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>>25319488
I WILL find a /lit/ girl to keep as a plaything (consensual)
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I just wanna fuck
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>>25319488
Im so sick of being a clown but I cant.
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How much do serious literature majors and academics read per day? I want to try and match that level of dedication and consistency.
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Make a /girls/ board already and contain the worthless gooners of every board there
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>>25319522
Why do you think I horny post here? Women deplore it

Also my future wife will see it and have a foretaste of how I'm going to use her
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Do people on /lit/ discuss light novels?
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>>25319517
I don't know. I've been reading maybe 400 pages (of fiction) a day the past week. But I haven't done much but that, chores, cooking, and shit posting.
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Turning the music up so loud I can't hear my own thoughts.
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>>25319525
Damn. How many pages an hour?
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>>25319517
Around 5-6 hours is my limit, past that my brain is mush. Then again I dont read slop, that stuff probably glides right down and can be consumed endlessly
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>>25319488
I solved the Dyatlov Pass mystery
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>>25319527
120 but I take a lot of breaks. Much slower with nonfiction, for Being and Time I'm at about two pages an hour.
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>>25319541
You read 120 pages an hour? Damn, I gotta step my game up. How are you liking Heidegger?
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>>25319532
I think this is the healthy sustained limit for all intellectual work. I've heard 4-6 hours over and over again all over STEMworld (once you cut through the ACCELERATE JUST BUILD play pretend). Interesting that it shows up in your field as well. I guess that's why Ford settled on the 8 hour workday, 6 hours of solid work + 2 hours for fucking around and miscellaneous tasks.

Obviously people *can* work much longer but the diminishing returns seem severe.
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>>25319550
Thank you. Seems kind of overrated but I'm not that far in, and to be frank a lot of what he's referencing is unfamiliar to me. I might stop and read a secondary work before continuing.
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all i see are responsible, well-adjusted people around me.
fucking disgusting.
they don't get it.
they never will.
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I get why you might not like me now. I didn’t even go to your wedding. But still. You. Can. Still. Reply. To. A. Text.

What. The. Fuck. Is. Wrong. With. People. These. Days.
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I think most people's problems in these threads will all dissappear if they just fuck someone hot
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>>25319557
i feel you brother
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The goal in life is to become good looking enough that people can no longer criticize your interests.
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>>25319517
I wish I could get their skills. I want to work with a professor
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>>25319555
Yeah, I've never been a huge fan, despite my wanting to because he's often described as a poet's philosopher. Probably because I'm not big into ontology and metaphysics. Seems so... abstract and thus irrelevant to actual living. Moral philosophy and sociology (ie critical theory) is much more interesting to me.

But if you end up loving Heidegger, please post about it.
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Them dont understand them dont understand them dont understand true vulture my man
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Does my Joan Miro profile pic make people think I’m weird or mysterious?
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Does my Joan Miro profile pic make people think I’m weird, OR mysterious?
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Private account btw, so that’s all people see of me.
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>>25319591
Mysterious and a little weird…
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>well adjusted
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I'd think after a year, you'd get it.
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>>25319488
cat
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>>25319588
joan miro - weird. matisse - mysterious.
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I just coined the phrase "the *BLANK* from heaven"
For example: The maid from heaven
What do you think guys :)
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guys i’m having the dinner from heaven right now.
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Maybe toxic masculinity really is real because once that GIF gets posted, anons get wild. "It doesn't matter if she cums, the man needs to cum." type of posts.
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>>25319713
:D

