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I want people who say "y'all" killed.
>>25333425I knew a kid in elementary school who cut his penis with a pocket knife and used the blood as lubricant to masturbate. He showed me in the bathroom once.
>>25333431Fag
>>25333431The thread just started anon...
Every day I wake up and think "I'm an adult. I can go get fast food whenever I want. I can afford it. But I have leftovers in the fridge, and I should be an adult, and not go get fast food." And then sometimes I get fast food and sometimes I don't.
>>25333438I'm not homosexual. In fact, I'm heterosexual. I love tits, pussy, clit, vag, queefs, pussy juice, pee, tit milk, etc.
>>25333440The memory came to me just as the previous thread ended.
>>25333446Nah, you watched a dude masturbate. Thus, I don't believe (You)
>>25333441If you posted a tranime pic with that blogpost you could be a great /v/ poster
I love sugar.I need to stop eating sugar.Even nicotine is better than sugar.
>>25333425I wish I still enjoyed playing/writing music.I miss when I believed my friends were actually my friends. Even my family has become insufferable to be around. I wish I had the energy and attention span to read more but I'm only averaging maybe 30-50 pages a day at best. I'm too tired to hike today but hopefully tomorrow because at least it will kill half of another stupid fucking day.
>>25333457If you don't believe me, then how can I believe you that you don't believe me? The world runs on trust and cooperation.
>>25333483Watching another guy jerk off is GAY anon...
>>25333425I was just diagnosed with diabetes. I feel like such a fucking loser.
>>25333494All you had to do was stop drinking soda pop but NOOOOOOOO
>>25333457>>25333488nta but I assume it went something like this. except with more sadomasochism.
>>25333505Anon could have simply walked away or turned his head. He MADE THE CHOICE to watch, which is ghey.
>>25333502You're wrong; I don't really like soda. It was the krapfen.
>>25333494Just have good genetics bro
>>25333494just looksmaxx bro
>>25333425After the revolution is before the revolution, and the last revolution was in 1968. I didn't care how 'lib' or 'revolutionnary' you are, at the end of the day, you're just engaging in a slightly modified version of the boomer culture. Who's with me to start a whole new, secret revolutionary idea? Never mind, the Western cattle is too wealthy and poisoned by luxury. The older generations have pampered us so that we never question the given order and now rebelling looks like too much goodies to give in to. I have no hopes in a revolution.
>>25333513Germans really do be eating shit like this and then posting le fat muttmerican memes at the same time.
>>25333510I was like 10 at the time. I did gay things like getting naked with my friends and getting my penis kissed, but that's childhood things.
>>25333525the shittiest german food is better than the best american food.
>>25333528Didn't ask, Üter Zörker.
One of the big reasons I gave up on anime and manga is because seeing all the attractive happy young people they depict made me insanely depressed. Everyone's always flawless and moving forward in life while I'm stuck here aging and miserable and lonely
Again, no idea who the fuck you are.
>>25333569First name is Subaru. Not telling my last name.
You are so gay.
>>25333562I stopped watching anime because I grew up and realized that it's extremely fucking shallow, pureile and embarrassingly goofy.Being exposed to the obsessive, unwashed masses of 4chan didn't help much either.
>>25333569What do you mean?
how'd you get so big?
>>25333425All wars are civil wars because all men are brothers.
>>25333569Oh good, was a little worried there
Anyone honest will admit that eating meat is morally indefensible, and that the strongest argument for eating meat is "it tastes good." This should be obvious to any thinking person.
>>25333523>You just wake up one day and start a revolution, its that easy!
>>25333620Eating too much food.
>>25333638> Just stand for the existing order or at least tolerate it, it's that easy!No it's not.
>>25333661alright, start your little club. You will still need to wait for food to start running out or sabotage the slop mill yourself. Until then people will eek by. People in general just cant be bothered with violence, its a hassle.
I'm starting a communist libertine book club and were going to run a little coffee shop together in VermontThe revolution won't be televised
I've noticed that people approach me more when I act human.
>>25333693I wonder why.
Jumping into the pool and swimming for two hours while forgetting you had your cellphone in your pocket the whole time is one hell of a way to discover that your phone is actually waterproof.
>>25333680Libertinage is incongruent with the tenants of Communism.
