

>>25282568
Well, you do. Your brain's lobes are in fact separate organs. Sometimes called 'organelles' for clarity's sake. Food for thought.

Every post is a collective consciousness exercise and that is why we call reply chains threads

>>25282575
thaw was good but you know what i'm talking about

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>>25282600
Okay Frankenstein how about this?

watching a movie, it's pretty good

>>25282606
can't process the meaning...
>>25282630
what movie is it?

>>25282544
KEK

>>25281265
Thinking about the asian woman I knew in college who was involved with the feminist club, who organized asian solidarity workshops, and who moaned shit like "fuck this chink pussy with that white cock daddy" when we hooked up. Haven't talked with her in years. I think she's in Texas now? This seems to be a common thing among Asian women and I don't know why. Black women aren't like this

>>25282562
>>25282575
>>25282585
>>25282630
Wrong

>>25282658
Yeah they're nuts, especially non Japanese

>>25282658
asian men < white men < black men
black women < white women < asian women

>>25282642
Cronos

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>>25282642
GO ON GIT WE DONT ABIDE SUCH GOD-PLAYIN STITCHED-UP MEDICAL PRODUCTS ROUND HERE NOW I SAID GO ON GIT!

>>25282656
>he finds my sentence structure naturally funny
Means a lot really

>>25282699
I gotchu senpai

>>25282658
High INT High SPI maybe? Low CON too? What happens to someone with a proclivity to learn, a collective consciousness tradition of knowing where they belong, and not enough guts to defy either?

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I'm 30 and have never been in a relationship, never wanted to be in one. My desire for woman and companionship completely disappears once I finish masturbating. But I don't enjoy how enthralled I'm by the practice. I don't know what to do, stopping seems impossible and the desire seems natural so overwriting it is not something I think will be entirely beneficial. Pursuing a partner purely to satisfy my sexual desire does not feel like it would lead to anything auspicious

>>25282756
Alright friend lets go back and remember the veeeery first girl you planned to marry. Operation Full Disclosure come on I'm not going to hurt you. Things you've put away for so long a time because you grew up on them. What happened?

i think about you all day and every day
you even appear in my dreams
all i want in life is to be with you and make you happy
but i know that you dont feel the same way about me as i do you
and yet i feel compelled to keep on trying even though i know its useless
even though i know it may make things worse
as if by some right combination of words or actions everything will change
but i know they wont

>>25282756
I'm the same but 35, been in a few short term relationships or situationships or whatever tho.

Yeah I pretty much fuck my nightmares at this point

>>25281786
Kek

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>>25281265
ok, done.

>>25282869
you missed the write in write your thoughts

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>>25282873
done?

>4chan finally dies
>unable to let go, anons draw out whole threads on paper and mail them to each other to hand-write their replies

You really thought?

>>25282899
I've been thinking about making a decentralized textboard kind of like this. The state of the board gets saved to a printed document, maybe in a barely-human-readable but highly compressed format, and you can scan it with a little device to expand it out into a normal 4chanlike interface on your pc, make your replies, save it back to a new document, and mail that out to whoever.

I think I get more enjoyment out of videogames now than out of anything else atm desu

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>>25282899

>>25282890
how is the first pic img_0485 and this one is img_3333

>>25282918
Thank you for giving me your time zone. That's another bit of information toward identifying you.

all you need is love
love is all you need

head like a hole
black as your soles

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>>25282922

that feel when you thought you finally outgrew your flaws and vices only to realize you had just switched to indulging them in a slightly different form

Been thinking of posting short-stories or snipbits of larger stories to /Lit. Seems fun. Need the criticism aswell, and it'd be a step towards posting on other, more... 'focused' literary review websites and forums.
Issue, is that I... I write a lot of ooey-gooey adventure / romance, but would rather focus on presenting more 'palateable' pieces for initial critique.

While I understand romance literature is a well developed and normie-lized genre, I still don't know how to appropriately capture the interpersonal dynamics, intimacy, and other non-sexual aspects of romance, without necessarily 'jumping' towards overt intimate motifs. Say: the protagonist meets the secondary protagonist and they 'get close,' but the development to *get there* believably -without resorting to trite, bull-headed cliche and physicality- is tough for me.