Enjoy it my friend!
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>>25319717
wdym i just thought of it myself
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>>25319716
sex is a race bitch u lost
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>>25319588
If you like Miro check out this thing my little cousin left at our house
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>>25319746
huh? Girl you paranoid like Kray-Z. Im just congratulating you about having a good time yknow. Life is all about having a good time baby
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>>25319510
>>25319564
Yeah
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>>25319766
damn this must be the anon from heaven or something
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>>25319716
Speak for yourself. I become immensely upset if the girl doesn't have a good time, and do everything I can to make her cum too.
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I decided to take my shirt off inside. Feeling pretty wild about it.
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>>25319790
what does mom think?
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>>25319716
The woman just has an extremely obnoxious face and expression.
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>>25319654
Get what?
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>>25319777
I'm actually from Hell and have seen things that destroys any hope of hope.
Thus I'm just doing my best trying to steer folks towards the better place
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>>25319796
She's cool with it so long as I keep my door closed.
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>>25319488
I had thoughts about writing a book - a scandalous critique of the modern West, so to speak. I thought things were bad enough as they already seem. The deniers always under-estimate the slowness with wich the pendulum of social decadence creeps upon flourishing societies, nevertheless it happens and it clearly is happening. A few days ago I would have given Western society a remaining lifespan of 4-6 generations, but after putting the subject upon even closer examination, it seems that most of the destructive work has already been done. If it were merely a question of two political poles, right and left, of wich both are opposed to the current system, it would be fair to compare ourselves with Imperial Rome. However, the complete apparent lack of lively elements to our society makes me think that, creepely enough, the West is nothing but a big, undead zombie of itself, still walking on earth, without consciousness, inhabitated by maggots feasting on it's rotten flesh. The question arised, why even write a scandalous book? There probably won't even be such a thing as people finding it scandalous. To mentally fatigued to even think on themselves, the stupid degenerate masses will just look past it in ignorance, and go on with their days and the glory of the system will remain untouched. Our old and decrepit native population will no longer produce any great things, the same can be said about the even less talented Westernized thirdies, who's societal importance will drastically increase in a handful of years once the last few homogenous generations vanished from public life. A new Western form, even more degenerate than the prior, will take everywhere the lead and continue the endless work of degradation. The sad thing is that there will be no glory, no grandeur to it.
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>>25319654
Who the fuck are you talking about?
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Culture is definitely not downstream from genetics as chuds often say, but the overall genetic health of a culture probably does set a semi-hard limit on the upper and lower ends of its potential. Dysgenic populations more or less invariably produce a dysgenic culture as well, while cultures that stem from less dysgenic populations tend to produce superior cultures and civilizations than dysgenic ones. Not a hard rule or anything but the correlation is hard to not see.
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>>25319918
Can you provide some examples?
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I’ve got a 70 book backlog
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>>25319918
I guarantee you culture is made by a collection of Paychopaths, autists and psychopathic autists which is then sold to the masses regardless of their genetics.
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>>25319488
I’m becoming a bit of a cynic. How much misery does it take someone to reach this position on average?
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https://www.youtube.com/shorts/uDY4SP2IeTY
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FUCK
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Its my birthday and mom and dad got me a book I wanted
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>>25320031
Congrats!
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Officially signed my marriage license today. Like ten minutes ago. Just having a beer on the patio.

>>25320031
Happy birthday anon, what book?
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Today I went to /b/ for my loli routine, after much ado and attachment with femboys and traps such as Hojo Tokiyuki and Lloyd de Saloum, from the popular series "The Elusive Samurai" and "I Was Reincarnated as the 7th Prince so I Can Take My Time Perfecting My Magical Ability", respectively. While not unbeknownst to the reader, it must be said this is no matter of thin precum, but rather of full frothy fat loads, which one would blissfully seed fields after the sound of a Flat Minor. This much, specially, after encountering this certain thread (or was it that found me?). Due this digital parallax, this forbidden fruit within a garden of pleasures, I opened a link after the serpent already bit my hand, and could not, O, I would not, avert my eyes away from the sight mightier than Helen to Paris, whose Troy would undoubtedly summon a thousand SWATs and alcoves, and even make kings shiver down their thrones. Being suscint: I saw girls (God forbid me) schlicking schlock, groping grape, donguing dong, and much more. While in complete astonishment with the facetious invention of Man, I told myself those were mere artificial GPU-powered illusions of rectal entanglements, binary shapes in their tiny caves of Plato. I did nothing illegal, maybe not even unethical, in this Yuga, as there is great comotion for greater standards, and newer toys everyday for this Stone Age brain. Lo, fault in me, for being born in a brave new world, that has such cunny in it? The god of Polyphemus is his maw, but providence sided with Ulysses; no other reason for a man to control his instincts. I wish no harm to any child but to the succubi in my monitor.

