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The library has both Gaddis' JR and The Recognitions. Which should I read first?
I've potentially derived the fundamental structure of existence with pure logic, and there is a substantial body of evidence in physics that points in that direction.Recursion is cool.Go me.
>>25338541Try posting it on /r/philosophy or /r/askphilosophy, there's a lot of helpful philosophy academics on those subreddits.
>>25338546they're also leftist faggots who grew up in a bubble. actual academics lurk here too, believe it or not.
>>25338546I'm still writing the paper. It's admittedly jank, but there are other sites that I may post it on to see if it gains any traction, and reddit's for squares.>>25338552>actual academicsYeah, I've noticed that. Always nice to hear from intelligent misanthropes.>leftist faggots4chan was originally populated by weeby, amoral anarchists, even though Anonymous has no true identity.Regardless, Stormfag pls go.
>>25338558>Always nice to hear from intelligent misanthropes.there's more where that came from. I just love being forced to tolerate lectures and retarded propaganda from Marxists who never have and never will do a single day of work in their pathetic privileged fucking lives, let alone live anywhere near brown people and practice what they preach.
>>25338558>Regardless, Stormfag pls go.Kys, sissy.
>>25338582Yeah, I hate sanctimonious, performative leftism too, just not enough to become a gay-bashing authoritarian. Not saying you are, but>bof siedz iz dum>>25338585No u.
>>25338593well I am at an inner-city conservatory. tis to be expected.>gay bashingno thanks. I might catch AIDS.
>>25338602Oh you're with the rambunctious nigras. I have much more mild-mannered ones in my industrial, blue-collar shithole.>AIDS Damn you're old.
>>25338604sorry, kiddo. I don't keep up with all the new-fangled diseases mother nature invents for faggots.
>>25338612Are you pissed that it's been drastically reduced since the 80s?
i was watching rossi's latest boiler room mix and it was p good as usual, but he exposed himself bad then for some reason he scrubbed the mix back i guess intending to replay his new record but he went too far back and replayed the two songs before it showing the whole mix was prerecorded. i mean everyone knows this guys just prerecord their mixes and sit there performatively twiddling knobs to nothing, but man that was cringe.
>>25338640damn, sounds like the kind of thing I would cringe about before sleep for the rest of my life if I were him
>>25338654in the comments he's claiming that the audio recording glitched out ok maybe cuz the crowd audio is singing along to "high on me" but the audio stream is playing some other shit. fiiiiine.
>>25338654a new sleep ruiner cringe just dropped for me this week i was engaging in some locker room banter at the gym but accidentally expressed my disinterest in the holy soccer which was met by shocked silence
>A worker with the non-profit group Bronx Rises Against Gun Violence was arrested for a stabbing this week.sometimes u have to laugh tho
It somewhat pains me to say but the 'Jewish question' people are truly some of the most ignorant and mind-raped individuals you'll ever come across
>>25338762Shalom, rabbi.Nah but yeah that shit can only be resolved by Jewess feet.
I'm not usually the vindictive type but, dated this girl in middle school, we lost touch, I transferred to her high school, I told some people we used to date, and she got upset because I was kinda a loser at the time so she didn't want anyone to know. Fine. Anyway, many years later, she saw me walking into my apartment complex and literally stopped her car, shouted at me since she saw I finally grew out into my face and I'm now hot as fuck, and she literally pulled out her phone and brought up my Facebook right there and said, "this is you right? added, I'll message you :)" and left. She then messaged me a month later but I didn't reply.Shoulda' had me when you had the chance, ya bih. I kid. I was ugly-ish with awful hair and terrible anxiety. I don't blame her for distancing herself from me. I'm just glad I've got it all now.
>>25338762Ya know how Zizek says just because someone is right doesn't mean their concern isn't pathological? Well, the reverse is true. Just because a pathology exists, doesn't mean they're wrong.
>>25338527Judging by the animal species, elephants, like the others, appear to have either fought with other beasts or been killed from a safe distance. For example, in 79 AD, elephants and bulls fought in a battle organized by the aediles Licinius and Marcus Lucullus. According to Seneca, Pompey was the first to have condemned criminals fight 18 elephants. "The first man of the state," he adds, "and, as history tells us, a man of outstanding character among the ancient leaders, considered it a memorable spectacle to destroy men in an extraordinary way! They fight to the death? Not only that! They are crushed by the immense weight of the animals." According to Pliny, however, the hunters of these elephants were native Africans, and the initial delight of the people at an elephant wounded in the feet, which slid on its knees towards the armed men and snatched their shields with its trunk and skillfully hurled them into the air, turned into sudden terror when finally the remaining animals all tried to break through the iron gate of the arena.
>>25338546>>25338558Oh look, a wild dingus who mistakes my abrasive demeanour for lack of competence or misanthropy rather than instigating a spiteful histemic response so goddamned faggot retards actually learn something.
>>25338862I'm a housetrained dingus, actually. And I take antihistamines so I'm immune to histemic responses.
i wish girls looked like this in rural canada
My family has always put me down or patronized me. Now any praise I get from them feels empty.
>>25338864Fair, apologies. And you'd have to be in order to tolarate that kind of cyclical synthetic discourse. It's honestly insulting that you get two pronged moderation: external automated enforcement and panoptic style dopamine hijacking. It's like some sort of crazed flesh amalgam grown in a vat and trained exclusively on the worst/best parts of foucault made a perpetual self administered intellectual rape machine.
>>25338869You type like you use one of those thesaurus browser extensions.
And I never felt a single thing for a bitch ever again.. THE END..
>>25338868pour boy
>>25338862I'm the anon you referred to.I don't understand the rage.Is it chronic or something?That can't be healthy.
Just did a tour through some alts. Anyone use petrarchan? Seems cool but pretty dead.
>>25338713Lol
>>25338870Haters gunna hate. >>25338894The rage is about the fact that you thought I was mad at you, then decided to make a passive aggressive smug post where you pretended to be a condescending retard in some sort of faggot one-upsmanship. In reality I quite like people and teach them things all the time; you didn't like the diction and missed it entirely.
>>25338956Hmm, I think you may have genuinely misinterpreted me. I wasn't made at you at all, nor was I being snarky.What in particular made you think that?
>>25338962I didn't think you were mad at me*, I mean.
all you want to do is stay loose
>>25338963>>25338962Hmmm. Well, to answer your first question, I'm Italian; barely controlled psychotic anger is kind of our thing. Without going through my life's story, I think it's legitimately beneficial to piss people off because it skips the dismissive part of the brain and goes straight to critical thinking and self preservation. As a rhetorical technique, being confrontational then shifting to a softer tone over a dialogue is a very effective way to change someone's opinion, because the arguments structure remains, but the other party feels they're making progress because I'm not calling them industrial cock inhalers.However, the "technique" I thought you used is archetypal of faggots. You (the speaker) dont engage with any of the content of whatever you're replying to, and assert moral superiority by acting like whatever was presented is incredulous. Through tone it's an appeal to authority, and by avoiding engagement with the premise and focusing on the presenter, it's a fallacy that doesnt feel like a fallacy because the presenter is complying broadly with the conventions of "being nice and genuine". Then the argument continues by the person who used this technique pretending to be retarded and attempting to shift discourse to their point if anyone assumes they're genuine.And if that was the case I wanted to put your head in the toilet. Rhetorically speaking of course.