There really isn't much to do in this era, just consume garbage products and try not to die from diabetes or cancer. Boring if you ask me.
>>25333676Your reply is dumb as fuck, the revolution of the 68 wasn't violent either dumb fuck. But I'm bored and the now society soucis, let's have another one?
>>25333707There's literally a major European war going on right now that you could go volunteer to fight in.
>>25333713What happened in 68 was just civil unrest and protests. You are the dumb fuck for using the word revolution in the first place
>>25333707What did you do in the last era?>>25333714Im treating this life as a vacation but as usual i have to make an effort to enjoy it properly
theres so much porn to watch and jerk off tolife's fun
>>25333723>I'm a lazy slob, I don't wanna do anything!Enjoy hell I guess.
>>25333730Lol, youre a nutbag
I have one of the most severe cases of normie fatigue known to mankind.
>>25333715"They were a strict, ruthless generation who abused their many sons and daugthers as field slaves or sold them as indentured servants for profit."This is how most of my relatives portray the generation of my great-grandparents, the generation that in 1968 was against the revolution and for the mantainment of the old order.People have written less bad about the ancient feudal masters.1968 was a revolution that ended with the old order.
Thinking of having sex with a prostitute, but I am not sure. I've never actually had sex, and I don't think it's a big deal, but I've been very horny lately. I don't know why I can't bring myself to just have casual sex, or meet somebody romantically. I am not ugly, I've had people approach me with that intent, but I was always too shy and autistic to reciprocate, even when I was attracted to them. I've had people message me on dating apps, but I never talk to them, I don't know why. It's as if I was pathologically shy or afraid of love and sex, while with a prostitute, it would just be business. But who know, maybe it's just that I am too horny right now.
I don’t care what you give me, i just don’t want the usual
>>25333747Revolution NOW
>>25333744My grandmother was a farmer who raised three kids on her own. Started out as a slave basically when she was a child, ended up as a pioneer of chicken farming in my country and well off, left her kids with a house -gave rest away. Wouldnt have anything to do with your rebel rousing i believe
Take good, clean, white barley, and soak it for one day. Then take it out of the water and set it in a windless place until the morning. Soak it again for five hours. Then place it on a shallow strainer and wet it. Then dry it until it becomes like a cushion and, when that happens, let it dry in the sun until it falls apart, for the little hairs are bitter. Then grind it and make it into loaves, adding yeast as if you were making bread, but heat it more. When it rises, crumble it using fresh water and strain it through a strainer or fine sieve. Others bake the loaves in an oven with water, but heat it only a little bit so that it does not boil or become lukewarm; then, they take it out and strain it. They cover it, heat it, and pour it out.
>>25333523Basically. Ive been time traveling lately into the hippie time using era literature by a form of dissociative archaeology and i find this planetary extraction to be a rush job
No other schizoposter has a corpus like this. I scour the depths and play with what I find.https://pastebin.com/vHKeTau2https://ytmnd.com/users/anono/siteshttps://npirl.blogspot.com/2008/11/next-big-thing-in-virtual-worlds-that.htmlhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YkG6s0IhFxkhttps://vimeo.com/specalblendhttps://dn720005.ca.archive.org/0/items/co-creative-evolution-final/Co_Creative_Evolution_1.05.pdfhttps://i.imgur.com/gwggJ60.jpeghttps://i.imgur.com/5f8fhr2.pnghttps://ia800708.us.archive.org/28/items/simsane-9.1-vyrith/SiMSANE_9.1_Vyrith.pdf
>>25333761Soon society will look like that again because of the natural laws at play. The revolution of the '68 is riping more and more into a conservative society. Ten years ago there was still a considerable amount of pre-revolutionary people in managerial positions and consequently societally was still latently dominated by the pre-revolutionary ideals. That is why ten years ago history was all talks about WW2 and such. Today that is no longer the case. The new revolutionary Ueberbau is segmenting itself into place, fractioned in two distinctive groups: the conservative revolutionaries, who lead the revolution of the '68 with an iron hand, and the progressive revolutionaries who, pampering and spoiling the younger generations, only retard the new movement of renewal. This process will go on for probably two more generations where the '68 has gone full blown conservative and hard-rung against change.
There's a huge, floating artificial island situated in the middle of the north Pacific used by the US military to detect nuclear threats approaching over the North Pole.