P.s. Incubi too (Venti, I write to you, while my conscience is full, and my balls empty)
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>>25320036
thanks broo
>>25320044
pic related
congrats on your marriage friend
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>>25320049
Bro dedicated his fap post to a made up large name for a starbucks drink?
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>>25320053
Remember, we're all going to make it. Anyways, what's it about? Looks neat.
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gonna listen to some rap then go to bed
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>>25320065
Do you wish for me to write you a brief rap verse?
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>>25320061
The author was born in the HRE around the start of the 30 years war, and at 10 years old, got kidnapped by a band of Hessian mercenaries and spend the next chunk of his life caught up in the war.
the novel is, from what i understand, a fictional tale but based on his own life, revolving around a boy was taken by mercenaries at 10 years old and sucked into the war, just like the authors real life. apparently with bit of humour thrown in. I've heard it described as "Don Quixote in the 30 years war"
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>>25320073
That sounds honestly awesome. Have you read gargantua and pantagruel? Less autobiographical than Don Quixote, but the translation I got was completely fucking insane. Genius level word play and allusion, also an entire chapter dedicated to everything a dude wiped his ass with, or all the names he had for his penis.
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>>25320084
I have not. which translation was it?
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Why am I only motivated to read and write when I'm stuck at work?
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>>25320095
Urqhart I think, but I'll double check when I get home. Here's a link on gutenberg
>gutenberg.org/files/1200/1200-h/1200-h.htm

>>25320102
An idle mind is empty. A chained one? Inspired, vicariously of course. How else would you endure?
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>>25320068
not that anon, but i commission you to write a rap on the theme of Swamps
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I just drank some coughsyrup for the first time since I was a baby. Lowkey can see why somebody can get addicted to it
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>>25320113
Hell yeah, I'm a certified Loam Pox legacy player. I can do that.

Eternal lamentations
and nefarious lament,
when I'm sniffin' on that swamp
I'm pitchin' me a tent.
I'm trawlin' and I'm brawling
with my sulphurous riposte
and I'm nuttin' on the ceiling
with that corpse's patyhose.

A swamp or a bog's
not a ditch or a creek
and I yearn for that dank
then eat toadstools all week.
I'm an expert at removal
of the flesh from your chest
because when it comes to rot
I like to keep abreast,
and I'm the best at composition
I decompose and reassess
the nutrients inside you
as we coalesce
into one big soup.
I'm acidic like the plague
and you better come with shovels
lest you get burried by my swag.
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>>25320128
Dang I really said eternal lamentations and lament right after, change lament to intent. Sasuaga, time for sudoku.
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I can‘t go scavenge food from the meeting I was not a part of because two faggots are still in there forty-five minutes after its ending either to gab or to show everybody what a set of busy little bees they are.

I hope their children forget what they look like.
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>>25319501
It reflects very poorly on my character but lately I’ve been having the fantasy of becoming uber rich and then keeping a woman somewhere, like a trophy sidehoe. I’d have my actual partner of course but off in Dubai or Qatar there’d be a woman I keep in an apartment. I wouldn’t be mean to her, she’d be a stay at home “housewife” and I wouldn’t demand much from her while out of country (when I’m in town, I expect every sexual act under the sun). I just have come to enjoy the fantasy of having a (Arab) woman utterly dependent on me.
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>>25320264
Tradcuck fantasies make me hurl.
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If twelve year olds were allowed on tinder they would have the most popular profiles on the entire app
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>>25320282
Probably, pedoboy.
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>>25320272
>trad
Wtf about that fantasy was trad?
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hi

_-= Post written using Postwriter Pro v9.02 Enterprise Edition =-_
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>>25320302
What difference does it make?
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>>25319879
Pretty good writing style. Also wrong form of "its" and "whose". Also "creepely (sic)"? Almost makes me think these errors are meant to be anti-AI flags.
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>>25320312
Sorry, I don't know.

