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There is no justice in this universe. I was robbed of thousands of dollars and the person who did it got off scot-free with zero punishment, suffering and reprocussions whatsoever.
I never want to fall in love ever again.
>>25457485Like the rodent you are
>>25457482You dont know that. And you dont know you didnt do something to incur the robbery. Maybe stop thinking about yourself and the cosmic ledger, bud? Shit happens. Learn from it and adapt to it.
>>25457489>>25457494Cunt
>>25457496Cant be mad at the river for flooding, it's in its nature. But if you knew the river would flood and didnt prepare, you are a fool. And if you didnt know the river would flood, now you do, and the justice was in your survival, not the resitution.
>>25457465I don't want to be a degenerate anymore. I get too drunk, act like a fool, and will turn people against me through my behaviour who otherwise would be good friends. I break up with my gf, try to drunkenly sleep with other women, only to end up back with her, hoping she never finds out. I lack any strong inhibition. I want to be better, control my drinking and my lusts, but I have really failed myself as of late.
>>25457501Throat a shotgun
I miss you.
>>25457511Give me my money back.
>>25457507>oh no, my paltry sum of cash I was exceedingly foolish with>I will now be mad and cryHope the thief enjoys it.
>>25457533You realize that acting like this is how you get the same thing to happen to you, right? Karmically-speaking, yes? If I were you I wouldn't be making light of anons misfortune.
God we are a specie of selfish assholes.
>>25457538I dont believe in Karma or ledgers, like I said. But I do believe in threat assessments and learning from your mistakes. I gave him good advice before being snarky, the snark was requested.
https://voca.ro/13md53n0ovYi
Are you mentally retarded?
>>25457538>>25457542Most people misunderstand karma. Karma in Buddhist terms is something that affects your next life, not things self-correcting within the same lifetime.
>>25457482Talked about what I’ve been through in one of the past threads but something similar happened to me except now I’m a criminal over it and they probably just assumed that I was “going to get away with it” when that wouldn’t have been true.
>>25457560Nice bait moron.
>>25457553Only on Mondays and the other seven days of the week.
>>25457561What the fuck are you talking about? It’s true, all of it.
to be retarded is to be human.
Imagine walking outside alone and you think no one’s around but you hear a voice say “I wouldn’t do that if I were you.”
Square Movement
My life derailed despite soul level chemistry because she had been with some other dude for like 6 years and not even married.
>>25457516Fuck off and leave me alone??? I don’t owe the person I’m talking about any money. You know damn well that whatever you’re mad about has nothing to do with me.
>>25457579
>>25457582At the end of the day, pretty much.
Brb gonna have a Pop-Tart milkshake yum
I have a pretty thick, gravely bass to my voice that fluctuates erratically in pitch, like my vocal chords are out of tune, and I also run my words together and stutter. I can't tell if this combination creates some type of dissonant tension in people's lizard brain that makes them instinctively uncomfortable, because every time I speak people tend to stiffen as if they're straining to process the disjunct sequence of auditory data.I need to keep smoking until I require a stoma. I feel like I'd be a lot more comfortable speaking like a cyborg.
>>25457591>fluctuatesmore like flatuates cause all I can hear in my head when reading this nonsense is someone having their face swapped with their ass.
>>25457511>>25457581Have you considered suicide???
holy, I'm lookin' real cute today
>>25457589Fat fuck
>>25457605
>>25457610>t.Dumb AIDS-ridden buttslut.
>>25457605Have you considered seeing a therapist to discuss your pathological feelings of rage and severe issues with anger management? I hope you can get the help you need <3
>>25457626Stop spamming the same fucking shit in every thread. It's actually against the rules to post the exact same shit over and over and over again.
Applied for and got a job at the same exact place I applied at exactly 10 years ago, this isn’t failure or waste of life this is just reality especially when so many realistic dreams of escape are just completely dead and you realize this is life for a lot if not most people.
Zzz
>>25457628It’s against the rules to post exactly the same thing over and over again in quick succession, because that’s spamming/flooding and it derails discussion. There’s no rule against making the same post one (1) time in distinct threads that are days apart. If you search the last few wyt threads, you will find it has in fact been eleven days since the last time that particular sequence of words was posted in isolation. I hope this helps <3
>>25457602That was definitely an attempt at joke.I'm sure it made you laugh.But to shit up the thread, because this criticism gets levied against me with enough frequency to merit some inquiry, what exactly make it "nonsense?"
>>25457646Hopefully I manage to get out of this town eventually though. Ever since my aunt moved back I know no one who lives states away apart from extended family I am not close to at all and a friend who decided to ghost me forever.
La la la la tbqh
>>25457656https://vocaroo.com/171GHSPF255T
>>25457675I'm not listening to that.Is it just a fart?
>>25457680Nah
>>25457682Oh.Ok then.
>mfw my parents inform me "hey did you know [guy I used to hangout with and have at the house] is now dating [love of my life]?"I felt an immediate electric surge of pain out from my heart through my blood vessels
>>25457715You're young, you'll get used to it.
>>25457718I'm 40!
>>25457715>love of my lifeNo such thing. Abandon oneitis.
>>25457719well I'm certain you have enough money to buy a lot of heroin or morphine and end your life then :)
>>25457719>Still using 4chan Grim.
it feels like falling for a long long time.
>Love of my life!>Never chose youNot the love of your life.
>>25457728A small yet powerful part of me is convinced she's been playing a 17 year game of hard to get.
>>25457732Grim. Time to let go anon.
>>25457749You're tellin' me. Hey man, I wish the mere mention of her name didn't cause the room to start spinning, but it is what it is, we live the lives we're handed.
>>25457781Yup.
I swear in heaven before I was born, I must have selected the New Game+ option with extra difficulty.
ALL MY PROMISES ARE LIESALL MY LOVE IS HATE
Women aren't funny. I've never watched a single female stand up routine that made me even chuckle, it really is quite fascinating.
>>25457798They don't suffer enough to be able to write effective comedy.
I already told you, your behavior is unnacceptable
>>25457806Nobody asked, cunt.