Thought today was Tuesday for a minute.
That flat white rock off by itself from the other rocksreminded me of that dead cat come to lie there in the creek,among 12, 845 telephone booths
>>25333771seems legit
>>25333771The most iron-clad law of nature is that is has continually found ways to surprise itself, producing novel possibilities that were before impossible to realize. Creativity is the theme of natural history.It is the theme of the future.
I hate the way my mother thinks about "life". Absolute reductionist tripe. I know using this word makes me sound like a faggot, but it's completely "bourgeois" in the worst sense of the word (no offense to the historical bourgeoisie which has produced many men of note and achieved impressive feats).
what did you learn today?
imaging badmouthing your mum on 4chan.
>>25333807You dont understand your mother like i do
Is Mark Musa's translation the way to go with the Divine Comedy?
A tiny spider was wrapping up a massive weevil when i walked by earlier. Now the weevil is flailing around and has mostly gotten loose off the wrap. In the first pass i felt like i shouldn't interfere as the spider is my bro. But the weevil is my bro also
>>25333824She has a family to feed you FUCK. You should have helped.
>>25333824You sound like a Jainist.
>>25333825Spider is just starting out, has not made a brood yet. The weevil will go a long way to help her make a big healthy brood of spiderbabies. He is big and fat.>>25333826Sounds about right. I dont know how it happened, im just a guy
>>25333523The key to understand why boomers succeeded in their counter-cultural revolution is in the name. "Baby boomers". In the 60s young people born in that baby boom (right at the perfect juxtapositionof high birth rates, low infant mortality and economic bonanza) far outweighed their elders, demographically speaking, so they had a leverage they could exploit. You can't get that today; in the West the now elderly boomers still make a huge number and the proportion of young people has never been lower. Plus the young can't even threaten the old that rule them by withholding their servitude: boomers can simply import migroid helots at their demand. Like in thw myth of Chronos, they understand well the threat of parricide because they were the first to do it; thus the entire Boomer social order is carefully designed to prevent such things from happening again; that is, to prevent the young from having the Liberty they knew, that is, what kick-started their revolution, on the contrary of what you (and most slavebrains) would believe.
>>25333836THEN DON'T LET HIM GET AWAY NIGGUH
I have a really scary doctor's visit tomorrow. There's a good chance that when I'll return to this board, tomorrow, and visit the latest wwoym thread, I'll be in a borderline suicidal mood. God, grant me strength.
>>25333523Novelty is overrated, revolutions are gay. The last frontier is interior anyway.
>>25333844Good luck anon
>>25333842I will not interfere
>>25333844You'll be fiiiiine
>>2533381023894789*23843=569723454127
>>25333847>>25333855Thank you very much. I really appreciate it.
>>25333862RIP
>>25333810More about the limits of my decrepit psyche. It's really pathetic how useless I am most of the time.
I like exercising, but I really, really hate gym culture, especially lifting culture. There's something about it that just sickens me. I think it's the faux-wholesomeness mixed with social darwinism that irritates me. I also think all the talk of the "journey" and "Becoming" and whatnot is cloying. In my mind, lifting weights is more like brushing my teeth or ironing my clothes than a vitalistic struggle or whatever.
>>25333871If you're at all fat this is, at least partially, your unconscious sublimating your shame and social anxiety onto something external. t. Used to feel the same
AI hype guys have made me miss crypto hype guys. Like at least crypto hype guys thought they were bringing about a revolution that would bring everyone wealth and privacy. AI hype guys just seem to really relish the idea that AI will make everyone that doesn't drink the Koolaid suffer. Like people who enjoy programming or creative work are an oppressive class that's getting what's coming for them.
>>25333860>>25333869sorry i asked
>>25333871i like gym culture but i hate exercising.
Just completed my life insurance license application. LET'S FUCKING GO.
wow that new kanye west single really sucks donkey dick
>>25334049Given his latest few releases I assume this is the literal content of the lyrics
>>25334071there was a great moment one or two years ago when he released a track about a childhood gay/incest molestation situation with his cousin. he had just got dave blunts in to do his melodies & he talked abt something real and it was sick. it felt like; ok, we gave the pop culture world to the girls for five/ten years and you did FA we’re having it back now and doing weird kid cudi shit again.
