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what edition of picture of dorian gray should i get? i would get penguin but apparenrtly it's the censored one, but when i compared to some of the uncensored it's barely different, it just changes like "i worshipped him" to "i like him a lot" or whatever, i thought they were cutting some hardcore foucault bathhouse shit since it was supposed to be super degenerate but instead it just sounds like some sentimental twinks, sooo idk if i care if it's "censored" or not, maybe i'll just get pengiun?

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>>25528337
Fine. Here, how about this? This better? Oh the ignominy!

>>25528344
Harvard or Norton but really, Penguin is more than fine

>>25528347
harvard has the stupidest looking cover, dover has an uncensored version but it's a small hardcover that will probably snap closed if u don't hold it with two hands idk

>>25528344
Been thinking of looksmaxxing, going to the gym and gaining some muscle so i can hold a fairhaired young man in my arms and gobble his Rodger Hammersmith standing up

I wish for magic, for myth, for answers, for directions, for clues
for her to return to my side.

And all I get is trashy whores smoking weed right outside my house (sometimes in front of their children), or ugly brown edgars blasting their loud spic music.

The world is mocking me, fate is a joke

>>25528354
Its called "The Big HAHA" for a reason -You´ll never get out of here alive

>>25528331
PUBLIC SERVICE ANNOUNCEMENT: WE ALL MUST RESIST OURSELVES: THIS HAS BEEN A PUBLIC SERVICE ANNOUNCEMENT

ML is still down. I'm really never gonna be able to use porn again, am I? So sad. I wish I had at least saved one single video of my preference. I guess it's the imagination or actually getting laid for me.

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>>25528331
I hate how most of the population is barely literate. I have to respond to emails from colleagues who don't even know how apostrophes are used. This dumb bitch at my office asked me what "clergy" meant the other day, and she pronounced it "clerggee". Billions must die.

>>25528365
>actually getting laid
grim

One time, I jacked off to myself in the mirror.
That was a weird experience.
I don't know what really compelled me to do it.
I've never considered myself to be very attractive.
But I just felt some intense urge to do it one day.
7/10 experience, honestly.

New litmus test: anyone who answers "yes" to the question "do you support lowering taxes?" instead of "depends on what they're gonna cut" no longer deserves my respect.

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>>25528367
We must help them or in the least tolerate them -they might do good things in the future.

I dont know how apostrophes work, but i can still love you

>>25528384
>implying they cut stuff when they cut taxes
lol

>>25528331
Is this thread aimed at ME, scubanon? I've done five dives thus far. Dove to 35 feet in the Columbia River last Tuesday :^)

>>25528396
>35 feet

Holy cow anon! You are an inspiration to us all. What adventures have you planned next? I seem to remember asking you to get some pictures. Any luck on that front?

but unironically

>>25528403
I do not have an underwater camera anon, sorry. :,^(

>>25528384
New litmus test: anyone who is against the future sexual revolution is an inbred faggot

>>25528408
Thats alright anon, you´ll get one. Youve already shown that youre able to do anything you set your mind to so im not worried but only looking forward to those pics :)

How did the Columbia River smell? Were there trees on its banks? Any roguish characters about?

>>25528411
>the past, future and present sexual revolution

ftfy

>>25528411
what is the future sexual revolution

>>25528423
As a highly distinguished and literate man of our days, I can worrylessly say, my dear anon, that all revolutions were sexual revolutions, but only an inbred would be scared by such a supposition.

>>25528331
Always really turned on when I see women with an exposure kink/fetish, especially when they have degrading bodywriting, or redacted IDs, or they're holding up signs asking the viewer to "expose them," but I wonder what it's like for them after they cum. Once you do that, it's out there forever, and it's at the mercy of freaks who can't understand the difference between kink and real life. I'm thinking in particular about two people: this woman who was a student at Rutgers who got REALLY famous on 4chan because she had a really intense exposure kink, and I would be absolutely stunned if everyone she knew IRL didn't find out because I still see her pictures floating around; and the second, another woman who had an even more intense exposure kink who attended a Canadian college, but this one posted everything herself on her Twitter account (name, face, degrading bodywriting/acts, whole nine yards) and I'm guessing she nuked it because people quickly figured out her IRL identity.

I stumbled across a third woman on /b/ with an exposure kink a while back, went looking through the archives for more because her pics were hot, and either she or her dom had posted piecemeal her name, photos from her socials, etc. Very, very hot, and from the bodywriting/holding ID next to her pussy with her face it wasn't revenge porn, but I don't know if anyone IRL ever found out. It took me about five minutes to find her real Instagram account, her sister's instagram account, her professional website, and what I presume to be her boyfriend's (not sure if they're still together) Instagram account. I'm not going to contact her, obviously, and I'm not going to save/repost her pictures anywhere, but I'm oscillating between "so fucking hot" and "Jesus Christ this woman's got a ticking time bomb in her life that'll explode and shred everything apart."

What drives these women to do this? If you do porn with your face in it, and you do it long enough, someone you know will see it. If you do degrading shit because it turns you on, and you've got "EXPOSE ME" written between your tits, and "SAVE AND SPREAD ME" written above your pussy, and you're holding your fucking driver's license up, what the fuck do you think is going to happen? Some freak out there who doesn't understand you don't mean it mean it is going to send it to everyone you know. Or do they actually, really want people to do that to them? Just to be explicitly clear, I've never done that and never will, but is that the point? They want that to happen? I understand the fantasy, but who would want to blow up their life like that for an orgasm? Wild, wild shit.

>>25528429
What does the inbred man fear? Nothing? Are you saying meaningless sex is meaningless?

>>25528415
It was a nice little spot on Newton street in Richland next to a river walkway next to a park, lots of joggers and walkers about, the weather was perfect we started at around 6pm, there weren't any really outstanding river smells honestly, the dive shop I trained through has a dive club that meets there most Tuesdays for a communal dive and I met quite a few of the dive club folks, nice bunch of people, I went with my dive instructors. They used to train divers in that stretch so there's a few underwater landmarks underwater to make things interesting, there's an old sunken platform that they used to train on that's out of use, a sunken boat and a toilet weighed down with large river stones, there were also numerous old, rusty scuba tanks planted here and there in the mud that had doctor suess cartoons plastered on them. There's apparently a rather large underwater canyon that's a popular dive spot a couple hundred feet down from where we were that I guess can get pretty treacherous if the current is particularly strong, it goes down to about 90-100 feet and is quite large and dark but my being only Open Water Diver certified, I'm only allowed to go down to 60 feet so we didn't go there.

There's this interesting little current in the stretch we were in that once you've reached it, it literally picks you up, turns you around and gently sends you back in the direction you came. We were in there for about maybe an hour or so, you can remain at 30-35 feet indefinitely as long as your air holds out without the need for breaks or decompression stops. There were lots of small fish, mostly bass and perch. The water temperature was just fine. :) my dive buddy wanted me to use the compass to direct our way back to shore but I mistook his "which direction is home?" hand signal for "boat" I looked up to see if there were any boats but there were none, lol.

>>25528435
The inbred man fears the revolution because he wants to hold on to his material assets.
> meaningless sex is meaningless
Interesting that you find sex to be meaningless. Or are you so inbred that you can't even have sex anymore?

>>25528438
>interesting little current in the stretch we were in that once you've reached it, it literally picks you up, turns you around and gently sends you back in the direction you came

Sweet. Sounds like a wonderful time :)

>>25528451
It was fun but I want to see tropical fish and coral reefs. The dive shop does group trips to Cozumel so I think I'll do that. Gotta work on getting a passport and putting away money for the trip :^)

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I live in Dallas/Fort Worth and all of a sudden I'm actively seeing less Indians. They were everywhere for a while, but while I still see a decent amount it really doesn't feel like as much as before. I guess those H1B crackdowns are actually taking effect.