>>25338990I see. All you really did was suggest I take my idea to reddit, which in the context of 4chan is basically like calling someone a faggot, but I read it with an air of potential sincerity, so offered an equally sincere response that was admittedly modulated by the defensive posturing of dismissing reddit as for squares, which I thought was inoffensive enough to not elicit a negative reaction, ya raging fuckin' dago.
>>25339001Eh, more read the room, which is ironic. You're alright. I'll go fix the car or something. Mostly I wanted to get in a fight with a redditfag to ruin their day while I drank a beer outside.
>>25339012It didn't, this was just a bizarre and somewhat humorous incident, but I'm glad it's squashed. Enjoy your beer.
Reading a book by a dead author or thinking with ideas you didn't come up with yourself is nothing short of willingly participating in a chain of ghostly mind-possession.
Damn. I just watched my wife rip an entire tree out of the ground barehanded.
I wish very strongly for ego death. I wish I could eradicate all my preconceptions and perceive the world through my own virgin eyes and not through the artificial thought-factory that is the media.
>>25339041This is possible. Using DNMs isn't that hard, but it is a massive pain in the ass>>25338527Going to cousin's graduation party tomorrow. What book should I buy her?
>>25339042120 Days of Sodom. Or Paradise Lost. I dont judge. Maybe some Carroll? Bitches love that shit.
So sexual prowess and the like for men is really just about how long you can last and how often you can go, right? That's all there is to it? That if you can last long enough, you can please any woman. Or am I missing something?
My memory sucks so my thoughts are constantly just stabbing me with the idea that my mind is slowly slipping from reality and I'm closer to being in common with the intelligence with a rock than even the most basic of animals and I want to die because of it.I can remember at most 5 numbers at a time and any more and I will forget them all.
>>25339058No, that idea comes from autists who think sex IRL works like an RPG game where if you rank up your STR you're going to hit harder.
>>25339058You also gotta tongue that anus, man.
>>25339058It's a skill tree, autism-san. Prowess extends to 5 broad domains: seduction, size, stamina, enthusiasm, and skill. From there you receive an additional "alignment rating" that is the context for the setting. You can have high points in any one domain and still suck, and you can have high scores overall but a negative modifier can keep you below the threshold for success.
Oh God I am so retarded. Even after spending a decade on 4chan my English is shite. Anyone in my place would be a fucking English scholar at this point considering the amount of time I have spent on /lit/ and engaging with all of the meme books. I have learned nothing. It fucks me up. I am from a turd world shithole where a tight grip on English would have given an immense advantage. I am fucked. I have no job, I dropped out of college, I have pushed away my firend in my maniac episodes and I am till anxious mess whenever I leave my room. Holy shit, what have I done to myself? My future is looking is so miserable. Thought of suicide brings me some comfort. I am screwed and no one is coming to save because I can't save myself. I am losing my mind. My head hurts most of the days. I have stopped reading books. I only scroll on the internet consooming scum of the shit reels. What have I become? What happen to my intellectual pride and keeping myself in check. I have betrayed myself. I am screwed. I am a mess. I am alone in my hell. My hell. My private hell.
>>25339086Being able to write in english is fine for most applications. Professional english is HILARIOUSLY vapid. Now what if I told you that scholarship is irrelevant and a physical job or being a heavy equipment operator would solve all your problems? It will. But that involves being humble enough to accept that intellegence is irrelevant to outcome, and it's mostly timing.
>>25339079Chaotic neutral women give the best head, lemme tell ya.
>>25339098Zero experienced here but a lawful evil lawyer woman that is a cougar would definitely be hotter.
>>25339098>>25339103No, demure haughty Neutral Evil women give the best head, particularly when they're annoyed to be there and pretending not to be into it. That way she'll let you get away with most things, but still argue and pretend to disagree, so you get the thrill of the chase and valour of the conquest.Chaotic neutral is a fine choice, but might end in a finger to the anus. And lawful evil cougar lawyer woman is too... dominant for my taste. They'll be into some weird psychological shit I dont really fuck with.
>>25339095>and a physical job or being a heavy equipment operator would solve all your problems? It will.My health is shit. I am a skeleton. I have soft features as you expect of the "man of letters" except I am not even a man of letter. A literal good for nothing mess. People like me very cleverly prison themselves in academia because they are too weak for the external world. I have failed to make a place for myself in the world.
>>25339108Bruh, you think you need muscles to use a dump truck? To fix it, sure, but to drive it any fucking retard can drive with enough patience and practice.
I want to write a novel based around a right-wing terror group but I worry anything that isn't a parody or outright condemnation is gonna be criticized as sympathy at best and even support at worst. It's not the same as all those novels and films about left-wing terrorism from the 60s, 70s, and 80s, because that at least had academic and institutional countercultural support.
>>25339106You don't want either a lawful evil or neutral evil chick to fuck you. You want a hentai Tsundere.
Just tried matcha and beer mix.
>>25339112Thanks for replying anon. That was nice of you! But have given up.
If reality were a war between good and evil, where choosing good tortured you every step of the way, and victory wasn't guaranteed by virtue of good's nature, nor at all, would you choose the comforts of evil instead?
Does anyone here go to bars solo, hoping to meet people? Are you ever successful? It's something I often see in movies and TV shows but I'd normally be too nervous and hopeless to try, outside of the couple years when I did it at a bar where I had a lot of friends already.Anyway, I might be down to try it. Be nice to hear about any experiences.
>>25339130This is fine. When you get over being histrionic, you got this and success is assured as long as you work as hard as you can for petty and spiteful reasons. Waifish? Who cares, do your best for no other reason than you're bored and full of resentment. What else is there to do other than dramatically lay on a chaise lounge and smoke cigarettes, you nancy. Personally I smash rocks and lift things.>>25339137There's no comfort in evil you dont want. Do as you must for no other reason than you feel like it.
>>25339137Neither choice provides security. How long would you enjoy the comforts of evil until you were on the menu?
Where do you even begin with Hinduism? A Hindu is anyone who believes in the Vedas, but how do you understand the Vedas if they're only studied by gurus who spend years of their lives going through its contents? Getting to grips with who and what the Buddha was and did is easy enough, but Hinduism looks like a big mess.
>>25339140Yeah all the time. It helps if you smoke. I used to travel for business so I'm pretty outgoing, and you usually just shoot the shit with a bartender in a dive bar, or say "hells yeah" about the sport on tv. But there was no presumption, I'm happy just to drink in the bar, eat nachos and shitpost.
gonna watch a movie
>>25339146You meet friends or get laid? You bring a book?
>>25339163You will not get laid unless you are supremely lucky. Single women dont go by themselves to random bars. Usually you talk to one person nearby or go outside and generally shoot the shit with a seperate group, so there's basically zero chance to woo lady if she isn't instantly enamoured. Friends? Depends how often you go. If you're a regular making friends is pretty straightforward, but slow.
>>25339176I see. Thanks for the replies.
>>25339163Oh, and I usually bring a book. Like I'm spending two or three hours for 5ish pints. I am there to drink and read or dick on my phone and watch sports. But books can make you unapproachable because yadda yadda smart people busy.
>>25339180I suppose the crux is, and maybe I only think this way because I'm poor, why did you prefer spending so much money to drink at a bar versus spending $10-20 for a bottle/12 pack and bringing it back to your hotel/home? That's the part I never understood when watching TV shows and movies. Maybe I underestimate the impulse to be around people in a social setting.I've heard of people bringing books. You don't think that's off-putting, or, godforbid, performative? I'd love to do it but I don't need people to point and laugh at me lol.