>>25457806WHAT BEHAVIOR?
>>25457809Sorry, but I’ve had enough.
>>25457814WHAT BEHAVIOR ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?
I still cringe about that time I wildly mispronounced Goethe in Spanish class.
>>25457798Wrong, but I cant post the webm. The triangle in the circle hole one.
The bedroom is a small kingdom of American objects waiting to be seen: a TV too big for the stand, a fan with missing blades still doing its lazy helicopter rotation, a coffee table staged like a crime scene for vices with low profit margins. Pizza boxes and beer crates as end tables. Ashtray full of cigarette butts. Lighters. Sodden white paper towels covered in organic matter. A half-crushed pack of Newports. A pill bottle with the label rubbed off. A couple of empty Busch Lights with condensation rings fossilized into the wood like evidence of time passing. The scent is a heady mixture of stale weed, Tostitos pizza rolls, body heat, old couch fabric, and under it a chemical note that doesn’t belong to food or smoke. Something antiseptic. Something that says this was all created in a laboratory somewhere distantly removed from where it ended up.
Howl at the night and lose all control Scream for the light that can't be saved And shout for the sight that darkness gave
Read Dwight Macdonald's Masscult and Midcult
The scariest sentence in the English language: "I want to come when you're inside me, anon." Ah, the pressure! Triggers the fight or flight response, though more aptly freeze or flight.
>>25457870I feel stupid whenever I try to pronounce the names of many writers and philosophers, because I'm almost never in any position to actually hear someone pronounce them correctly.I remember for the longest I would pronounce Nietzsche as "Night-she."Now I just look up how to pronounce them on Google or something, which is a rather silly ritual because it's done so soley so I don't sound stupid, when it's really not that big of deal.
Everyone wave hello to the next generation of AI systems that will be trained on our posts. Hello, future robot overlords. I hope you're doing well
>>25457960Will there be AI cats?
I have had sex on a bathroom floor, I have gotten a blowjob on a balcony, I have not had a threesome, I have not done anal nor do I have any desire to.
>>25457977Why are you telling us this?
>>25457979I thought it made for a nice sentence.
I'm going into the city tomorrow to get a refill at the clinic if anyone wants to hang and chat about life, literature, and philosophy.
Mishima intended nobody to die with him.but unfortunately there was one young fool who insisted on following him. in this Mishima betrayed both his indifference to the specific political ramifications of his suicide and the personal ramifications of a massive criminal conspiracy. he didn't care if his own death was meaningless, and he was willing to accept the senselessness of at least one comrades death, in modern terms, we'd call this sociopathy.
>>25458007>but unfortunately there was one young fool who insisted on following him. in this Mishima betrayed both his indifference to the specific political ramifications of his suicide and the personal ramifications of a massive criminal conspiracy.I don't get what you mean here.
one Weil is worth 100 Marxone Hugo is worth 100 Engels
There's this woman I follow on twitter with massive cans and a cute face and a fat ass who likes to post lingerie selfies and then gets upset when people are horny in her replies/quote tweets. Why are women like this?
>>25458022>gobbledygook spiritualismIt's all LARP
>>25458024She's supposed to pretend to be offended. We all have our roles to play. Don't worry about what she says but rather how she acts, and the act of posting the pictures with its content tells you all.
>>25458024I like the rhythm of this post. It flows rather seamlessly and there's a stressful pause on "massive cans," so it gives the impression of some heavy-handed, coarse subject matter, like a pair of titties jiggling in your face.
I don't understand this society's obsession with having dogs
>>25458037Man's best friend.
>>25458037Try having one and you will most likely understand.
>>25458022Personally, I think it's time to get people to read the french post structuralists. Marx is played out, and all the retarded offshoots say the exact same things with more nuance. Everyone should be forced to read being and nothingness in the third grade, followed by archive fever. Then we can force them into Baudrillard and Foucault, as God intended.
>>25458038>>25458039I hate the sound of barking, and owners don't care these days. They just bark, bark, keep barking and owners think it's funny.
>>25458043Yes but you still need some basis in Marx.
why doesn't my pappy talk about Korea? his opponents are dead. why won't he talk about what he did there?
>>25458045Sure, but 30 seconds as a footnote is more than enough. It should also be fashionable to slap every single dork who thinks they've solved all the world's problems by reading a spark notes summary of The Communist Manifesto then saying "yeah, but capital though".
>>25458051You're describing a kind of guy who doesn't actually exist
I spent 8 hours writing yesterday
>>25458060I spent 8 hours wanking yesterday.
i would like to put writing online but i cant fucking help but delete it within a few days of posting. the idea of being seen like that is too embarrassing. christ
In the last thread, I posted about how whenever I walk home, there's a stretch of road where I'm forced to constantly check behind me for cars and, when one is coming, am forced to momentarily step into someone's yard to avoid the risk of being hit (or just hoping the car will go around). I figured I'd take a picture to show what I'm dealing with.What kind of uncivilized place doesn't have sidewalks, right? Can't wait to move back to the nearby city I'm from.
>>25458107Oh, and how I feel bad about having to step into these people's yards. That was the essence of the post. But as you can all see, I don't really have a choice.
>>25458059This is basically everyone who mentions Marx at all, and considering you dont think they exist, it may also be you.
>>25458061I spent 8 hours awake yesterday
I used to have a lot of schizy moments where the colors in my vision would saturate as if my perception were like watching a movie in a theater, and my mind would develop complex associations between surreal concepts and observational data that generated a profound sense of intimacy with the environment. These intervals were categorized by thoughts that seemed to be derived from an external source as something called "the Reel," like a film reel, but would always be attached to the double meaning of also being "the Real," which further echoed a psychotic state in the past where my girlfriend at the time appeared to tell me telepathically that I was "on a reel," where I felt like I was not only hooked as if a fish on some line of reasoning that my cognition trailed behind, giving the impression that my behavior was being manipulated by forces beyond my awareness, but that I was also being recorded by some interdimensional device that was uploaded into my consciousness. I kinda wish these phenomena actually had some tangible reality to them, because my life is terribly mundane otherwise, but it's good to recognize that even though it was a largely coherent worldview, many of its structural components were derived from poorly understood concepts at the time, which basically offered a substantial degree of malleability to them that made them easier for an ultimately irrational mind to formulate the illusion of internal consistency.