-= Post written using Postwriter Pro v9.02 Enterprise Edition =-_
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"My God, it's full of stars!"
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>>25319488
Most people in the department told me they want out. I wonder what would happen if everybody quit at the same time. They could probably take other contractors to plug the leak but you can't run a whole team on engineering contractors when the average budget for a project is around $500K. Where are you even gonna find them if you don't accept WFH? And you'd have to ensure the guys stay more than five months on the job.

I've been working weekends. Little things. Inventing tools to make the job suck less and sharing it with coworkers. I'll regret it, probably, but eh. I fucking hated their tools. After I'm done improving things there, I'm leaving. They're even asking me for KPIs when more than half of my job is fixing the shit the IT department is doing. Fuck those guys by the way. I'd fire them all if I could.
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I wish poop and sex jokes didn't filter me so hard there's some great literature I'm missing out on because I just can't stomach it. It's just not funny to me at all and I hate reading it. I hate that about myself. I just don't have a sense of humor
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>>25320369
I actually love poop and sex jokes btw
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I wish girls were like this in real life
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it's over.
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>>25320410
my portfolios are indeed going to eat shit.
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I'm finally back down under 150lbs. Took a few weeks of work which paid off.

However, I made a pizza for myself, which is fine, but now my parents made steak and rice, my eternal weakness, so even though the pizza should have kept me satiated all day, I like steak and rice so much I'm gonna force myself to eat a few plates, and bam, then I'm back up over 150. Sad.
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He just like me fr
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>>25320389
Inflatable?
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The other day I was reading about codependent relationships and it brought me back to this former classmate of mine. I wasn't in a codependent relationship with her, more like she tried to drag me into one. It was a very one-sided relationship in which she always told me about her, but she didn't ask about me. Yet, what I actually found weird was how she spoke to me as she wanted my approval and how she thought I needed her help or approval. To me, it felt as if she wanted validation in exchange for validation.
I haven't spoken to her years but it really made me ponder things.
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>>25320465
I wonder if people resent or like that I'd much rather have them talk about themselves than I want to talk about myself or my problems. I always felt like a spy teetering on the edge of blowing his cover among normies, so the less times I roll the dice on whether I'm going to come off like an autistic weirdo by centering the conversation on myself or the way I convey my thoughts, the better, I think.
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>>25320429
You‘re gay
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>>25320472
I guess it depends on the person. Some people love to go on and on about themselves, but others prefer to listen. I rather have a 50-50 in which I listen but I also get to talk.
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I need help with my hair, it's driving me crazy. So when I shower and shampoo it, it's uncooperative and looks like shit on the same day and next. Only once it's day 3, does the oils from sleeping begin to have their effect and make it look good and handle perfectly. Then around day 6 it gets too greasy and I have to shower again.

Anyway to make it look good on day 1 and 2? Is the problem my choice of shampoo? Should I try conditioner? This shit is so annoying. I had to cancel going out the past two days because it looked so bad and it was too hot to wear a beanie. Today it looks really good again.
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I ask you questions everyday and I probably get the usual spiel, also this could be anybody, so again I’m running a neurotic gambit shadow-boxing what-ifs, with the most likely option a new post will pop in calling me a troon or a nazi. Not like this is normal anyway.
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Thinking of salad.
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>>25320429
Would he have survived the Holocaust?
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>>25320491
*every day