I have ideas, and reading other works (The Witcher for now) helps to orient the problem as being something not *that* important. Apparently, other titles do urge their relationships, often foregoing the pre-intimate / romantic phase. Butt that's all pretty icky. Ew.
My personal goal is to capture the interpersonal, vulnerable, 'difficult to word,' and 'heavy' aspects of romance; trying to find the 'Love' in it. So: they oeey-gooey, the arguments, the patience, -and indeed- the sexual. But not wholely, and not *particularly* the latter.

Thus is my thought.

>>25282983
Aww man, I get ya there.

I miss heroin.

>>25282918
Honestly fucking based and I respect your draftsmanship and handwriting

>>25282983
That feel when you live in such guilt that the only habitat you're comfortable with is one of recovery so even after you recover from the source of guilt you self-produce it to stay in a state of recovery

>>25283043
This comment invites calamity

>>25283045
Just how you like it huh

>>25283053
I’m not the anon you replied to

Before anyone goes crazy, the medicine proffered here is silence against mental attacks (even if i'm a dirty pharmacist)

>>25283060
Did I stutter?

>>25283064
I wasn’t the anon who replied to you either, I just wanted to let you know that I wasn’t the same poster. This is my second and final reply unless you can really impress me.

>>25283012
Just remember you will win the greatest prize in all history for your long-earned temperance - your final moment will be that shot of morphine in hospice that the world knows you and all the near-dead deserve. For patience and all this suffering your reward is the greatest and final fix, into heaven.

Living on my own in my own place for the first time
I have a bed, a desk, a couch, and a single office chair plus some shelves
I literally do not own a dinner table or chairs or any other furniture. My living room is basically empty. I have nothing on the walls anywhere except a whiteboard calendar by my desk.

>>25283070
>living room is basically empty
Fill it with dreams, moron

>>25283070
Sounds sick. Home living is so good when you don't have some elderly hen roosting around a bevy of inherited curios

>>25283076
Anon, just so you know, if you spoke to me like that in person, I’d be obligated to knock you to the ground

>>25283080
Be realistic no one is speaking to you in person

>>25283080
Instigate me, will you? We have no time for the likes of you. Literacy will be honored here or would you rather face the public!?

>>25283067
https://vocaroo.com/1c4xd4YRxP2K

>>25283087
I was just warning him that his speech patterns might invite calamity in a real-world setting.
>>25283090
You don’t have to talk like that anon, it’s a choice.

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stupid chud spilled ink again

>>25283093
Needs more development, I should know, I’m a musician myself.

>>25283095
Sure sure, I ain't mean nothin by it. Just an ol jester show of course cant blame me for keeping such looking out suspected rubes, milkin the cow they call it. While I got you here, why don't you come closer and I can show you some pictures?

>>25282900
I really thought what?

>>25283099
It’d be really based if you talked more like a grizzled old salt, would rather hear about the sea.

>>25281393
lol what the hell is this

>>25283097
What tips do you have?

>>25281393
Post Of The Month for May 2026

>>25283104
Salt they call it ah yes never forget the old smella salt. Why back before privateers took over the gulf we usedta sit out all night singin a coupla old crabbers tryina keep their mindsoffa women and keep his crabs to himself (ha!) boy let me tell ya the saltwind air in the dead of night boy i've gone mad and i'll do it again without the laugh of a good sailor's tale

>>25283106
Well the heart of it is adding novelty. Adding an instrument, taking one away, introducing a new theme, taking the harmony somewhere else, getting REAL LOUD or REAL QUIET after being REAL LOUD.

To do that vocal effect better, you should double up the delays, sync one up to a dotted 8th feel, sync the other to straight 16th notes. Now you’re in fat city, USA.

>>25283102
As nta and a blunt pleb I need more vocal clarity and a really poppy percussion instrument which can fit really well as a surrealist element alongside everything else. No kidding knock some bottles of liquor together like they were windchimes or something, sample that and scatter it in the work.

>>25283118
Quality suggestion and extra based for also recommending a cheap use case

I think my friend might be over me. Seems really distant & spacey lately, replies a lot slower to stuff. Stopped messaging first

>>25283124
The liquor bottles sound better when they are full, the hollow ones just more obviously like me tripping over empty liquor bottles in my office. Oh and the sound of ice jingling in a glass, that type of business.
I'm a liquor man btw. Apply these same concepts to your favorite drug or anything. Onomatopoeia. it's a strategy at least. Subliminally pop your song with your personally experienced drug sfx. This secret technique was developed by a rogue team at Harvard during WWII and is as a matter of fact the entire heat behind the incredibly lucrative and influential hippie movement.