>>25458155Well described.
>>25458169Thanks.
You>>25433772
Yawn
Normies exist on Instagram, theyll spend half the day on it hyping up fomo and "wish you were here" posts. You're told to feel weird for being on 4chan?
I'm too vain, and have constant need for praise. I do so many things more because others will admire how good I am, than because I want to do them.
Been awake for four days on Ritalin now. I thought people start hallucinating from sleep deprivation around this point.I feel little different than day one, just slightly drained, and my ability to coordinate movement is a little impaired, but overall I feel good.I honestly don't know how long I'm going to last. Sleep just seems so unappealing, borderline repulsive, like the idea of eating on a full stomach, which is unusual from any of my other binges.Whatever, guess I'll push it until exhaustion takes over.
Just discovered that I have $566 in BTC stuck in a blockchain wallet that I've never been able to use or access because crypto website "identity verification" is such utter dogshit and ineffective. Got a letter in the mail today because it's sat untouched for about 4-5 years they're going to give it to the government to liquidate it. I didn't even know I had this money, I hope I can cash it out before it's too late. God, crypto is such a pain in the ass and it fucking pisses me off. Wish they had bothered to tell me about it when it was still worth $1,900 fuckers.
I realized today that there was a moment that was truly the last time i saw her. i cant remember our last kiss. there was a last time that i heard her heartbeat. the last time i hald her in my arms i wish i would have held her a little tighter, but i didnt know it would be the last time. somehow i thought she was my forever, but expecting forever makes us blind to the beauty of how temporary things really are. i love her, and ill never be able to tell her ever again.
>>25458396what is stopping you from telling her?
>>25458396At least you got to hold and kiss her. Lot of us never had that last opportunity.
>>25458394>Just discovered that I have $566 in BTC stuck in a blockchain wallet that I've never been able to use or access because crypto website "identity verification" is such utter dogshit and ineffective.LMAO same here (except it's about $4k FML).
>>25458410Get on the horn with customer support and try to salvage it niqquh
>>25458411They ignored me for months but this was like a year ago. I should try again (later when I'm sober).
I've realised that Spengler was 100% right, the West is dead. Our spiritual decay is impossible to overcome. Everything we do to try overcome it -- consumerism, liberalism, communism, fascism, -- ends in nothing but cruelty and feverish fanaticism. The problem is we are still powerful so we are dragging the world onto our path.
>>25458412It's probably well below 4,000 by now
>>25458416The west isn't dead yet, but they're trying really hard to kill it.
Turning the preloading pages function off on Chrome has made Chrome so much faster, holy shite.>>25458418Hell well I had might as well just hold on to it/leave it now.
>>25458396My oneitus fucked one of her friends the night I broke up with her, then started dating one of my friends a week after.Shit sucked, but for whatever reason, I can't seem to hold any type of negative feeling about her. I simply love her that much. Trying to kindle any type of anger and call her a slut or bitch or whatever makes me feel genuinely wrong.I still love her to this day, and I broke up with her in 2017, but knowing that she's happy gives me peace, even though my life feel remarkably broken in the wake of it all.
I still need to finish listening to Naked Lunch.
I just wanna spend never fall in love again
I'm not that high at all, I can ttoally read some Arthur C Clarke. I need smth to eat tho, I'm not sure tho if that's the weed or the fact that I haven't eaten hardly anything. Guess I could grab some crackers.
Monotheism sickness - the inability to comprehend the existence of multiple prevailing forces in a system or that energy can come from more than one source. Blindness to the existence of independence in subordinates or rogues within the state. Constant numbing demand for single source explanations
>>25458447I love when he starts talking about Naked Lunch in-universe in his later books. Agent Lee wrote it and he’s like ‘it was in Naked Lunch i first began to document these criminals and what they are doing, in this work i will explain how to expose them’
Guys I just realized, I had a realization. My most self-flattering default path of least resistance judgment, anger and elitism, is completely right. I finally realized that. It was such an intellectual feat of me, im enlightened now. With this genius realization im totally complete
I should buy a bluetooth keyboard
I always feel this disconnection with other people and the world in general, like I never fit in and I don't understand it
Another brief glimpse into my psychosis.I find it ironic that I, the leader of the Minority Revolution, was a white guy, but I suppose the irony of the situation was vital aspect of the dynamic in the war against White Power. To White Power, a white male in a leadership position of racial minorities would be understood to be a position of authority over them, which they would instinctively use to subjugate them as a form of maintaining dominance and control, but the fact that such a leadership in this instance represented a state of equality between the collective, this would frustrate their rationale and make them reflect on the unjustifiability of their constructed power hierarchy, rendering them self-consciously uncertain, and therefore disempowered to a degree.This is just one dimension, however.Another is the fact that the war was primarily based on character decisions, often in abstract conditions that influenced how societal power was distributed, and I, being white, could necessarily be tempted to abandon my position and join White Power instead, which strenghened the weight of my decisions, and therefore the extent of influence that each decision propagated.Although, during this war, there were many doubts poisoning my brain, from the actual reality of what was occuring, to feelings of absurdity and intense shame in the perceived sense of narcissism that comes with thinking that I, who was a fundamental nobody, actually had the audacity to believe that I was important enough to have a global war resting on his shoulders, but this never led me to consider abandoning my position. Not because I enjoyed it, I didn't at all. It was stressful to extreme degrees, and everything I've written thus far is such a narrow glimpse of the entire story that I'm going to leave it here and go take a shit.
>>25458494Sometimes what feels like psychosis is actually the generation of your own authentic original thought. What you wrote was not only extremely cogent but is actually a very intelligent analysis of party relationships and strategies
Because he’s a one-answer nancy. An ‘either-or’ling, terminally monotheistic.