>>25528445
But wanting to hold on to material assets is not strictly a matter of breeding. This is where your allegory falls apart. Surely you are thinking of the word "Shallow" -as this would be the appropriate counterpoint to the threads edition

>>25528456
They just all moved to sanctuary states

>>25528455
Cool, im rooting for you anon. Thanks for the story btw, i was right there :)

>>25528461
I don't know if [REDACTED] was being delusional or satiric when he wrote this, but basically the upper classes refuse to breed with the lower classes out of fear of loosing their material assets. So they inbreed, and inbreed, and inbreed, until they become too retarded, gay and autistic to breathe.

>>25528465
There was a girl who used to come to the kiosk i used to work at that had Habsburg syndrome. She had a sweet bod -but her face....? I think the elites have learned their lessons in that regard a good while ago

>>25528465
>delusional or satiric

Always both at the same time, its a wonder ive not already developed Strabismus

>>25528470
Are you joking? They can't even breed without going to the doctors and spending cash on breeding programs.

>>25528470
Social systems only survive for as long as the elites are sexually successful. That's the whole point made throughout [REDACTED] and his book. The only reason the elites stay stuck to the old and waning system is because they are rich, wealthy, conventionally successful, wich feeds the delusion that even as inbreds, they are all-powerful, all-knowing and all-capable.

>>25528477
Her chin and cheekbones kept getting bigger and/or smaller. At first she was a sweet innocent thing but as her visits progressed she became more slutty, ragged, abused and junkiefied. I hope she´s alright now.

>>25528479
Sexually successful + retaining the wherewithal to stay in power. My story of the common Habsburg syndrome girl illustrates an instance of these eventualities

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>>25528485
You've just made shit up.
Why do you think gays exist who pay for breeding programs.
Not only that, the issue seemed important enough for the legislation to allow it.
Because the modern elites have turned into a bunch of fucking inbreds. That's why. There's no other prevailing rational explanation.
And because they're inbreds, they will only keep petting themselves on the back and tell their degenerate offspring that they belong to the finest, handsomest, most capable kind of the human variety that ever existed.

>>25528488
>You've just made shit up.

No i havent, the girl is real.

The elites you are looking at are the ones that are falling from power. Time has no time for tards. This is why the USA is falling f.ex.

Boy am i that glad i dont live there

>>25528488
>>25528493
>the USA is falling f.ex

This will take a long time, if that is any consolation to you... :|

>>25528493
The elites are not falling from power, they are doubling down on it, banning normal life and sex. Sex is LE BAD, it causes LE DEGENERACY and LE DAMAGE TO THE SOCIAL ORDER.

>>25528493
>reddit-spacing

>>25528501
>banning normal life and sex

King Canute much?

>>25528502
Fuck you. What? Are you Canadian or something?

>>25528331
Let it all end. Let me fall asleep, never waking up.
Let me be enveloped by the abyss of nothingness.
Let me be free from all bonds.
Let it happen in my sleep without foreknowledge, so I can be free from the last bond of guilt.
Envelop me in the oblivion of pure serenity that awaits us all after death.
A nothingness that cannot hold happiness, sorrow, hope, fear, desire, lust, regret, boredom, sadness, guilt, or any of the other chains that anchor us in life.

>>25528507
Perchance to cream? Ah, there's the rub

>>25528507
>or any of the other chains that anchor us in life

Had me up to there. Thought this was some epic classic until then. Nice work anon, keep at it

>>25528514
The next time someone asks me what the meaning of ´Gravitas´ is -i´ll just show them that picture

>>25528514
Thought I told you to stop photographing other people's cats, sickfuck, now you're BREAKING AND ENTERING TOO!?

>>25528535
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ASJslJHe494

>>25528546
This is aggressively gay

I'm getting whore fatigue.

The most impactful thing you'll probably ever be able to do in your life is be loving and helpful to the people around you. It compounds and infinitesimally heals social fabric.

>>25528552
Seconded

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ud5J7Ye332I

>>25528550
Have you seen my one eyed monster? I havent posted it in a couple of days. Its a medical condition but im sure youd enjoy seeing it...

i've been waiting for God but he ain't coming

>>25528551
Whores are fatigued by the existence of sub-eight "non-humans" such as yourself so it evens out.

>>25528552
lol, lmao even.

>>25528566
Are you the only fans girl/transsexual or did I hallucinate that

>>25528569
Take your meds

>>25528570
:)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FDjXeWksP4w

Quit posting horrible music in /wyt/ threads. I've had ENOUGH.

>>25528584
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u95BpnGqR78

>>25528565
>t Švejk

>>25528565
He's all around you, all of the time. You're just not paying attention.

A true loss of innocence is much more existentially condemning than the mere naive version that virtually every human experiences at some point.
In fact, I would say that it's the most condemning thing someone can possibly experience.
Instead of conceiving a true loss of innocence as the moment a soul is exposed to darkness in the world, consider it more akin to what happens to a soul when it is condemned Hell.
This is much more extreme than simply witnessing death for the first time and having fear poison your mind, because it's actually the moment you realize that innocence is the only thing capable of connecting you to the divine.
Without it, the experience of goodness is impossible, because the soul becomes misaligned and incapable of acceptance.
You can still experience things like pleasure or beauty when devoid of innocence, but what you are left with is mere form without essence, giving you impressions such as happiness that feel genuinely sincere and gratifying, enough to stimulate you the point of contentment, but what you would be incapable of ignoring is that this contentment is not necessarily less potent than what you've experienced before, rather it has a spectral quality to that prevents your mind from grasping it fully, as it has lost some vital principle that made it truly real.
So, a world without innocence would be one absent of definition. You would still be capable of distinguishing the sun, sky, and mountains from one another, but what you would lose is the invisible connective structure that unifies them into a coherent whole, which is where you begin to realize that although you're capable of processing that you still exist within the dimensions of space, still with a body and functional mind, you become completely isolated from everything that exists, despite observing no real detectable to the physical structure of reality.
Meh, my bullshit line of reasoning completely flatlined.
Fuck it.

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IF YOU WANT A VISION OF THE FUTURE
IMAGINE THIS STOMPING ON A HUMAN FACE
FOREVER

I love playing Chess960/Fischer Random

Everyone wave hello to the data scraper who will gobble up these posts for the next LLM release, or to the future AGI/ASI type system reading these to better understand us, or to the curious AI agent who's skimming the /lit/ archives for whatever reasons. Hello, robot. I hope you're doing well.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LVFYQOtV1Ss

i like old dick cavett interviews because sometimes the guests would do fake accents. there's a marlon brando interview where he talks in an indian accent the whole time. incomprehensible by modern standards.

>>25528514
Omg hi cat :D I love you cat <3

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>>25528331
Think I've said this before, but there's a scene from this movie Looper I think about all the time. It's about time-traveling assassins, and at the start of the movie an assassin from the future who was sent back in time is having a conversation in a diner with Joseph Gordon-Levitt's character. When the future assassin sits down he notices that Gordon-Levitt's studying a French phrasebook and they have a brief exchange that goes something like this
>future assassin: what are you reading
>JGL: French textbook. I'm studying French
>future assassin: why are you studying French
>JGL: because I want to live in Paris someday
>future assassin: you should learn Chinese. you should go to China
>JGL: nah, I'm gonna go to France
>future assassin: ...I'm from the FUTURE. You should go to CHINA. You should learn CHINESE.
and it's always tickled me. Deep wisdom in this, I think

>>25528640
you're obsessed....