Get it right.
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>>25320489
Look up your hair type and find an appropriate shampoo.
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>>25320556
I am generally loathe to spend money on anything relating to my appearance, being fortunate enough to be blessed with good genetics to where I can coast on my natural looks, but if you think the problem can be solved with a better, specific shampoo, I will look into that, thanks.
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My brain is totally fried from 4chan and the meaningless busywork at my job
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>>25320567
It could be a variety of factors, like your pillow case or previous damage from another source too. But that's usually the most common one.
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>>25320567
You’re supposed to shampoo every day, don’t listen to euros who say use deodorant once a month
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https://youtu.be/tOUbZJbkHNw
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>>25320577
But then my hair would look like shit everyday... did you read my original post?

>>25320574
I guess I was hoping there'd be someway to speed up the oils in my hair, or to keep them there (though I guess that's where the shampoo comes in). Thanks.
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I keep my hair short but I still condition it.
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Can anyone recommend the best position in which to fuck a fat woman?
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>>25320586
I did not. I don’t care about your original post.
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>>25320610
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>>25320589
What benefit does that give you? I might start trying that.
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>>25320577
Depends on your hair type. If I did that my hair would be horrific.

>>25320586
Sounds like you have thick, curly, or wavy hair like I do. I usually put pommade in it. Really, you should blowdry it (yes it's fucking awful), but a bit of pommade or wax will give it a similar structure. You can still rinse your hair, but it's the shampoo and conditioner that give you bad vibes.
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>>25320631
>Sounds like you have thick, curly, or wavy hair like I do. I usually put pommade in it. Really, you should blowdry it (yes it's fucking awful), but a bit of pommade or wax will give it a similar structure. You can still rinse your hair, but it's the shampoo and conditioner that give you bad vibes.

I do yeah. I don't do any kind of product/wax/pommade because I go for that more naturalistic, puffy look. The blowdrying thing is a good suggestion, I'll definitely try that next time I shower, thanks. How often do you shampoo/conditioner?
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>>25320634
I do the same thing, but like the "natural" look is basically the same thing as the pommade and brushing it out. I personally use a brush to get a good sheen out of it, then I use a wide tooth comb to get the proper texture, followed by running my fingers through it throughout the day to get it to mellow out. Product only looks off if you use too much, get it a little wet and run your fingers through your hair after drying it as much as you can and scrubbing the shit out of your scalp.

Anyways long story short, I shower every day, wash and condition once every two or three. Less is more but there is some seasonality; dry weather fucks my shit right up.
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>>25320648
Thank you, maybe I will give the pommade/wax a try, I think my stepdad has some around.
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Motivated.

Determined.

Resilient.

Confident.

Mentally untouchable.
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>>25320655
Ganbatte. When I was young having unkempt hair was in style, and my brother thankfully helped me get a half decent haircut then showed me how hair product worked, so I just wanted to pay it forward. Curly hair is a bitch, pretty much the exact opposite rules as straight hair.
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>>25320662
lol yeah sometimes I think I just haven't found the ideal way to cut and style my hair, especially since a couple years ago I grew it out really long which I think messed up the ratios and whatnot. I pretty much cut it as if it were straight hair -- leave 2 inches on top, a 1 on the sides and back, and then grow it out for a few months and then repeat.
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>>25319557
"I'm 13 and this is deep." grow up, dude. You think you have a monopoly on melancholy? Everyone has those thoughts in their head that manifest in part from stupid fucking unfair bullshit life shoves down your throat. The only difference between you and most of the "normal well adjusted people" is everyone else swallows it down, moves on with the day without soaking in so much self pity thru drown in it, and they don't farm pity from anons on chan. I'm positive your life isn't worse or better than the average person, only your ability to cope with it and roll the dice for a better next day
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>>25320619
>What benefit does that give you?
Keeps it soft and healthy.
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>>25320670
Leave it a little longer, I usually do a fade to 2.5 on the sides so it doesnt look shitty (my hairtype looks bad buzzed) and leave enough on top so I can comb it back. Usually 4-6 inches. Honestly, grow it out a bit and go to a reputable barber, give them some general guidance, and let them do their thing. Preferably a big tiddy alt chick with loads of peircings and a sassy attitude, but your mileage may vary. Or an old italian man in a little mom and pop shop named gino who wears just slightly too much cologne. Either or.
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What's romantic about staring at someone eating food? Slurping spaghetti. Disgusting.
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>>25319488
It's about time I make my appearance on the world stage. No more reading.
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>>25320679
>normgroids understand how dehumanizing their environment is
>they just put up with it to preserve said environment