>>25283132
You don’t need to tell me anon, I already do that. It’s called foley sound by the way. Foley sound.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OcGssBvCDj4

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I'm thinking I should go to the doctor but also that I don't want to and this was just from fire ants, so it's probably fine. Worst that happens is I die and that's not so bad, even if it's a brown recluse it wouldn't take that long to die and it even isn't bad anyway also I saw a rash like this before although I didn't get bit by fire ants then and it went away so it's probably fine although maybe it isn't but ehh my back hurts and my bed is comfy so I'm not going to the doctor I think.

>>25283177
yuck!

I hate
Animal Farm
Catch 22
Catcher in the rye

I like
The Lion the witch and the wardrobe
Lord of the flies
Lord of the rings
Neuromancer
Snow crash

>>25281265
OUCH. ouuuUUCH. oh my god. OUCH. my testicles hurt so bad, ouch my testicles hurt. YEOUCHIES. yeowchies yeowchies.
my testicles hurt, ouch my testicles hurt. like a deep sick ache blossoming into a sharp little ouch. oW.
owie ow ow. my testicles hurrrrt. ouch my testicles hurt. yEOWCH. ouch. it's the left one mostly, but the right one is chiming in now with a sympathetic ouch. OUCH OUCH OUCH. my testicles hurt, ouch my testicles hurt. Y E O U C H.
my testicles. hurt. ouch my testicles hurt. the pain throbbing, throbbing, my testicles hurt so bad, ouch!
yeowch! my testicles hurt, ouch my testicles hurt. OW. I can't believe how much my testicles hurt right now, yeowchies. YEOUCH YEOUCH YEOUCH.
my testicles are screaming, my testicles hurt, ouch my testicles hurt. ouchhh. OOF. ouch. pure testicle agony, my testicles hurt, ouch my testicles hurt. YOWZERS. my testicles hurt. ouchie my testicles hurt, every movement sends a fresh yeowch through my entire being. OW OW OW. why do my testicles hurt like this. ouch, my testicles hurt. YEOUCHIES! my testicles hurt, ouch my testicles hurt, a stabbing ouch deep in the heart of my testicles. ouch ouch ouch.
my poor, poor testicles hurt. ouch my testicles hurt. the yeowch just won't quit. OW. my testicles hurt, ouch ouch my testicles hurt. I am just a vessel of testicle anguish. ouch my testicles hurt. yeowchies. ouch, my testicles hurt so tremendously, ouch my testicles hurt, somebody make the ouch stop. YEOUCH! my testicles hurt, ouch my testicles hurt. what a world of ouch my testicles have entered. yeowchies.

yowch. oUch. ouch my testicles hurt. yeow. OUCH my testicles HURT. ouch my testicles hurt. y e o u c h. my testicles hurt, ouch my balls hurt, yeowch my tender stones. ouch my testicles hurt. OWWW. testicle ache, ouch my testicles hurt. yeowchies, yeowchies, I am a prisoner of my own groin. ouch my testicles hurt. OUCH MY TESTICLES HURT. ouch my testicles hurt. yeowch. my testicles hurt, ouch my testicles hurt. Ow. lefty, ouch. Righty, yeowch. Both, ouch my testicles hurt. yeowchies. my testicles hurt, ouch my testicles hurt. OW. my testicles hurt. ouch, ouch, my testicles hurt. yeowch. ouch my testicles hurt. ouch my testicles hurt. oh, my poor testicles hurt, ouch my testicles hurt. yeowchies. YEOUCH. my testicles hurt, ouch my testicles hurt. yeowch yeowch. my testicles hurt. ouch my testicles hurt. OW. ouch my testicles hurt, ouch my testicles hurt, ouch my testicles hurt. yeowchies. my testicles hurt. ouch. yeowch. ouch my testicles hurt.

ouuuch... my testicles h u r t. ouch my testicles hurt. Y E O U C H I E S. ouch my testicles hurt.

>>25283286
Literally me

>>25281393
kek

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Should I read this?
>The cases and characters involved include peasants' refusal to celebrate church rituals; a self-proclaimed prophet who encountered an angel in his vineyard; a thirteen-year-old-witch; a paranoid pastor; a murder; and live burial of a village bull.