I want to be rich
>>25334127If I started spamming shit at him what would you think the response would be?
>>25333924Me me me me me
>>25333924I sit here on 4chan, shoving the most disgusting shit I can think of down migger's throats, which in turn will demoralize them to the point they will no longer vote, I think that I am accomplishing this.
>>25333886sounds pretty Jungian brosource: reading Jung right now because I'm bored
>>25334127This contract is sealed
>>25334157Kek I picked up Psychology of the Unconscious yesterdayBut I think I'd have said so regardless, because I had a very clear revelation around it last year before I had read a page of Jung
>>25334163Archetypes and the Collective Unconscious for me right now broand lol yeah, just couldn't help it because I just finished the part where he talks about projection
>>25333767I BLESS THE RAINS DOWN IN AAAAAAAAAFFFFFFFRRRRIIIIIIICCCCCAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!
>>25334176bro now I miss my cathe was more like a little panther though
The depths of my insecurity and self-consciousness has reached new lows. I went outside for my usual forty minute walk, and seven minutes into it, I felt the compulsion to check my hair in the reflection my phone, and I noticed the wind had mad it flat and uninspiring, so I promptly turned around and rushed home. Something has got to change, I can't keep living this way.
>>25334204Get bloodwork done and see if you're deficient in vitamin D
>>25334211That's why I go for the walks!
>>25334204I wouldn't worry about it, everyone else is either buried in their phones and/or hiding in their fucking earmuffs anyway. I was on a bike ride the other day and almost let some zoomer run into me as a wake up call because I saw her a mile away and she didn't look up from her phone the entire time she was walking down the narrow path before I passed her. All she did was look up at me when I gave her a "watch it" with some kind of drone stare like I had the audacity to be outside doing something other than scrolling tik tok.I can't stand people these days.
>>25333425I'm too afraid to confront people when they're being impolite or cunts to me anymore after getting brutally assaulted a couple of years ago and also getting admonished and ganged up on at work for telling some of my idiotic coworkers to fuck off.I try to talk myself up but I just freeze up and let shit go whenever it happens in public now, and then go home and seethe about it later.I just try not to go out much anymore but this inability to properly stand up for myself has to change. The worst part is I was doing a lot better before the assault.
Maybe I should take the one anon's advice and start using hairspray, at least for the front of my hair. The primary issue is it looks best when it's pushed back, but the wind and such pushes it down, forward, and flat. I might try some right now actually...>>25334213lol I don't know about that, but that's crazy how people can be so unobservant of their surroundings. I'm always scoping everything and everybody around me.
>>25334217yeah I'm exaggerating slightly that it's everyone but its a disproportionate amount of people these days that have no situational awarenessI was really just trying to make the point that I don't think people are judging you that harshly or even give a shit. As long as you don't appear homeless or on hard drugs it's unlikely anyone is going to harass you or bat an eye, and even then, most people just ignore the unruly types. But yeah do whatever you gotta do for your appearance to help build confidence, anything that lowers your anxiety will help push those thoughts away
>>25334217You should join me in baldfaggotry. Only having two choices: skinhead (no beard) or a Muslim (beard) is liberating.
>>25334226Thank you, well said.>>25334230lol it would make my life easierActually, even more than short hair, what also worked is when I grew my hair out long down to my shoulders, because when your hair is long like that, minute changes don't really matter. But at the medium length my hair is at right now, the small differences are significant, which is why I have to constantly police it, and is the cause of my troubles.
i was horny for like 20 minutes when i got home from work i should have jacked off while i was in the mood now i'm too fucking tired
>>25334235>But at the medium length my hair is at right now, the small differences are significant, which is why I have to constantly police it, and is the cause of my troublesI remember that from college. Annoying as fuck.
>>25334270Good, save that potency and vitality to get laid for real tomorrow.
>>25334273tomorrow i work all day then i'm going to the gym then i'm going the fuck to bed
>>25334277>having a job with no female coworkersI don't know how you anons do it
>>25334216>when they're being impolite or cunts to meWhy do they keep doing that?