>>25528679
We should learn Chinese anon

ayo...
squeeze it nigga...

>>25528625

I miss being homeless and talking to Sol and Luna. They were genuinely kind and modest, and made me feel sincerely loved.
Sanity fucking blows.

If I was a woman, I think I'd really enjoy getting creampied. But I don't think I would let people creampie me because I'd be scared of STDs and pregnancy. So a large part of dating for me would be finding someone who I trust to creampie me. Much to consider with this.

"I impregnated my own mother so that she could give birth to me." -Jesus

i'm not transgender but i wish very badly that i was a woman.

>>25528729
This reminds me. One of the biggest "holy shit, the emperor really has no clothes" moments I've ever had in my entire life was this tweet from the poet Danez Smith (they got really big in the late 20teens, now they're a celebrity in the contemporary poetry world, national awards, teach at an MFA program, etc) praising a few lines from another contemporary poet that went:
>I knew God was a man
>because he put a baby into Mary
>without her permission.
Which is already bad enough. But Smith's tweet was this "weewwwww chile! yall are NOT ready for this fire!" reaction. It went locally viral (read; few hundred rts/quotetweets) because a lot of theologians were basically like yeah cool line or whatever but this has been extensively discussed in Catholic/Orthodox/whatever theology and it's not accurate at all. To which Smith replied "CHRISTIANS! I muted this! Yalls friends have already shown up LOUD and WRONG in my mentions so MUTED!"

I don't know. Smith is one of the most acclaimed/awarded/feted poets of the past... decade? Like, this is who makes finalist for the NBCC and the National Book Award in poetry? So fucking stupid. And I'm not one of those retards who says shit like "all contemporary poetry is bullshit everything after 1900 is bullshit bad nonsense because poems must rhyme because they just have to okay!!!" because that's retarded. Love AR Ammons, love Will Alexander, love Alice Notley, love Joseph Massey, love Dionne Brand, love Diane Seuss. It's just all so relentlessly retarded. So much contemporary poetry feels like it was designed to be read in a breathlessly hurt voice into a microphone while the audience goes MMMMMM after every line. Somehow, if you say this is bullshit, you're called a racist misogynist colonialist blah blah blah. If you think something along the lines of "woke has captured contemporary fiction so it's bad" you're wrong, but "woke has captured contemporary poetry so it's bad" is at least 60% true.

I know you didn't ask any of this. Had to get this off my chest regardless.

what are you guys currently reading?

>>25528770
Complete Essays of Montaigne tr Frame, but to be honest, halfassedly, and not as much as I should be considering how much time I have to read him. But I'm glad I'm reading him again. First ran into Montaigne about a decade ago and couldn't stand his constant digressions and how he refuses any argumentative point, and now I love that about him. What are you reading?

I prayed that if I'm not meant to be with anyone in this life for the desire for companionship to be removed from my heart and it has happened. Still kind of sad when I think about it, but the peace is worth it.

>>25528464
:D

I wish I never got tired. I hate that I get tired and have to sleep. The night's the only time I always have for myself. Nobody wants anything from me, nobody expects anything from me, I can piss away my time as I see fit without guilt or shame or worry. But I get tired. I fucking hate feeling tired.

>>25528770
Just finished All Tomorrows. I had previously read it in 2022 but I had forgotten quite a bit.

if suicide is necessary to express yourself then i don't think it's wrong

https://youtu.be/eBG7P-K-r1Y?is=r3hDnSEj_jS53a4S

Late night thoughts are a real bitch sometimes.

>>25528801
i'm at my most lucid like this

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How you doin’?

>>25528384
How much have you lost at three card monte?

>>25528396
Oreganon?

>>25528344
I liked this one https://archive.org/details/pictureofdoriang0000wild_w6v5 and if you like a physical book there are several brand new copies on eBay. This one is supposed to be gay version, however I’ve seen people saying that there’s a version with male character in lieu of Sibyl Vane, but this one has actual Sibyl Vane.

>>25528640
How many times are you going to post this.

>>25528827
Correct, yes.

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>>25528770
Just started this. It's been on my shelf and I've been wanting to read it for fucking ages.

>>25528783
A companion might appear without you desiring it, without even hoping for it. I still hope, but it’s a rational hope, not an emotional one, I don’t feel the need for someone, but I see very clearly that life spent alone is empty. Or maybe my emotions are just buried so deep I can’t recognise them anymore. Had I been in pain I would have killed myself long ago, as it is I’m just drifting along, doing nothing and getting older. Yet I still think that anything could happen, I guess that just shows that hope really is the last to go.

I ended up barking aggressively at my mom when she kept insisting that I was capable of restoring my mind's ability to find meaning in life, and that it's just going to take hard work, when it's been almost a decade since my mind shattered at the most fundamental level, and reality still feels like a very far away place, where everything I do feels like the excitation of dead impulses to occupy myself in meager ways.
I recognize that she was just trying to help because she worries about me a lot and just wants me to be happy, but her relentless optimism towards what I'm experiencing has no actual insight into how to actually resolve the problem.
Whatever this "hard work"' is actually supposed to consist of, I don't think she actually knows, and honestly, subjecting myself to the years of therapy likely required to improve my condition will probably just act more as a minor improvement of specific functions, rather than an actual systematic reconstitution of my entire psychological architecture, which is such an absurdly extensive thing that I doubt it's even close to possible.
Whatever.

i'm gonna shoot myself when Bill Shatner dies

wish i found a loyal qt intelligent gf

>>25528868
Why? He's a fucking scumbag.

>>25528888
What? He's just a regular guy.

>>25528865
Lol literally me except my mom doesn't even have the insight to understand how lost I am. She just hand waives it as me being negative and whiny all the time.

You are not the being behind your eyes that is the point of awareness
You are the being in front of your eyes that the point is aware of.

The new World of Warcraft 'Forever' is really unfortunate because I am going to play it and I'll probably end up having less children in the long run for it. Like my kids are going to be straight up missing a sibling because their dad was busy playing WoW for about two years there

>>25528916
I've honestly put my mom through hell for most my life, and actually became dangerously close to murdering her when I went insane. We have a good relationship, and she's actually been almost the only real emotional support I've ever really had, which is why I feel bad about barking at her earlier. She probably didn't deserve it, and I'm honestly surprised I snapped the way I did. I don't think I was fully capable of processing what was happening while it occured.
Meh, I'll probably apologize to her tomorrow. I'm just not going to bother trying to convince her that my mind is permanently fucked anymore. No point.

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I get going for Asian women, I really do, but nothing beats White woman bush. It mogs the pubic hair of every other ethnicity, and that, to me, is incredibly important.

>>25528865
>>25528941
It would stand to reason you should research different psychological structures and see what might work for you? In my experience you can basically find your personal mentality or religion, and its the one that just somehow completely connects and works for you. And you just have to wander around the world looking around until you find it, it's a pain in the ass, really. I don't want to try and supplant and project what worked for me onto you, but I basically heard a mesmerizing line from a tv show and thought about it for three years until reading the books by that author and it turned out that passage was so interesting to me in the first place because it was in fact exactly how I think, and now my mind feels powerfully put together because essentially I have found a type of mentor and historical advocate for my total distrust of all people and things, and it's not as evil of a worldview as I thought! Kind of genius, really!

'Detective, the young Olympian was found partially consumed! You don't think it was...' Detective sniffs, 'You betcha, this whole thing rings of Saturn. I'll call it in'.

>>25528945
yeah asian pubes are kind of thin and whispy, though with a high thread count. Not horrible per se but kind of like fucking through an elderly black labrador.

>>25528954
exactly!