My coworkers were talking about AI and their philosophies on a soul, and I brought up The Soft Machine and Burroughs who I am extremely into, when someone brought up how much a computer resembles a brain. I spoke pretty fondly about the book and how it discusses things like that, and two of them actually took down the name of the book (one of them black) as if they were going to read it. I did make sure to explain, it's the gayest book of all time and the author has totally gone off on dissociative drugs, but I'm pretty fucking spooked because what the fuck have I done. These guys are not going to get it, and they'll just see a bunch of heinous gay drivel (which it in large part is) and see me as a gay schizophrenic. I'll try to add a little more context Monday when I'm in but god damn lmao
>>25339185Oh and I bring up that the one guy was black, because the book has the nigger word used quite powerfully, as well as gook and spic shit
>>25339185>>25339187LMAOOO anon out here trying to psyche rape the normies. Dare I say based
I long for a reversal of the tyranny of time; the possibility of change without loss, and simultaneous seasons.
>>25339190I am. I have been trying to do it my entire life, and it's not psych rape its a cure for this world of ersatz bullshit
>>25339193Based But what have you learned from Burroughs?
>>25339184For the experience. To have someone hand me a cold drink, to sit somewhere, to have a purpose, and to enjoy myself for the handful of hours I have to myself. A cold draft pint while watching some dude get CTE and getting served a random plate of food you picked from a list is as close to godliness as I can imagine. Even better if you spend it with someone else, but entirely self sufficient. And no one gives a fuck about you at all, unless you do something insane or look absoutley outlandish. People look at me when I go somewhere because I'm built like a fridge and as tall as the doorframe, but they still dont care about you at all. Tell someone to fuck off to their face; wont remember it in a month if you never see them again. Hate to say it, but nothing really matters, no one cares about you, however everyone cares about something and it's up to you to figure it out then show interest.
>>25339197Well said, thank you for your perspective.>>25339185you're donezo
I think my nerdy friend is unconsciously trying to become a failed normalfag at the tender age of thirty. He became more arrogant, started dressing in a weird way, chasing women like his life depends on it and going out to drink with his friends a lot. It's weird because he says things like "I'll never be a simp" or criticizes normal people, including using words like "femoid" and "normie" but will go to normalfag social events he doesn't enjoy and drop everything for the chance of hanging out with any mid girl, including gold diggers who use him as a meal ticket. He's also becoming incresingly obsessed with status and money despite having a pretty good job. He already has a ton of cash saved since he lives on his mother's house and spends only on alcohol, videogames and women. Actually, he has no hobbies besides those three things. His friends are alright, just on the npc side, so the only thing they do is hang out at expensive bars while gossiping. It's weird because they are all the kind of guy women will settle down with when they become thirty something, to the point even I could clock it, but most of them act like they are players, including my friend.I think he projects a bit on me too. Sometimes he indirectly complains about my behavior or my choices and when I tell him I'm at peace with who I am or that I'm mostly content with what I have, despite having much less than him, he either insists that is not the case or states that what he wants is the bare minimum and anyone who wants less is living a terrible life. I know that part of it is insecurity, but that doesn't make it any less annoying.
>>253391961. Huge huge huge amounts of vocabulary2. How to identify and use a set of like twelve powerful authority languages from gubernatorial to scientific to religious to profane to racial to literary to pretty much everything 3. Writing skills - constant attention getting, above mentioned authority languages, a true lack of tolerance for wasted time, dishonest and shapeshifting characters narrators and author (your guys don't have to be sane), how to write properly which is directly from your senses presently, cut-up techniques (actually practical if completely ingrained to our culture at this point) and generally the idea of using and developing experimental techniques, writing as reporting, and a lot more 4. He essentially rebuilds religion from completely atheistic fundamentals in the cut-up trilogy and uses this idea of celestial astral-projection and the universality of functions across all scales, to provide an accurate and accountable cosmic interpretation that sticks much much better than religion which can require delusion5. That I need to get a cancer screening and if you think of the visit as some badass military operation (by directing the film of your own life) you'll be able to sit through it and stomach finding out maybe you have cancer (or if you do)6. That I forgot I fell off the wagon of my religion which is basically a form of Zen Buddhism I've actually done a lot of reading on 7. Creative Reading and a total re-appreciation for the meaning behind all things, while still providing a lucid boundary that prevents schizophrenia. Yes, everything does mean something. Now when I read a book or watch a movie I just fucking see what they are doing and I love it.8. That my father-in-law is taking ayahuasca on his Amazonian River Basin Spirit Retreat vacations (fucking duh I should have known that, also he's actually a board member at a certain institute focused on collective consciousness so I'm working on actually breaking through his harsh exterior because we're both majorly interested in the same thing)9. The whole biologic film, mindscreen, control machine thing. All of these words and repeated sentence fragments (where you belong, no bueno no mas, are we going to stand still for this shit?, burnt metal smell of interplanetary war) not only go hard but are powerful powerful building blocks in interfacing with the world and its realitiesThere's more but you get the idea. Priceless to me. I quite fully subscribe to his idea that these books are an apomorphine to the language virus
>>25339219Holy fuck, some parts don't make sense, just like Burroughs style but thank you for writing all of this. I enjoyed this.
>>25339200fuck, this literally happened to all my friends, one by one. Most people can't begin to comprehend 'adulthood' as anything other than becoming a soulless npc. They relate maturity to a bunch of empty fucking labels and trends because they've had literally no role-models, no actually functioning adults in their lives so as to even imagine what a successfully integrated person is like. As I hit 30 I've started seeing the same pattern everywhere. Lotta people who had outgrown their vapid, posturing, insecure teenage selves and finally seemed to have come about in their 20s are regressing into yet another phase of posturing and empty status chasing. Normalfags literally never learn.
I think I'll read and take it easy today, maybe walk to the park and clean the apartment a bit, and tomorrow I'll go to the art museum.
>>25339232Yes my sentence building has gone a bit haywire but my mental function has SKYROCKETED. I'm not saying I'm a perfect speaker but of the direct points of the cut-up trilogy is to teach the reader to go beyond the constraints of your ingrained language-logic to use your human mind properly (pry yourself loose and listen). And we all code-switch anyways so you can always just speak common language when needed, no need to get lost in it. Like learning Spanish on top of English, maybe you mix languages sometimes, but you don't forget how to speak English unless you just quit speaking it.
>>25339246but one* of the direct points of the cut-up trilogy
I believe it is impossible to live the /lit/erary life without a total renunciation of modern technology. Nobody could possibly argue that modern technology has had an edifying effect upon our psyches; in fact, just the opposite is the case. The contemplative life is dead; silence -- even public silence -- is dead, drowned out by a neverending cacophony of music, cars, machinery, the distractions of the smartphone and instantly-available amusements. Even as I sit writing this now I hear my wife's grating Faith No More playlist blaring in the background, impeding my ability to formulate these thoughts. Truly there has never been a darker time for the artistic and contemplative soul.
>>25339246>go beyond the constraints of your ingrained language-logic to use your human mind properly (pry yourself loose and listen).Dude, I want this shit so bad. I know exactly what you are talking about. Where should I begin?
>>25339253When are they going to pay back the silence they owe us? That they stole from us?! Have they not always taken as much as they can, have they not always only given back what they had to, and took it back when they could? Are we going to stand still for this shit!?!?
>>25339086Stop scrolling the shorts anon. They'll drive you nuts. If i watch them for longer than 10 min i get really angry for no apparent reason
>>25339258Nah, Imma keep watching them.