>>25334280did i work in higher ed it's like 80% chicks
>got furloughed from a job I really liked and then got told that they couldn't afford to bring everyone back and that I didn't make the cut>grant application was rejected>got ghosted by my best friend>got ghosted by another friend>got ghosted by another friend>finally got ghosted by a close female friendMy life sucks right now. I have no idea what I did wrong these past few weeks. And none of these people know each other, so it's not like I unintentionally wronged someone and they went out of their way to kill my other relationships to spite me.I'm starting a PhD in a new state soon. Maybe life will treat me better there.
>>25334288>I'm starting a PhDgrim
the white librarian is teaching every one to call a 5000 pound concentration camp oven with wheels on it a 'car' instead of calling it a 5000 pound concentration camp oven with wheels on it on purpose. she is teaching every one that running the gas chamber is just what adults are supposed to do (and it's really pissing me off.)Cant talk to the whites about the empty prosthetics rrmoval stations cause whites arent people. Not really. They already chose to kill them selves and they are going to take every one else with them.The whites would rather die than stop running the gas chamber.
>>25334281If you're asking seriously and in good faith I don't know, or it's tough to boil it down to a few key factors because the dynamic is always different. Sometimes I might bring it upon myself to some degree with my body language/demeanor/attitude but again, this is situational and sometimes reactive. I'm not an inherently confrontational person, but I am somewhat arrogant and opinionated sometimes, though as I said, much less so than I used to be. I'm definitely not very intimidating in a physical sense, nor do I want to be, but I suspect that at times when people get to know me they are intimidated by my intelligence and certain talents and tend to get defensive by undermining me. I honestly suspect that that your post is bait though or at least implying that I always bring it all upon myself.
the entrance to the white american nazi gas chamber library is the nazi selection ramp. the white librarians husband, (the white american nazi gas chamber police man) handles the extermination later.You get herded in tot he gas chamber or you die. Your legs will be replaced by 5000 pound concentration camp ovens with wheels on them for safety. The white librarian is trying to teach you that her 5000 pound concentration camp oven with wheels on it is too heavy to steal because it already stole every thing. The logic from dachau is still in their blood. the whites have been breathing gas chamber exhaust since 1945.
>>25334290I applied to them as a backup in case the old job didn't come back. The stipend for the program I joined actually pays better than any job I've ever had.
>>25334287Then how can you not get laid while at work!?
>>25334298>forced to do a phd to make ends meet via the shitty stipdendnow that's what i call dystopian
>>25334305Academia is the /lit/ dream job short of being a writer, what are you talking about?>>25334288I'm glad you're at least moving away and starting anew in your situation.
I listen to bro podcasts and I feel like they should be easier to pirate. Some of them are available on p2p platforms but not that many. The reason I think they should be easier to pirate is because women’s onlyfans are widely pirated and it’s only fair if the same was done for guys.
>>25334307academia is trash. get a real job and read in your free time man. when all your time goes to administrating shitty grants with 1000s of strings attached and/or grading endless ai slop from illiterate zoomers, just remember this is the path u chose, lol.
>>25334310paying for podcasts? jesus dude at least buy a fucking audiobook or sth.
I hate that modern cultural sensitivities has complicated my relationship with my black friend. When we initially started interacting, we were generally somewhat passive-aggressive and masking our hostilities behind veneers of cryptic double-speak and friendliness, like we were constantly probing one another with knives despite a tenuous sense of mutual respect for one another's intelligence. The relationship is much more firm now, though it's been somewhat tarnished by the current culture.I just want an N-word pass, really, but I don't know if he has the authority in black culture to license that.I should ask him one day.
I hope we can live in a world free from hatred.