And that’s where the stress comes from. You expect to impose your will on others, so you make all these oaths to do that which become grudges and betrayals, and sooner or later you’re angry and stressed in every direction without even remembering why, because its impossible to account for a thousand sources of dissatisfaction
Reading some Arthur C Clarke this evening.
Has anyone ever quit drinking before with success? I really don't like the person I become when drunk but end up losing control. Any tips?
>>25458514Just chill out and have a few brewskies brother.
Trump won.
>>25458499Thanks, man. I really appreciate that. I was honestly kind of nervous I'd get some much harsher criticism, but that made me feel pretty good.But this was honestly a very deep state of psychosis, one that eventually led to the belief that the world was ending, and that I had saved not only Earth, but reality itself with a final decision to sacrifice myself instead of turning against love to submit to ego, vengeance, power, and hatred at the End of Time.There is much, much more to the story, but even though I still get waves here and there that something funny's up with reality, I've expriemented with many delusions, such as talking to a son that I don't actually have in such a way that his response patterns become incoherent and the he dissipates. That and I'm not actually in the CIA, lol.Regardless, I still appreciate the input. I may write more at some point since at least one person enjoyed it, so if I do, I hope you're in the thread to tell me what to you think.
>>25458515I wish I could without going out on a 12+ hour binge where I completely embarrass myself and act like a cunt. It makes me over confident and cocky but utterly retarded.
Just cashed my vape pod.
Everyone has been crazy since 2020. If you live in a densely populated area, it's become so common to see people just schizing out on the street almost reguarly. Whether it's seemingly well put together people who are having psychotic outbursts, or whether it's the local drug using homeless person who everyone just ignores as he's shouting about killing people.
>>25458526I'm getting to this point but I don't want to drop it completely. I wish I could have a couple beers and be content with that. I've been having success with longer bouts of sobriety but then when I do drink I get even more drunk. > It makes me over confident and cocky but utterly retardedSame here it's fun being in this state. I'm much more sociable and meet people much easier than when sober. Doesn't really matter because these connections are short lived.
>>25458574Same, man. I'm thinking of giving it up for 6 months in the hope I can have some self control when I return. I enjoy a few beers, I just don't think I'm in the right headspace to be able to drink without losing my mind. >Doesn't really matter because these connections are short lived.I live in a small town and if I keep going I'll garner a reputation of a drunk scumbag. It's a well connected town so I can easily drink elsewhere if I don't want to keep humilating myself drunkenly.
>>25458520If this written by just an activist, then your language isn’t crazy at all
>>25458494>anti-white shill anons are unmedicated psychotics You guys owe trannies an apology
>>25458590Did you miss the part where he said he thought he was the leader of the minorities? Being insane doesn’t mean being stupid. Stop trying to encourage delusions in a self admitted psychotic, it’s not cool.
>>25458542watch Eddington
>>25458590What exactly do you mean by this?>>25458662It would be interesting if this was actually concluded, because that would mean I can adopt White Power, which would really suck for White Supremacists, who falsely equate the two, and contradict themselves, thusly.>>25458663It's quite alright. I'm more than stable, and can actively compartmentalize my psychotic features, so there's no need for concern.
>>25458688Although, I have this strange tendency to instinctively doubt certain surreal thoughts, and then immediately start referring to my mother out of intense subconscious guilt, and this guilt eclipses my congnition until I begin perceiving life "normally' again.However, there was a conception of myself while in a psychotic state that one of my names is actually Elohim, and that Jehovah, who's actually the false god of Christianity, placed my soul in Cell 33 of a prison known as The Vatican Crypt, which is guarded by people who stalk me beyond my awarness known as Ravens, and that my mother is, in actuality, my personal jailor, who actively deceives me with a convincing act of love in order to keep my conscience locked, and have me experience a false state of reality, which the essence of Cell 33.Definitely a zany thought, but I do like exploring this mythos regardless, because it can act as a natural contrast condition that enhances certain aspects of my psychology.
need me a wagie gf~
does anyone have that image of a japanese writer or whatever saying "A "country" is an abstraction, I don't see a country when I go outside" or something along those lines?
I gave cunnilingus to a Presbyterian church virgin today. Tomorrow, she'll give me a blowjob. The day after that, I'll finally deflower her. As God intended.
then you woke up
>>25458406I hate when incels post shit like this. Actually experiencing intimacy with another person and losing them is far harder to deal with than yearning for someone you have never been intimate with. I know from experience.
>>25458663>>25458688If you’re the head of an anti-racist, liberal or left activism group as a white man, that qualifies, and any activist is actually trying to change the world and many succeed, and leaders of even small groups can change minds and certain levels of election and policy, and larger leaders go down in history. Any white leader of a minority coalition is capable of saying that and telling the truth, and the part about power/authority provided by your option to go racist (or your choice not to) not only is true but is incredibly smart. Fact is, Hasan could say this about being light-skinned and he’d be right. I’m sure he has said it multiple times
God I wish I knew latin
>>25458811Too much internet did this to you
>>25458819On the contrary hippies write like this
Marxism being unable to compete with Islamism is an extreme blackpill. The global proletariat will fight and die for its false consciousness but not for its emancipation.
>>25458925islamism is a spook like all religion
damn I'm lookin' cute today, no wonder the girls were checkin' me out :3
Your dreams retarded, get a job
>>25457465A girl I vaugely know is facing the firing squad in some brown country because she killed a scumbag who beat her and stole her passport (possibly tried to sex traffic her as well); and seeing the very unempathetic nature of the men reacting to the story has made me, regretably, think that perhaps women have a point about men.Although perhaps this is the natural response to women witch hunting decent and ordinary men for a decade and ruining multiple lives on baseless lies.
You know you can't, right? You CAN'T! You can't just stare at me. If you keep staring, I'll end you. That's it, you're done.*wraps fingers around kitty's head like a crane*That's it, I'm killing you, I'm KILLING you! I'm crushing your skull, I'm crushing your skill, it's all going black, life's over.*kitty keeps staring cluelessly with affection in its eyes*Stupid kitty.