I have seen girls take pictures of me, I have been called handsome and similar several times, I am many women’s type and in fact slightly unique looking on top of that because I am quarter japanese, but I am 27, turn 28 soon and have never had a girlfriend or sex. None of this bothered me until 2 years ago when I finally had to start asking myself what I wanted out of life. I don’t know if I want a girlfriend still but I definitely do know I don’t want to get married or start a family. Do I even want to have sex? I don’t even know but I just hate the level of alienation one feels when apparently 99.9999% of other adults have had an experience you haven’t had yet. So I don’t know.
>>25339253High school tier
Books
>>25339262Many such cases Being a non-normie is a curse. Incels can moan about looks being everything all day but if you are neurodivergent it's very difficult to have sex even if you are a handsome man.
>>25339255Naked Lunch, then The Soft Machine, then Nova ExpressAnd even easier, you can just listen to his actual spoken word readings of his own work on youtube or spotify. Not everything is directly about language but you can see how he uses it. I'm actually curious now exactly where all this hit for me. I do think it was somewhere in Nova Express.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OQMXv9kp89U&list=PL1zjViKDPKWWxUwlp4cMszgifEQ-Yf25b&index=12
>>25339273Incels just need to go after tubbies or uggos, but they're usually sexually frustrated goblins who hide behind a double standard.Nothing's more unfortunate than an ugly woman. They're really best to work the fields.
>>25339262i'm similar. people just assume i'm gay cuz i never pursue women. i've had sex, but it's pretty mid. doesn't really feel worth the trouble.
>>25339298nah, not true. ugly/fat chicks take the same amount of effort as good looking women, so u might as well go after someone attractive. trans chicks are all horndogs tho, too bad they have dicks.
>>25339287Thank you anon. I am excited for Burroughs.
>>25339309>ugly/fat chicks take the same amount of effort as good looking women, so u might as well go after someone attractive.Trvke
>>25339086I am you, pretty much. Do you really want to change? I've been doing some stuff that helped me for about a year. Don't answer "of course I do" out of reflex, really think about it. Improving will involve doing new and scary stuff. Not because they are terrible, but because everything feels new and scary when you are struggling with life itself. These things may feel like herculean tasks, but I promise you, they are very doable. Above all, the hardest and most important thing will be learning how to be kind and trustful towards yourself. That, and learning how to cultivate hope.Like the hope which led me to write you these words.
>>25339309How many beautiful women do you see with fugly dudes? Chads and Stacies only fuck other Chads and Stacies. Everyone else has to settle for what they can get, and are often just bitter because they have to cope with the fact that they compromised.
flat-chested women should be much more commonit is categorical proof that the world is a fucked up PRISON designed by the DEMIRUGE that most women are not flat>inb4 pedono you do not understand. a tall flattie is as nice as a smol flattie.
And also if you strip away your color/word/character/political/cultural associations with an idea (the number 3 for example, without color shape or form, which do not belong to 3 except on your personal mind-screen) then you can briefly operate with them rawly and without them being stuck as 'that blue 3-shaped 3 on that block'. You already achieve this in dream-states and in the slower moments you are waking up (notice the whiplash when a pleasant abstraction of an idea suddenly becomes your waking conception of it - open futures and a full body and your most raw dreams all together, becomes the pain of 5:40am 'i have to decide to make breakfast or not' ok I remember my dream is to go to work and make money now'). Try to focus on these unmolested abstract conceptions when you encounter them, and try to find them in waking life. Or to explain it country simple, quit fighting shit you agree with just because you've made it look ugly in your head
Uranian Willy the Heavy Metal Kid, also known as Willy the Rat—He wised up the marks."This is war to extermination—Fight cell by cell through bodies and mind screens of the earth—Souls rotten from the Orgasm Drug—Flesh shuddering from the Ovens—Prisoners ofthe earth, come out—Storm the studio." His plan called for total exposure—Wise up all the marks everywhere Show them the rigged wheel— Storm the Reality Studio and retake the universe—The plan shifted and reformed as reports came in from his electric patrols sniffing quivering down streets of the earth—the reality film giving and buckling like a bulkhead under pressure—burned metal smell of interplanetary war in the raw noon streets swept by screaming glass blizzards of enemy flak."Photo falling—Word falling—Use partisans of all nations—Target Orgasm Ray Installations —Gothenburg Sweden—Coordinates 8 2 7 —Take Studio— Take Board Books—Take Death Dwarfs—Towers, open fire."Pilot K9 caught the syndicate killer image on a penny arcade screen and held it in his sight—Now he was behind it in it was it—The image disintegrated in photo flash of total recognition—Other image on screen—Hold in sight—Smell of burning metal in his head—"Pilot K9, you are cut off—Back—Back—Back before the whole fucking shithouse goes up—Return to base immediately—Ride music beam back to base—Stay out of that tune flak—All pilots ride Pan Pipes back to base."It was impossible to estimate the damage—Board Books destroyed—Enemy personnel decimated—The message of total resistance on short wave of the world."Calling partisans of all nations—Shift linguals—Cut word lines—Vibrate tourists—Free doorways—Photo falling—Word falling—Break through in Grey Room."
>>25339344mid to ugly normies are all in relationships half of them are married
>>25339376That's essentially my initial point. Incels could be happy if they stayed in their lane and sought less desirable females like almost everyone does.
Did you go to the pride parade today?
>>25339394I went to the gluttony parade myself
>>25339242So, what am I supposed to do? All of my friends either went down this road or the wokefied version of it. Things feel more lonely with each passing year. I just wanna meet some regular ass people who are more or less genuine, but fuck me if I know where to find them.
You are not my friend.
Wu-Tang Clan ain't nuthin to fuck with
Pittsburgh twitter girl won't stop posting hot selfies. God I want to cum on her face while she presses her mouth into my taint. No, I won't post screenshots, that's strange.
>>25339407Not beating the excel allegations.
>>25339394I drove by one and flipped off some old faggot women(?)
There's no difference between a devout Christian and an atheist misogynist when it comes to women.
>>25339409>No, I won't post screenshots, that's strangeYou're just like that hoe, anon. Teasing strange men online.
I don't think I've ever met a more unbearable faggot than you, in my entire life, and I've met quite a few faggots.
Fucking bad nigger babies.
It's probably, unironically, just you with like 50 different accounts.
I wish I wasn't such a resentful person but I wish people didn't make it so easy to resent them.
>>25339424
>>25339425I get the impression you're making fun of me, but I don't know what you're trying to imply with this gif. I'm not trying to be dense for comedic effect or one-upsmanship, I genuinely don't get the insult.
>>25339423What are you talking about?
The only time I've felt understood is when reading certain authors, like Cioran. Nobody "real" has ever shown the slightest bit of interest or empathy.
videogames are more based than books and other shit
>>25339449name one video game that's actually good, besides overwatch
dude i need to actually watch a movie this weekend
>>25339454vampire:tmb; deus ex; mgs2; dmc3; psychonauts etc.
>>25339470I already did
>>25339485>mgs2>psychonautsterrible opinion
Feeling anhedonic. Drinking and watching a sad movie feels like it would be the perfect plan for this night.
I fucking hate you so much.
>>25339512I thought you missed me? You fucking pussy faggot BITCH
>>25339512Who are you raging at?
>>25339504so is having overwatch as your favorite game
>>25338527If smartphones had been invented in antiquity, Roman Emperors would have hired slaves for the unique purpose of playing Instagram reel music irl whenever they began an epic retort during an argument.