>>25334293>at least implying that I always bring it all upon myselfI was wondering more than implying. I had a marvelous realization once and id like to share it with you in case it might help.I was with a female friend one night and she suggested going out for a drink and some pool. I asked where we would find pool and she told me the neighborhood bar had a table. I knew the bar from long ago when i was younger and in with the wrong crowd. It was a place of ruffians, drug addicts and gangsters and frequent police visits. I looked at my friend who is small and thin and asked her if she was right in the head. She told me "lets go". So we went. Walking in the place it was exactly as i remembered it. Bums hunched over the bar, brutes furrowing their brows and druggies scampering about. I was quite alarmed but my little friend just marched in, asked for the pool ques and we set up the game. We started playing but after a little while a big guy came over and asked if we were gonna finish soon. I became apprehensive, surely this would end up with me impaled and her getting brutally raped. But no. With no hesitation, a smile and a friendly tone my friend said "Oh no sorry mate, we just started" and as if by magic the giants whole demeanor changed and he went "Oh, alright -let me know when you finish" and he just bounded smiling off to his cronies. I stood amazed as i realized that if you project fear towards a fearsome creature, they think something like "Oh, are you scared of me? Why maybe i should do as you expect and just beat you up, huh?" But if you say to them "Hello fellow creature, what'cha knowing?" They´ll just smile and buy you a beer.We had a great time at that bar for years and even made some (casual) friends and none of them ever involved us in their shady lives because they liked us for treating them like fellow humans and just having innocent fun at the bar playing pool.It was an amazing and memorable experience to me and ive never feared another person since.Hope it somewhat comes across and is useful to you.So i just broke out in a smile
gonna go for another walk while listening to The National
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P3fNZ2wwLGwMentally picturing leaving my workplace for the last time after retiring early and absolutely BLASTING this song while driving into the sunset
>>25333620Feasting.
All the shittiest music I've ever had the misfortune of hearing in my life was posted in a WYT thread.
>>25334338That would be nice
>>25334420Here, I'll fix the trend for you: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WyuJzGWgfPw
>>25334420trueI honestly can't remember the last time I heard a good song in general. Well over a decade now
>>25334430What song was that?
>>25333425All right, pussy, pussy, pussy! Come on in pussy lovers! Here at the Titty Twister we're slashing pussy in half! Give us an offer on our vast selection of pussy. This is a pussy blow out! All right, we got white pussy, black pussy, Spanish pussy, yellow pussy, we got hot pussy, cold pussy, we got wet pussy, we got [sniffs] smelly pussy, we got hairy pussy, bloody pussy, we got snappin' pussy, we got silk pussy, velvet pussy, Naugahyde pussy, we even got horse pussy, dog pussy, chicken pussy! Come on, you want pussy, come on in, pussy lovers! If we don't got it, you don't want it! Come on in, pussy lovers!
>>25334433i don't remember. I probably don't even like it anymore. A lot of music is about how you feel about it in the moment I think, like how a lot of my old playlist just feels stale and outdated and laced in bad nostalgia. I don't really like most of what I liked when I was younger anymore.Honestly, the only type of music I can even stand is almost exclusively instrumental these days, as I just find most people's personalities grating and annoying and the lyrics egotistical tripe. A lot of what I like these days falls into the domains of classical music I can actually play myself, but even then, I'm extremely picky. Beethoven's Tempest Sonata in D Minor 3rd movement, or Rachmaninoff Prelude 10 in B minor are some examples. But I don't like neoclassical or classical revival either by contemporary composers, with maybe a few exceptions. I think my ennui and distate for people has just seeped into anything that has too much of an ego-driven impulse to it or is too contemporary for me to detach the ego of the artist from it. That being said, a lot of it just sounds like shit anyway.
>>25334429>German music>Isn't Rammstein Y I K E S
>>25334420remember: /lit/ is a classical boardhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WKHW0DSofUg
>>25334459Bach mogs Beethoven THOUGH #truthnuclearbomb #redpill #rationalismhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AkxsMrrUxcw
Thinking about all the soldiers who died in WWII. Horrible, horrible war. Sheer madness. Russia lost so many soldiers it's unreal. Japanese banzai charges. Jesus Christ, war is fucking hell. Shit like this makes me understand fanatic world peace activists, anons
>>25334444>the only type of music I can even stand is almost exclusively instrumental these daysI had a period like that for a while, still. But i can tolerate good singles again now, mostly older than 20 years old of course. The Cziffra Warm Up Improvisation and Daphnis Et Chloe turned me onto the classics. Wagner is my go-to for chess in the past few yearshttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GyapXh6jVSY
>>25334489If you think that's bad imagine the extreme dehumanization women feel when someone catcalls them
>>25334438sounds like a rip-off of the pussy eater's special thing from inherent vice tho
>>25334489I'm sick and fucking tired of hearing about WWII. I'd rather hear about, read about, learn about and watch a documentary about, any other war in human history at this point rather than the two world wars.