>>25281265

I wish I could go back to the 90s. I was a mere toddler then but it felt like a completely different universe

>>25282778
Why don’t you tell them this directly?

>>25283339
You should consider it.

>>25283135
Nice. I invented it on my own btw

Rump state more like Trump state

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rump_state

>>25283344
checked. Thanks for your attention to this matter

Been a clown my whole life so I decided to learn how to juggle. It's slow going but I'm making progress. I just managed to get a three-ball flash a few times, once twice in a row.

If God knows everything, does He know what an orgasm feels like?

>>25283397
I just checked and, yes, though he isn’t a fan

>>25283397
Yes, he has omnisubjectivity.

>>25281529
Jackass

I don't know how to determine what sort of career field I would be interested in. I graduated from college with a humanities degree (I know, I know) and although I found the subject matter stimulating I know that a phd in the subject isn't a wise choice in 2026.
There are so many theoretical options that I feel paralyzed. I just don't know how to begin to think about it.
t.retard

>>25283472
microhistory

>>25283472
China history is a very auspicious field and you’re in time to learn China history moment before their auspicious golden rise to prominence in grorious CHINESE century to come forever!

>>25283472
options:
>join the Army
>become a glownigger
>barista
>prostitution
>graduate degree to put off thinking about the job market for another few years
>move in with parents
>begging

>>25283472
What career fields are even open anymore? Let's think about that before we start wondering what brand of wage slavery gives us the ol tingles here
We have reached the point where you take what you can get and call it a career

operation manwhore: i have 2 years to looksmaxx, fix my teeth and lose weight. let's GO!!

>>25283484
Yes! China is best place to start! They are the future of whore world, they will elevate you to token western history man!

>>25283472
I graduated 7 years ago and I'm still waiting for my life to start. My bachelors is so horrible I leave it off my resume. I'm ashamed of my alma mater as well. I've barely been scraping by and I don't see any possible opportunity to rise out of it. What can I even do anymore

>>25283404
On the receiving end of anal too then. Interesting.

>>25283498
>ashamed of my Alma mater
Weird thing to say for a westerner who wasn’t raised in a third world shame-based culture

>>25283472
most universities offer a 2yr accelerated bachelors in nursing program. go sell your soul and make bank brotherman

>>25283472
orange slicing

>>25283502
This, lot of Chinese posters tonight. What gives, are we being raided?

>>25283472
pirate

>>25283472
...why not stay in academia? Only if you think you're that smart, that is. Which if you're on /lit/, you probably do, and there's a decent but not uncertain chance you are.

That's what I'd have done if I could go back in time. Otherwise, with a liberal arts BA, you can also go to law school. Or sign up with the CIA.

>>25283506
is there anything else that would take less time or cost less

>>25283553
Do you think its the 20th century?

>>25283558
Only in my dreams and the novels I read~

Ye zameen ha rahi hai
Aasmaan ga raha hai
Saath mere ye saara
Jahan ga rahaa hai

>>25283472
armpit hair

I only bought three shooters instead of a bottle and now all I have is beer.

I can't watch any newish TV show that features a teenage daughter character (17-19). For one, the young girls these days are just way, way too hot, both in genetics and how they maximize their makeup, hair, and overall appearance. Two, it makes me sad I didn't get laid more in my own high school/just out of high school days. I end up completely distracted, lustful, and depressed focusing on the girl.

>>25283598
Pretty typical of the chink experience. Consider an heroing after praying to come back white.

>>25283599
wtf how did you know it was me!??

>>25283472
rats or cheese?

>>25283603
I checked

>>25283607
Th-that's mod abuse! Stop looking at my IP and tracking my posts.

>>25283618
No lol

I am 479 days younger than Nilli.

>>25283607
Hey janny is there some moratorium against gay talk outside /lgbt/ ? I was sharing about how I wouldn't mind sucking dicks and someone deleted it. I was not trolling

>>25283607
Also can you ban the I Ching spammer?

>>25283472
oriental

>>25283630
I can’t, it’s a great book!

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You know the cliche of a secret organization just being called "The Organization"?