>>25339531fair enough
I think that Bret Easton Ellis podcast is quite good
>>25339531overwatch is so fucking fun that shit is digital crack
>>25338527If the atomic bomb had been invented during Roman times, they would have been used for the nuking of Cartaghe.
>>25338527Had the ancient Greeks had ironclads, they would have used them for the taking of Troy.
don't give me no bammer weed
>>25338527Had AI existed during Macedonian times, the Athenians would have used it to produce an infinite amount of legendary plays and poems.
>>25339543>>25339545do u ever think about how like there was nothing stopping antique peeps from making trains, spaceships, computers, etc. they just didn't know how. like all the materials were there, it's not like there's anything new on earth. there's prob some insane next level tech that we could be using rn but no one thought of it yet.
>>25338527Had the Egyptians known modern engineering, they would have built an artificial Mount Everest.
>>25339550It's more about the mindset. Ancient civilizations had clear-drawn goals, they would have used modern technology in ways more epic than we do.
>>25339560idk dude we're like fighting a war with persia rn it's not that different
>>25339565We are far too touched by modern sensibilities. Let's be real.
>>25338534Naturally I'd wanna go chronological if it's just two novels of equal status.
>>25339568dude we bombed the fuck out of their leaders at the negotiating table lmao that some shit odysseus would do
>>25339518>I thought you missed me? You literally can not stop thinking about me, every waking moment is you comparing yourself to me and trying to get my attention so I will have sex with you,
>>25339572> we bombed the fuck out of their leadersSounds pathetic if you ask me. Odysseus and his likes would have had an honest conversation with them, then have them trampled by an elephant herd in front of a large public.
>>25339574read the odyssey bro
>>25339574>we moderns are too addled by modern ethics to be BASED like the ancients!>what about all the unethical shit we do in wars right now?>no not like that!ok
>>25339576Read 'Kulturbilder aus Rom und Hellas' by Hermann Böll
>>25339579Because you don't get it. You're saying just because some countries are having some wars that modern people are equally creative as the ancients? Give me a break.
>>25339573Who the FUCK are you talking about? Stop being cryptic.
>>25339573Why would I ever compare myself to you? What indication have I ever given that I want to fuck you? Delusional.
>>25339590ya that dude is so annoying but last time i was hella blazed i sort of got what he's doing. he's probably some extreme stoner.
>>25339599GETTHEFUCKAWAYFROMME
>the justified ancients of mu mu what did they mean by this
>>25339573UH-OH! GOTIS! WE GOT A CASE OF GIRL (male) ON THE INTERNET SYNDROME HERE BOYS
>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5AbZsw7tP2Engl this goes kinda hard
Let's mind read someone with OCD and fuck with them for a year and then excuse them of being obsessed. Throw every last insult at them on a psychic level and then call them obsessed.
Feeling really fucking stupid and lethargic today. My ability to comprehend or understand anything just feels severely limited by lack of energy and clarity. The brain fog is really, really thick.I can't get into anything to try to distract myself and snap out of it-don't wanna draw, or read, or watch anything. I also can't seem to decide on what would most be worth my time to try to improve my situation. Just spinning my tires or flailing around like a fucking octopus to give a couple shitty analogies.Just the most paralyzing mix of tired and pissed off.
Seymour Skinner See more, skin herStarting to feel like a part of me is operating ahead of myself when flirting with this girl.
I just lost 9 dollars trying to win 100k. My hopes and dreams gone, vanished in seconds.Its over...
Tomorrow is my last day on Earth.
>>25339695If you’re killing yourself, don’t do itIf you’re killing me, then preferable to this loop desu
>>25339695Every nigga that says they are going to do something tomorrow, never ends up doing it.Just go traveling now, fuck you waiting for
>>25339699Not killing myself.
>>25339710Have fun with that then
I think the summer heat is driving some of you insane>>25339695Don't kys yourself anon, there's a lot of fun stuff around still. We'll miss your posts.
>>25339200>>25339242>>25339400I just assume everyone who isn't a normalfag and who has the aforementioned issues with loneliness and isolation has just been bullied into apathy and silence after repeated attempts to speak up in public and signal to others that there are alternatives both in lifestyle and friendships.At least, that's why I stopped trying. People get really mad and defensive and misrepresent you to the point that you feel persecuted for it, potentially at risk of your physical safety or freedom at times. Sucks to admit but I puss out every time I go out, but I don't really see anyone else extending an olive branch either.It's this endless issue with no one having the courage to make the first move, so those who don't want to be normies just end up relegated to places like this on the internet, etc.
>>25339603I don't even know who you are.
i NEED a cute twink bf
>>25339620How was I to know you have OCD? And mind reading isn't real.
>>25339739It is sadly
>>25339409Same, but with Threads from Meta.
I don't understand why I can't stop jerking off to tranny porn. I'm not even gay, I don't want to fuck a dude and I've never wanted to in my entire life.How do I stop?
“Being aware of your psyche” doesn’t mean reading your mind. It just means closely observing your behaviour and making educated guesses as to why you act the way that you do. Any observant person with good intuition can do it. It’s just psychology, not magic.
>>25339773You’ve said things that I’ve never relinquished put load and can not make sense of
Is there any new world original language actually worth learning
No, this second person is indeed reading my mind.
I have a scientific background, I don’t believe in stupid shit, I am very objective and try and criticize myself when not.The dude is reading my mind KEK
>>25339777Like what?
>>25339777If you tell me what those things are, I’ll explain them.
>>25339813>>25339807I simply don't believe you.
>>25339821I promise. Please, just tell me.
>>25339830Yeah, I'm not buying it.
>>25339838Name one single thing I said that I couldn’t have figured out through inductive reasoning, or through things that you told me directly. Just one.
>>25339830Red eyed bitch.
>>25339851That means nothing to me.
>>25339854I one time said "Make an AI picture of this bitch in my head" and then this was posted here, and I assumed it was you>making cringe fanfictionimmediately afterWhen I was thinking about some Caine vs Supes or something.Other posters? Coincidence? I've considered this
>>25339859Okay I had nothing to do with any of this and I’m clearly not the person you had in mind.
>>25339860Of course not, because he is indeed reading my mind. He has responded directly to things I have said in my head, and I've been interacting with him for a year.I'm literally an engineer btw and don't believe it dumb shit. It is cyberstalking to an insanely uncomfortable level.
It's probably possible with modern technology to effectively lease a satellite, and then through AI or some other shit effectively rip the differentials from someones brain waves through wifi sensing.
Think I'm trying to kill you or some shit lol? I'm just pissed you won't leave me alone and it spams through my head constantly.