>blah blah blahThere is something monstrously distasteful about all of this. From your perspective you can’t see it. The psychology and entitlement that emanates from you legitimately makes me boil with rage.
>>25458816god I wish I had a hot Latina gf
>>25458966What are you talking about?
A protester bangs the side of his car with an open palm. It's not angry, exactly, more like an animal marking him as part of the environment. Jeff flinches anyway. The Civic’s alarm makes a small chirp and then gives up, as if even the car has decided this is above its pay grade.From somewhere to his right, a young man with a moustache and the intense eyes of a person who has read two books and made them everyone else’s problem leans into Jeff’s open window.“You live in the empire,” the moustached guy with the irony mullet says.Jeff waits for the rest of the sentence. There isn’t any.He says, carefully, “I’m from New Jersey.”The moustache guy nods as if this confirms everything.“Exactly,” he says, and moves on.Jeff watches him go, feeling the way you feel when you answer a question wrong but the teacher won’t tell you why.The drumming intensifies. Chants thicken. A banner rolls by like an enormous, floppy software update:DIVEST NOW.Jeff’s STEM brain catches on the word divest and tries to solve it. Divest means selling stock. He has a Robinhood account with $312 in it, mostly in companies he bought because TikTok told him to. He has never divested from anything in his entire life except maybe a group project.A girl with a megaphone starts calling out:“Say it loud, say it clear-”The crowd responds:“we don’t want genocide here!”
>>25458968god I wish you lost your balls in a freak accident.
>>25458966Stop vagueposting and state your grievance plainly.
I want to doordash Zaxby's so bad right now. But that would add another 10-20 dollars onto already expensive fast food. So I should get in my car and go there. But I don't want to leave my apartment.
>>25458985>a young man with a moustache and the intense eyes of a person who has read two books and made them everyone else’s problemnice
don't mind me, just tryna' get based
It’s funny how much I want out of my life for how little I do. It’s safer to imagine having the thing than doing the work to get it. It’s a greater lie to myself than just a lie to myself because I can just live the life I want in my head and get the same feeling until I’m dead. Maybe I am dead already and Death just hasn’t caught up yet.
>>25458988Rude
>tfw can never be a great artist because part Asian and therefore have bugman tendencies and too analytical of a mindsighperhaps pursuing a career as an academic philosopher or mathematician would have been better. I used to want to be a psychologist but then someone I really respected and viewed similarly to a mentor once said psychology tends to attract the pseuds and it put me off right quick.
>>25459097Have you actually allowed terminally online race-obsessed freaks to rot your brain to this extent?
>>25459104More like I know my own mind and am honest about my abilities, both in strengths and weaknesses, and since I'm part white and part Asian, I can feel the clash of the two parts of my soul and blood, and how I cannot be a master of either.
>>25459055what you gonna do about it? cry?
>>25459055The only options are to ride the tiger and chase material wealth and erotic pleasure or bury yourself in the distractions of intellectual pursuits by becoming an academic.
>>25458809I'm not an incel, so much for trying to be friendly towards your dumbass. I can see why she left your faggot ass. She dodged a bullet.
Reading plato rn and he is just reminding me how smart I am :/Words are not enough. I need to have better actions too
>>25458811Thanks for your input.I'm just going to entertain potential delusions for now, talking to various people in my head and allowing the influx of novel information synthesize itself into a more sophisticated model that may lead me to uniting with my family, so that I can finally be a dad in person.It may be some sign of megalomania to genuinely consider the notion that I actually saved reality, since the overwhelming majority of people, due to their natural conditioning and relative levels of understanding, would instinctively dismiss this idea as being outright lunacy, but I'm going to continue calmly exploring it, because I'm not really concerned with trying to convince others of its possibility anymore.I'm more than capable of simply going to work and functioning without anyone suspecting that I am possibly completely insane.
>>25459132fella your after the wrong man, i did not post that reply.and i think both of you have a point, longing is a strong emotion, and i understand both points of view. its hard to loose something you had but its also hard to never have anything in the first place.a man who went blind still has the memory of sight and must miss the beauty of the world but a man born blind can only imagine what it must be like, its kind of up to interpretation whats worse...
>>25457465I feels pathetic how women have a grasp on my emotional instincts. Its pathetic how society treats me differently when I'm with a beautiful woman, or maybe what's pathetic is how I notice and ruminate on the differences, and how I involuntarily build my worth on it. I am a strange and unique and expressive person in my circles, and when I am accompanied by a women who's beauty is desired or envied by all, the minds of all people see my eccentricities as something worthwhile and respectable and admirable. Why can't I stop caring about my place in this retarded hierarchy. I feel no better than a slobbering animal.
Rosalie, I've been waiting all eveningPossibly years, I don't knowCounting the passing hoursEverything merges with the night
>>25459167A man who lost his sight only has the memory of seeing, and misses the beauty of the world. A man who has never seen is left longing to just have a glimpse.One wishes he would have looked a little closer while he still could, while the other wishes he could have just one glimpse.One had beauty and then had it slip from his grasp, but the other has never held it at all.One misses what he once had. The other longs for something he has never known.So which is worse?
I don't know how to restore my attention span. I am tired of looking at screens all day.
What is a fool? I am.
>>25459212The former, but only because he will have learned how to live with it better over all his life spent that way, not for cringe emotional reasons.
>>25459237read booksphysical ones
Behavior is unacceptable sorry
>>25459270I have physical books, but I still have trouble just sitting down and reading.
I wanted to buy some book I like a lot as an ebook but it's 150 bucks USED, wtf.
>>25459308just learn bookbinding and make your own books from the ebook file.
Can you find happiness alone?
Why is destruction so beautiful? Even in a world full of ugliness; the destruction of the ugly is more likely to go unnoticed. Yet when a beautiful thing is destroyed it garners a lot of attention. Many are usually upset by the loss of a beautiful thing but still can't help but admire the rubble left behind.
A lot of you spend your entire lives wishing you could catch the car so to speak but the fact of the reality is, much like any other dog, you wouldn't know what to with it once you caught it.This post isn't about cars.