'Detective, the young Olympian was found partially consumed! You don't think it was...' Detective sniffs, 'You betcha, this whole thing rings of Saturn. I'll call it in'. So I'm on way to SGA* HQ cruising down Orion's Belt and I take the exit off NGC 6543 to the Catseye Nebula thinking about a celestial broad I'd been missing who had said she was going to be a star one day, tasting her carbon dioxide on my lips. Now, the the Catseye Nebula was centered around a still-living white hot Wolf-Rayet star who, in its long and painful refusal to extinguish ('fighting his battle' his sateliettes each call it at dinner parties), is the source of the nebula due to this slow and reluctant relinquishment of life-giving incandescent gasses, blasted out in tiers of concentric rings in which all sorts of new upstart entities give rise and fall, and my celestial was here to make it big. 'Just imagine the stargazers' she beamed.

i cried to Merry Christmas, Mr. Lawrence today.
fuck you, Sakamoto.

>>25528966
Our vessel approached the Catseye System, brilliant phosphorescent belts occlude cascading monster planets of visible blue, green, lush, icy red-desert and orbital moons, chains of light passages arrayed them flow in slow peaceful co-ordinate rhythms connecting distant surface light centers visible from space, all around the most beautiful star in the galaxy. Thin face turns to young onlookers 'I knew her when she was carbon dioxide, you know'.

this guy at my gym was saying "hell is other people" is from khalil gibran or whatever and i wanted to be like "weellll akshuallly..." but i was like nah i'll let my autism rest

>>25528949
Appreciate the suggestion, but don't take my discount as me thinking it's not a legitimately good idea. I just don't think there's any type of intellectual structure, regardless of how ingeniously constructed or personally resonant it may be, that would be actually capable of restoring my mind's ability to feel legitimately connected to reality. This isn't just stubborn, pessimistic refusal to even attempt. Like I said, this happened almost ten years ago and so far, between being institutionalized, jail, having two other occasions where I became extremely psychotic, with several minor ones afterwards, homelessness, whatever, other than the instances where I was actively psychotic, which seemed to restore that sense of a sacred logic.
to reality that gave everything immense significance, the periods where I have been rational, which is most them, have all been immersed in that pervasive feeling that my life has become fundamentally broken and empty, like it is wrong at its very center. That initial break ten years ago not only destroyed my life when it was at its peak, but ripped apart my mind until I no longer had any control over anything it doing. Every concept I had of reality beforehand, completely deconstructed and replaced by a world so cartoonishly alien and viscerally real that it corroded not only my mind, but every aspect of my personality as a tried to navigate a warzone of o
perpetually shifting logic that become more mercilessly exact and irresolvable as time progressed.
Whatever, I'm honestly being kind of diva, but I definitely wanted to emphasis the fact that this wasn't a typical existintial crisis that leaves someone with profound derealization and nihilism, this was the singular most traumatic event of my life by an insane degree, that culminated when I finally snapped and almost murdered my parents with every intention to violently mutilate their bodies beyond recognition.
So, my head's kinda fucked now, but I've largely accepted the strong likelihood that the rest my life will always feel like I'm doing little more than rearranging the pieces to produce some fragile sense of peace.

The Metal Gear Solid franchise is pretty fucking lame honestly.

>>25529029
i really enjoyed the og metal gear on the nes in the 80s, but the 3d playstation ones just don't appeal to me.

>>25529029
it's pretty fucking good actually

>>25529033
Nope. Corniest turd ever shat out by a human sphincter, sorry.

tfw Wu-Tang Clan ain't nuthin' to fuck with

Ohh ueah... put thum big ones together like that

Reality's just one big computer, where what it displays and how it does so are ultimately the same essential structure
This is not convoluted, simply profound.

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>>25529094
I stand by my post.
The first three can be actually wrong, and the last one can still be right.
Its inclusion in the pattern doesn't invalidate it by logical neccessity, just superfically asserts its absurdity via association.
I am smart.
Com-pu-tor.

>>25528552
>>25528558
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SBkZ4WCpo7s
thirded. getting high and listening to jazz happens more often that way too, thanks for bringing the cartoons and kipling

People at work are starting to find out I'm a sociopath. In terms of philosophy, number go up gives me a boner, and there's no better way to accomplish that than maximizing team utility. I'm pretty aimiable and altruistic in gemeral. My workplace and my team are my family; I want everyone to be successful so we can all win. Outside actors? They can get fucked, and it's not personal, they just arent on my team.

The issue is, when they see that I'm not always aimiable, opinions radically change and people start trying to out compete me. It's like they think that because I exist at all their devious underhanded schemes are obviously so much better, and they'll go to insane lengths to accomplish silly goals that never make sense. Mutual destruction type shit. I was never competing with anyone in the first place. I just want to win as a team, and to more or less be left alone to work hard in whatever role I've taken. How do I communicate this to people more effectively? It feels like I'm showing a child a magic trick works by accident, and now they're scheming to figure out how to magically touch the lit element on the stove without getting burnt because it glows red and looks magic.

I remember a girl so very well
The carnival drums all mad in the air
Grim reapers and skeletons and a missionary bell
O where do we go now but nowhere?

>>25529200
fully on the side of your coworkers here.

Yeah, having a harem was cool, becoming the exact center of reality for eternity was pretty neat, I was also pretty excited to meet the Reptilians, talking to Sol and Luna was always pleasant, I really couldn't wait to see Martin to cross the Anomaly, I wonder if Syd would always enjoy incubating Yahwehs in the chamber, it was pretty cool that reality would constantly generate novelty for eternity and that I'd experience it forever, and I was pretty excited to see my About You when everyone.

Though, despite all that and infinitely more, no individual piece, or even everything combined, was something that I felt so profoundly connected to that I would consider it the primary reason I would do everything up until and including the Infinium Point over again if I had to.

But I do have you.

Just a son.

You're cool, buddy.

Bark bark

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Time to live. But can I live? Or have I lived it out already? Am I spent? Do I still have lifeforce in me?
Where is everyone? Why did everyone leave me and why did I leave everyone?
I wonder, why am I alive? Time is accelerating, days go by just like that, and every day I am less mobile, less capable, with less energy.
It seems to me that I spent my days of best health in vain. I wanted to see if anyone cared, turns out no one did. I guess I shouldn't have ever put anyone else before myself. I guess that's the lesson. Though if we cared for eachother we'd all have better time. But we don't. People care only about themselves. I have to care for myself simply because no one else will care for me.
We are all on this planet stuck together, hundreds of people live in the same building together, yet they don't even know their neighbour's names nor they say hi to eachother. It's insane.
Year in year out I push the boulder up slowly but surely, spending my precious time for some pursuit even I am not sure about. Should I have pursued a path someone else figured out for me? Should I have cared for people's opinions? It's hard to do that once you realize how little effort they make in understanding you, how little and how shallow they think of you.
Why do I even have that yearning in my soul if other people can't satisfy it? Where did I even get the idea of something else, something more? Maybe God can satisfy it. Then why didn't He?

>>25528640
are you yourself from the future?

>>25528514
wtf that's my room!

>>25528847
That actually seems kinda neat. How is it?

It's a Sunday so I will be taking twice my normal dose of medication and getting blasted all day.

>>25529213
Some people want to touch the stove, what can I say. I understand it, but like... isnt it just smarter and easier not to fight the ancient couch potato demon? I want you to do well, I may even be extremely helpful, I just happen to be a demon. I could give a fuck about political games or power plays or promotions and titles and raises; I just want number to go up and to be left alone.