Wtf I hate normgroids now. I was giving them a pass because I assumed they just failed the soul filter.
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>>25320428
My weakness is the snacks, chips/dip when I come home from work. I know I shouldn’t but I immediately have some everyday
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>>25320727
I dig it. What kind of dip? I love salsa.
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Sentenced to 100 hours of lefty video essays done by smug and condescending upper-middle class white guys with thick british accents in rooms lit with bisexual lighting.
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>>25320747
>bisexual lighting
wat
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I’m a political omnivore.
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>>25320747
Just because you may not agree with the conclusions, doesn't mean there isn't plenty of insights to be learned from the analysis. For example, all conservatives would benefit to read the critical theory Frankfurt school, and all progressives/leftists would benefit to read paleocon theorists like James Burnham and Samuel T Francis.
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>>25319488
I'm out of addys
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>>25320751
we need to go one step beyond that. why do certain people fall for leftism and others conservatism? is it chance? propaganda? genetics?
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Winged politics will never not be the most slave brained over-categorization.
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>>25320775
Right? I only care about truth and policy. And hopefully some integrity too but these days I think we way over-emphasize the value of authenticity when it comes to politicians.
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>>25320772
You might enjoy Haidt's The Righteous Mind: Why Good People Are Divided by Politics and Religion
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>>25320772
The more you learn about the real world the more "conservative" you get. If you spend your life in a metropolitan service industry bubble you remain delusional and think taxes accomplish something.
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>>25320781
I bought it, thanks
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>>25320791
hah, scammed

Kidding. Hope you enjoy.
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>mental retardation truly befitting a namefag
>melancholy
>stupid fucking unfair bullshit life shoves down your throat
terrible projection
i was ruminating on something else entirely
at least we see what's been eating away at you
>>25320724
ikr
>>25320771
i'll hook u up. where do you live?
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i've been on 4chud for so long i always have to go back and make a deliberate, conscious effort to capitalize the first letter of the sentence in work documents.
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I feel powerfully numb. My life is peaceful yet I think about killing myself all the time. There's something deeply wrong about the culture I live in that I've fallen prey to.

I need to work to survive. But the work I do is never good enough, my self-esteem constantly falters. If this were 100,000 years ago, I would be dead after encountering this much failure. So my mind constantly screams at me like an alarm.

I need to bond with others to survive. But even basic relationships are painful and terrifying; the smallest or most inconsequential mistake or off-putting remark can have them choosing to leave. Why stick by people when there are millions of others out there that could be more entertaining friends or better partners? If this were 100,000 years ago, I would be dead after encountering this much failure. So my mind constantly screams at me like an alarm.

As such I'm forced to remain alive unless I end things myself. But I have a survival instinct, which makes it hard for me to end my life.

As such people lead me down a path that would result in my death in the natural world. But now there is no killing blow. There is no mercy.
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My 55 year old mother, my 52 year old stepdad, my 60 year old aunt, and her something year old man are upstairs watching the guy play GTAV for the first time. Life is too surreal. I just went up to get some rice and I had to explain to them how to start a mission and open the map, lol. I tried explaining to them whenever you start a game, first thing you ought to do is figure out the controls. They don't get it though. They're taking a very moment-by-moment experience to it all, haha. But yeah, surreal.



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