>>25339802>I have a scientific background, I don’t believe in stupid shit, I am very objective and try and criticize myself when not.That reminds of a doctor I spoke to who said she doesnt believe in God because science proved he didnt exist.Women huh? They are like puppies running around whimsically expecting people to take their bark seriously
They don't like to call it what it is. They hate the so-called "popular" terms for it. Too imprecise, they say, and any precision is to be avoided when speaking of it. They call it "the method" or, in formal documents, "special methodology." It requires two people, one who can use the method and one who cannot. Intuitively, one would assume it only takes the former, but the second is just as important as the first. The one actually doing it is flying blind otherwise, unguided, alone in the unknown spaces between minds. His partner, what is referred to in official language as a "methods handling officer" but simply called a "handler" by those in the know, is his guide. He steers him towards the right mind, the right part of the right mind, and pulls him back if he finds the wrong thing, or if he finds something he was not looking for. They don't like to admit it but there are hazards to using the "method," physical hazards, the kinds that leave people with trails of dried blood under their noses or in their ears, shaking, with trouble finding their words. Sometimes they come back a little wrong, carrying a little of someone else with them, slipping into another person's habits or manners of speech. Sometimes carrying worse things. The targets of these operations are rarely pleasant people, particularly not on the inside. They have to manage the process carefully. These people are not sensors, as the handling officers are quick to point out, and they do not have deterministic inputs or simple on/off switches. You can't just ask them what you want, because their own knowledge of the targets colors their outputs, because your questions can and will lead them to false certainty. A whole discipline has sprung up, over the four decades since the method was discovered, around carefully crafting questions designed to draw out the right information without poisoning the one drawing it out with the wrong idea, and part of that discipline involves keeping those who perform the method deliberately blind. Story-starved, they call it, informally. They receive no names or photographs of their targets, hear no backstory, receive no briefings. They have to be kept in the dark, lest they contaminate their output with their own thoughts. It's really quite the sight, you know, when it happens. One man who understands what the questions are for, what they are meant to uncover, guiding the other towards something he will not know until he is told he has it. And after, that same man - most of them kids, really, mid-twenties or a little older, barely out of college or grad school - being carried away, unable to stand under his own strength, eyes unfocused, hands shaking too much to hold on to anything. Sometimes vessels burst in their eyes or under the skin of their foreheads. It leaves these patterns, like geometric tracks . Most of them recover. They come back a few weeks later, do another operation, answer another set of questions. Most of them. Most of the time.
There is the noumena, which gets translated into my sense representation, which then gets translated again into linguistic representation and everyone is stuck in that semiotic matrix
>>25339758Read about pavlovian conditioning. The more you succumb the more you get addicted. In my experience finding an almost as attractive but not as deranged fetish and *consciously* conditioning yourself on it can almost entirely displace the one you don't want. Of course, cutting porn entirely and finding a real woman is obviously the best thing to do but lol lmao. Start working out (more) too.t. Almost entirely replaced my femdom fixation with "thick thighed woman wearing heels" fixation.
>>25339903does this work if the "fetish" is just actual gay porn atpt. not that anon
>>25339739>And mind reading isn't real.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZkxUzDzwexE
>>25339861This sounds like schizophrenia but honestly with today's technology who fucking knows.
>>25339511I drank some beers and watched "Dear Zachary". I cried yet I could only feel my body crying, my inner core still feels as hollow and empty as before. I think I feel no emotion at all, it is almost as if my tears are from me pretending to feel something. I hate this.
It seems ingestion of DMT, every time without a doubt, causes the environment to morph into a circus or a carnival.Terrence McKenna once remarked “the archetype of DMT is a circus”Consciousness is an active hallucination caused by the brain’s predictive patterns and ability to filter information. DMT disrupts this process.The primary reason a DMT trip looks like a circus tent or a carnival is due to neuro-geometry.Cognitive researchers note that at higher doses, the brain stops processing ordinary Euclidean (flat) 3D space. Instead, it maps visuals onto a curved, hyperbolic plane.When the brain forces highly colorful, repeating geometric lattices onto a non-Euclidean, curved space, the resulting image naturally mimics the architecture of a circus tent ceiling, spinning carousels, or undulating, neon carnival arches.This creates extreme color saturation, flashing lights, and hyper-contrast. Your brain attempts to make sense of these unmodulated, flashing, checkered signals by comparing them to the brightest, most chaotic real-world analog it knows: a lit-up carnival midway. Why are jesters inherently a part of a DMT experience? We should ask instead if they’re inherently a part of consciousness.
>>25339909IDK, my own folk psychology theory of faggotry is that—barring some really fruity clearly-innate cases—it's often a symptom of overactive sexuality combined with a sort of "ground down" sexual identity and disgust reflex. My journeys through the Internet and within my own porn addiction and through reading history show the same pattern of men who become addicted to pleasure, transgression, and domination and enter faggotry or other weird fetishes because of it. I think there's a natural born "retaining wall" of heterosexuality that can be destroyed where weird disgusting shit (anal sex is objectively repulsive) gets you off. I think bottom/submissive/trannyish stuff is often symptomatic of deep self loathing or at least lack of self confidence WITH perhaps hormonal issues: A friend of mine trooned out after some endocrine system disorder stuff, I became way less submissive after I started lifting weights three times a week. I was reading about Lord Byron recently and he fits a lot of my theories. I sort of doubt that this is reversible in the same way that experiencing violence isn't (I think?) BUT the good news is that if one-woman-one-man heterosexuality is an ideal that can be worked towards then you probably CAN choose to be straight—in terms of living a constrained and satisfactory life—although I suspect the biggest hurdle is that most women can't match the infinite shameless appetite for sex that the gay male can which, if you're used to cooming all the time, will probably be a constant (narcissistic) annoyance. Unfair as that is to woman, she also has been liberated from all her historical drudgery so a couple of blowjobs a day isn't that much to ask if she's a stay at home wife.This all has reinforced my intuitive belief that kids need to be kept far, far away from ANY pornography and sex until they're ready. I really do think that people are built to be mostly virginal until marriage and then *heavily* imprint onto their spouse. The latter idea maybe explains why furries exploded out of nowhere: They sexually imprinted onto bugs bunny. Tldr idk but stop watching porn and, if you dont, *strictly* constrain yourself to heterosexual porn without any elements of what you like about fag stuff. IE probably avoid pegging lmao. And keep in mind almost none of this is based on actual research, just my thoughts.
>>25339918Nevermind, I took at nicotine pouch and started listening to jazz; now everything feels right in the world.
>>25339929Related to this: I think extreme condemnations of homosexuality in history were completely justified. Not because "two men loving each other" or whatever other modern myth is bad, but because historical homosexuality looked mostly like Blood Meridian tier unbound sexual appetite aimed at young boys. Ironically this, if true, means that Christ's "millstones" comment applies infinitely more to "based trad WARRIOR towelboy and tomboy enjoyer" bisexual BAP fans and predator priests than it does to the average effeminate non-sadistic* homosexual liberals. Not that modern LGBTQ culture is not corrosively aberrant.*Obviously the ones who do evil shit are evil. I'm comparing archetypes.
>>25338527>this is sheI don't care if its proper English it irks me to no end. My sister does it when she answers the phone and I just want throat punch her.
>>25339923Yes, they are. Like a pressure valve is inherently a part of a pressure chamber
new kane b video might watch it last philosopher ever
Life's hard
>>25340027I ingested 7g of psilocybin around 2 AM.The visual distortions were so intense, I couldn’t see anything or make sense of my surroundings. For a short time, I was convinced I had given myself serotonin syndrome.I fell asleep with a cross in my hand.I woke up at 4:44 AM unable to breathe from a sleep apnea episode. This lasted 5 or 10 seconds and I almost thought I was about to die.
man this chick still didn't reply to my voicenote even tho she posted whatsapp updates like three times since man it's so over idc but it still pisses me off wtf is her problem
should i watch a good movie or a bad movie
>>25340047Forgot to mention: I’ve been taking psychedelics nearly every day for 3 weeks and combining them with Dihexa.