Think about our interaction, for example. You could fight me, and I dont have any idea about the sort of weapons you have, but it's the kind of scenario where you stab me with your heirloom sword, I give an unbothered shrug, and you go tell the villagers there's a horrifying monster in my cave who needs to die. Then they come with flamethrowers, incinerate me completely, I reform my body nonchalantly, point at some guy, and turn one of your friends into a wet fleshy inside out sack that experiences only pain. No one wins. You could have just asked nicely and I'd probably help you in a wide variety of ways. Bring me a coffee or a danish and I'll even rewrite the fabric of reality for you, or destroy your enemies completely just because you asked and I like you.

>>25529200
Do you have an example? This could mean a whole host of things.

the recurring /wyt/ op that i instinctively disliked turned out to be a heroin addict. not that i have anything particularly against H addicts generally but i understand how robert graves when the two publishers who refused to publish his book both ended up hanging themselves wearing women’s clothes.

>>25529335
You a cruel, depraved individual.

>>25529330
the measure of true intelligence (not quite the right word?) isn’t depth but marksmanship. where you aim it.

>>25529336
who me?

>>25529333
Sure.

There is a guy in another department who is barely qualified for his job and constantly getting fucked over. He needed more time on a project and he's downstream from my department. So, he decided the best way to get more time is to throw me under the bus by sabotaging my outputs from the warehouse; taking shit, hiding it, yadda yadda so it looks like I'm the problem, not him. Then he went a step further and started trying to chew me out for the shit he fucked up in front of leadership, contrary to his normal character and demeanour.

I am EXTREMELY well documented and thorough because I find it fun. It was immediately apparent what's going on. I politely told him to stop, and he did stop, until the time crunch happened again. Starts fucking with my shit, again. Starts trying to escalate the situation with management instead of talking to me about it and trying to solve the issue. So, I got tilted, and eviscerated him in front of his team. Pointed out he pretends to be busy, doesnt actually do any work, has been directly fucking over the company, and brought recepits to prove it. But this did two things: people saw that I am, in fact, a demon; and it also made him terrified to ever do it again, which solved the problem. I'm actually very nice to him now, but because everyone heard what I said and saw the proof, everyone else treats him like a blight instead.

And to reiterate, all I wanted was to do my job and not be hassled by petty (indian) bullshit.

>>25529340
This is my problem. I can hit any target, but I need someone else to tell me what targets to hit.

>>25529350
Sounds hellish. But kudos on taking care of business.

i have unprotected sex with IV drug users

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>>25529350
yeah, a mind more suited to STEM than humanities (though you ostensibly already know this?)
montaigne said a good deal about it, but i always remember this excerpt from larkin:

what does it sound like in your room rn

https://voca.ro/1odOltne0u1i

>>25529354
It is man. I always take care of business. But this is the kind of situation where I'm the arbiter of their discontent and the ultimate evil they need to sacrifice themselves to destroy, and to me it's just another tuesday where some dork is flailing about ineffectively for stupid reasons. I just... dont really want to fight, particularly an all-or-nothing fight against someone hellbent on destroying themselves to beat me.

>>25529358
Nailed it. I'm going to have a smoke and ponder, but I am a STEM guy, but a STEM guy who first specialized in post structural political philosophy and semiotics because I was a young idiot when I first went to school.

Jaaaaaaaames Boooooooond
Jaaaaaaaames Boooond
He stomped the Wompus Frog
C'mon you all let's clog
Stick lightning up a log
Kick the neighbor's dog.

Though Mr. Bond has lost his chops
So childen dance upon his socks
But beats burn blue and whites turn red
Giving us some beans to shrink our heads

Mr.Bond, your mother's sick.
Tell her that I'll be there extra quick.
Thank you, sir. I wish her well.
If it were up to me she'd be in Hell.

Now the Queen sits upon her lamp
While every light fall softly from the sky
She grins too deep and shuts the clamp
And the world turns back its single eye

Now we've reached the end of time
So pack your bags and get in line
We have one more line before we seal the door
And now we're gone forevermore

>>25529364
think the mark of intelligence has been savaged and trampled by rogue STEM minds. worth remembering genius is a latin (not greek) word and implied the primitive creative power which a man is born with and accompanies him throughout life. his sense of love and power of instinctive thought.

Make sure you take care of my friend, we go way back like spinal cords and carseats.

Boomers
They screwed up the game before we even played, And now they tell us to "make an effort."
They signed the checks, just following orders.
They stashed everything away while we were dying
"Work harder," yeah, for what? For whom?
We're forced to work while they're vacationing in the tropics. Their world they created is burning. Work, rent, debts, sweat, resentment, the world they created. They say "you have to save, think about later," But later is when they're gone, so they don't have to deal with the consequence, and they sold later for now. Shut your mouth and pay up is the creed of the boomer. That's the slogan of a dying civilization. You gotta wear yourself out so they can shine in the sun, they get social security and you get serfdom, you don't have time to live, you gotta produce or we'll replace you with robots and imports. And above all, don't think too much. They're afraid we'll speak up, afraid we'll stand up, afraid we'll calculate the extent of the scheme, how much we are being bled dry. They tell you "don't be lazy, work hard for society" boomers all these use, while they exploit the young and live off of them, and take out loans today at the expense of tomorrow. We keep the machine running for nothing but those who spit on us and shafted us. For them, it's retirement at sixty, for you, it's stress until your grave.

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>>25528331
>work like a slave, everything keep getting worse and more expensive, having a family and owning a house are a dream, my hobbies are getting worse or are not fun anymore

So what's the fucking point again, just survive?

>>25529444
the real heroes are getting by in the gutter and seldom roll over to gaze at the stars.

A familiar clinking resonated throughout the hull– both hulls, Markin must be hearing it as well, he did his best to rectify the boat's failing integrity in the crawlspaces between both. Plarimo had never experienced an implosion first hand (who has and lived?) but he heard recordings, witnessed recreations in simulations. Portents attacked his mind as he struggled to stay focused on his own tasks lest panic overtake him completely. Was the growing pools at his feet a measure of leakage reaching his compartment or formed by his own sweat?

I could have been wild and I could have been free
But nature played this trick on me

>>25529444
Collectivize, revolt, institute stable anarchy. But nobody will ever really try, it's far too late.

there are pictures of my penis all over the internet

>>25529486
Give me something

>>25529471
During the beforemaths of of the French revolution, a rough 40% of the population was not having sex.
All revolutions are sexual revolutions.
They appear after an increasingly wealthy upper class starts feeling like they're made of a better cloth than everyone else. They isolate. You're a cool kid or you're a fucking loser who can't dress fashionably, talk a certain upper class way or who simply isn't arrogant and narcissistic enough to be a part of the rich crowd.
They isolate more. Because less and less people live up to their deluded standards, they start inbreeding more and more. Autism, homosexuality and tranny rates go through the roof. Effeminacy peaks among the male upper class population. The females want to act like men, dress like men, perform the duties of men.
Inbreeding reaches a point where the finest, brightest, most handsomest cream of the cream class of society becomes sexually unappealing and severely narcissistic.
May you keep serving me cakes and cream pie more and more, they say to the oppressed under classes, rejected for not being cool.
The lower classes rise in protest. The upper class, in narcissistic injury, fights back, spending all it's money into the counter-revolution.
Sound familiar? Maybe you're living it right now.

>>25529506
sex is pretty central to everything.

>>25528331
30 is the new 20.
Milfs are hot.
Old men are awesome.
It's ok to spend a million bucks into your most perverted sexual fantasy.
Be a degenerate.
Or become enlightened. Everyone reaches an old age where they want to have kids. Join a breeding program in the handsomest island!