>>25283472
yeah

>>25281265

I wonder what loving a woman feels like. Not sex, but actual love like they show in the movies and songs. I don't think K can ever feel it for anyone

>>25281268
Out

>>25281278
Wistful

>>25281289
Quixotic

>>25281304
Enamored

>>25281446
Taciturn

>>25281477
Here

>>25281512
Liminal

>>25281674
Forsaken

>>25282756
Detached

>>25283654
Numb

I need to find a near-0 Cal snack. Nuts of any kind are out because they interfere with my medicine. I tried celery and carrots for a bit but I end up eating a shitload of ranch.

>>25283677
Oh, and popcorn is good, especially kettle, but I end up eating an absurd amount. That might be the answer still.

>>25283677
nose candy

>>25283679
I did the drug thing for ~12 years, time to move on and be an adult.

>>25281265
Do people actually take their phones on the toilet? Do they shit for twenty minutes or something? Why woudl you need that?

>>25283680
drugs are probably the most adult thing you can do tb h

>>25283689
I even bring my phone when I piss! I hate, hate waste time doing nothiing.

>>25283656
Lovely

>>25283691
Do you get anything done while doing that?

>>25283692
disagree

>>25283695
Couple paragraphs of a news article or whatever I'm reading. If I'm left to my own thoughts in the bathroom, I get anxious.

>>25283689
I start dry heaving without my phone. Last time I forgot to take my phone to the toilet I literally full on had a panic attack.

>>25283691
>>25283698
>hate waste time doing nothiing.
>reads a news article
lol

>>25283710
yeah yeah yeah

Or whatever kind of article I happen to be reading, eg about culture, science, art, history, whatever. Sometimes it's reddit posts. The point is it feels productive, even if minor, because it's something I'm getting done. I'm not watching TikTok videos or playing some mindless game for a minute or 10 minutes while in the bathroom. That's retarded. I'm doing what I'd be doing otherwise already.

>>25283654
I'm 30 and never been in a relationship, never wanted one. The idea of "actual love" like in movies seems like a fiction to me. My desire for woman and companionship completely disappears once I finish. I don't know if it's real or just the biological itch dressed up. I don't think K is missing anything. Pursuing a partner purely to satisfy that urge never felt auspicious.

>>25283654
>I don't think K can ever feel it for anyone
The guy from The Trial? It's the labyrinth, nightmare bureaucracy's fault, not his!

>>25283713
I don’t take my phone in there. I just sit and wait for the urge to pass. It’s the same as the other urge. Doesn’t matter if you read an article or not, it all ends the same way. Emptiness either way.

>>25283728
>The idea of "actual love" like in movies seems like a fiction to me. My desire for woman and companionship completely disappears once I finish.

Lmao same.
>. I don't know if it's real or just the biological itch dressed up.
The way they talk/sing about it doesn't feel like just an itch. But for the life of me I can't get what it is

>>25283713
wanting to be productive while taking a shit is retarded, watching tiktok in there is just normal. brains actually benefit from brief idle moments.

>>25283746
Taking ANY electronic to the shutter is wrong. Some things are sacred

>>25283698
Well I guess its better than doomscrolling.
>>25283702
Why?

I'm not a misogynist, but there's no true dominant women. And for that reason they shouldn't be leaders.

>>25283755
I've known plenty of great women leaders.

>>25283769
I've known 0.

>>25283769
Some people have genetics for fast-twitch muscles designed for sprinting. Others have genetics for slow-twitch muscles designed for marathon running. Now a trained sprinter can probably do a marathon run better than an untrained marathon runner, but all things being equal a trained marathon runner will always runner will always beat a trained sprinter in a marathon.

Same logic applies to female leaders. They are never going to be ideal.
That menstruation thing they got messes with their long-term thinking, but makes them great cares of erratic children

My most played genre of video game is the JRPG, but ironically, I don't really enjoy them. I still remember being about 12 years old and discovering how combat worked in Final Fantasy and being totally baffled how anyone could find this fun, and many years later I still don't find it fun, even after playing over a dozen Final Fantasy games and finishing half of them. If you asked me why I play them, I guess it's because I love the art mostly. But I'm also drawn hypnotically back to this idea that one day some synapses in my brain will magically, randomly connect and I'll just start enjoying this thing that everybody else has been enjoying for decades. When I see these games, it's almost like a part of my brain fires off saying, "Look, you should love this!", but when I actually play them it's like, huh, this is boring. Games in general are actually kinda boring to me, so the particular genre I play doesn't really matter. But there was a time when I loved action games and platformers, whereas JRPGs have always bored me. It kinda sucks that I live a weird, nonsensical life like this.