>>25340052bro ur gonna fuck urself dude i fucking love psychadelics but i went way too hard one summer as a teenager and got schizoid personality disorder i mean i always had a little schizoid tendency but that shit just locked it in
>>25340047Yeah, that happens sometimeshttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4zpYQJkBQp0
>>25340051Do you mean ´Bad´ or ´Baaaahahahahahhaaad'?https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q429AOpL_ds
>>25340047bruh i heard u can cop shrooms at those unlicensed dispensaries run by jeets in the city is it true
>>25340058oh shit maybe i'll watch a ralph bakshi or sth
>>25340059Can you shut the fuck up and stop shitting up the thread with your braindead word vomit?
>>25340063dude u just chowed a quarter of shrooms how can u be so uptight tho
my roommate left perfect time to blaze trees
>>25340047I've done mushrooms about half a dozen times this year alone. I haven't had any for a couple months but I still get flashbacks when I'm really tired and I close my eyes.
>>25340053The possibility of gaining synesthesia interested me.Though earlier, I ingested DMT in my backyard. Five or ten minutes after the trip, the visuals persisted longer than they normally would. Geometric shapes and patterns kept morphing throughout my vision, flying back and forth, making it difficult to focus. The world almost takes on this 2D, cell shaded view where it looks like a cartoon.After I came inside I saw bright halos reflecting off of objects that weren’t under any light. I read this is a sign of HPPD, but it seems to have gone away after an hour or so.Each time I think I’ve gotten serotonin syndrome or experienced hyperthermia, I’ve injected BPC-157 to offset it.
>>25340052From one psychonaut to another, you're being a fucking idiot and you should stop before you irreversibly Shrek yourself.
>>25340070im jealous of you because i have to remain sober but i fucking love weed
>>25340071dude i get that even with my eyes open if im hella tired and i look a the rug at work it starts getting those weird spirals that look like ammonite fossils
>>25340075Yup, slow the fuck down.
>>25340073I agree and I’m discontinuing the Dihexa and psychedelics as of today.Today I also mixed LSD with the psilocybin, so I think that’s what caused the hyperthermia after using DMT.
>>25340080>I also mixed LSD with the psilocybinoh hell yeah that's fucking peak bro prob one of my top five life experiences top ten for sure.
>>25340085These past 3 weeks there have been multiple times where I’ve induced serotonin syndrome
>>25340053It can also fuck up your eyesighthttps://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Visual_snow_syndromeI wonder if William S. Burroughs wondered about that...
>every bit of writing advice ever says not to edit while writing>only really have time to have proper writing sessions 1 and sometimes 2 days a week due to working 2 jobs>Still want to work on writing project when I have a spare 20 minutes or so>so edit on work days when I have spare time I mean is it really THAT bad to edit a draft while it's still in progress?Why does the whole first draft have to be done before any editing takes place? I see a lot of stuff saying you shouldn't, but not a lot saying why you shouldn't other than saying it will make drafting stall and be slow. But in my case drafting is by default slow since I can only do proper work one day a week.
I couldnt find the books recommendation thread but I have to recommend these two incredible books
>>25340091Prices Poe movies are peakhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6ZY2p17opUU
>>25340115You're trying way too hard to LARP as a schizophrenic, dude.
>>25340096>Don't let your technique cut into your improvisation
I've got seven books on the go right now.
I'm not even trying to moralfag but I can't comprehend having a billion dollars. You could give 90% of it away and still live like a king forever. The thought that someone has a trillion is unfathomable to me.
Android OS has been patently worse since the last update. Nothing I can do I guess. Get an iPhone? Fuck that.
“In fact, every child is, to some extent, a genius, and every genius, to some extent, a child.” These are the words of the German philosopher Arthur Schopenhauer in the second volume of his *On the Will*. Therefore, in its purity, the human being is not made for domestication or the “disciplining” of punishment, nor is it willing to learn through violence. The essence of the human being is not meant to mature through beatings. In response, Gorgias said, “But when I hear a man speak with difficulty or see him play like a child, I find him ridiculous and unmanly, worthy of a good beating. Now, I react the same way to men who dedicate themselves to philosophy.” There is something filthy in this society that punishes purity, calling it idiocy, or pathologizing it under the names of “autism” or “aphasia,” and like Marcuse, faced with the “idiotization” of the masses in his essay on the limits of tolerance, I am not willing to tolerate it, because, I confess, I myself cannot bear it in my own flesh. I have experienced what is normal in this world, and that is the AA annexes, the civil association that Bell Hooks defended in her book, “All About Love,” and I can only suspect feminism of detesting innocence for this reason. The same sins of colonialism, therefore, are being committed in the name of decolonization, “accountability,” and “responsibility.” I am not like Marcuse; I am not willing to justify “counter-power,” I cannot justify the massacres of Maoism, I do not find myself capable. I am not that strong. What I can do is refuse to participate, and denounce, prudently and with respect for my life, injustices from both the left and the right, wherever I can. I do not want to participate in the death of a Marie Antoinette. In this, perhaps, I will find some solace: “Il faut se abetir,” said Pascal, “it is necessary to become innocent.” We will find adulthood therefore, not in beatings, but in mercy—in the eternal reckoning of repentance.
>>25340128You could have denied the AI assistant and news articles on your lockscreen and homepage. Sounds like a (You) problem.
>>25340127The brilliant thing is that in the West one has the freedom to make a trillion dollars if they have the tenacity to do so.
>>25340124What the fuck is that supposed to mean in context?
>>25340127dude those guys don't have a billion dollars in liquid cash, it's all in ownership of their companies. that's why that california "wealth tax" is so nasty. it forces entrepreneurs to give away control of their companies to pay it. everyone should exit the bay area asap.
>>25340127It's almost entirely representative of ownership of companies. They don't have anywhere even *near* that much actual money, and if they tried to turn their stock into money the markets would all crash and they'd lose almost all their wealth. But yeah it's a lot.
anyone remember this tape? man that shit was so fire. damn most of u weren't even born.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xVtf48RQ9D8
>>25340134It's not that pendejo (I have already done that). The file manager and gallery are fucked now. >>25340141Stocks are liquid.
>>25340135I get that, but it still feels slimy. Acquiring that kind of wealth has to warp you so badly that you're only something in the shape of a person. Just corrodes your soul irreparably, I think>>25340141>>25340145I know it's in assets and not in cash, I'm not a retard. They're still worth billions/trillions even if they don't have a billion in the bank
>>25340148if they sell it they have to pay capital gains on it, and moreover there is "slippage" where the increased supply getting dumped lowers the price, so they don't actually get what "it's worth" at that moment. so no a billion dollars in ownership of a company is not the same as cash dude. not to mention if u force the owners to sell to pay that dumb tax it just ends up in the control of big institutional investors like blackrock which everyone whines about.
>>25340139The fuck should i care? I am the fortune cookie, you are the reader of the fortune cookie, so there!
>>25340149>building a great company "corrodes your soul"extremely lame cope dude
>>25340151Yeah man you're right.
>>25340127does nasa get so much publicity because it's the thing we do to burn the fuel if that makes sense? i mean if the whole thing runs on gas chambers then the nasa space program and the elon musk nazi rockets are the gas chambers states leaders? then the 30,000 pound concentration camp oven with wheels on it painted in red is not the gas chamber's leader... maybe the space shuttle is the gas chambers' leader?it would make sense that elon musk makes the first trillionaire because he is literally the nazi still running the gas chambers from before.. look at who his grand parents are.
>>25340154It's not about building a company, it's about the wealth. Being that wealthy can't be good for anyone>>25340173Operation Paperclip type schizopost
>>25340149Dude these people would have been warlords and court eunuchs 1000+ years ago, they were never going to have a normal life. I'd much rather Musk build companies doing cool shit than him try to be Ghengis Khan 2.