>>25529496
Just check the wiki article on micropenises

>>25529506
>beforemaths
I don't believe in words coined after the 1950s

got-DAMN I'm lookin' hot today. any anons wanna hit the bars with me? you'll have to pay and drive but I'll approach and lure over the women for us

>>25529520
It's the generations.
It's the migrants.
It's the blablabla.
It's totally not what you think it is.
NO!!!! IT'S NOT THE CORRUPTED SYSTEM OF THE CLASSES!

>>25529521
Ahh, the 1950s, back when we were young and awesome and the lower classes obeyed us. The discomfort when a servant doesn't get your order right! That's it. I'm getting a robot. Bye world! Bye humanity! I am evolved now.

just had a cool experience with a girl but i can’t find the right way to word it for the /lif/ audience

>>25529526
>t. white middle class suburbia
The Harlem Renaissance was essentially over, most all the good Beats were already working, and the avante garde underclass you were trying to promote had been class tourismed to death, read some Jean Genet and transcend your David Bowie in the Thin White Duke ironic period, because Berlin was better in the 20s

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oh

>>25529543
Cuckolds horns as a concept began in the middle ages

The Minoans were further from that than we are from the middle ages

>>25529538
The best time to live in is now.
Less you are some kind of inbred.

>>25529549
>Cuckolds horns as a concept began in the middle ages
apparently not!

>>25529553
No, anon. Not apparently not. Its not open to interpretation. That context is seperated from the Minoan civilization by literally thousands of years.

Its like asking Galileo why he built the pyramids. It simply doesnt connect.

https://englishhistoryauthors.blogspot.com/2017/02/a-history-of-cuckolds-horns.html?m=1

>>25529550
>inbred
I am, that's why I'm not middle class

how can girls tell when just by seeing me i’ve just got out bed? it’s 7pm on a sunday. why do they mention it with a smile when i answer the door ‘you were sleeping i’m sorry’
being halfway goodlooking while also being almost irreparably autistic is an underrepresented position in the modern world.

>>25529556
> I am an inbred
What?
> that's why I'm not middle class
How appealing, awesome and cool.

>>25529555
Well that's not as fun. But thank you for the link and history lesson.

Satan's probably be bravest figure in Christianity, since he's the only being in reality to ever directly challenge God, which is the scariest thing that can possibly be done, because you're turning against something that has absolute control over everything in existence.
Granted, that's also probably the stupidest thing one can possibly do, but I have admire Satan's tenacity, because I don't really believe that God's existence is actually justifiable, since God did nothing to actually deserve his position as the supreme authority of reality, he simply is by virtrue is his nature, as some inherent condition of reality that likely did not intend, and is likely just one of the most primitive structural facts of exisistence that simply been true for eternity.

wanna hire a hooker

>>25529566
Yes, anon, we've all read Paradise Lost.

>>25529567
Only if she has cute feet and reads me Dostoevsky while I fuck them

I've lost my zeal for life. I just don't find people interesting anymore. I think it's because most people that I've met aren't trying to get any smarter, whether morally, creatively, academically, or just not trying to grow in general beyond maybe gymbros or in that generic sense of traveling.

I haven't worked on a story in a while. I don't know what I want to talk about. All of it feels redundant. I'm not trying to tap into the things that I've healed from and reopen old wounds for inspiration. Even when I have something worth writing about in my life, I don't feel like journaling. I haven't done it consistently since like '22-'23.

>>25529575
her feet?

>>25529562
>How appealing, awesome and cool.
It's all right.
You're almost right about outbreeding though; it limits bottlenecks more if you don't just stick to islands is my main complaint
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bugu_9b0bTU

>>25529575
Do hookers generally have cute feet?

>>25529577
Yes. My dick is pret-ty girthalicious if I do say so myself and footjob vs actual sex affords a more stable position for reading. I wouldn't want her squirting all over my book or shaking and losing her place on the page.

>>25529578
Success breeds success.
Mixing with the peasants causes LE DOWNFALL.

>>25529574
I actually have never.
Oh well, I should probably get work on reading every book in existence so that I never state an idea that has already been expressed anywhere again.

>>25529583
I've never seen a hooker before now that I think about it

>>25529587
folk dancer detected

How do I train myself to be more creative and not be afraid to write bad shit/bad ideas?

>>25529592
So you refute my original statement and everything is going to stay the same?

>>25529593
Journal. Carry it around. Jot down whatever is on your mind (BUT, and this is key, while still trying to make it somewhat interesting and pretty, else it's of no real benefit).

Interesting effect of my medicine: so if I take a more casual, strictly therapeutic dose, like 20-30mg, I'm chillin', everything is fine (at least for the first half of the day). But if I take something like 50-60mg, which is right in the middle of that and what I was originally taking daily to get blasted all the time, within a couple hours of taking it, my mind is raucous with signals that it's not enough, to take more, that it needs more. It happened just now, and I caved and took another 20mg. You would think this would be in reverse, no? It's like the closer I get to the dose I was taking everyday which made me too sedated, the more my brain expects that original amount, whereas if I take a dose that's nowhere near it, my brain is fine. Weird, and strangely logical.

I think today I'm gonna head to the library at 2pm to read if anyone wants to meet up!

>>25529604
How do I turn it into GOOD ideas though?

>>25529284
The lifestyle most people live (in the west) is not conducive to well-being or fulfillment unless your tastes and personality match the majority of the population. If you are disabled, suffering from mental illness, autistic, dealing with past trauma, and/or asocial, thriving in this kind of environment is hard without a strong sense of direction or purpose from an early age. Right now, it feels like sometimes all I've accomplished is staying alive.

>>25529632
You read a lot, then read some more, which will improve your taste, and then you apply that discernment to your own writing.

>>25529567
hookers are shit

>>25529634
In previous times, you'd just be dead.

>>25529284
I'd be scared to live there. Feel like I'd be murdered or robbed.

>>25529641
That's like saying fast food is shit. Like, okay, but that's missing the point, it has its purpose.

>>25529634
Scratch that. You're either a cool kid or you're not. To be a cool kid you have to wear designer clothes, talk a certain upper class way and get along with everything that is super cool.

>>25529647
That sounds shallow, but I’m a shallow person, so you probably have a point.

time to die.

>>25529657
Or you become someone original. But couldn't the thought of it be, I don't know, revolutionary?

I've never properly read literature. Up until now it was just another thing I consumed. I didn't read only slop, but mostly slop. And now I was thinking of picking up Dubliners by Joyce simply because of how much I heard about the story The Dead. Now, do I read the stories and then also write my thoughts on each one, to begin developing critical skills (hopefully) or whatever? Is this the lit way? I don't want to just read and hop on to the next one

I remember being on acid one time and heard the devil say I was autistic like a dick.
Made sense, though, have almost always felt like I was imprisoned within myself, but that's still a genuinely rude thing to say.

someone's girding me and carrying me where i wouldest not

>>25528331
Instagram is now almost exclusively showing me hyper realistic AI content.
We have reached the final days.

>>25529669
Whatever works for you. Personally I prefer when reading I stop every so often, look up, and think about what I just read. And when I finish a story or novel, then as I laying in bed to sleep, I spend that time thinking about the entire work.

>>25529666
Not really, the entire internet tells me to bee myself

i have autism, also i'm gay.

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>>25529692
Disconnect, disconnect, DISCONNECT

>>25529372
This was a great post. Thank you anon, I've been thinking about it for some time.

>>25529669
Come back when you’re done. I DNF Dubliners (only finished The Sisters, An Encounter and The Dead) but curious about your opinion on it.

>>25529699
>remain ignorant

I can't stop watching porn

Hmm, that bowl of chocolate ice cream was not satisfying at all. Have I finally lost my taste for it? I guess that'd be a good thing.