>new grouper album comes out>she switched to making generic pop musicit's so fucking over
>>25334492been awhile since I've seen that Cziffra vid lol, I'm pretty good on the ol ebony and ivories myself but shit like that still makes me wanna quit sometimesi keep trying to get back into it and shake off the rust but I'll play for a few days and then just abandon it for weeks at a time again. I'm a failed musician and it just makes me sad I guess.Some of my old repertoire is still under the fingers but I feel like eventually it's all just going to slip away, like everything else in my stupid life..
>>25334493war obviously worse but I am an enlightened being who believes that catcalling is a bad thing to do>>25334498I get this, but it's so capacious. Lots and lots of crazy shit happened in WWII. It's a cozy read even if frequently horrifying. But yes, oversaturated
fugging spurs blew a 20 point game lead and lost
>>25334489Perfect song for that feel. Imagine war noises in the backgroundhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vCHREyE5GzQ
>>25334500>generic pop musicoh shit might have to check it out so sick of generic indie shit
>>25334507I'd be scared to live in NYC tonightalso rip Wemby's GOAT case
>>25334506It doesn't really matter, it's less unpleasant than a stubbed toe t. Has been sexually harassed/catcalled by homosexuals
>>25334504That vid made me want to play the piano. I started off trying boogie woogie but ended up just playing with Phrygian scales and chords while messing with the sustain pedal. Its fun and people who dont play any instrument are very impressed until they figure out im a novice.
>>25334507>>SPAWRTS BAAAAWLLL!!! I'M GENUINELY EMOTIONALLY INVESTED IN NIGGERS PLAYAN WITH BAAAAWLS!!!!Kill yourself, lmao.
>>25334521it's just because I know where I stand because I've been playing for 30+ years and have been in and out of academic circles and all the pedagogical bs that comes with itI'll never actually quit but it just sucks knowing I'll never reach those heights and I'm tired of blowing normies minds even though I can play some pretty sick shitI just can't really forget that I've been around world class teachers who can actually tell the difference between me and someone like Cziffra, Tatum, Argerich, etc.. pandora's box man...
>>25334525sports obsession is for braindead people, it's basically the only form of intellectual stimulation they can handlebut if you cannot appreciate sports at all, including chess and the like, then you are aspie or something
>>25334532I appreciate sports. I enjoy billiards and paintball and scuba diving. Don't ever @ me again.
I'm really on the verge of hiring a professional hair stylist to tell me what my ideal hair style ought to be, because I think that's really the core of my issue, I'm just cutting my hair and handling it right, to maximize how it naturally works and pairs with my face.
>>25334531Sounds like you have been walking around in those heights to me. Wanting, and not getting to be a king of them sucks -i can (from a lower elevation) relate. But the reason one is there, able to enjoy the heavenly glory, is because one can and enjoys blowing ones own mind -normies are just along for the ride
>>25334551Reminds me of that story about Marilyn Manson removing some of his ribs to be able to blow himself.....
Is it bad to bleach your white sheets every week
i hate this board so much
It's a weird feeling to grieve the loss of a son who only existed as an intricate hallucination. Certainly not as devastating as losing an actual child, but to have that sense of completeness and purpose deteriorate into an isolated, silent existence is still relatively painful to deal with, even though it helps recontextualize other forms of trauma into being much more managable.
>>25334559If you can afford bleach, you can afford sheets. The nuance with the new ones is that you have to break them in
>>25334562I had a vivid dream about having a daughter with my ex once, I still think about her (the daughter) occasionally.
>>25334516Dude, no. Listen to what she was making 15 years ago:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KiijPbSClkMand compare it to this total slophttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NOnZcKllyi4literally sounds like AI generated lyrics
>>25334561Nutbag
>>25334494It is but worse. From dusk till dawn.
>>25334565That's shitty, man, but I get that. My hallucination was rooted in a lot of things, namely my psychosis, but a primary cause was the fact my ex and I had an abortion, so there's a mixed sense of detachment and regret.
>>25334551yeah you're not wrong, I've just been going through a rough phase for the last 5-10 years, I mean who hasn't sometimes I think I just have the yips; time will tell if I can shake them off I hope you keep playing yourself, music is a good thing to have, a good place for your mind to go, even if it can be a source of frustration sometimes. Seems like you know how to not take it too seriously and have a good time with it, I'll think on that