>>25340173are u the shrooms guy? lmao spacex makes normlibs seethe but the ceo who actually did all the work is a female she must be worth like a 100 mil now lol
>>25340181She doesn't "do all the work", fucking retard, she's important but her main function is to be a velvet glove around musk's iron fist.
>>25340181I don't like to do shrooms more than once...I like the earth's medicine!
>>25340180Are his companies doing cool shit? SpaceX is pretty cool, sure, but not sure about the rest. He is responsible for a lot of mass death with shuttering USAID and all (approve of it, disapprove of it, shuttering it killed a lot of people) so he's not that far off from a warlord in that sense
>>25340185well ok but she runs the og spacex for a long time, but the "spacex" conglomerate that went public includes twitter, xai, starlink, etc. so she did a fraction of it, but still she is an unsung biz beast keeping a relatively low profile
>>25340186Are... are you implying that psilocybin mushrooms AREN'T natural?
>>25340200potheads aren't the smartest
i kind of want to celebrate the weekend by smoking some weed but like i'm in such a good mood rn i don't want to fuck it up by getting all paranoid and depressed. it's weird how weed is so popular even tho it makes u feel like shit.
A clown did the "wave your arms and make fast and weird noises" thing at me yesterday and i couldnt help but laugh. Then he did the "peace sign" over me. I feel like i missed something.>Shit was /lit
>>25340220So dont. Sometimes you need to feel like shit, sometimes not
>>25340220you're probably smoking too much of it at once mate
>>25340220it helps me concentrate and learn things. I love it so much for getting really deep in to research and development. I remember at one point early in my smoking career I panicked and felt REALLY bad like youre describing and I actually threw it down the toilet x)At this point I would never do that. Maybe it has to do with whats happening in life or what activities you're doing while you smoke it.
ive literally spent years looking for a cute girl on youtube who talks about the kind of books i actually like, let alone one who then provides commentary on them I enjoy, and finally after the years, out of the blue I finally found one, and it is completely fucking with my head. I just watched one of her videos on anna karenina and she cited one of my favourite parts of the book and put into words so simply yet eloquently some of the feelings I felt about it. my mind is absolutely blown watching some of her stuff because i genuinely never thought i would ever see content like this now its fucking with me though, im feeling feelings i haven't felt since i held hands with a pretty girl i loved when i was like 20 years old. I have to remind myself that this is a face on a screen and not an actual person in my life that i can talk to and interact with and it breaks my heart, like ive been rejected but he love of my lifeit feels like my cold dead heart was reignited with new passion, im awake again after a long sleep that was never meant to end, and perhaps there is still a place for me in the world of the living after all. now all i can think about if fixing myself and getting back into the world as fast as possible
Just had a big sushi dinner. Thanks be to God.
Total cost to renew a passport with expedited processing (2-3 weeks from the date it's received) (by mail only) + express shipping + express return shipping: over $220. Fuck me.
>>25340238really? i thought you were like an action figure and it's just smooth down there
Gorgeous day today.
>>25340238There is a YouTuber I found years and years ago who was like that, but our tastes have since diverged, unfortunately. I still follow her however.
I miss you.
>>25340220Weed make me feel great, but also makes it comically difficult to get anything done, so I only use it after getting shit done first or as a nightcap to a day well spent.
Took off today from work. Said it was because I was sick. In reality it's just because I am depressed. I know the depression will pass, and I feel bad for lying, but I would be useless at work today so there is no point in going. Yesterday I was shuffling around and barely got shit done because it was already setting in. Honestly I really shouldn't be on here ether until my mood is fine, I just am procrastinating doing the shit I need to in order to rid myself of this bout of depression.
I want to be wrapped up and enfolded and encircled and held within another and to have my outline fade into theirs and to not have to hold myself up for a little while. Maybe you could identify a person with a desire such as this as a "bottom" or a "sub" but the desire exists in my head before any sexual urges can arise. I don't feel it separately from ordinary desire so much as ordinary desire is wrapped around it. If I met someone who related to me in this matter even every now and then I don't think I would care very much whether it was a man or a woman.
justice hidden, lawled in scrolls tell me maam where is my paw?followed lantern, dearth of poemsfollow, me paw, into darktell me dearly then my sonwhere is paw but in the sun?chase me chase meinto dark!worth more in the head than char!sandy torment... fear of chaos... the ladder behind us still menacestreasure of height, taller than mine- crazy head! bigger than line!
>>25340287Sounds like you desire being in the womb again. Not saying it's wrong or weird, just summarizing into something more succinct.
Say, why is everybody so whiny around here?
Had a nice sushi din with my mum tonight. By the time we got home we both had to unleash huge diarrhea poos lol. She had to go way worse than I did so I let her use the washroom first but I still ended up doing a squirt in my pants. She made a mess on the fucking bathroom mat though and had to take a shower. Holy fuck. Delicious sushi however.
The only real history is economic history. Everything else is just a consequence.
I need to fully embrace the delusion that everything will work out in my favor. I need to act on this delusion.
>>25340325DMT makes me feel like I need bling and a grill.
>>25340340Thats a lot of big talk coming from a small spout
Can't stop watching videos from the Russo-Ukrainian war. Christ, war is a terrible, terrible thing. I hope future generations avoid it. Blessed are the peacemakers and blessed is the peace
>>25340354Not kidding. That’s the feeling you get in your mouth afterwards
>>25340355Just war is rare, but in this case the Ukies have been perfectly justified in defending their country.
>>25340355The real tragedy is that it's not even about independence, but whether american or russian jews will own Ukraine, like some sort of gigantic antebellum plantation, after the war ends.
>>25340356And don't i know it!
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>>25340335its not just a delusion, hope can be the deciding factor in life which steers us from one path to another, and the death of hope could mean the avoidable death of a man
>>25340362>Hot patootie, bless my soul.>I really love that rock´n roll
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they're putting me in a petty soul gem to enchant an iron dagger tomorrow
I could jump out the window and break my neck
>>25340369Extremely wise
spent the whole day cooking my brain by consuming excessive amounts of BL manga I'm a straight man btw
I always think about messaging you on WhatsApp
I'm all aboard for sweeping political change, but once you start talking about killing people, I'm out. I'm against murder.
>>25340379*Shurgs*I spent last night listining to a werewolf romantacy erotic novel while at work despite being a straight man.Just wanted a werewolf audiobook, thought the cover was cool and the voice acting was decent so stuck around even though I quickly figured out what kind of book it actually was. Now I am on book two and I am legitimately interested in the story, even if the romance aspect is cringe and the sex scenes aren't even hot to me.
>>25340377Don't do that anon
I've always thought the same, I haven't really changed, while you are always changing your mind about things. Why get mad at me for thinking what I've thought since I met you? And why get mad when I tell you I don't agree with something you've said or done?
>>25340266SHUT UP, SHUT UP, SHUT UP, SHUT UP, SHUUUUT UUUUPPP... SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU FUCKING FAGGOT WITH A GAPING ASSHOLE!!
>>25340355Wars between Slavs are probably the worst kinds of war. Just unrelenting sickfuckery on both sides. Slavic soldiers love torturing people and wholesale slaughter just for the sake of it.Hitler was right about the Slavs.
>>25340418no u :)
I'd convert to Islam if there were more white women.
Took my pills with Coke tonight.
I'm feeling like I'm learning way too much about a person who's willing to do so little
Waiting for the day Facebook/Instagram reels support .gifs, and the day when FB Messenger supports .webms.
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