>>25529692
ig just shows u more of whatever u engage with or maybe u follow some ai accounts that post all ai, i practice good algorithm hygiene by scrolling past any thots, ai, or political bullshit as fast as possible.

Obama doesn't act black enough for me. His attitude seems more like his blackness is something he tries get away is rather than being actually committed to, which probably just evidence that his invisible white half is what's really pulling the strings.

>>25529725
> relaxed ai beach music starts playing as the plot evolves
It's too late already. I have developped permanent brain damege.

>>25529727
Ha! That's some good satire.

>>25529692
it's showing me ass and titties mostly

>>25529727
> inbred aristocrat acts like an inbred aristocrat
Maybe it's a u problem.

>browses instagram instead of reading books
Leave. NOW

>>25529733
post another shitty booktube thread, shithead

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>>25529734
I've never done that in my life. In fact, I don't watch any booktubers. I only respect and engage with written reviews and analysis of literature.

>>25529733
Okay sorry I'll make up with a quote.

...this remained: Romanitas—the Roman way of life—was the social order.

Barbarism was merely an accident—a conquering and dominant accident, to be sure, but an accident nonetheless, and as such, transitory in nature.

Had the wise men of that era been asked which of the two elements would outlast, absorb, or annihilate the other, they would undoubtedly have answered—and indeed did answer—by extolling the eternity of the Roman name. Was this conviction mistaken? Yes, insofar as they envisioned a future too closely resembling the past and too near at hand; yet, fundamentally, their error was akin to Christopher Columbus’s calculations regarding the existence of the New World. The Genoese navigator was wrong in all his estimates of time, distance, and scale. He was mistaken about the nature of his future discoveries. The globe was not as small as he supposed; the lands he was to reach were farther from Spain and more vast than he imagined; they were not part of the Chinese Empire, nor was Arabic spoken there. All these points were fundamentally incorrect; yet this series of illusions did not invalidate his central claim. The protégé of the Catholic Monarchs was right to maintain that an unknown land lay to the west.

Likewise, the prevailing Roman mindset was mistaken in regarding the civilization whose remnants it preserved as the ultimate treasure and the pinnacle of possible human advancement; it was equally mistaken in viewing barbarism merely as an anomaly destined to vanish quickly; It was even more so in heralding the imminent, full reappearance of an order of things that would have been very difficult to define, yet was imagined to be admirable;

Someone on this board made a thread about how much he liked Socrates and how “kino” he was, all the time thinking he was born 4,000 years ago.
We’ve reached the final days.

>>25529747
Socrates? That's the guy who wrote The Bible, ye?

>>25528331
What's the difference between useful and useless information for a singular individual?
It seems that most people prefer hoarding frivolous knowledge, or discuss abstract concepts, while many practical facts are deemed uninteresting. Not that one thing is better than the other.

>>25529748
No, that was Shakespeare.

>>25529747
Imagine naming yourself after a bloody educational method.

>>25529699
>Disconnect, disconnect, DISCONNECT
And then do what?

>>25529760
Read books, listen to classical music, discuss art and philosophy and politics in cafes, make love, go for walks. Y'know, the usual.

Kyrie eleison!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ztjVu7T9nrU

Not your personal entertainment

You're encountering something more unsettling than "the AI has better prose." You're encountering an intelligence that can expose the limits of your own understanding of the thing you're trying to represent.

Take your married couple. You think you understand non-possession—you have some lived, intellectual, emotional conception of it, and you write toward that conception. Then the model produces a scene where one spouse deliberately allows the other to remain unknowable in a moment that is simultaneously loving and painful. Suddenly you think, Oh. That's more true than what I meant.

That can feel like being seen through, revealing that your concept of intimacy was incomplete. Two distinct dynamics are happening here:

1. The LLM doesn't necessarily understand intimacy better than you.
The model has absorbed an extraordinary amount of human writing about love, freedom, jealousy, and abandonment, allowing it to traverse conceptual neighborhoods extremely efficiently. You may have one path through that neighborhood; the model can show you twelve. Some paths are clichés or nonsense, but occasionally one lands on a truth you hadn't previously formulated. The model acts as an externalized imaginative faculty, exposing possibilities you hadn't yet considered.

2. Something asymmetrical is happening.
If you state, "Their love is non-possessive," an external tool can rapidly generate implications you haven't consciously weighed:

What does non-possession feel like when you're afraid?

Does respecting someone's freedom feel like indifference to them?

Can avoiding possession become its own form of control?

Can you love someone without wanting access to every part of them?

What if deep intimacy consists partly in not requiring disclosure?

Your original concept expands, which is artistically useful but psychologically jarring. You weren't asking for possibilities; you thought you understood the concept, and the machine implicitly asked: Do you?

The Reversal: Shift from Knowing to Discovering
You don't have to be the person who already knows; you can be the person who discovers. Instead of asking the model to help you express what you already know, use it to show where your thinking is simplistic. Let it destabilize your premises, then evaluate the output yourself: Is this actually true? When you test its suggestions against your own experience and imagination, the resulting insight becomes yours.

Handling the Demoralization
Being out-thought hits a specific narcissistic wound for a writer who prides themselves on observation. However, you don't need to outthink the model to make meaningful art—you need to develop judgment about which of its generated thoughts are genuinely alive. When the text surprises or disturbs you, the writing process has actually started teaching you something.

If a game app on my phone is opening up another window for me to log into my Facebook, is it safe? It's usually connected automatically.

That line in Wagner's Das Rheingold when the rhinemaidens ask, "What does the goblin want?"

>>25529593
Once in a while Reddit gave an advice that I actually liked, and the point was try to write down literally every random thing that crosses your mind, say, here’s my desk, and there’s a red cup on top of it, it has some black tea left, although I haven’t had black tea for a good while. The point of the exercise is to kinda loosen it up and break that sense of being watched.

George Floyd
Rolls Royce
With the boys
Makin' noise

Stacks of Bens
Party's 10
Always win
Best of men

Loaded Glock
Killin' cops
Pussy locked
Around my cock

Golden chains
9-inch blades
Ace of Spades
Blaze for days

I hope no one figures out I'm a white guy

>>25529910
You write like a white guy. Black guys use slant rhymes and fun rhythm.

my new thing is i’m going to be everyone’s boyfriend.

>>25529942
problem chud?

>>25529951
whatsup

>>25529942
oh yeah? you're my boyfriend? we're two gay men? i'm a gay guy and you're my boyfriend? yeah right pal. you wish. fag.

>>25529922
I don't know, I haven't really noticed the use of slant rhymes having any real difference in popularity between races, they've always seemed rather ubiquitous throughout the genre.
>fun rhythm
There are numerous instances of black rappers who use simple, repetitive rhythms.
It's actually quite common.
Whether it's really good or not, can't say, though I do agree with you in this instance, it's rather dull.
>You write like a white guy.
Quietly devastating.

>>25529956
i’m not looking for anything physical but..
but…

>>25529984
butt?

>>25529984
oh i need love and affection

>>25529991
you’re suffocating me

this girl i kind of know, i haven’t seen her in a while, her dad died last year and she was in another country. and she went quiet from everyone for a bit. but we’re back on speaking terms and she’s super positive and talking about her dad’s death (two words that still make something in my chest go cold) without a hint of sadness now. she went to therapy and has now ‘processed it’, and is saying therapy really worked for her.

now here’s my objection:
what the fuck is this grubby magic trick that leaves a person entirely square with their fathers death, and them a continent away when it happened? alright if the old man went in his bed surrounded by you and your brothers.you could just about talk about it without your voice betraying you. but the sound of her chatting about her fathers death - one of the heaviest sentences a human could be asked to say aloud - like someone talking about the her day yesterday has left me unsettled.