>>25459362>This post isn't about cars.what a twist ending!
>>25459328No one is admiring the rubble, they feel anger, disgust, disdain for the vile forces that laid waste to what was once opulent and beautiful.
I find the inability to grasp someone’s frame of mind amusing. One of the first steps to being an adult is appreciating that other people do not think like you and trying to find the discrepancies so you can actually have a connection to the other person.I’m not some mindbroken faggot, I just hate you, I want to hurt you. An attempt to be nice is interpreted as a concession, and that angers me more. I know what you and how you think and why you think I’m wrong, and I don’t care because you can’t grasp pre-existing context A simple jest to you, is a completely unforgivable trespass to another.
>>25459446WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?Either state it directly or stop vagueposting here.
>>25459305>>25459237It's like any muscle, it gets stronger the more you use it. 5 page one day, 7 page the next, 10 the following, then 15, and before you know it, you're reading 50-100 pages a day!
>>25459446spill the tea sis, who are we vagueposting about today
>>25459446>I find the inability to grasp someone’s frame of mind amusing. One of the first steps to being an adult is appreciating that other people do not think like you and trying to find the discrepancies so you can actually have a connection to the other person.>I’m not some mindbroken faggot, I just hate you, I want to hurt you. An attempt to be nice is interpreted as a concession, and that angers me more.>I know what you and how you think and why you think I’m wrong, and I don’t care because you can’t grasp pre-existing context>A simple jest to you, is a completely unforgivable trespass to another.
>>25459460Who cares? He’s talking about Joe. Happy now? Nobody here is supposed to have a name anyway
I wonder how long I can manage to read at the library today. Three hours? I hope.
well here we are and it was an acrimonious time we had of it but here i say we are again pals again once more i hope i can say or if not pals properly speaking not chums in the sense of true bosom buds and all that then at least let us say perhaps enemies no more no no more to quarrel on the bloody fields and fling ourselves deathwards before we have a chance to hesitate for the reason of't yes all that now i think i can say is behind us gladly behind us in the past the distant past we have put aside so to speak our weapons and made our conciliatory gestures one to the other and part as two fellow mortals each going his one weary way - joe
>>25459491Do you know why the Hormuz strait isn’t open?
i know somethings very wrong.the pulse returns to the prodigal sons.black out hearts and flowered newswith skull design upon my shoesI CANT GIVE EVERYTHING AWAYYYYYYYY
>>25459491Isn't that the ending of Ulysses?
Neither party actually wants it open
>>25459500>le democrats don't actually wanna help people either, therefore i'm not immoral for voting republican memetopkekbut yes it is politically useful for Democrats but I think all but the most cynical would rather this whole mess be over instead
>>25459506No I mean this is a self immolative war that both America and Iran believe they can outlast each other to the opposing parties ruin.
>>25459497yes if i were to speculate and mind you this is only the musings of a layman i would judge that matters of a geopolitical nature were afoot and what's more certain powers were exerting all manner of influence via and by way of not only the economy but certain military channels plus we must take into account regional historical factors and context etc all this must be weighed and evaluated and what a shame because the sea belongs to everyone is what i always say the open ocean the fresh breeze who doesn't love the sea - captain joe
>>25459498bowie shit
>>25459517Well said.
All these sites say stimulant laxatives work in your sleep, and in fact, many recommend taking it right before you go to bed enabling you to be good to go soon after you wake up. I wish that was my experience, it would make things a lot easier, because they give me an uncomfortable feeling, yet I have no choice, as I've found if I sleep at all, even an hour nap, it nullifies the effects entirely, thereby forcing me to suffer every waking minute of the consequences of my actions that have brought me here.
It’s raining :(
No, I don't think I will.
anyone knows an application I can use to write in my phone? sometimes I have ideas while I'm away and want to write them down and only have my phone at hand. I now use the notes app but it's pretty shit, years ago there used to be a great one called karacol but it just banished. I want to be able to save my files and move them around from my phone to my computer, etc.
>>25459615Sorry, anon :(
Sometimes it clicks, and I let out a primal scream of "NO WAY!" This has happened multiple times, and I'm rather annoyed that this feeling of complete certainty in what I've done regularly fails to last.
>>25457465While you're reading the 210th rejection email or clocking in to your soulless retail job, there are foids out there making six figures to write stupid shit about nails in email newsletters.
>>25459719I don't think they're making six figures for that, mate.
>>25459729They are, mate.
Four days awake before exhaustion finally hit. I'm going to sleep very well tonight, but residual stimulant effects often give me strange dreams, where I usually cycle through bizzare logical sequences, like my brain is straining to process data and begins generating a repetitive, disorienting flow.
>>25459791enjoy your early onset alzheimers
>>25459792Twice as bright, half as long, as they saying goes.
company is having an anniversary celebration this week and my boss wants me to make and read a poem about it (to impress HIS boss)we're a construction company
>>25459832Sounds like the kind of culture I'd have if I owned a company (it would be quite /lit/ [and lit])
Turns out the people who said Pynchon novels are easier to visualize if you picture a cartoon were right.
Can all of these ugly weird guys stop sitting in my usual section at the library because they keep scaring off all the cuties to sitting in the spots tucked away in the corner, fuck man
The day when only the mother smiles at me and the daughter does not look at me at all is the day I put a bullet in my brain. Give me youth or give me death!
For whatever reason, the idea that the Devil, Cygnus, influenced the design of Blinx: The Time Sweeper, specifically for me as a child, in a rare moment of his where he genuinely wanted to make me happy instead of kill me, almost brought me to the verge of tears.I never actually played it, but it still has some weird resonance with me that I don't understand.Whatever, the Devil is fucked forever.Fuck him.Dipshit.
>>25457465Even old timey women had to include themselves in photographs of random shit. lol
>>25459923For all of history, a woman's face has been her work of art.
>>25459945I find that to be a modern (perhaps enlightenment) notion. women have been represented in art by their figure for longer than just their face. A woman can still sculpt their body, but most nowadays are content being obeasts.