>>25283779
>great cares of erratic children
Historically this is a quality you’d look for in a leader. When Eton was still a school designed around raising empire-builders, boys were basically taught how to get by in a world filled with savages.

>>25283789
>carers / caretakers
>Historically this is a quality you’d look for in a leader.
Sure sure. Just like Sun Tzu famously made an army out of concubines to prove a point. But I was referring to literal babies with their wahwahs and endless screeching

>>25283788
I see them as interactive art projects, only with the bare minimum of gameplay added so they could be called games.

Childhood trauma kinda ruined me in the end. That's not some kinda distressed, boozy 3 AM emotional statement; just a cool, neutral statement of the facts. If you're fucked up from childhood doing anything with your life is sort of a foregone conclusion. You're free to try of course but it won't actually work.

Remember that one Kennedy girl who got a lobotomy. People made such a big fuss about this, like how dare they lobotomize her for having emotional problems and spells of depression! Maybe they were just saving her the effort, dude. Like if you come out of childhood emotionally fucked up like that it's not as if you have a real life to live anyways. There's nothing for you to explore out there, nothing for you to do, you're done. I'm not saying your only option is suicide, but if you don't try to penetrate the depths of your brain and fix whatever deeply fucked up residual shit is in there, you're as good as dead. Literally, right now you are as good as dead. You think you know what life is? Boy you don't even fucking know. You have no idea what life is. You're living a goofy, fucked up, cringe simulacrum of reality where any choice can only be the wrong one.

>>25283806
>Childhood trauma kinda ruined me in the end. That's not some kinda distressed, boozy 3 AM emotional statement; just a cool, neutral statement of the facts.
One of my earliest memories is having to draw a picture of my family including pets in kindergarten only to come home to discover my mom put down our dog solely because she felt like it. I guess that was first domino brick that lead me to my life of solitude.

> If you're fucked up from childhood doing anything with your life is sort of a foregone conclusion. You're free to try of course but it won't actually work.
Nah, change is always possible. Just takes a while and happens so slowly you dont think its possible so you see no reason to try for it.

>>25283795
Yeah - it translates very closely into the real world. Probably also why you see ‘the old woman running the whole thing in the back room’ all the time in Mafia stories. Same thing with Napoleon, his mother running everything. He said she was the only person he truly respected.

Wu-Tang Clan ain't nuthin' to fuck with

I've noticed that success = knowing when to escalate.

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>>25283788
you might find this essay interesting: https://harmonyzone.org/blog/posts/soapbox/

>>25281393
nice. feels like old internet.

>>25281393
Is this real

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>>25283853
Yeah that matches up well with my experiences. Games in the moment can be hypnotic sludge, but games as memories are pretty compelling and inspiring. Like SMT3. SMT3 as a game feels spiritually infinite, as if you could cut out any area of that game and make it loop forever and it wouldn't feel bizarre or out of place.

I kinda understand the sentiment. As a kid, I remember playing old Tony Hawk and Rockstar games and being bored by the content I was supposed to love (like the missions in GTA), but I was kind of interested in stuff that I probably wasn't even supposed to notice, like how empty and unpleasant some of the levels felt. You could make a whole short little game just trying to recapture that feeling & magnify it. I guess then you'd ask, "But why not go back and play the game that originally gave you the feeling instead?"And I guess the answer is that this interesting feeling was bracketed by a whole bunch of nothing.

Like if we're being honest, much of the time we're playing video games it feels sort of like an opioid high, but a pretty cheap and emotionless one. And the fact that all these extremely cool and unique feelings games can give us are constantly being sandwiched between these empty opioid states really washes out their enjoyability. They make you feel like a sucker for playing games, since this mysterious and fascinating thing is immediately pushed to the side for a return to that old opioid high. You feel like a fool for even noticing. So that's why games are often richer in memory

Wow, ML has truly removed EVERYTHING related to my fetish from their site it appears, even a lot of the stuff that was clips from movies. So that's it? I'm just done with porn forever now? I've gotta ask my next gf if I can film some stuff with her? What a joke.

On the flip side, good for the woman in the videos I liked to watch, I wouldn't want that up either.