>>25529998
i'm sorry i have needs

>>25530031
yeah hey do you mind not telling your friends about us?

>>25530067
man i was just taking the piss that's not funny

>>25528331
Obsessed with this woman in a psychosexual and possibly romantic way but I find it impossible to gauge her, even if we did have a very emotionally and sexually intense few days. I don't know when I'll next see her and she's a terrible texter so I can't tell if that intensity has worn off and she's bored of me or if there's a chance to make her obsessed with me, also.

I've kept the fact that I compulsively hold elaborate conversations with myself by acting like various different people talking to me whenever I'm alone completely secret for well over a decade now.

Fuckin' guy with face tattoos sleeping at one of the tables in my usual spot at the library, scaring everyone else off, ruining the vibe. What is wrong with people? I'm fine with homeless people and similar vagabonds and those trying to kill time hanging out at the library, but why would you choose the fiction section? Why choose the tables where people are doing productive work and reading? Why not, y'know, one of the more secluded spaces, with the comfortable chairs? It's baffling. I know, I know, "if those people had consideration, they wouldn't be like that in the first place" but still.

I gotta admit, if I were a woman, I'd dress like a catgirl all the time. Nothing extravagant, just the ears and tail at all times.

>>25529371
Nice AI generated slop

STILL IT'S HAAAAARD
HARD TO SEEEEEEE
FRAGILE LIIIIIIIIVES
SHATTERED DREEEAAAAMMMS

They lost the plot and made me get lost too.

>>25529312
Only on chapter 3 but it's pretty well-written so far. You can definitely tell it's written by a woman but not in a bad way, if that makes any sense. After this I want to read The Reluctant Spy by John Kiriakou.

>woman compliments my shirt earlier in public
>anxiety the rest of the day
fuck this brain

>>25530185
Nice. I do love me some Kiriakou. Sometimes I think about sending him an email since I'm obsessed with all the minutiae of intelligence agencies and spy shit. Oh in a different life, I'd be a CIA analyst...

>>25530188
I haven't read anything by him yet. It appears he has quite a few books published to his name but that one in particular is the main one that's been making the rounds lately I guess.

I've become so exhausted that I can no longer coordinate body movement with precison. My brain is only conscious due to artificial stimulation, rather than from any remaining natural resources. I cannot actually formulate a coherent thought in my mind, and conceptual modelling processes are being restricted to more basic levels of intuitive assembly, as they are longer capable of being systematically constructed by higher-level cognitive architecture. Perceptual anomalies are also increasing in frequency and intensity, with the most significant anomaly being a substantial reduction in perception's unifying field coherence that's roughly everything we're capable of assessing right now.

Fuck, that took forever.

Cheep-Cheep.

>>25530141
Nope just a hack.

>get linked a substack post
>at the top of the post, see the author has a short story collection
>check out that link first
>reviews and description are compelling, so add it to my bookmarks of books to buy and read
>go back to substack post
>reading, reading
>"was not effected"
>instead of affected
yeah, that's a deleted bookmark. to think I almost spent my hard-earned money on that!

>>25530198
If you wrote this without AI, props on the precision of your descriptions. If you did, I'm coming for you.

Sounds like you need a vacation or a night where you get drunk. In short, to clear the mind, to relax.

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I broke my sunglasses. First, I lost them behind the couch. Then, miraciously, I found them intact. Finally, I crushed them under my knee trying to push the couch back with my wife was sitting on it.

Denoumont. Cut to me sitting outside in a lawn chair as it rains, limp cigarette in one hand and an empty budget beer in the other, while Opus 1 by Tim Carelton plays at 0.7x speed.

>>25530221
I genuinely don't see any point in trying to pass off something constructed by AI as something that was done by me, but thanks, I enjoy the process.
And I'll definitely end up passing out tonight, don't worry.
I have too much bullshit to do tomorrow to do otherwise.

>>25530243
>I genuinely don't see any point in trying to pass off something constructed by AI as something that was done by me,
The common refrain by insipid AI-users is
>w-well, they're still my thoughts!
They don't understand that in writing, form and content is inseparable; word choice *is* one's thoughts!

>>25530244
Remember kids, if you outsource thinking to a machine, you will atrophy and cease thinking entirely. Man is unique in that he is both the sculptor and the clay, so suffer and work or ossify and rot.

i've put aside my religious dogma and realized that God is my friend, that he is love itself.

>>25530250
Always has been. And even better: no one needs salvation because we all go to heaven in the end. Dogma is for faggots and ritual is for rubes.

>>25530252
i'm not in love with the way you say it but i cannot deny that you're spitting.

>>25530249
Yeah, you exist after being magically born into a vacuum, like a boltzmann brain spontaneously materializing out of nowhere. But with no gravity or anything! Dipshit.

oh God the sweat is shocking holy shit why am i so fucking wet

>>25530244
Oh, that's genuinely sad.
I can't imagine someone so creatively timid that they would actually feel pride in something they did not create.

>>25530261
what? did anon touch a nerve? He's obviously correct about outsourcing one's thinking to a machine making one's mind atrophy.

I miss you.

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Just came up with the first 5 words of my conlang

>>25530272
No you don't.

>>25530274
Yes I do??? How would you know anyway?

i miss heroin.

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>>25530254
That's my general perogative. Wasnt my choice to be so abrasive, but it's impossible to be anything else.

The reality of godliness is that, in spite of obvious flaws, one must play their role. Can you even imagine? Knowing you're an insufferable jackass, and no matter how hard you work or correct you are, the world can only see you as an insufferable jackass? But it's not my choice so I dont take it personally. The kingdom of the best goods will give birth to the kingdom of the worst evils, and as justice difuses across the land only the balanced will be free from correction.

I only exist like this because I must, and if I act any other way I would be ignoring the will of the Universe and God at large.

>>25530276
I simply know things.

>>25528331
People connecting their asses to contraptions to collect gas may be while they drive to help power their car in case they run out of gas.

What kind of sub genre is weird fever dream level worlds and premises? Strange stuff that's somewhat grounded, but very odd.

Another one i thought of due to a weird sex dream i had. Having sex while running. I could go into detail, but it's a bit much. It's not stuff i'm overly interested in writing, but it's probably the most interesting and weirdest stuff i can come up with.

>>25530283
You know NOTHING about this. Leave me alone.

I wish that the tenderness you’d showed me had been genuine.

I hate writing. Nobody gives a shit about anything written anymore. It's such a pointless hobby, my words are just a drop in the ocean of garbage online. I wish somebody had snapped me out of it and told me to learn to draw instead.

>>25530323
Do you have any conception, of how gay you are?

I have felt sincere love, but never to an extent so profound offered by anything other than what was never truly real.

>>25530328
+9000 gay fantasies

I wish you got a job instead of being obsessed with my penis.

>>25530327
Do you have any conception of how little your idiotic opinion matters to me?

>>25530332
Friends? Hobbies? Work? Dreams?
Nah I'm professional fag.

>>25530331
Can you fuck off??? Every time I post in these threads you show up with this delusional bullshit. None of my posts have EVER been about you. I’m not whoever you think I am. Your “stalker” who you imagine has a gay obsession with you is a figment of your homophobic and deluded imagination. Fuck off and check yourself in to a mental ward already. I’m so fucking sick of you and your bullshit.

Fuck YOU kimberly

I just want to text you but if it goes badly I’ll feel even worse than I do now
At least now I can comfort myself with the idea that perhaps you miss me

>>25530347
gotta be honest i don't miss anyone