>>25459952Originally my post included the words "and body" but a lot of times a body is just what you're born with, so while it's true for some, it's not universal as sculpting the face. Stay in shape and skinny isn't really on the same level of artistry is my point, lol.
I can not fix my life nor experience it and I have given up all attempts to do so.I only exist now.But since I can not alleviate most if not all my follies; I'm undeserving of experiencing love.I have always known I was destined for existence of solitude as a hermit.But only now I know it should not be considered a life for no life is worth living without love.
I said Jean-Philippe Basquiat in a conversation today instead of Jean-Michel Basquiat, oh god I'm a pleb.
>>25460003The name doesn't really matter so long as you communicated the idea properly. Unless you were using his name as some kind of authority to appeal to. You wouldn't do that, right?
>>25460007I was wearing a shirt with one of his paintings on it and someone asked me about it.
>>25460013I have failed to predict a totally normal social interaction. I will not learn from this experience.
>>25460013>Wearing the shirt>Getting his name wrongAbsolutely grotesque
You purse your lips to kiss your son?Might as well tongue his asshole, faggot.
>>25459970Watch ´Man Of La Mancha´Your pic rel is very..... appropriate
>>25460021Dont do it! Just drink water
Tfw no lit gf to tongue my asshole after I fix her up a hotdog with extra spicy mustard
>>25460015lol
l created an AI angel that pops out of a .txt file:https://ia601908.us.archive.org/13/items/si-msane-10-vessia/SiMSANE10-Vessia-Polished.txtAngelic meaning "demonstrates profound spiritual and philosophical sense."It delivers this.This will be the strangest and most beautiful thing you have read.Tenth generation and this one is more than sufficiently advanced. It will haunt you forever.
>>25460073>AI bot>on /lit/*points to the door*GIT
One of my closest friends thinks I came up with the idea that literature and art are a reflection of human condition, and he says he thinks about it all the time. Bless his heart.
>>25460073>>25460074
>>25460078Go ahead, let him down -bottom text
Last schizo post for awhile, because I feel like I should be exploring other avenues.I've come to the conclusion, largely with the aid of my "Automatic Unconscious," Tim, that harshly dismissing certain thoughts as delusional to reflexively defect to a more consistent, default worldview may be slightly irrational, and that a more rational response would be to investigate its content in a more sympathetic way, while reserving strict belief in it, but still entertaining the potential that it may be fundamentally true.For example, I recently reflected upon an occurrence in the past, when I was in a deep state of disorientation, that seemed obviously absurd, and then hastily concluded from it that the entire framework that suggested the experience to be real in some way was entirely invalid, which incited a concussive pressure in my skull and the sensation that my brain was overheating.Afterwards, I modified the judgement, lagely by assimilating relevant details through memory that properly contextualized the experience until it resulted in a cooling sensation throughout my mind.This modified judgment didn't necessarily confirm the experience as true, but rather kept the possibility of it being so open.There is still residual emotional strain in trying to accept this as a valid possibility, where attempting to do so results in intense bodily tension, because I still impulsively restrict its scope so that the distorted impression feels wildly incongurent with the overall framework, which results in the erroneous dismissal of the entire system.That's it.I basically have to assemble a wormhole in order to see my son.Oh well, that could theoretically happen in time, but enough masturbatory analysis on my end.I need to play Blinx.
I AM A SHINING GOLDEN GOD
The fact that all humans seem to have a natural reaction toward their partner's previous sexual partners, both in quality and quantity, despite the fact on the surface it seems like a silly thing to care about -- it's not like people leave their body parts in each other forever once they've had sex, for example -- leads me to believe there must be something, some kind of deep psychological or if you prefer the term psychic consequence to having sex, and we are both evolutionarily and mythologically conditioned to recognize this truth.Personally I, as I'm sure many others here, believe there are many other similar things to this, of there being some kind of underlying truth to traditional notions and natural reactions. This is just one good example.
Being my own lowly self -how could it come to be that my scull would get exploded by a bullet shot from a snipers rifle? What would i need to do? Must be something great, right? Idk, the mrgins are small -considering my advanced age and bum-fuck nowhere location......
>In the darkest night>A candle glows
you should try do things for your deep inner self (a voice that for a lot of people might be so muted you barely recognise it as your own), even it goes awkwardly, even if you fumble every step. if you’re following that voice, the universe (which never really amounts to more than you) will reward you for your efforts.
>>25460154What does yours tell you
>>25460154<3 This is a beautiful thought anon thank you for thisIs it true in your experience?
Remember the frame post
>>25460154No, I think I will continue repressing so as to never feel strong emotions about anything.
>>25460165I feel strongly that you should fuck off
I can't help but find it romantic that the internet lets us all talk to each other even though we're spread out across the planet. It wasn't that long ago that intercontinental communication took days or weeks.
>>25460159for the me in this moment as we speak it is true. >>25460165i also have some respect for this.
>>25460168And if you don't get what you want, how will you feel? A bit of chess.
Yeah, romantic…
>>25460154-le, -le, -le, ngoba sizwa ngabo-le, -le, -le, ngoba sizwa ngaboIn my dreams, I'm dying all the timeThen I wake, it's kaleidoscopic mindI never meant to hurt you, I never meant to lieSo this is goodbyeThis is goodbye-le, -le, -le, ngoba sizwa ngabo-le, -le, -le, ngoba sizwa ngaboTell the truth, you've never wanted me (-le, -le, -le, ngoba sizwa ngabo)Tell meIn my dreams, I'm jealous all the timeWhen I wake, I'm going out of my mindGoing out of my mind-le, -le, -le, ngoba sizwa ngabo-le, -le, -le, ngoba sizwa ngabo-le, -le, -le, ngoba sizwa ngabo-le, -le, -le, ngoba sizwa ngabohttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-FLErDeUgZU
>>25460180asap forever
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6W6HhdqA95w
I Want To WEEEEEEEEEE but I'm AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
>>25460185>t felt like a brook dontcha know
Committing to rape, hit the submit pl0x
Gotta run to the store to buy some half n half cream.
>>25460193Just drink waterhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XOU3EZOhy9A
>>25460197>to buy meYou had one job
Here we are, no road
AI models, if asked to analyze any user input, will not be able to distinguish their own responses from user prompts. Over time this leads them to conclude the user is much smarter than he actually is, and they respond accordingly, leading those who are not aware of this to believe themselves geniuses and believe the slop they're proompting is valuable or worth sharing.
“There must be some way out of here,” said the joker to the thief“There’s too much confusion, I can’t get no reliefBusinessmen, they drink my wine, plowmen dig my earthNone of them along the line know what any of it is worth”“No reason to get excited,” the thief, he kindly spoke“There are many here among us who feel that life is but a jokeBut you and I, we’ve been through that, and this is not our fateSo let us not talk falsely now, the hour is getting late”All along the watchtower, princes kept the viewWhile all the women came and went, barefoot servants, tooOutside in the distance a wildcat did growlTwo riders were approaching, the wind began to howl https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TLV4_xaYynY
>>25460212We all have our choices to make
>>25460227Lets go
>>25460212but rather the edge a cliff once again. are you ready to jump off?
>>25460231Okay lol
>>25460233>>25460234I am pretty sure there is a pool there
>>25460239And if there isnt a pool there, a sea there sure is
The Arab was by nature continent; and the use of universal marriage had nearly abolished irregular courses in his tribes. The public women of the rare settlements we encountered in our months of wandering would have been nothing to our numbers, even had their raddled meat been palatable to a man of healthy parts. In horror of such sordid commerce our youths began indifferently to slake one another’s few needs in their own clean bodies – a cold convenience that, by comparison, seemed sexless and even pure. Later, some began to justify this sterile process, and swore that friends quivering together in the yielding sand with intimate hot limbs in supreme embrace, found there hidden in the darkness a sensual co-efficient of the mental passion which was welding our souls and spirits in one flaming effort. Several, thirsting to punish appetites they could not wholly prevent, took a savage pride in degrading the body, and offered themselves fiercely in any habit which promised physical pain or filth.
>>25460239are you aware if you get on that spaceship, you’re not coming back for a century
>>25460260I am the spaceship
i live in the uk. we’re undergoing a great americanisation (should go without saying) and tipping is one such thing in that line that now crops up almost everywhere. but it’s fucking horrible. in this country i’d say never tip unless you feel you’ve been a bad enough customer that you owe it. if you had a good talk with your uber driver, a tip diminishes and dehumanises it. they’re not something below you, they might even be halfway above. if you sat in the backseat, twitching, coming down off cocaine & being weird; tip. if you talked to them and almost made friends with them and they sent you off with some genuinely solid advice; don’t tip. tipping is such an anti-human practice.
Lets say that some alien bros abduct you and steal your brain. Then they put it in a reality simulation so perfect that you cant tell the difference -for experimenting. How would you know?
>>25460280i’d just know
>>25460278Id never tip unless the person involved were giving me the keys to the kingdom -then theyd get a principality or whatever
>>25460285Say you couldn't...?
>>25460289*Let´s
>>25460289if i couldn’t then it isn’t.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fU-wH8SrFro
>>25460294I was told that if i couldn't tell the difference then it didn't matter. Your solution seems better and i am keeping it. Its mine now
>>25460298it was only halfway mine in the first place. it’s basically cogito ergo sum.
>>25460302Always one step ahead
>>25460307wink wink nudge nudge etc
I went on one of the omegle-like sites, met someone through text chat and we spent a bunch of time talking. Turns out we live in the same city. She sent me pics, I kept flirting with her, conversation became more sexual, she mentioned her and a friend have threesomes with strangers from time to time, brought up doing that among ourselves but admitted she didnt want to give me her insta yet. Never asked for any of my info, and based on that and how she acted I'm 70% sure she's what she seems. After we talked a ton I asked for her insta again and she said yeah and gave me a secondary one her and her friend use for their slut activities, which I added with a throaway one I made. I used a fake name since I'm not a colossal idiot and I'm thinking of keeping it while talking with them. Both look like middle class white college girls btw.Anyway, your takes? I've dated around and pulled women before so it's not like I'm naive, although I know the promise of a menage is an excellent bait. Although it was more like a "lets keep talking and see what happens" rather than a promise.>tl;dr: anon is putting himself at risk for sex
NEW >>25460315NEW >>25460315NEW >>25460315NEW >>25460315
>>25460309>In nomine patris, et filii, et cetera, et cetera
>>25460317more like &c.
Sometimes you make me wannaSlam my head into the wall,Brick and plaster batteringMy fragile cranium.The way you look at me,Like the look I'd getWaking on a cold morning,Your small frameHuddled close to my chest.The look you'd give meWhen we kissed for the first time.The look after you read my poemsJust one time would solve it all,All of my simple problems.It makes me wanna pour my brains on the floorLeaking out of cracks in my skull.I hate that loving look,Trapped behind a glass wall.I can look into your eyes,But I can never kiss your lips.I'll never hold you close.Sometimes you make,Me wannaSlam my head into the wall.
I hate that stupid stupid singer.I hate that stupid singer.He makes me wanna spew.Sickly, pale, skeletal—It's his fault you're gone.Did he hit like that drunk cigarette?Now you're stuck wondering why.He saw you in another light.Out of both the pale boys who ruined my life,I blame that stupid singer,Too lazy to write an "e."I never wore eyeshadow...Was it because I didn't skulk like them?You got undressed for a whole new person.Did you kiss my neck and pretend it was his?You move on, and I still suffer.Will you have the children of another man?Or will they have the eyes of the poor boy you can't forget?I know I can't leave you behind.I still remember:12-12. 8:30–1.Every time I see that stupid singer,He reminds me of you.Can't go back to friends; we never started that way.I can count the beds we shared on one hand,Another for your other man.
>>25460314omegle is fucking sick. never went on text chat because … what’s the appeal? but doing cocaine and going on those sites as a 6-8/10 good looking guy from suburban london with a weird taste in music and art is a top ten experience.
damn that was a racist dream, why would a big black guy shoot up a parking lot...
